by Lisa M Basso
“You’ve got angel stink all over you.”
I couldn’t dredge up enough anger to be mad at the casual, unthreatening way he said it.
“Want to talk about it?”
I looked toward the bathroom, then at Kade again. Curling up in a ball on the shower floor sounded really good right now. But what good would that do? I wasn’t mentally ill, at least not as much as I’d been led to believe the last three years. Instead of being nuts, I had gray wings … like that was any better. Not to mention Cam was gone, and I was stuck living with Kade. All these things meant I had to find strength I’d never had before.
“I don’t, not now. But I could use a friend.”
He leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees, eyes on the floor, as far away from me as they could be. My wings vibrated, picking up an odd tension filling the room. Strange. I wondered what else they could do.
“A friend, huh?”
“Yeah,” I glanced sideways and spotted one of my gray feathers. Right now, I didn’t think I could handle anything else.
He sighed and pushed his hair back with both hands. Then he slouched back and looked at me. “Don’t know how long this can last, but … I’ll give it a shot.” He patted the spot beside him.
I took a seat on the other end of the bed, keeping as much space as possible between us. The sensation in my wings eased, and they reverted to simply foreign, unwanted things. “Then it’ll be a trial, for both of us. And Kade … thanks.” It didn’t seem enough, those small words in exchange for everything he’d done to help when he didn’t have to. But I couldn't give him anything more. I didn’t have anything more in me. At least, not today.
“No problem, Ray. I don’t plan on letting you forget that you owe me. Twice.” Kade turned those dark eyes on me, a playful glint softening them. “You up for pizza and a movie?”
“Only if the movie isn’t about angels or Hell.” I didn’t like the idea of owing Kade, but I couldn’t deny that I did. I owed him my life. “And you’re paying for the pizza.” I softened a little, grabbing a pillow from behind me and twisting to see the TV better, eventually relaxing a little more, propping my feet up on his lap.
I could push Cam’s absence to the back of my mind for two hours, but probably not much more.
“Fine. Dinner’s on me. But you won’t always get off so easy.” His hand landed gently on my ankle, then trailed up my calf. Shivers ran beneath his touch. “I won’t wait forever.” The hard smile he shot me sent my wings aflutter with warning.
I swallowed back a shaky voice, determined to be stone when I said, “Knock it off and pick a movie.”
He changed the channel and picked up the phone. Before he dialed, he patted my bruised knee harder than he needed to. “Just don’t say I never warned you.”
Lisa M. Basso
Lisa M. Basso was born and raised in San Francisco, California. She is a lover of books, video games, animals, and baking (not baking with animals though). As a child she would crawl into worlds of her own creation and get lost for hours. Her love for YA fiction started with a simple school reading assignment: S.E. Hinton’s The Outsiders. When not reading or writing she can usually be found at home with The Best Boyfriend that Ever Lived and her two darling (and sometimes evil) cats, Kitties A and B.
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After everything I’d been through, I couldn’t believe this was how it was going to end. The training, the bloodshed, the kisses—oh my God the kisses—and death, nullified by ten minutes in a police car.
It was hard to talk, let alone think, with the nonstop pounding in my head. It hurt to blink through swollen eyelids, and the dim overhead lights seemed brighter than they were. Incessant buzzing from a fly sitting defiantly atop the fluorescent beam threatened to make my eardrums explode.
Everything was amplified, larger than life, and nothing made any sense at all. I suppose I deserved it.
I watched him, the fly, as he flitted back and forth, struggling to find freedom in the enclosed space of the interrogation room. I wondered if he knew he was going to die here.
The cop stared like I was a freak straight out of a science fiction movie, tentacles and all. I’d been mumbling incoherently since they’d found me and hadn’t volunteered much more since arriving at the station late last night. My mind was jumbled, scrambled as if it were trying to tune to the correct radio frequency, but couldn’t. Flashes, memories from my past, of what I was and what I had done, were returning, but they were all out of order. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to remain in my own skin much longer, and all I could do was shake.
Hours spent waiting for my “paperwork” to be processed didn’t help. How much paperwork could one runaway have?
When I spoke, it came out like gibberish, or maybe like an auctioneer on crack. The visual made me giggle. My voice was high-pitched and nervous. And then a thought stopped me mid-giggle: Stockholm’s Auktionsverk is the oldest auction house in the world. Not-so-random, but useless information like that flooded my head for no reason at all, or maybe because it simply had no place else to go.
They wanted to know what I was doing on Gavin Vault’s estate, running and screaming, “HELP!” That I was barely dressed from the waist up, another mystery. I would tell them, but in my own words. I refused to lie or say something that could send Gavin to prison. And the statement they’d written FOR me? I was about to tell them where they could shove it when the cop shot me a “you’d better start talking or we’re gonna start the torture” look.
“You have no idea what you’ve done,” I said as I sipped hot, institutional-tasting liquid, realizing what I’d said made absolutely no sense to the officer. There’s no way she could have known what she’d gotten herself into. Sadly, she was about to find out. “I’ll tell you what you want to know, but you won’t believe a word of it.” Those were the most coherent words I’d spoken since I’d arrived.
The cop seemed confused, like she was surprised I was capable of forming articulate sentences. She watched as I pulled at the sleeves of the oversized sweater on loan from one of the male cops. Then I grabbed my head in my hands. Vivid images raced through my mind, before leaving as quickly as they’d appeared. They were memories that would free me from this stagnant mental prison if only I could set them in the proper order.
The fly whizzed past me. I was a volcano of turmoil and angst and sat, leg-shaking and squirming in the metal chair, attempting to calm the impending eruption. The officer just stared as if I were a nut that needed cracking, only she didn’t have the right tool.
“I’ll tell you everything as soon as my mother arrives,” I offered, sitting back in the steel chair
The officer looked at me, then down at her blank pad, then back at me and said, “Miss Miller, do you need a doctor? Were you harmed in any… way?” She leaned over the table, lowering her head and voice conspiratorially.
But she was out of her mind if she thought Gavin would harm me. She wasn’t even asking the right questions. Like, “what’s someone like you doing here and how did this happen?” I had to get out of there. I needed to find my brother Remi. I needed to know what was going on with Gavin and what they had done to him. What was taking Mom so long to arrive? It should not have surprised me. She’s always been unreliable. I tapped the table to keep from picking up my chair and throwing it at the two-way mirror. I neede
d to keep my anger in check, but I didn’t know how long I could. How had Gavin and I ended up in a police station, he accused of an unspeakable crime and me his supposed accuser?
“How did you find me? How did you know where to find me?” I reluctantly asked. I should have been able to get the answer on my own, to read her mind.
“We received an anonymous tip,” she offered, raising her eyebrows, her tone secretive. And then I saw something, a fuzzy vision. I tilted my head sharply to the side and cringed. The intrusion of my brain hurt like heck. A man, talking, then handing over an envelope with pictures of me looking like something the cat dragged in, then gone—the man and the vision. I gasped as the pounding in my head kicked into overdrive. Evidence? How? Gavin had never hit me. It’s a lie.
“What do you want from me? You seem to have all the evidence you need.”
Officer Bladen looked away from me when she replied, “You’re at the very least a witness to a crime, Miss Miller. Has no one explained to you what’s going on?” Then she leaned forward again, cautiously, and opened the folder on the table, my case file. Just like in my vision, pictures of me beat to a pulp and … Gavin seemingly raising a hand to strike me.
I refused to look at her or the photos and stopped rocking.
“Don’t you want to know what happened to you, Miss Miller?” She asked in a soft voice, pushing the folder closer to me. She sounded almost compassionate.
“I already know what happened to me!” I shouted. “I was there, remember?” I couldn’t stop the tears that pushed their way out of my eyes in a race down my cheeks. Gavin and I were being set up. Couldn’t she tell? Wasn’t she trained in these things? I felt like an animal that had been tricked into leaving a small cage only to be locked in an even smaller one.
I lurched forward and tried to grab the folder, to rip it to shreds. Instead, I caught Officer Bladen’s sleeve and a tiny piece of her hand. She snatched it away as abruptly as if I’d burned her. I fell back into my chair, hitting it harder than I’d intended.
Something was terribly wrong.
Officer Bladen shifted in her chair as she checked her watch, then cell phone, then pager. It was as if she were expecting the Governor’s pardon.
“Just tell us what happened, Ms. Miller,” she said and checked her watch again, then looked toward the open door. I pushed away thoughts I couldn’t possibly share.
“You wouldn’t believe me even if I told you.” I knew then what I had to do.
“You can trust us, Grace.”
“I’ll just wait for my mom, if that’s OK.”
I know what I am. Memories came flooding back, not all of them good.
Tonight, news broke of the biggest story Peak, Missouri, had ever seen: The arrest of a rock star for unspeakable things. A statement from the alleged victim of Gavin Vault, lead singer of Venus Unearthed, would put our little town on the map even more so than when Mom’s Broadway career took off. Poor Officer Bladen had been sent to babysit me. If successful in getting me to talk, she could finally make detective—the first female on the force to achieve that rank—and make her Army vet dad proud.
Sarah Bladen’s life flashed before my mind’s eye. Wow.
“It’s not gonna happen, your promotion,” I blurted out before I could stop myself. Officer Bladen quickly scribbled “psych eval” on her little pad. I didn’t actually see the words. I just knew it, the same way I knew about the Auktionsverk auction house. News about her relationship with a married officer on the force was about to surface. But that scandal would have to wait until this one died down.
Officer Sarah Bladen sighed heavily.
“When you’re ready to talk, let me know. In the meantime, I’ll go see if your mom’s here.” She threw the newspaper she’d been holding on the table in front of me and left the room. I grabbed it before it hit the tabletop microphone. I flipped the paper around to find Gavin’s photo under the headline: ROCK STAR ARRESTED IN DISAPPEARANCE OF MISSING PEAK GIRL
Gavin Vault, lead singer of Venus Unearthed, was arrested on Christmas Day for the kidnapping and attempted assault of Grace Miller, daughter of Broadway actress Vivienne Miller. Miss Miller, seventeen, was reported as a runaway two months ago by her legal guardians, Victoria and Kenneth Larson, with whom she’d been living since her father, Gabriel Miller, died in a motor vehicular accident. Mr. Vault is considered a person of interest in the disappearance of Miss Miller’s brother Remiel, fifteen, and the Larsons’ daughter Jennifer, also fifteen. The two teens were reported missing three weeks ago. At the time of Mr. Vault’s arrest, Miss Miller was found on the Vault estate in questionable physical condition. She is believed to be suffering from a condition similar to Stockholm Syndrome.
Something in the article triggered a flood of coherent thoughts and memories. When I tell them, when I finally answer their questions, it’s not gonna be good. They thought I was protecting Gavin, that I was his victim somehow. What were they going to say when I told them what really happened? What was Mom going to think?
My stomach churned as I took the last sip of the liquid they proudly called “coffee.” The door to the interrogation room swung open. I stood to throw the coffee cup away and saw Gavin leaning against the wall in the hallway across from me. My stomach churned again, and a great sadness followed.
Every bit the rock star and not a hair out of place, he looked as if he didn’t have a care in the world. Gavin laughed with the same officers who’d arrested him, and I noticed he was in the clothes he’d been wearing when they took him away in handcuffs. I wish I’d told him how good he looked earlier. I wish I’d done so many things differently.
Can you hear me? I tried speaking to him telepathically. He didn’t answer or even acknowledge that I’d spoken, so I opened my mouth to call to him.
Our eyes met, and my mouth clamped shut. I was suddenly at a loss for words. One of the officers began leading him down the hall. I wanted to run to him, but my legs were jerked back into place by what felt like shackles, though there weren’t any on me. I tried again, but could only move about a foot from where I stood before being yanked back into place.
“Gavin!” I yelled. My voice echoed off the walls of the interrogation room and out into the hall, making me sound way more desperate than I’d intended.
Gavin lowered his head as if the sight was too much for him. Hot tears streamed down my face, stinging my skin. “Please, Gavin, wait!” He kept walking, as if he didn’t know me at all.
Officer Bladen reentered the room and closed the door.
Still, I heard them laughing and talking outside; it surprised me that I could hear them through the walls. Or was I just hearing voices again?
“You really make a lasting impression, huh, Vault?” One of the cops joked, followed by laughter from the others. By his tone, they seemed like they could have been old high school buddies.
Rage and humiliation got the best of me. I lunged forward, only to be pulled backward by the invisible shackles around my feet.
My landing wasn’t as graceful as I would have liked. Refusing help from a rather amused Officer Bladen, I stood, dusted off my knees, and took a seat.
***
We sat in silence, occasionally staring at one another, listening for anything at all. The only interruptions were Officer Bladen rubbing her arm at seemingly timed intervals and the dings of her cell phone. The fly was gone. He caught the flight out when Bladen opened the door. Smart fly. I found myself missing his flitting and buzzing.
A knock on the doorframe brought us both out of our bored trances. I think I was actually counting Officer Bladen’s arm hairs at the time.
“Ms. Miller,” intoned a cop who poked his head in from the hallway. Leaning in slightly and holding onto the doorframe as if the room were contaminated, he continued, “Your mother’s arrived and is right outside. I suspect you’ll want to start with your videotaped statement now.” He crooked a long index finger and motioned for Officer Bladen to follow him out into the hall. And then
she was gone, leaving the lingering smell of her perfume.
A voice came from somewhere on the other side of the two-way mirror.
“Hi, Honey. Go ahead with your statement. Everything’s going to be just fine.”
A red light on the video camera above the mirror came on. I hadn’t noticed it until now.
“Mom?” I stood, ready to leave with her.
“Sit down, Grace,” Mom’s voice ordered. “Just give your statement and this will all be over with.”
“Mom…you’re not coming in?” My voice was small, almost mousey. The sound of the metal chair scraping along the concrete floor echoed in my ears as I sank back down.
“No, honey, just please give them your statement so we can be done with this whole mess.” Mom had not come to get me at all.
“Miss Miller, please. Look into the camera, state your name for the record, and start with your earliest recollections leading up to when we found you tonight, how you met Mr. Vault, came to be on his property, anything he may have said about your brother, Remiel, or Jennifer Larson from as far back as you can remember. Just take your time, Grace. If you need a break, let me know,” Sergeant Mullane’s voice boomed through the overhead speakers.
I squirmed, took a deep breath, cleared my throat, and spoke into the microphone. “Archangel Grace Ann Miller.” My voice was barely above a whisper. I could still take it back.
“I’m sorry, Grace. Can you repeat? Not sure we caught that,” Sergeant Mullane requested.
I know what I am. I know what I saw.
“Archangel Grace Ann Miller,” I repeated, only slightly louder.
“Did she say what I think she said?” It was Officer Bladen’s unmistakably snarky voice.
“Grace, I’m sorry. Can you please repeat your name and speak directly into the microphone in front of you?” Sergeant Mullane instructed.
