Cade: Fire And Ice: A Second Chance Hockey Romance

by Hart, Alana

  "Because," I stopped for a second, self-conscious, "because I - I guess I wanted it to be me."

  "Did you? Did you like it?"

  I nodded and looked down, worried I sounded incredibly stupid.

  "How much did you like it?"

  Something crossed my mind then. Something bold, something I never would have believed I had it in me to do.

  "Do you want to know how much I liked it?"

  I took one of Cade's hands and pushed it up between my legs, all the way to the top of my thigh, shuddering slightly as he brushed his fingers over the outside edge of my panties.

  "Oh my God, Ellie."

  My breath caught in my throat when he pushed one finger into my panties and slid it up between my slippery, swollen lips. When I looked up at him his eyes had the same look they'd had a few minutes before.

  "Ellie, look what you're doing to me."

  I watched in the dim, orange-tinged light as Cade unbuttoned and then unzipped his jeans, pulling down his boxer briefs and revealing his stiff, wet cock.

  "Look what a mess you made."

  I was transfixed by the sight of him. By the size of him. By the way he wrapped his hand around his manhood and pulled it completely free of his pants.

  "Cade..."

  "What, Ellie?" He asked, pulling my head down to his and kissing my mouth slowly.

  "I want you inside me."

  I still can't believe I actually said those words. They just came out, I didn't think about them at all. It wasn't that I wasn't nervous or scared of the pain I anticipated. It was, again, Cade himself. It didn't matter if it hurt. Nothing mattered except feeling him inside me.

  "Ellie." His voice was thick again.

  I looked down, watching, perched over him and half-crazed with lust as he reached between my legs and pulled my thin cotton panties to the side. When he guided the tip of his cock between my lips, running it back and forth slowly in my wetness, we both moaned at the feeling.

  "Are you sure, Ellie? Are you sure?"

  I knew it was the last time he was going to be able to ask and that made me even hotter.

  "Yes, Cade." I whispered, my body tense with anticipation. "Yes. Please."

  "Oh fuck, Ellie. Did you just say 'please'?"

  "Yes?" I replied, wondering if something was wrong.

  "If you say that again, I'm going to come. Again."

  So I didn't say it again, not just then. Cade was holding his cock against me, right at the point where my body opened, and I could feel the tension in his muscles as he held back.

  "Are you ready?"

  Our eyes met. "Is it going to hurt?"

  "I don't know, Ellie. Are you OK? Tell me if you want me to stop."

  "No. No, Cade. I don't want you to stop."

  He leaned back a little in the seat, looking at me.

  "Ellie, just push yourself down on it. I'll try to stay still. Just go as slowly as you need to."

  I did what Cade said and gently pushed my hips down. Nothing happened. I tried again, just slightly harder. Still nothing.

  "Cade. I think I'm doing it wrong..."

  "No, Ellie," he said, his eyes completely glazed now and his shoulders hunched up with the effort of holding himself back. "You're just not pushing hard enough."

  The next time I pushed I relaxed my body slightly, letting my own weight lower me. A sudden sharp, bright pain exploded between my legs and I would have pulled away if Cade hadn't groaned and caught my eye and I hadn't seen the look on his face as he felt my wet sex opening up for him.

  "Cade!"

  My voice sounded strangled, desperate.

  "It's OK, Ellie. Baby, it's OK. Just-"

  "Is it inside me yet?"

  "It's - it's almost inside you."

  It was almost inside me? I felt like I was being torn in two. How could he barely be inside me?

  "Ellie, I need you. I need this."

  That was all it took. He needed it. All I wanted was to give Cade what he needed. I took a deep breath, held it, and let my body sink the rest of the way down, not managing to stifle a small, thin scream as I felt him opening me up. My body arched back involuntarily and Cade buried his face in my neck, breathing hard. The feeling was of being impaled. I'd seen porn before, I'd seen women riding men with giggling, wild abandon and no part of me felt like moving was a possibility.

  "I can't move."

  Cade was losing control. I could feel him grinding his hips up, desperate to get as far into me as he could.

  "Ellie," he gasped, pushing his hands up under my dress and squeezing my breasts. "Ellie, you can."

  He put his hands on my hips and lifted me up slightly as my breath hitched and then he pushed himself up again, sinking all the way back in.

  "You feel so good," he whispered into my neck. "You feel so fucking good, Ellie."

  I let him guide me, slowly raising and lowering my body over and over until a little, nagging sensation like an itch started all the way inside me. The pain was still there, although it was more diffuse by then - a throbbing, mind-numbing ache. Cade must have noticed something change.

  "Does it still hurt, Ellie? Do you like it?"

  I couldn't tell if I liked it, the sensations were too new for me to be able to consciously sort pleasure from pain. I knew I wanted him deeper, closer to that spot inside that seemed to need more and more of what he was giving me.

  "Oh!" I said, surprised, as the feeling of the pain didn't fade away so much as get pushed into the background as something else took precedence. Something insistent and brand new.

  "Ellie? What? Does it feel good?"

  Cade's hands were on my breasts again and my body was moving itself, rushing ahead of my mind, aware of what it needed.

  "Oh my God, Cade."

  He leaned in close and whispered in my ear. "Does that feel good? Do you like the way my cock feels inside you?"

  "Yeah, Cade. Yes." I breathed, my hips quickening.

  "Oh, fuck, Ellie. Are you going to come? Baby, I want you to come. I want to feel you come..."

  The way Cade talks to me when he's inside me - and the effect it has on me - was there from the very start. His deep, ragged voice pushed me right up to the edge and I stayed there for a few seconds, looking into his eyes as the first few sweet twitches of pleasure in my sex sent them rolling back into his head.

  I screamed when I came, helplessly, my body seized with sweetness and the pain of my freshly taken virginity. My muscles clenched themselves tightly around Cade over and over until my mind was completely blank and I wasn't conscious of anything but him and the feeling of him inside me.

  As soon as he realized what was happening, Cade came too, thrusting his hips up hard and burying himself into me, groaning and gripping my body. I took him, every inch and drop of him as my traitor body forced me down further, harder, until my eyes were tearing up and I was starting to come to my senses again.

  I tried to pull myself off Cade but he held me there for a few more seconds as his hips jerked up one more time and his quick, hot breath on my neck finally started to slow. When I knew he was finished, I lifted my body up gingerly, whimpering slightly as we parted. A sudden, extreme tiredness came over me and I collapsed against Cade's chest, sweaty and breathless and just starting to be aware of the cold night air filtering in through the steamed-up car windows.

  "Ellie," he whispered, kissing the top of my head, then my cheek, then lifting my fingers to his mouth and kissing the tips of them one by one. "You're so beautiful."

  Chapter 6: Cade

  On the Monday morning after the weekend that had started with me taking Ellie Hesketh's virginity, I went to school with a package in my backpack for her, wrapped in shiny pink wrapping paper I'd found in my mother's gift-wrapping supplies closet. I hadn't seen or spoken to her all weekend, because she didn't have a cell phone or a computer. What she did have was three little brothers who needed to be taken care of and a complete lack of free time. Unable to wait for history class, I decide
d to go and wait for her at her locker, eager to give her the brand new Motorola RAZR phone I'd bought.

  When I got to the block of lockers that contained hers, I saw something that made me so angry I almost put my fist through a wall, right then and there. Scratched into the metallic door of her locker was a single word: SLUT.

  I stared at the word for a few minutes as a small, curious crowd gathered around me and my mind narrowed down on one thing: Ellie couldn't be allowed to see it. I could have gone to the main office and told someone about it, but they wouldn't remove it in time for Ellie not to see it - it would involve sanding or painting over or some other thing that was going to take time. She was going to be there any minute so I did the only thing I could think of and picked out one of the students in the crowd, a girl in one of the grades below me.

  "Go get Mr. Russell. Tell him to bring the - the whatever it is he uses to cut locks."

  She didn't immediately react and I had to repeat myself before she gave me a little shrug and walked off to get the Mr. Russell, the janitor. Then I curled one of my hands into a tight fist and slammed it into the locker door as hard as I could, warping it enough to allow me to tear it off the hinges. It dangled there from the lock and I flipped it around so the word was no longer visible. Then I waited for the janitor to show up as the knuckles in my hand throbbed.

  When Ellie got there, breaking into a huge smile as soon as she saw me waiting for her and before noticing her now-doorless locker, I just about melted with relief. Mr. Russell had objected to cutting the lock at first but I knew he knew who I was and I knew that meant he was probably going to do what I'd asked him to.

  "What the-?"

  Ellie was staring at her locker, the smile disappearing evenly from her face. It occurred to me just then that I hadn't thought of an explanation.

  "What happened?"

  "I, uh..." I stalled, willing my brain to come up with something. It refused. "I don't know - I just got here."

  I expected Ellie to be angry but if anything she seemed to immediately accept the fact that someone had ripped the door off her locker. I didn't understand her reaction.

  "Aren't you - I mean, do you want to go the office or something?"

  She shrugged. "Cade, no one's going to care. Can you take some of my stuff? If I leave it like this it's just going to get stolen."

  I transferred the contents of her locker into my backpack, still baffled at her total lack of emotion.

  "Is someone pissed at you?"

  "Dunno. Probably one of Katy Grebling's friends. Could be anyone, really. In case you haven't noticed, I'm not the most popular girl at school."

  Truthfully? I hadn't noticed. It wasn't until later that day, standing in the emergency room with my bleeding, stoic girlfriend that it even started to dawn on me how much I had never noticed social dynamics. As far as I was concerned high school was one long social event and even though certain people tended to hang out with certain others, there didn't seem to be very much actual hostility. I was completely wrong.

  I bent down to try to kiss Ellie before we both headed off to our first class but she ducked away, furtively glancing around to see if anyone had noticed.

  "Cade. Don't."

  Not a single one of my girlfriends had ever been anything other than enthused about my public displays of affection. Most of them had seemed to view it as a badge of honor.

  "What? Why?"

  Ellie looked impatient. "I have to go. Are you walking me home today? I'll tell you then. OK?"

  I really wanted to kiss her. I wanted to feel her little body against mine again. It was the only thing I'd thought about all weekend. But she obviously wasn't having any of it.

  When history class finally rolled around, she still seemed on edge.

  "Listen, Cade. Can you meet me at the convenience store after class? I need to - um, I need to get something there."

  "Why don't we just go together?"

  "I have talk to, uh...Cade, I have to take care of something. Can you just meet me at the store? Please?"

  Ellie's voice was exasperated and I had some idea that she was lying but I couldn't figure out why so I just agreed to meet her at the store. When the final bell for class rung she shot up out of her seat and practically ran out of the room without a word to me. What the hell was she up to?

  The convenience store was located behind the school, in the opposite direction to Ellie's house, so I took a shortcut across one of the football fields. She'd obviously had the same idea, because as soon as I rounded the first bend in the track that ran through the small forest at the back of the field, I saw her.

  She was bent over at a strange angle. At first, I thought she was laughing. I was just about to shout her name when I spotted Katy Grebling and three other girls standing in front of Ellie in a semi-circle. When one of them reached out and took a handful of Ellie's thick, dark hair in her hands, yanking it forward hard enough to send my girlfriend sprawling onto the snowy ground, I lost my mind.

  If the path had been ice and I'd been on my skates, I wouldn't have gotten to her faster than I did that afternoon. None of the girls even saw me until I was right there, the blood pounding hard in my head and my throat so tight with anger I could barely get the words out.

  "What the... fuck are you... doing?" I panted.

  The urge to punch the girl I'd seen pulling Ellie's hair was so extreme I actually raised my clenched fist, only realizing what I was about to do when Ellie reached up and scrabbled at my torso with one hand.

  "Don't, Cade. Don't do it."

  Her other hand was cupping her lower face. When she looked up at me I watched two bright red streams of blood ooze out between her fingers and start to run down her wrist.

  "Jesus Christ! Ellie? What the fuck?" I whirled around to face Katy and the other girls, shouting now. "WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE?"

  I could see the fear in all of their eyes. It was Katy who managed to get herself together first and offer a simpering little smile.

  "Your girlfriend is a stupid little bitch, Cade."

  "Cade, Cade...!"

  Ellie choked as she pleaded with me, moving her hand aside to spit blood onto the snow. She was my priority. All that blood. She needed to get to a hospital. And I knew I needed to keep my hands off the other girls, even as the desire to send them all flying boiled up inside me so strongly it almost made me lightheaded. I looked Katy right in the eye.

  "You're going to be charged for this. You're all going to be charged. This is assault. So go home and tell your worthless parents to call their lawyers."

  Two of the girls took off at once, one of them in tears, but Katy and the other one stayed put.

  "Good luck with that, Cade. My father is the best lawyer in town and he's best friends with the judge. Nothing's gonna happen. It never does."

  I took a step towards her as Ellie snatched at the back of my jacket, weakly trying to hold me back. Katy Grebling wasn't stupid. She knew if she hung around my ability to control myself was going to slip, so she flipped a lock of her long, blonde hair over her shoulder and spun around.

  "Come on, Macey. Let's leave these two losers to their loser shit." She turned to look at me. "I hope you used a condom, Cade. The last thing North Falls needs is more white trash bitches like this one."

  They walked away. They didn't run, they walked. When they were far enough away to feel safe, I actually heard Katy giggling and a fresh, searing wave of anger washed over my body.

  "Cade."

  I knelt down in the bloodstained snow in front of Ellie, almost crying at the sight of her.

  "Ellie. We have to go the hospital. Can you walk?"

  Slowly, she straightened up, still holding her hand over her nose and mouth.

  "Show me."

  She pulled her hand away from her face and I saw at once that her nose was broken and two of her teeth had been knocked out. The fact that she needed help, and that I was the only one to help her get it was the only thing that kept me from br
eaking down right there.

  "Ellie, oh...Ellie, what happened? Why did they do this? What-?"

  "It hurts to talk, Cade. Can you help me find my teeth?"

  Tears overflowed and ran copiously down her cheeks. All I wanted to do was hold her but as soon as I reached out she shook her head.

  "No, it hurts. My mouth hurts. Don't touch me."

  "OK, Ellie. OK, baby. Let me find your teeth and then we'll go to the ER. Just...just give me a minute."

  It took me five goddamned minutes to find her teeth in the dirty, bloody snow as she stood over me whimpering in pain and clutching my shoulder for support.

  "Can you walk? I can carry you?"

  She put her arm out to hold me off, a gesture I recognized well from hockey games when someone gets badly hurt and doesn't quite know how bad it is.

  "No, Cade. Please, let me walk. I think my wrist might be broken."

  So we walked back down the path and across the field to the parking lot where my car was parked. She lowered herself gingerly into the passenger seat, still dripping blood everywhere, and I closed the door as gently as I could. We didn't say much on the drive to the hospital, mostly because she was in too much pain and my brain was too occupied with murderous thoughts about what I wanted to do to Katy Grebling and her friends.

  When we got into the ER and up to the front desk, I noticed a distinct lack of urgency on the part of the staff. The receptionist was actually eyeballing Ellie with something that looked a lot like suspicion.

  "Do you have insurance?"

  "No," Ellie replied, gagging slightly on the blood collecting in her broken mouth. I tried to cut in.

  "I can pay. Just - just get a doctor."

  The receptionist didn't even look at me.

  "Miss, you understand that you need to pay for any injuries we treat here?"

  I couldn't take another second of it.

  "GET A DOCTOR RIGHT NOW!" I bellowed, slamming my fist - the same one I'd used to punch Ellie's locker door - down on the counter, which cracked loudly under the blow.

  Everyone in the waiting room looked up at me - including the receptionist. I watched the recognition of who I was dawn in her eyes.

  "Oh! Cade Parker!"