Villain

by Samantha Young

  Older, worldlier, a music producer and composer, the sexy Scot should never have made sense for Nora. But somehow in each other they found the light they were looking for, the laughter and the passion—the strength to play on despite their past losses.

  But when life dealt Aidan another unlucky hand, instead of reaching for her he disappeared. The agonizing loss of him inspired something within Nora. It fired her spirit— the anger and hurt pushing her forward to take control and reach for her dreams.

  Finally pursuing a career on stage while she put herself through college, everything is how Nora wants it. She’s avoiding heartbreak and concentrating on her goals.

  Sounds easy but it’s not. Because Aidan is back. And for some reason he hates Nora.

  He’s determined to be at war with her.

  And she has absolutely no idea why.

  Continue on to read the first two chapters…

  My best friend’s mother once told me, “You would think after numerous attacks of grief the human body would be unable to process any more sadness. But our hearts have an annoying amount of endurance.”

  Since she was one of the bravest people I knew, her words stuck with me as I grew older. And I found out she was right. Most people’s hearts are built to withstand loss and grief.

  No one, however, said anything about guilt and regret and how those two things can haunt you long after loss.

  I didn’t want to be haunted. No one does. So I was pretending I wasn’t and throwing all of my focus at my job. Not my job as a sales assistant in a cute boutique clothing store in Old Town. It just paid the bills. Barely. Which was why I was currently running late after doing overtime at the boutique. I took all the overtime I could get… unless it cut into my other job.

  Not really a job, actually. It was so much more than that.

  “Nora, can you help a customer?” Leah’s head appeared around the doorframe, looking into the closet we called a staff room. “Where are you going?”

  I pulled on my backpack and strode past her. “Remember, I finish at twelve today. It’s five after.”

  “But Amy isn’t here yet.”

  “I’m sorry. I have to get to the hospital.”

  Her eyes widened. “Oh? What happened?”

  Life happened.

  “Uh, excuse me…” A girl stood at the counter looking annoyed. “Can someone help me, please?”

  Leah turned to help the customer and I took the opportunity to dash out of the store without having to explain myself. I knew my boss probably regretted hiring me. She hired two Americans: Amy and me. Only one of us lives up to our national reputation of being a friendly extrovert.

  Take a guess which one of us.

  It’s not that I’m not good at my job, or even that I’m not friendly. I just don’t share personal shit with people I don’t really know, and Amy and Leah seemed okay with telling each other everything from their favorite color to their partners’ ability to give them an orgasm on a Friday night.

  As I climbed the hill from the shop and hurried up the old cobbled road of the Royal Mile, my anxiety increased. It was stupid because the kids would be there when I arrived, but I hated the idea of being late. In the weeks that I’d been visiting, I hadn’t been late once. And I still needed to change my clothes. I’d have to do it when I got there but before any of them saw me.

  They called Edinburgh the windy city, and today—behaving like its forces were against me—it lived up to its name. I strode into the wind feeling its icy resistance. A whimsical part of me wondered if the city was trying to tell me something. Would I look on this day in the future and wish I’d listened to it and turned back? Weird crap like that crossed my mind a lot lately. I lived in my head.

  But not one day out of the week.

  Not today.

  Today was for them.

  Hurrying, I cut a twenty-minute walk down to fifteen. It would’ve been less if not for the damn wind. I almost skidded to a stop once I reached the ward, the nurses looking up in surprise when I appeared at their station sweaty and out of breath.

  “Hey,” I puffed out.

  Jan and Trish grinned at me. “We didn’t know if you were coming today,” Jan said.

  I grinned back at Jan. “Only illness or death.”

  Catching my meaning, she chuckled and came around the nurses’ station. “They’re all in the common room.”

  “Where can I change before they see me?”

  She shook her head in amusement. “They won’t mind.”

  “I know.” I shrugged.

  “Alison is in the common room, so her private bathroom will be free.” She gestured down the hall in the opposite direction of the common room.

  “Thanks. Two minutes,” I promised.

  “They’re already here. Both of them,” Jan said.

  Relieved, I nodded and darted through Aly’s empty private room to her bathroom, the door banging shut behind me.

  Yanking off my sweater and jeans, I began to feel a little hum of excitement in my belly, as I always did when I was about to spend time with them. And it was about them.

  Really.

  “It is,” I snapped at myself.

  I pulled on my green leggings and shirt and was about to button the shirt closed when the bathroom door suddenly jerked open.

  The breath left my body as I froze, looking up at his familiar eyes staring down at me.

  He was so tall, his shoulders so broad, he almost filled the entire doorway.

  I tried to open my mouth, to ask him what he thought he was doing, but the words got stuck as his gaze drifted from my eyes to my lips, and down. His perusal was long and thorough, from head to toe and back up again. He lingered on the sight of my bra beneath the open shirt, and when his eyes finally returned to meet mine, they were brimming with heat.

  His expression was determined.

  A mixture of fear and thrill and nervousness burst through me, finally melting my freeze as he stepped into the bathroom, locking the door.

  “What are you doing?” I stumbled into the wall behind me.

  Amusement danced in his eyes as he moved slowly, predatorily toward me. “I’m thinking that Peter Pan has never looked so sexy.”

  Unfortunately, I was a sucker for a Scottish accent.

  Clearly, or I wouldn’t have ended up here, so far from home.

  More than that, however, I was beginning to think I was a sucker for him. “Don’t.” I put my hand up to stop him, but he pressed his chest against it and covered my hand with his own. I stared at how small mine was in comparison, and a shiver tickled down my back and around to my breasts. My breathing faltered as he took another few steps into me until there was barely any space between us. He was so tall and I was so not, I had to tilt my head back to meet his eyes.

  His burned. They burned for me in a way no man’s ever had.

  How was I supposed to resist that?

  And yet I knew I had to. I scowled up at him. “You should go.”

  In answer, he pressed the entire length of his body against mine and heat flashed through me. Excitement rippled in my lower belly. Tingling started between my legs. My nipples hardened.

  Angry at my body and him, I shoved at him, but it was like trying to shove a concrete wall. “This is totally inappropriate,” I hissed.

  He grabbed my hands to stop my ineffectual shoving and gently but effectively pinned my hands above my head. My chest thrust up against him, and I gasped as my breasts swelled.

  Eyes dark with knowing and intent, he bent his head toward me.

  “Don’t.” I shook my head, hating the bite in my tone, but carrying on nonetheless. “I’m not playing cavewoman to your caveman.”

  His lips twitched. “Shame that. Do you often deny yourself what you want?”

  “No, but I think with my head, not my vagina.”

  He laughed, his warm breath puffing against my lips.

  I loved when he laughed. I loved when I made him laugh. He needed laughter more tha
n anything. The sound thrilled me, making my belly squeeze with pleasure. And I realized it wasn’t just my body betraying me but my heart too.

  As if he’d seen the thought in my eyes, he let go of one of my hands so he could press cool fingers against my breast, over my heart. I gasped at the dizzying sensation of being touched so intimately. He asked, “Have you ever thought about thinking with this thing?”

  “As far as I’m aware, my left breast isn’t much of a thinker,” I evaded.

  He grinned. “You know what I mean, Pixie.”

  “Don’t call me that.”

  Expression turning thoughtful, he said, “I thought we were friends.”

  “We were. But then you pinned me to a bathroom wall.”

  “Thanks for the reminder.” He took hold of my free hand again and pressed it back to the wall with the other. At the flash of anger in my eyes, he said, “If you were really pissed off about it, you’d be struggling.”

  I flushed. “It would be futile. You’re a giant.”

  “I’d let you go. You know I would. I’d hate it. But I’d let you go… if you didn’t want this?”

  We looked silently at one another, his face so close to mine, I could see little flecks of yellow gold in his green eyes.

  In those moments, I forgot where I was. Who I was. And what the right thing to do for him was.

  And I didn’t even realize I was straining toward him until he brought it to my attention. “Why are you fighting this when you want it?”

  Why was I fighting this again?

  “Nora?”

  I closed my eyes, shutting him out, which allowed the memory of why I was fighting this to return to me. “Because—”

  His mouth crushed down on mine, silencing me. Surprise turned to instinct. I kissed him back, meeting his tongue with my own, straining against his hold on my wrists but not to get away. To wrap my arms around him. Run my fingers through his hair.

  Heat flushed through me like I was covered in fuel and he’d started a fire at my feet. It lashed like lightning until I was surrounded in a blaze.

  Too hot. Too needy. Too everything.

  I wanted to rip off my clothes.

  I wanted to rip off his clothes.

  And then he broke the kiss to pull back and stare at me in triumph.

  If he’d been anyone else, if it had been any other moment, I’d have called him out for being smug.

  Instead, I remembered exactly why we should not be doing this.

  Whatever he saw in my expression made him loosen his grip on my wrists. I lowered them, but he didn’t step away.

  He waited, his hands resting gently on my small shoulders.

  Something in his eyes made my defenses crumble. Tenderness rushed through me and I found myself caressing his cheek, feeling his stubble prickle my skin. Sadness doused the fire. “She’s gone,” I told him gently. “Not even I can distract you from that.”

  Unbearable, bleak anguish fought with the desire in his eyes and he slowly slid his hands off my shoulders and down to my waist. With a gentle tug I fell into him, clutching at his chest.

  He tore through my soul with the whispered, tortured words, “But you can try.”

  There was a part of me that didn’t want to go home. The smell of fast food clung to my nostrils, and I worried that over time, I’d never get the smell off my skin, out of my hair. And yet I still didn’t want to go home. “Have a nice day,” I said to my last customer, handing them their burger and fries.

  I stepped back from the counter, drawing Molly’s eyes. She was at the drink machine, filling up a supersize cup with soda. She made a face. “Why did I agree to overtime?”

  Smirking at her, I wanted to shout, “I’ll cover for you!” Instead I reminded her, “Because you’re saving to buy that piece-of-crap car from Laurie.”

  “Ah, yeah. Dreaming big.”

  I chuckled. “Bigger than me. I’m still hauling my ass around on these.” I pointed at my legs.

  “Yeah, and that ass will continue to defy gravity because of it.”

  “It defies gravity?” I peeked around at it. “Seriously? And here I thought it was nonexistent.”

  Molly grinned. “Oh no, you have an ass. It’s cute as a button like the rest of you. It’s a sweet little heart-shaped butt.”

  “You are paying way too much attention to my ass.”

  “It’s called compare and contrast,” she argued, pointing at her ass. “Your whole ass could fit into one of my butt cheeks.”

  “Uh…could I have my order now?”

  We glanced over at her customer, a sullen freshman who was staring at us like we’d crawled out from under a rock.

  “I’ll see you tomorrow,” I said to Molly, but before I disappeared around the corner, I leaned back and called out to her, “Oh, and I would kill for your ass. And your boobs. Just so you know.”

  My friend beamed at me, and I wandered off toward the locker room, hoping I’d made her day a little better. Molly was her own brand of cute, but she worried way too much about her weight.

  Grabbing my stuff out of the lockers in the back of the building, I tried to shake off the guilt I felt about wanting to remain here serving fries rather than go home. It said a lot. About me or my life, I’m not sure. I wasn’t even sure there was a difference.

  Working part-time at a fast-food place was not what I dreamed I’d be doing with my life after I graduated. Yet I’d known it was coming. While everyone else was making plans to go to college or travel, I was among the very few who couldn’t do any of those things. Eighteen. And trapped.

  My closest friend was Molly. She got me the job since she’d been working here for the past two years on weekends. Now she was full-time. Although she’d joked about it, Molly had never dreamed big. I didn’t know if it wasn’t in her, or if she was lazy or what. All I knew was that my friend hated school. She seemed content to work fast-food and live at home because she never thought about the future. She was always living in the now.

  I, however, thought about the future all the time.

  I liked school.

  I was not content here.

  A feeling of claustrophobia crawled over me but I shoved it back. Sometimes it could feel like I had fifty people sitting on my chest, mocking me. Pushing through it, I grabbed my purse.

  Time to go home.

  Calling bye to Molly as I passed through the front of the restaurant, I inwardly flinched when I saw Stacey Dewitte sitting with a bunch of friends at the table near the door. She narrowed her eyes at me, and I looked away. My neighbor was a few years younger than me and once upon a time had been under the illusion that I was something I was not. I didn’t know who was more disappointed in me working at the fast-food place: Stacey or me.

  Needing this day to be over, I pushed the door open, oblivious at first to the two guys messing around, playfully wrestling outside.

  Until one shoved the other and he hit me with enough force to send me sprawling to the dusty road with a thud.

  I was so surprised to find myself on the ground, it took a moment for the pain to hit, to feel the ache in my left knee and the sting in my palms.

  I was suddenly surrounded by noise.

  “Oh fuck, am really sorry.”

  “Ye awright, lass?”

  “Let me gee ye a hand up.”

  “Dinnae ye bother, I’ll get her, ye fud.”

  A strong hand gripped my bicep, and I found myself gently pulled to my feet. I looked up at the guy holding me, held in the spot not only by his hand but by the kind concern in his dark eyes. He didn’t look much older than me—tall, with the wiry, lean build of youth.

  “Here’s yer bag. Sorry aboot that.” The guy with him handed me my purse.

  Understanding his words but confused by the way he’d said them, by their alien accent, I blurted, “What?”

  “Speak properly. She can’t understand ye.” The guy still holding my arm nudged his friend. He looked back at me. “Are you okay?”

 
; His words sounded careful now, slower and pronounced. I gently pulled my arm from his grip and nodded. “Yeah.”

  “We’re really sorry.”

  “I got that. Don’t worry. A scrape on the knee won’t kill me.”

  He winced and looked down at my knee. My work pants were covered in dust and grime. “Bugger.” When he looked up, I could tell he was going to apologize again.

  “Don’t.” I smiled. “Really, I’m fine.”

  He smiled back. It was cute and lopsided. “Jim.” He held out his hand. “Jim McAlister.”

  “Are you Scottish?” I asked, delighted by the notion as I shook his calloused hand.

  “Aye,” his friend said, offering me his hand too. “Roddy Livingston.”

  “I’m Nora O’Brien.”

  “Irish-American?” Jim’s eyes danced with amusement. “You know, you’re one of only a few people we’ve met in America who guessed where we’re from. We’ve gotten—”

  “Irish,” Roddy supplied. “English. And dinnae forget Swedish. That was ma favorite.”

  “I apologize for my countrymen,” I joked. “I hope we haven’t caused too much offense.”

  Jim grinned at me. “Not at all. How did ye know we were Scottish?”

  “A lucky guess,” I confessed. “We don’t get a lot of people from Europe visiting our small town.”

  “We’re on a road trip,” Roddy explained. He had a full head of wavy ginger hair, and he was taller than me (most people were) but shorter than his friend.

  Where Roddy was of medium-height but a burly build, Jim was tall and built like a swimmer. He had tan skin, dark hair, and thickly lashed, dark brown eyes.

  And he was staring at me intensely the entire time his friend explained where they’d visited so far. I flushed under Jim’s perusal, having never been the entire focus of anyone’s attention like this before, let alone a cute Scottish guy.

  “Actually,” Jim cut off his friend when he said they were leaving here tomorrow, “I was thinking we should stay a little longer.” He said the words to me, giving me a cute-boy smirk as he did so.

  He was flirting with me?