Zipporah's Daughter

by Philippa Carr

  Charles was beside me. ‘You look good there, sister Lottie,’ he said. ‘Tell me, are you prudent, just, forceful and peace-loving?’

  ‘Perhaps I have not lived long enough to discover.’

  ‘A very wise answer,’ he commented. ‘It is not always easy to be prudent and just, and if your are going to show force can you be peaceful?’

  ‘I suppose one must aim to have these qualities.’

  ‘As long as one tries perhaps that is good enough. It is not always possible to succeed though, is it? You are looking at me severely, Lottie. I don’t know why you do that so often, when you know you really like me very much.’

  Sophie was coming towards us and I saw the watchful look in her eye. There was a hint of the distrust she had always had of herself before the coming of Charles.

  ‘We were talking about the statues,’ I said, ‘and Charles was saying how difficult it was to have the four qualities they represent.’

  Charles took her by the arm. ‘Come, Sophie,’ he said, ‘let us look at them more closely and you tell me what you think of the workmanship. It was Pigalle, I think … but I’m not sure.’

  He drew her away from me and was smiling into her face with such love that she was completely satisfied.

  When we left the Place Louis XV we walked leisurely home and on the way we passed a stall on which several kinds of ornaments were displayed. Among them were some delicately fashioned flowers in silk. The colours were beautiful and Sophie gave a cry of admiration.

  ‘Why,’ she said, ‘that is just the colour of my lavender gown.’

  ‘I believe you really like it,’ said Charles. He picked it up and held it against her dress. ‘Enchanting,’ he went on, and kissed her lightly on the cheek. The saleswomen—there were two of them—applauded. Charles gave them one of his quick speculative glances which I noticed he bestowed on women, and these two were young and one quite pretty.

  ‘My lady must have it, do you not think so?’ he asked.

  The two women laughed and said the lady had a very kind admirer.

  Charles paid for the flower and handed it to Sophie. She looked so happy as she took it that I felt a little lump in my throat. I hoped fervently that she would always remain in blissful ignorance of the kind of man he was.

  He had picked up another flower. It was a red peony—a most lovely shade of scarlet.

  He held it against my hair.

  ‘What do you think?’ he asked the salesgirls.

  ‘A beautiful flower for a beautiful young lady,’ said the elder of them.

  ‘I agree,’ said Charles. ‘Don’t you, Sophie?’

  Sophie stammered: ‘Y … yes … yes …’ But I saw the uneasy look in her eyes again and I wanted to say that I would not have the flower. But that would have made the whole matter too important, so I took the flower and thanked Charles.

  Then we made our way home, but I felt a little of the joy had gone out of the morning for Sophie.

  I wished I could warn her that she must not show jealousy, for Charles was the kind of man who would be irritated by it. Her only happiness lay in taking what came her way and being grateful for it, not to ask questions, not to probe, to shut her eyes to what was not meant for her to see. Then she would have a chance of being happy—and only then.

  How could I tell her that? How could I tell her that I spoke from experience of what her fiancé was really like?

  I did, however, try to show her that I did not treasure my flower as she did hers. I had an opportunity when Lisette came to my room as she was in the habit of doing—although lately I had seen less of her.

  Sophie was with me, wearing the flower pinned to her dress and Lisette noticed it at once.

  ‘It’s lovely,’ cried Lisette. ‘I believe artificial silk flowers are becoming very fashionable.’

  ‘Charles bought it for me,’ Sophie explained. ‘From a stall in the street.’

  ‘You’re a lucky girl. He does dote on you, doesn’t he?’

  Sophie smiled happily. ‘We were walking along and came to this stall. Nothing else on it caught my fancy but the flowers … they were very pretty.’

  Lisette examined it. ‘It is so cleverly made,’ she said.

  ‘He bought one for Lottie.’

  ‘He had to … because I was there with Armand,’ I explained quickly.

  ‘Where is yours?’

  ‘I put it somewhere. I forget where …. Wait a minute. I think it’s here.’

  I wanted to convey to Sophie that it meant nothing to me that Charles had given it.

  I brought out the flower.

  ‘What a lovely rich colour!’ said Lisette.

  ‘I don’t think it will go with anything I wear.’

  ‘Nonsense. Red is one of your best colours. It makes you look darker and passionate.’

  ‘What rubbish.’

  I took the flower from her and threw it into a drawer.

  Sophie looked relieved. She could never disguise her emotion. Dear Sophie, she was so easy to deceive. Surely that arch-deceiver whom she was to marry would manage with the utmost ease.

  All was well. Sophie had a good chance of achieving the happy marriage which was so necessary for her.

  It was about two days after the incident of the flowers when Charles called at the hôtel. Sophie had gone with my mother to the dressmaker to discuss her trousseau, so when Charles called it aroused no comment that I should be the one to receive him.

  He seized both my hands and kissed them.

  ‘Lottie!’ he cried. ‘How glad I am to find you alone!’

  ‘Was it accident or design?’

  ‘A bit of both,’ he admitted. ‘I believe Sophie is at the dressmaker with your Mama.’

  ‘You are well informed.’

  ‘It’s a good habit in life. Now I want to take you some- where. I have something to show you and you will really want to see it.’

  ‘Where would you take me?’

  ‘Only for a walk through the streets, I promise you.’

  ‘A walk? But why … ?’

  ‘You will see. Come, get your cloak. We haven’t a great deal of time.’

  ‘Were you going to show this to Sophie?’

  ‘Certainly not. There is no reason why she should be particularly interested.’

  ‘Then why … ?’

  ‘Curb your curiosity and hurry. I don’t want us to be too late. I promise to have you back in the house within an hour.’

  He had succeeded in exciting me as he always did.

  ‘All right,’ I agreed. ‘But it is only to walk in the streets.’

  ‘That is all … on my honour.’

  ‘I am glad to know that you possess some.’

  ‘I am always known to be a man of my word.’

  What harm was there? I was not allowed to go out alone, but I would be under the protection of one who was soon to be a member of the family. He would not dare behave in any but a reputable way. He was considerably in awe of my father and it had become clear to me that the Tourvilles wanted this marriage very much. So I put on my cloak and we went into the streets.

  I was unprepared for what he had brought me to see and when I heard the sound of drums I was surprised and interested because a crowd of people had gathered. They were laughing; some cheered, some jeered.

  ‘It’s a procession of some sort,’ I said.

  ‘You wait,’ said Charles. ‘You’ll see an old friend of yours.’

  He gripped me firmly by the arm, for the crowds were pressing round us and when they were too close he put an arm about me to protect me, I could not protest because I could see that the gesture was necessary. But I did feel an intense excitement as I was held close to him.

  Then I saw. First came the drummer and with him a sergeant who carried a pike. Following these two was a groom leading a donkey and seated on this donkey, her face turned towards its tail, a crown of plaited straw on her head, was Madame Rougemont. There was a large placard hanging round her neck and pa
inted on it in startling red letters was the word PROCURESS.

  She sat there impassive—her face that mask I had seen before - white lead and carmine. Her head-dress had slipped a little but it had been elaborate. I did not understand half of what the crowd was yelling at her but it was mostly bawdy comment on her profession.

  My eyes were fixed on Madame Rougemont, who sat the donkey with an air of unconcern, looking straight ahead of her with a certain dignity which I could not help admiring. I was expecting someone to pull her off the donkey at any moment, but no one did; and the crowd really was quite good-humoured. The drummer went on beating his drum and someone broke into a song which the rest of the crowd took up.

  ‘I can’t hear the words,’ I said to Charles.

  ‘That is just as well,’ he answered with a grin.

  Then he took me by the arm. ‘Come on,’ he said. ‘That is enough.’

  ‘You brought me here just to see that, didn’t you?’

  ‘I took you out because I enjoy your company and I know you do mine. That was an extra pleasure.’

  ‘Not much of a pleasure for Madame Rougemont.’

  ‘I think it happened to her once before.’

  ‘It did not make her give up her profession.’

  ‘Good Heavens, no! It would take a great deal more than that to make such a good business woman give up such a profitable profession.’

  ‘How shameful to be paraded through the streets like that … with everyone knowing …’

  ‘Save your sympathy. She’ll be back at her work tomorrow.’

  ‘Not now that it is known … won’t something be done about it?’

  ‘I think that is hardly likely.’

  ‘But isn’t what she is doing against the law?’

  ‘I’ll tell you something, Lottie. She has friends in high places. She runs a very fine establishment near the Cours de Reine and it is patronized by many powerful men. They would not want to see it disbanded, which I suppose it would have to be if she were convicted.’

  ‘I see. So if she were a poor procuress she would be a criminal?’

  ‘It could be so. But what will happen is that she will dismount from her donkey and go back and carry on with her business.’

  ‘It is so … unjust.’

  ‘But prudent. And she is a forceful woman and no doubt peaceloving. You did admire those statues, didn’t you and you wanted an example of all qualities in action. My dear Lottie, our King had his own procurer until lately. Why Le Bel, his valet de chambre, was avid in his search for those charms which would appeal to Louis’s jaded appetites. The secret room on the north wing of the palace was kept for them alone. It was called Le Trébuchet, the snare for birds; and there the young girls were kept that the King might visit them when it pleased him. That was before the Parc aux Cerfs was founded because it was considered better for Louis to have his girls outside the palace. The whole of France knew it. Such matters cannot be kept secret. So who is going to be unduly shocked by the activities of Madame Rougemont?’

  ‘If the girls go willingly I suppose it is not the same as if they are taken by force …’

  ‘Force? That is not the gentleman’s way. You can be sure that all those little girls in the trébuchet and the Parc aux Cerfs went willingly enough. A period of service … and then the rewards. It was irresistible.’

  ‘And those who were lured into the fortune-telling apartment?’

  ‘Some might have had to be persuaded. But girls who consult fortune-tellers are looking for adventures, would you not say?’

  ‘I suppose I should be grateful to you for sending us home.’

  ‘You should indeed. How nice of you to remember. Perhaps the occasion will arise when you have the opportunity to show your gratitude.’

  ‘Let us confine it to words.’

  ‘For the moment,’ he said.

  As we walked through the streets he said: ‘The wedding fever is still in the air. It won’t die down until after the fireworks display.’

  ‘Shall we be able to see it from the hôtel?’

  ‘Not very well. I think we might get out. All Paris will be out for the night. I know what we will do. We will make up our little foursome. Armand, you, Sophie and myself. You would like that, would you not?’

  I had to agree that I should.

  I was sorry when we returned to the hôtel to find that Sophie was already back with my mother.

  ‘We took a little walk,’ said Charles. ‘It is such a beautiful day.’

  Sophie was looking at me intently.

  ‘I came to suggest that we take a walk,’ went on Charles, smiling at Sophie.

  ‘Had you forgotten that I had told you I was going to the dressmaker?’

  ‘I thought it was this afternoon.’

  He went over to her and laid his hand on her shoulder. ‘How pretty you look this morning,’ he said. ‘Are they making you some beautiful clothes?’

  She smiled at him, her suspicions melting away.

  What a liar he is! I thought. And what a good actor! Poor Sophie, I hope she is not going to be badly hurt.

  Disaster in a Paris Square

  IT WAS THE DAY of the fireworks and we were all eagerly waiting for dusk.

  Armand had said we should try to get as near as possible to the Place Louis XV, and he and Charles debated whether it would be best to take a carriage.

  ‘We shall never get through those little streets,’ said Armand. ‘The press of people will be too great.’

  ‘Well, let’s go on foot if the ladies are willing.’

  Both Sophie and I said we should do that.

  ‘Wear cloaks,’ advised Charles. ‘We don’t want to look conspicuous. And watch, for there will be pickpockets abroad tonight. I’ll swear that they are already swarming into Paris.’

  So it was agreed and we went. I was glad to see that Sophie had recovered her happiness and was as ready to enjoy the evening as any of us. But she was by nature timid and she was soon apprehensive of the crowds.

  ‘Lottie,’ she whispered to me, ‘I don’t like all these people. I wish we could go home.’

  ‘But we have come to see the fireworks.’

  ‘There are too many crowds.’

  ‘It’s going to be fun,’ I assured her.

  I thought of that often in the years to come. If only I had agreed with her and we had persuaded the men to take us back!

  We were jostled. Charles caught my arm and held me against him. Sophie saw the gesture and a look of anguish appeared on her face.

  ‘It’s too crowded,’ she whispered.

  ‘My dear, what did you expect?’ asked Charles. ‘This show is for the whole of Paris, not just for us.’

  She didn’t answer but turned slightly away. I was sure there were tears in her eyes.

  Armand said: ‘They are going to start now.’

  A cry went up from the crowd as the fireworks exploded, illuminating the sky.

  More people were crowding into the square and it was difficult to keep one’s balance. And then … suddenly it happened. Something had gone wrong with the fireworks which were shooting up into the sky. They were exploding with sharp reports and were falling … falling on the people in the square.

  There was the briefest of silences followed by screaming voices. Then there was pandemonium. I felt myself caught up. It was Charles who picked me up and held me above the crowd.

  ‘Sophie!’ he screamed.

  I could not see Sophie but I was aware of Armand, his eyes wide, bewildered and frantic.

  Then I did see Sophie. I was seized with horror for some of the sparks from the fireworks had fallen on her hood, which was on fire.

  Armand had seized her and was trying to smother the flames. I felt sick and faint. Charles was shouting: ‘Get her out …We’ve all got to get out of here.’

  Sophie had fallen. I prayed swiftly: ‘Oh God, please save her. She will be trampled to death.’

  In a few seconds I saw her again. Armand had picke
d her up and put her over his shoulder. She was limp but the fire was out.

  Charles cried: ‘Follow me.’

  He had slung me over his shoulder as though I were a sack of coal. All around us were screaming people pushing in all directions in their efforts to get out of the square. I saw pushing hands and frantic faces and the noise was deafening.

  Charles was forcing his way through the crowd. I could no longer see Armand and Sophie and I had a terrible fear that they had been trampled underfoot.

  Perhaps people are blessed with superhuman strength when faced with certain situations. I really believed Charles possessed it on that night. It is difficult now to recall the stark horror of everything about us. Some people had brought their carriages into the square and were now trying to get out. The horses seemed to be maddened by the press of people and there was a further danger as carriages toppled over and the horses tried to break free. The noise was unearthly and terrible.

  I was expecting to fall at any moment but Charles kept steadily forging his way through the crowd. There was a relentlessness about him, a ruthless determination to save us at any cost. He was the sort of man who was accustomed to getting what he wanted and now all his efforts were concentrated on getting us safely out of the square.

  I looked about for Armand and Sophie but could not see them. I could see nothing but that seething mass of panicking, hysterical people.

  I could not say how long it lasted. I was only aware of fear and anxiety, not only for ourselves but for Sophie and Armand. A terrible premonition came to me that nothing was ever going to be the same after that night.

  Some of the buildings were ablaze and that had started a fresh panic; fortunately for us it was on the far side of the square.

  I can still hear the sounds of screams, the sobbing and anguished cries when I recall that fearful night.

  But Charles brought me safely through. I remember always his pale face grimy with smoke … his clothes awry, his wig lost exposing his fine dark hair so that he seemed like a different man. I knew that if I survived that night I should have him to thank for it.