The Soul Redeemer: From Victim to Victory

by Bowser, Nancy

  She looked at him trying to understand. "You're saying that my body has been programmed to respond in certain ways?... What?... I know there are disciplinary spirits, but how can I be disciplined by my own body?"

  "Programmers know how to split the mind, as you know, and to cause those splits or alters to react in certain ways when triggered. Now I'm not saying that an alter is heating up your feet, but that is a possibility.

  "The other possibility is through the assignments of demons attached to certain body memories or triggers that were set up through mind control. Let me ask, do you remember when you first noticed this problem?"

  "Yes. I know the exact moment it started. I was sitting in my window seat reading my Bible. I had determined to study God's Word and to learn the truth about God's heart, mind and purpose for my life and the things I'd been through. I was asking Him to examine me and remove all the lies and wrong beliefs so that I could be effective in loving and serving Him, and in helping others get free as I had."

  Joel said, "When a person can pin point a specific moment an affliction began, it is usually because a spirit has launched an attack, or a program was triggered. It sounds to me like your commitment was a trigger.

  "You see, this is exactly what the programmers wanted to avoid for obvious reasons. Nicole, your generational bloodline was targeted by the enemy to be a part of his army that is seeking to destroy God's Kingdom on earth. It is all a part of a predestined plan within the Illuminati hierarchy that they would use you to undermine Christianity and to cause destruction within it. Instead, you began not only letting God heal you, but you were going to use it to destroy Satan's work in others as well.

  "Therefore, the triggers were pulled. I am also fairly certain that all along your journey of healing and deliverance there were other programs, alters and demons layered in to discipline or destroy you should those triggers get set off. Am I right?"

  "Oh yes. I could name a few off the top of my head," Nicole said. "I just didn't realize they were tied in with the Illuminati programming and plans."

  "Well," Joel continued, "as we discussed last night, you have learned to identify alters and to discern the demons assigned to them. You have learned that once the demons are gone, the enemy looses its power, but that there is a brokenness that remains and must be healed or it will become an open door that the enemy will use to regain control.

  "Now you need to learn to handle your own body's trained reflexes and responses to certain stimulus. In this case, I believe that your body was triggered by your commitment to lead others to freedom, and it responded to the stimulus of attacking itself at the given moment you just explained. The demons that had been layered in, the ANA as you called it, worked together with your own body to fulfill the purpose of hindering or destroying you if necessary, to keep you from fulfilling the new commitment. The demons are now gone, the brokenness has been healed and so I will help you learn to retrain your body and undo the destruction programming."

  Nicole closed her eyes trying to take in everything she was hearing. "Ok, so you are saying that there are no more demons or physical problems that are causing my feet to get hot, but that it is my body that has been trained to act that way once it got triggered."

  "Yes, that is about right." He had a sense that there might still be some things that had been buried so deeply inside her and hidden so well that without help, she may never discover them; but he knew that he could not reveal these things to her. It would have to be the Holy Spirit. If she decided to stay, he had no doubt that these things would be taken care of.

  "Then what can I do about it?"

  "Exactly! You have asked the right question. I am sure that you will be given the answers if you choose to stay and go through the deprogramming," Joel assured her. "But to prove what I am saying is true, I want you to look at your feet, Breeze. What color are they?"

  "Red."

  "Now, I want you to ask Jesus to help you overcome the programming and to reclaim your mind."

  "Jesus, Please help me to overcome this programming that makes my feet so hot. I do want to be in control of my body and to reclaim any area that has been under enemy influence."

  "Now I want you to tell your feet to cool down. Command the blood to flow the way the Lord Jesus intends it to."

  She looked up from her feet and scowled at Sam. "Don't you dare laugh at me for talking to my feet!"

  He had been intently watching and listening, and he smiled at Nicole's embarrassment, threw up his hands and looked away.

  "Ok feet," Nicole said looking back down at them. "I'm talking to you and I command you to cool down. I command my blood to flow the way the Lord Jesus created it to and intends it to. So do you hear me feet? I said, cool down!"

  Sam jumped at Nicole's shriek. "They are cooling down. They aren't burning! Look at the color Sam! They are almost back to normal!" She jumped out of her chair and began jumping up and down with enthusiasm, then grabbed Joel and hugged him. She let go and started jumping again. "Look Sam! Look at my feet!"

  Sam said, "I'm trying to, but all I see are two Mexican jumping beans!"

  "Oh sorry," she said and stood still as he looked them over.

  "Yep, white. You need a sun tan, whitey. I thought everybody in California had nice tans."

  "Very funny!" She exclaimed.

  Then Joel spoke up. "Now Breeze, do you understand why you might need some deprogramming to learn to control your body?"

  "Thank you, Joel. Yes I do. Is it possible that there is more programming I don't know about?"

  "Possibly. That is what the Holy Spirit will show us."

  Nicole looked down at her feet again, and was surprised to see them turning pink. "What's going on? They're turning back!"

  "Don't worry. Deprogramming is a training process that requires renewing the mind and learning self control and perseverance. You will get it and eventually the new programming will override the old."

  "I guess it's just like the mental, emotional and spiritual training. The Ephesians 4:22-24 principle: put off the old, renew the spirit of the mind, put on the new."

  "So you'll stay?" Joel asked.

  Nicole looked at Sam. He nodded at her, encouraging her. "Yes I will. You're staying too, aren't you Sam?"

  "I don't know yet. I'm waiting on the Holy Spirit for guidance. But I do have something I want to run by you Sir."

  Joel nodded.

  "I've been wondering about going to Samaria to talk with Jake while you two are deprogramming."

  "I had that same thought myself. Lord, if this plan is Yours, then make it so. Otherwise, please close the door."

  "What would you say to him?" Nicole asked.

  "Not sure yet. But I'll know by the time I get there." Sam rose to his feet. "If you'll excuse me Sir, I'll go check on flights."

  "Ask Jemima to bring up some tea, will you?"

  As Sam left the solarium, Joel said, "Let's get started then.

  He began, "Every mind has been filled with different things, different programs, different purposes, different assignments, and different expectations. However, there is one thing about every programmed mind that is the same. They have all been taken captive and created to be slaves of another's perverted will. The slave had no control, no power to agree or disagree. No free will.

  "The new programming is based completely upon truth of God's Word and the free will to choose to believe and to act on the truth regardless of the feelings. All the old programming is based on lies and must be destroyed by identifying and renouncing them, and then replacing it with new programming, the truth.

  "This new programming must come from the only One who knows His creation inside and out. The only One who can restore that soul in mind, will, and emotions to the original person He created her to be. And she can have the choice to accept or decline. To obey or rebel."

  Nicole smiled. "Yes, I'm familiar with the Lord's deprogramming and reprogramming. I feel almost as if I'm in the Tabernacle, the safe place inside
my mind where Jesus gave me some of the same choices. I chose to stay and to obey because of His love. Those choices allowed Him to work inside me. That's when He began to free me from demonic oppression, the pain of the past, and healed the brokenness caused by all the pain and trauma."

  "Good Nicole. I thought as much. I do not believe that it will take long for you to complete the process. Now, I am not going to make you do anything you don't want to do. But I am going to suggest some things, and if they agree with your spirit, then you can follow through with them. Do you understand?"

  "Yes I do."

  "We are going to ask the Holy Spirit to speak truth to you because truth destroys lies, the foundation of programming, ok?"

  "Absolutely!" Nicole agreed as she sank to her knees. It was as if the Holy Spirit had been waiting for this day. As Nicole humbled herself before her Father and cried out to Him for truth in her innermost being, He removed the veil that had covered the last of the hidden ones.

  "Joel?"

  "Yes?"

  "I'm seeing something very unusual and I don't understand it."

  "What is it?"

  "There are three sets of rocks. Each set has three rocks in it which are stacked up on top of each other. When I saw the first set of three, I distinctly heard the word, 'Three.' When I saw the second set I heard, 'Seven.' When I saw the third stack of three, I heard, 'Twenty-one.' It doesn't make any sense to me, other than the fact that three times seven is twenty one. The only other thing that comes to mind is that I've seen rocks stacked like that in yards and in fields near our home, and they always make me think of satanic altars. But what does it mean?"

  Before Joel could answer, there was a knock on the door and Jemima stepped in with tea. "Thank you Jemima," he said. "The Father is getting ready to reveal some important things to Breeze here. Nicole, would it be ok if Jemima stays? She will not take it personally if you'd rather she leave."

  Nicole patted the chair next to her. "Yes, please stay dear friend."

  Jemima put the silver tea service down on a table then came and sat next to Nicole who was still kneeling on the floor in front of her chair. "Can I say somethin' that's been burnin' in my heart all this mornin'?"

  "Certainly," Joel said.

  Nicole looked at Jemima expectantly and found that she was looking up into the eyes of love. "Honey chile, I got to tell you what the good Lawd keeps whispering into my spirit." The older lady put her hands on Nicole's shoulders. "You are His prize! His precious jewel! And I keep hearing Him call you Beulah."

  Nicole gasped. Jewel was one of her other parts that had been healed a long time ago, and it seemed like this was a code word between the Father and herself that let her know that He was with her and that she was going to be ok. Nicole closed her eyes and was basking in the warmth of His revelation.

  Jemima continued. "You are so very precious to our Father, so special to Him that He can hardly contain Himself with all the joy that you bring to His heart. You are in covenant relationship with Him as in a marriage, and He is protecting you as He would His bride." She hesitated, then looked directly at Nicole and asked a very strange question. "Honey chile, do you like to hug people?"

  Nicole's eyes flew open and she suddenly felt confused. "Yes. NO! Wait, I do…." She was feeling and terrified confused. She jumped to her feet. Maybe she should run while she could. She looked at the door and saw that Sam had come back in and was standing in front of it, so she decided that if this woman wanted a hug, she'd hug her and then she'd be done. She leaned down, stretched out her arms toward Jemima and said, "I'll hug you."

  With surprisingly quick reflexes and strength, Jemima reached up and caught Nicole's arms before they touched her neck. "Oh no you don't!" she said as she lowered Nicole's arms down to her sides. And then she did a very strange thing.

  Jemima stood up, then leaned down right in front of Nicole's tummy and cried out with a very loud voice, "Come up! I am callin' you up out of the deep! Rise up I say, and come on up outta there!"

  Immediately Nicole was a three year old, terrified little girl. She was aware of what was happening but couldn't control it. She heard Sam and Joel praying in tongues quietly beside her. The lady in front of her was frightening her and she tried to back away. Joel was beside her on one side and Sam had come and was standing behind her.

  Since she couldn't get away from these scary people, she turned and tucked her head as far away from them as she could, and her clenched fists raised themselves protectively over her chest. She didn't know what the lady was saying now, but the frightened little girl whimpered. "You're going to hurt me."

  Jemima said, "No precious little one, we are not gonna hurt you. We are here to help you." She began praying that God's love would help her to know His true love.

  Nicole's body began remembering the things that had happened in the past. She began to feel excruciating sexual pleasure and then torturing pain. She dropped to the floor and curled up in an impenetrable small ball, screaming out in torment.

  Jemima took authority. "In Jesus' Name I command the demons to stop tormenting God's prize and precious jewel! And Good Lawd, please stop the memory of the pain now so's this little one can get delivered and healed in Jesus' Name."

  The pain faded away, and Nicole slowly relaxed. After a moment, she sat up, embarrassed. "I'm sorry. I had no idea that would happen!"

  Sam helped her to her feet. When she looked at him, there was no condemnation or judgment in his eyes, just concern.

  Joel sat back down in his chair. "Nicole this is exactly what needed to happen. Jemima here is not just my housekeeper, she's my secret weapon." He smiled at her fondly as she walked over to the tea table.

  Jemima's response was, "Well I say, it's time for some physical refreshment."

  "Not for me Jemima," Sam said. "I came to tell you that my flight leaves soon, and I'll be on my way. I'm not sure how long I'll be gone, but I'll come back here as soon as this mission is accomplished."

  "Oh I wish I could go with you!" Nicole who was herself again said.

  Joel offered up a prayer of safety, protection, wisdom and discernment for Jake as well as Sam, and then said, "God speed, Sam."

  "Thank you Sir." He looked once more at Nicole, then turned and walked out of the room closing the door behind him.

  Nicole watched him leave as many emotions flooded her soul. She sat down and Jemima handed her a tea cup. The warmth of the liquid felt good in her hands and helped to calm her all the way through.

  The three of them quietly sipped their tea. As Nicole contemplated what had just happened to her, the words that Jemima had spoken over her at the beginning comforted her greatly.

  "Joel?" she interrupted the silence. "What do we do now? It's been a long time since I felt like this. I thought I was done with little girls, but I think there's something else inside me. I don't understand! Jesus showed me the room with the boxes and it was empty of the past and full of new life! What is happening and why?"

  "Sometimes there are things that have been hidden so deeply that they would not be recognized without a searching. I believe that God brought you here for the completion of His healing work in you. There may be some memories that God needs to bring into your consciousness because remembering breaks down the programming. Are you willing to allow Jesus to open the door on these hidden things?"

  Nicole considered, and then agreed. "Yes, if there is more that He needs to do, I will accept His work."

  Joel prayed, "Lord Jesus, we thank You that You understand this. Holy Spirit we ask that You illuminate the things hidden in the darkness and that You help Nicole to understand what You want her to know."

  Then in an authoritative voice he said, "In Jesus' Name I command all demons that are protecting these memories from surfacing to come out of hiding and go to into the pit and await judgment."

  "Oh my goodness!" Nicole gasped. "Is it possible that the rocks are alters? I see that the first stack of rocks has fallen over and the middle rock has sproute
d arms and legs! I see Jesus and He's moving rocks around. He's smiling at me and He says He's rock gathering. He just moved the middle rock of the second stack away from its group and the top part of the rock has opened like a lid. I see a face coming out of the rock! I can't tell if it’s a boy or girl. It has very short hair and is skinny like its starving, and it is so white it looks like death!"

  Joel listened intently then replied. "It is a common practice in Illuminati programming to dehumanize and hide certain alters within inanimate objects as failsafes. That way even if other alters are accessed or discovered, the failsafes are not recognized as parts and are allowed to remain. Their undisturbed presence is an open door for demonic spirits or the human spirits of the programmers to have continued access and influence over the slave, keeping them in semi bondage."

  "Well I see the rock with arms and legs frantically running around screaming in fear! I feel her feelings and she's young and doesn’t understand what is happening! I think that is the one that was just out a little bit ago. She's terrified!"

  "Nicole," Joel interrupted, "Tell her it will be ok and that we are going to help her."

  "She's not listening!"

  "Ask Jesus to come and help her."

  "He's just letting her run. I do see Joy! She's running around with the rock person, but she's not upset, she's happy! She's excited because I found them. But I don't understand that either! Joy is one of my other alters, and I haven't seen any of them in so long. I thought they were integrated. Why is she here?"

  "Ask Jesus."

  "He told me that He sent Joy because she can comfort the little girl. Joy says she's known about them a long time. This one is three years old. Hey do you think the numbers are ages of the rocks, or rather the part of me that is inside them?"

  "Very possible. Part of the dehumanizing process is to assign numbers to alters instead of names. You also need to understand that even though the numbers may represent alters, they have very significant meanings. Here again we see how Satan has perverted numbers that are sacred to the Lord. In the occult and Illuminati, there are six sacred numbers. The numbers 3, 7 and 9 are among these, and they believe that when sacred numbers are grouped together, their power is intensified. Therefore, the number 21 is seen as powerful because 3x7, two sacred numbers combined, equals 21."