Broken

by Robin Nadler

  “I need help wrapping my wrists,” she said and walked over to him, carrying the medical bag.

  He gently wrapped her bandages with plastic and then went to turn the water off before he turned on the jets. He turned and saw her standing there and he reached for her to come closer.

  “Are you sure you are okay being with me like this?” she asked him.

  “I’m not looking back anymore, Lila. I love you and I want to be with you in every way possible. You are still recovering from pneumonia and almost freezing to death, so all I intend to do right now is hold you and care for you. The rest will happen soon, I know it.”

  She looked up into his eyes and he wiped her tears. “How did I get so lucky?”

  He held her and she rested her head against his chest. “Come on, let’s enjoy this tub.”

  She watched as he pulled his clothes off and stood there, naked and beautiful and she bit her lip as he moved to help her remove her clothes. He took care with each article of clothing and soon she was naked and he took her hand, stepping into the tub and helping her in with him before they sat down, her back against his chest. He wrapped his arms around her waist and she sighed and closed her eyes.

  “I’m so glad you’re feeling better,” he whispered into her ear. “I was so scared when I couldn’t find you and then when I did, I didn’t know what you had been through. I’m so sorry for all of this.”

  She turned slightly and touched his cheek. “I’m fine and we are together. I think we need to stop thinking about the bad times and only look forward. I’m here because you saved me. I’m here because you found me and I’m here because it’s exactly where I want to be.”

  He lowered his mouth to hers and kissed her softly, his hands on her body under the water. She turned in his arms and sat to his side, her hand on his chest and her body leaning against his. They both felt his erection growing and his eyes filled with tears.

  “What’s wrong? Are you in pain?” She sat back and touched his face.

  “No. I was afraid I set myself back. I was afraid all of my progress would be gone. I’m so glad it’s not.”

  She grinned. “I told you, David, you’re worth this love and this life. This is just the beginning.”

  He looked into her eyes and held her to him as they let the water soothe them.

  Chapter Fifty-Two:

  “We should go downstairs to the restaurant for dinner,” Lila said later that day as they sat on the couch after their whirlpool experience.

  “Are you sure? I don’t want you to exert yourself.”

  She turned to face him and smiled. “When everything happened before, I had asked you to take me to dinner. We didn’t make it then, but I want to try again. It’s just downstairs, no real exertion necessary. I think it would be nice.”

  “Okay, I think that would be amazing,” he grinned. “I’ll call and make a reservation.”

  She stood up. “I’m going to take a shower and change.”

  He nodded and called while she went into the bathroom.

  ******

  David sat and held little T while he waited for Lila to come out if the bedroom area. The tiny lizard was finally eating and as much as David protested at first, he found the little critter endearing. He saw what Lila loved about Adam and Eve.

  “Am I interrupting something?” Lila startled him and he turned to her with a huge smile. She was wearing a small black halter-top and jeans. The sides of her hair were pulled up into a twist with the back long and falling around her shoulders. She had a tiny bit of pink lipstick on, and she was simply gorgeous.

  He almost dropped Little T when he saw her and she jumped to help him with the squirming baby dragon. They put him back in the tank and he grinned sheepishly. “Sorry, I guess you caught me off guard.” He took her hands. “You look beautiful.”

  Blushing, she shrugged, “It’s just jeans.”

  “No it isn’t, it’s you,” he smiled. “Let me change real quick and then we can go.

  She nodded and walked out to the living area, giving him privacy.

  ******

  A little while later, they walked into the restaurant and were greeted by appreciative looks from most of the people at the bar. David put his arm protectively around her as they walked to their table.

  “You doing okay?” he asked as they sat down. Her breathing was a little labored from the walk and he worried it was too much.

  She reached across the table and took his hand. “I’m okay. My lungs are better and I feel much better. It’s just going to take some time for me to be 100%.”

  He felt her touch all through his body and smiled. “Okay. I’ll back off.”

  “Don’t back off, just trust me to tell you if I need to rest.”

  “I guess I can do that,” he laughed as she rolled her eyes.

  The waiter brought them some wine and David ordered some appetizers. He held up his glass and she took hers. “A toast to us and more nights free from distraction.”

  She clinked his glass and nodded. “And to a night of discovery.”

  He took a drink with her and looked at his hands before looking back at her. “So tell me something.”

  She placed her glass down and met his gaze. “What’s that?”

  “What made you decide to have a child?”

  Her face clouded over and she sighed. “I didn’t, really. I just let Carrie talk me into something stupid.”

  He shook his head. “Why was it stupid?”

  Her eyes filled with tears as she looked at him. “In the time you’ve known me, David, I have been in the hospital more than out. I have no business thinking I am in any position to be responsible for another life. It was a childish fantasy, nothing more.”

  “You’re wrong. You have been sick because you were being poisoned. You can’t just ignore that. You were taking a drug that was doing more harm than good and that will not happen again.” He took her hands in his. “Lila, you would make the best mother.”

  “Why even bring this up? All it does is make me sad,” she took her hand away and wiped her eyes.

  He smiled and shook his head. “You’re wrong. You once told me that the best thing I could do is want to get better. I need you to believe the same. It doesn’t matter if you decide to have a child, Lila, what matters is you believe you are worthy of having one. I’m here to tell you that you are and I will make sure you believe it yourself.”

  She stared at him and he shrugged. “What? I’m the best, just like you.”

  “You make it sound so simple,” she said softly. “But David, it’s anything but simple. There are so many unknowns.”

  “You’re right, and I think that between both of us, we have lived through enough unknowns to realize we can’t waste any time.” He reached across the table and stroked her cheek. “I’m just asking you to look at the future with an open mind.”

  “Okay,” she grinned as she heard the music playing. She stood up and walked to him. “May I have this dance?”

  He took her hand and stood up. “Always.”

  They moved to the small dance floor and he held her to him as they moved to the music. He was careful not to make her exert much effort, so they just swayed gently.

  “I think we should go back upstairs,” he said, his voice husky as he leaned down to kiss her cheek.

  She looked up into his eyes and cupped his face with her hands. “I think that’s a great idea.”

  Chapter Fifty-Three:

  They walked back into the hotel suite and both were quiet. There was a shared nervousness and excitement in the air. It wasn’t that something was expected, but rather invited. They were a normal couple, sharing an extraordinary evening.

  David placed their food on the counter and locked the door before he turned to look at her. “How do you feel? Do you need to rest?”

  “No. Should we finish our dinner?” She played with her hands.

  “I’m not really hungry anymore,” he began. “But if you are, we can eat.”r />
  “No, I’m not hungry either,” she blushed as she smiled.

  He put the food in the small fridge in the room and walked over to her. “Tell me what you’re thinking?” he took her hands in his.

  She rubbed the back of his hands and looked up into his eyes. “I’m thinking about how we got here, to this moment. I’m thinking how I have been so lonely and closed off and now I’m simply happy. I’m thinking about how lucky I am that you’re here.”

  His eyes met hers as she reached up and stroked his cheek. “I’m also thinking about you and how much I want to be here with you, in this moment, tonight.”

  He lowered his mouth to hers and kissed her softly, tentatively at first, and then he forgot his manners and hungrily went after her tongue, sucking on her lip and wrapping her in his arms.

  Lila felt like she was walking on air. His mouth on hers was intoxicating and passionate and she responded with equal fervor. They kissed for a long time before he stepped back and looked at her.

  “What is it?” She asked, her breath coming fast. “What are you thinking?”

  “I’m thinking about the moment I met you and how sure I was that I would be alone forever. I am thinking about how you took all of my issues and removed their power, turning what I thought were failures into a chance for a new beginning.”

  He reached up and took the clip out of her hair, letting the long locks fall down over her shoulders. “I’m thinking about how amazing you are; beautiful and intelligent and tender and passionate. I don’t know what I did to deserve you in my life, but I will make you never doubt being here with me. I adore you,” he brushed the tears off her face and brought her hand to his lips, kissing her fingers.

  She walked to the couch and sat down, suddenly uncomfortable. He noticed her change in demeanor and sat with her. “What is it? We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do.”

  She shook her head and sighed. “I don’t think I can go in the bed yet, David. I don’t want to think about anything but being with you, but the bed is something I don’t know that I can get past. It’s ridiculous, I know.”

  He smiled. “Are you through?”

  She looked at him with a quizzical eye.

  “Tonight isn’t about a bed, or what happened to either one of us. This is about us and having some fun getting back to what we’ve both been missing.”

  “I’d like that,” she smiled. “I could use some fun.”

  He wiggled his eyebrows and stood up, walking to the fireplace and turning it on before he laid out the blanket on the floor and took the pillows from the bed, placing them around the edge. He turned to look at her and she was standing behind him, making her way to him and watching as he slowly removed his tie, tossing it on the floor. She slowly unbuttoned his shirt, never taking her eyes off of him. She ran her hands over his skin and pushed the shirt off his shoulders, letting it fall to the floor.

  David reached up and untied the strings of her halter-top and the material fell to the floor. He tilted her chin to him and lowered his mouth onto hers as his hands wrapped around her waist, pulling her to him. She moved her hands down his arms and smiled as he unhooked her strapless bra and let it fall to the floor. He took her hand and they sat down on the blanket.

  “Are you doing okay?” he asked her as he looked at her, her face glowing from the light of the fire.

  “I am, are you?”

  Nodding, he moved closer to her. “Tell me something.”

  She smiled. “Anything.”

  “How do you like to be touched?” he asked in a voice that made her insides melt.

  She took his hand in hers and kissed his fingers. “I like to be touched like this,” she reached to his chest and ran her fingers over his skin, moving in and kissing the flesh where her fingers had been.

  He felt his whole body react to her as she touched him and he let her push him slowly onto his back. “I also like to be touched like this,” she leaned over him and traced a line down his torso with her tongue, letting her hair fall all over his body. She moved up and down his long frame before she stopped at his waist and slowly unbuttoned and unzipped his pants. He raised his hips as she pulled them off and she moved her hands up and down his strong thighs.

  “Those are some of the things I like,” she said as she ran her hand over his covered groin.

  He gave her a smoldering look and sat up before turning them over so she was on her back. “That was quite the answer,” he whispered as he leaned down to kiss her neck. “But I recall asking how you like to be touched,” he moved to the top of her breast and kissed her.

  “I thought it best to show you,” she said haltingly as his tongue moved to flick her nipple.

  “I’m a fast learner,” he said as he moved to her other breast, softly squeezing the flesh as he tenderly kissed her.

  “But there are some things I think I like that you didn’t see,” he moved to her navel.

  She tried to speak but she could only stare at him.

  “Like this,” he leaned down and blew softly on her skin. It was so completely erotic that she thought maybe she would fall apart right there.

  “I like that,” she murmured.

  He unzipped her jeans and pulled them off, his heart racing at how in love with her he was. He never felt so strongly for another person and everything about this just felt right.

  “What happened?” she noticed his mind was wandering.

  He moved back to her face and lay next to her. “I just want to memorize every moment. I don’t want to forget any second.”

  She cupped his face in her hands. “I’ll tell you what. Let’s make sure this isn’t the only time we do this and therefore we don’t have to remember it so specifically.”

  He grinned. “I like that plan.” He leaned over her and she opened her legs for him to move between them, his arms on either side of her head. She welcomed his mouth to hers again and they stopped needing words.

  David moved down her body and removed her panties, leaning down to kiss her hips before he sat back, running his hands over her thighs. He moved in to run his tongue over her heat and his tongue flicked her core, causing her to groan in pleasure and when he swirled his tongue over her, she lay back and let her orgasm rip through her, his mouth unrelenting and incredibly adept at knowing just what to do. He moved back up her body and kissed her, allowing her to taste herself from his mouth and making everything more sensual.

  She sat up and motioned for him to lie down. She pulled his boxers off and took his growing erection in her hands. She moved up and down as she met his lips in a kiss. She touched him intimately and he responded quickly to her, the feeling and intensity of the moment taking over. He put his arms behind his head as she moved to take him in her mouth, her warm lips closing over him and taking him deep into her. Her hands gently massaged his testicles and she ran her teeth over the tip of his shaft, swirling him in her mouth and sucking him hard until she released him with a pop.

  She looked up at him and he handed her a condom and she covered him before he sat up and turned them again.

  He hovered over her for a minute, his eyes filled with tears at the power of this moment for him. She held his face and smiled knowingly. “I love you,” she said and he met her lips as he entered her slowly, both of them gasping at the long missed sensations.

  “Oh, God, Lila, you feel so tight and so amazing,” he said and was overwhelmed by the feeling of being buried inside of her. He moved deeper until their hips met and then he stilled his movements. It had been so long for him, and he was truly afraid he would never have this connection again. His tears fell and he smiled. “Sorry, I think this moment is quite simply the best I’ve had.”

  She blinked and her tears spilled over the sides of her face. “For me too.”

  He slowly moved out of her and she winced as he moved in again, the feeling so full and amazing. They began to move together, their bodies in motion and he linked his fingers with hers as they gave in to their love and l
et every other thought go; all except the two of them, in this moment, in love.

  “David, go faster,” she panted as he rolled his hips and drove into her. He felt himself harder than at any point in his life and when he linked his fingers through hers and pulled her hands up to her face, he felt his orgasm take over and he spilled his seed into her.

  A while later, they lay there, naked and covered with a sheet. Lila ran her fingers over his chest as he stared at the ceiling. “What are you thinking about?”

  He smiled. “Nothing. That’s what’s so amazing. There is no doubt, or second-guessing. There is just you and me and it’s the most amazing thought. My mind has always been my enemy and tonight, right now, it’s the best thing.”