Master By Choice

by M. A. Innes

  Swallowing his bite, Sawyer shook his head. “But that feels like lying. You’re as big a part of my family as Cooper is.”

  Jackson smiled and leaned over the table to give Sawyer a kiss. “Thank you for that. But my staying home doesn’t mean…” Jackson’s voice trailed off a moment before he continued. “But my staying home doesn’t mean I’m unimportant or that you’re ashamed of me. Our personal life is nobody else’s business. Especially when you’re at work.”

  “But we don’t have to figure it out tonight?” Sawyer continued to poke at his ice cream as I finished mine.

  Jackson shook his head. “No, we have plenty of time.”

  Sawyer seemed to relax at Jackson’s confidence. But there was no saving his ice cream. It was a soupy mess. Standing up, I shook my head. “Next time, no ice cream for you if you’re just going to waste it.”

  They both laughed as I started clearing up the bowls. When the kitchen was clean again, Jackson gave us both kisses and pulled us close. “How about we go lie down in bed and finish this conversation there?”

  I nodded enthusiastically. I was hoping the next part of our conversation would lead to kissing and fun stuff. Sawyer, on the other hand, was still nervous, so I was the one who responded for both of us. “Yes.”

  Jackson smiled but held Sawyer close as we went to the bedroom. Jackson seemed to understand that Sawyer was uncomfortable about something, because he kept his clothes on as he climbed onto the bed and held out his arms. “Come here, you two.”

  Sawyer slowly joined Jackson, but I jumped onto the mattress and threw myself down beside him. When I was on one side and Sawyer on the other, I reached across and grabbed his hand. Jackson was patient as we settled in, but I knew he was starting to reach his limit. “So who’s going to tell me what else we have to discuss?”

  I loved the way he didn’t immediately jump to conclusions or assume something was wrong, even though we showed up right before bed acting very strangely. Sawyer didn’t seem like he was ready to open up, so I figured it was my turn again. “Do you want us to move in?”

  Jackson chuckled, but Sawyer started coughing like he’d choked on his own tongue. When Sawyer could breathe, I looked back at Jackson expectantly. “Well?”

  I thought it was a simple question.

  Jackson looked at both of us, clearly not sure how to answer. “I don’t want to make either of you nervous. I’m going to be patient.”

  I didn’t bother trying to hide my sigh as I rolled my eyes. “We’re just going to pretend he doesn’t look like he’s going to barf. So if we both looked functional, what would you say?”

  “Cooper!” Sawyer seemed to disagree with my description.

  “You really do look green.” Smiling at Jackson, I raised one eyebrow. “Remember, we are pretending everyone’s functional.”

  Jackson didn’t seem like he could pretend that well, but he answered anyway. “I like having both of you around. I think of this as your home too. I’m not going to justify how soon it’s been or make things sound simpler. But if we boil everything down to just what I want, I’d rather you be here.”

  He took a deep breath, and when neither of us panicked, he continued. “So, yes, I’d like it if you moved in.”

  I gave Jackson a big kiss and then turned to Sawyer and smirked. “See, I told you so!”

  Chapter 17

  Sawyer

  “That’s not helpful at all.” Jackson gave Cooper’s ass a smack. Which was probably what the brat had been aiming for.

  It had broken the tension, though.

  “Are you sure?” Okay, that was probably a stupid question. “I mean, I don’t want you to say something because you think that’s what we want to hear.”

  Jackson’s smile was tender as he looked at me. “Sweetheart, you really do look like you’re going to vomit. I promise, I’m not saying what I think you want to hear.” Then his smile widened as he looked at Cooper. “This little nut, on the other hand, is very clear about what he wants.”

  That made me laugh. “A spanking?”

  “That too.” Jackson leaned close and gave me a kiss. “I was very serious when I said I wasn’t going to rush you.”

  I nodded, I knew that. I also knew that I might fight what I wanted forever. “I’m not saying that I’m completely comfortable, because you wouldn’t believe it. But I think of this place as home. After work sometimes, I find myself making the turn to come here, even when I’m supposed to be heading back to the apartment. I like knowing that I’m going to see you at night. I like curling up with you and watching TV when Cooper’s at work. You’re part of our family, and family is supposed to be together.”

  Saying it that way made it easier for my nerves to settle. It was just that simple. Family was supposed to be together. Jackson seemed to believe me, because I felt the tension leak out of him and the worry on his face seemed to fade.

  When Jackson spoke again, I could hear his confidence surging. “Then I guess it’s decided. Now we just need to look at your lease and the practical side of things.”

  “Tonight?” Cooper didn’t seem excited about the planning part.

  Jackson gave him a look that said he wasn’t buying the act. “Why, did you have something else in mind?”

  “Yes!” Cooper pressed closer into Jackson’s side, rubbing his cock against Jackson’s thigh. “Do you need a hint?”

  Jackson chuckled but looked at me. “What do you think? Should we plan, or do you think we should go with Cooper’s idea? He looks like he’s been naughty, so I’m not sure if we should reward him.”

  I knew he was trying to give me a chance to take things in a different direction, but I was ready to stop thinking. I wanted to sink into both of them and let everything else fade away. “Unfortunately, I have to say he’s been good.”

  Cooper gave both of us a wicked grin. “I’ve been very good.”

  “Then I guess I’ll just have to let you have your way.” Then Jackson’s smile turned wicked. “But I know exactly what I want.”

  The need and arousal in his voice sent shivers down my spine. But the look on his face had my cock jerking.

  Jackson’s hand started moving over my back and down to my ass. “I bet you just want to relax and make everything go away.”

  Nodding, I leaned in and pressed a kiss to his lips. That was exactly what I wanted. Jackson’s hand squeezed my cheek and his gaze grew heated. “I want you to sit up, so we can strip you.”

  Cooper made an excited little noise and sat up, pulling at my clothes. “You’re not going fast enough. I’ll help.”

  Jackson watched as Cooper enthusiastically bared me. “I want you to lie down in the middle of the bed. I have a surprise for you.”

  As he climbed off the bed, I followed instructions. I wasn’t sure what he was going to do, but the look on his face said he was going to enjoy it. Jackson walked into the closet and came out quickly, holding something in his hands. “Face down on the bed, Sawyer. Stretch out so your arms are at the headboard.”

  Cooper understood what was happening before I did. He made a low pleasured noise and I could picture him giving Jackson the sweetest looks. “Can I play with it next time?”

  Jackson made a low rumbling sound, and I picture him nodding. “If you’re very good.”

  Cooper seemed to be willing to promise anything if he got to play. But I still wasn’t sure what Jackson was holding. “I’ll be very good. I promise.”

  “Then help me get Sawyer ready.” I wasn’t sure if that sounded ominous or sexy.

  I squeezed my eyes shut as I felt the bed move, not sure if I should peek or not. Jackson’s warm hands started rubbing long strokes down my back, and it was impossible not to relax into his touch. “That’s better. I want you nice and calm.”

  It wasn’t long before I felt Cooper’s hands rubbing over me as well. Soothing me seemed to be their primary goal, but the combination of their hands wandering over me and the excitement about what was to come made it ero
tic as well.

  When Jackson stretched my hands above my head, I didn’t even think about where it was going. The feeling of something wrapping around my wrists and his deep voice called me back from the fog I was sinking into. “When we were talking about limits, Sawyer, you said you liked being tied down.”

  I wasn’t sure if it was a question or not, but Cooper handled it anyway. “Yes, Master, he loves being restrained.”

  Jackson knew that I had my safeword, so he continued to wrap the soft, lined cuffs around my wrists. I felt the bed shift, and Jackson reached for something at the head of the bed. He must’ve put some kind of chain or hook there, because my hands were quickly tied down.

  My face was still pressed against the mattress, my eyes closed, but soon I felt Cooper’s hands bringing something around my eyes. Some kind of scarf wrapped around my face, and the combination pushed me deeper into that soothing place where nothing mattered. Restrained and blindfolded, there was nothing I could do but let Jackson take control.

  As I relaxed into the bed, I felt their hands start to move again. Jackson’s rougher ones started at my shoulders while Cooper’s long, soft fingers started at my feet. I might’ve felt guilty about being the center of attention and getting all of their focus, but there was nothing I could do, and nothing was up to me.

  There was no guilt in submission.

  The room was quiet; the only sounds were their breathing and the low noises that seemed to flow out of me. Hands moved my legs to spread them apart, and the massage continued everywhere. I wasn’t sure if I was supposed to push against the arousal that was building or not, but it was fighting the hazy feeling that was trying to pull me down. The combination kept me aware but relaxed and calm but aroused.

  When I felt the first touch of a lubed finger against my ass, arousal surged to the surface. “Shh,” Jackson’s low voice made me want to squirm and beg. “I’m not in any rush. You’re just going to relax for me.”

  I wasn’t sure if it was supposed to be a reward or punishment.

  One finger slowly eased inside me, and I felt my body open around it. The rest of the hands moved away, and all I was left with was that one touch. Somehow going from an almost endless number of hands to one point on my body just magnified it.

  I expected the rhythm to change, but he never varied from that carefully measured pace. When I could feel his knuckles against my skin, he started gently easing out of me. Part of me wanted to soak it up, and part of me wanted to move and demand more.

  But what I wanted most of all was whatever Jackson wanted to give me.

  We continued the slow, torturous pleasure for what felt like hours. When a second finger entered me, they felt huge even though I knew it wasn’t enough of a stretch. It took me several minutes to figure out it was Jackson and Cooper in me at the same time.

  The feelings that rushed through me were overwhelming. When the third entered me, it didn’t matter whose finger it was. I knew they were both there loving and touching me. When I was finally empty, I expected to be filled or fucked or something, but Jackson’s voice pulled me away from the wonderful sensations that were flooding me.

  “All right Cooper. Help me roll him over. There’s so much left of his body that we haven’t massaged.” Jackson seemed to realize that my muscles wouldn’t work, because I felt the restraints release my arms and they moved me without my having to do anything.

  I felt both sets of hands massage my arms before they were stretched up again and restrained the top of the bed. When they had me laid out once again, the massage started over. Cooper was on my chest, and I felt Jackson’s hands on my legs. He worked his way up my calves and thighs slowly and methodically.

  Cooper’s touch seemed designed to arouse and not relax. He focused on my nipples and seemed to take great pleasure in teasing and pulling at them. As Jackson finally reached the top of my thighs, I felt him move my legs apart again.

  I should have been thrusting up against him or begging for more, but nothing seemed to work. Shivers raced through me, and I could hear needy sounds escaping, but they seemed out of my control.

  His gentle touch took forever to reach the tops of my thighs. When all the hands were removed from my body, I knew what was going to happen. The feeling of Jackson’s fingers as they wrapped around my dick tore a moan from me. It was like my ass all over again, the one incredible sensation after the long overwhelming pleasure.

  I knew I couldn’t come. No matter how long the silence lasted or how incredible his touch, I had to wait for permission. But the need kept building…the tight, smooth strokes up and down my cock…the light, caress of his thumb over the head…it just kept building until I knew I was begging for something, but the words didn’t make sense.

  When Jackson released my dick, I cried out. I heard soothing noises coming from the darkness, but it was the feeling of his hands lifting my legs that let me know he wasn’t going to stop. My knees were pushed up until my thighs rested against my chest and I was spread open for him. Then I felt Cooper’s hands again, holding a leg with one, and the other sliding down to open my ass.

  To offer it up for Master.

  Just the thought had my already hard erection jerking, and it was all I could do to hold back the pleasure. I felt Jackson’s body stretch out over me, and his cock barely kissed the tip of my hole. He slid in deep with one quick thrust that had fireworks shooting up my spine.

  After the long slow pleasure, I expected more of the same, so the spike of need and the beat of arousal as he fucked me deep had me moaning and crying out. They released my legs and let me wrap them around his waist, to try to pull him closer. The feeling of Cooper’s hand on my hard length and his lips on my nipple pushed me even higher.

  Sensations were flooding through me and all I could do was let go and offer everything up to Jackson. As he thrust deep inside of me, hitting that spot that made lightning shoot up through me, I finally heard him begin to speak.

  The low words made me want to reach out to him in the darkness. “That’s my beautiful Sawyer, giving everything up to us. That’s what you want isn’t it, my beautiful boy? You want to give everything up to your master like you’ve given it up to Cooper.”

  The tender words stroked deep inside me. “Please. Yes.”

  “I want it all, my beautiful boy, my sweet pup, my loving, wonderful Sawyer. There’s nothing you need to hide from me. No desire too wild, no love too deep, nothing you need to hold back. I promise, I’m strong enough to catch you and steady enough to be here no matter what.”

  I felt the fabric slip over my head, and for one long moment, I kept my eyes shut, wanting to hold back the whirl of emotions. When I finally opened them, I was staring at my two perfect loves. Cooper, my family, my partner, and my rock…and Jackson…my master, my lover, and the rock who would be there for both of us.

  As the pleasure threatened to break over me, Cooper moved to lie beside me and Jackson leaned down to kiss me. It was sweet and tender, and I felt tears prickling in my eyes. The soft touch of Cooper’s lips against my cheek pushed me over. One small little caress that was innocent and perfect.

  A dam of emotion burst through me. My orgasm was beating down on me, and I cried out, pleading to come. Jackson’s beautiful words and honest emotion had tears and pleasure exploding at once. “I love you, Sawyer. Show me how much you love me. I know you do. Show me how much.”

  My orgasm rushed through me in waves, each one higher than the rest. Cooper sprinkled kisses on my face and Jackson kept thrusting deeper and pushing me higher until everything shattered, and I was carried away on the pleasure.

  I could feel my orgasm finally fading, but it was far away. I was floating above everything, and all I had to do was let the incredible rush take me away. Jackson came, and I wanted to reach up and touch him, to make him feel as good as I did, but my hands wouldn’t work.

  I closed my eyes as he pulled out, sighing as he wrapped himself around me. I was surrounded by the two people I loved the m
ost. I could hear Cooper and Jackson exchanging soft words, and I knew Cooper had finally told him. Cooper held so much love inside of him, and watching him hold it back because I wasn’t ready had been almost painful.

  Knowing that he was finally free lifted a weight off me that I hadn’t realized was there. As I floated away, everything perfect and calm for the first time in so long, I found the words for one moment before the blackness pulled me down. “I love you, Jackson.”

  Chapter 18

  Jackson

  “This is getting ridiculous.” Cooper’s whispered words had me looking up from the area I was straightening.

  Cooper looked frustrated, but Sawyer looked guilty. It made me wonder what they’d been up to. In the days since we’d talked about moving in together, they’d spent a lot of time at my house. While I was starting to see that having a big house had been a good idea, I also loved having them around. I just wished I didn’t have to work such long hours.

  Between classes and lessons and just general business crap, not to mention cleaning real puppy crap, I’d had several long days in a row. The guys had said that they didn’t mind, but it looked like they’d been up to something and finally wanted to confess.

  Was it terrible that I thought they looked cute?

  “I thought you guys were going to pick out dinner? Is everything okay? I’m almost done.” They’d come out earlier to ask what they could do to help, but they’d already worked their full-time jobs, and I felt bad asking them to do more, so they’d offered to make dinner.

  Cooper smiled. “We put a casserole in the oven. There’s a recipe grid online where you just pick out one option from each box and then you have dinner. It looks like it’s going to turn out good.”

  Sawyer nodded, but the guilt hadn’t faded. Not sure if he was ready to talk about it or not, I gave him a teasing grin. “I’m going to need a shower after I’m done. I might need someone to help me wash my back.”