HANDSOME BUT DAMNED - Attraction

by Anisa Gjikdhima

  Chapter 6

  I woke up thinking I had a great dream. I opened my eyes slightly, and noticed, I was in my room, but on the couch.

  But moreover, I was lying on a body, and this body was naked.

  He still slept, looked like an angel, wore the boxers and that was a good sign.

  I tried to move, but our legs were intertwined. All this should not happen, I slept on my super sexy boss, on my couch.

  At last he woke up, early in the morning his voice was even more sexy.

  We said good morning, I was very embarrassed, and as I was looking indifferent, my eyes lowered over his boxers and he noticed.

  I asked him if he took a coffee, and he followed me into the kitchen while still being in a boxer.

  At a certain point, he said,

  «You know you're the first woman with whom I sleep without having sex?» And here he is. I would bet.

  Think about what 24 hours a day?

  I ignore his words and continue to make coffee.

  «Do you like live alone? » Apparently it's in the mood for questions.

  «Not by choice, my parents died in a car accident last year. I'm an only child, I didn't have much of a choice» I try to sound like as I speak but it does not.

  «I'm sorry. »

  My confession must have made you uncomfortable, I understand from his expression.

  «May I ask you another question? » Feel her breath on my neck, it's behind me.

  «Shoot» frustrated sigh.

  «Why are you hiding behind a mask?»

  I understood about me despite not knowing me?

  «I could ask you the same thing. »

  I turn around to look him in the eye. Was not prepared, not expecting that addressing the same question. I recognize the suffering, and I am convinced that he suffered while having everything. The question is: for what?

  «You don't answer a question with a question.»

  He's just trying to distract me. I won't insist, basically I'm nobody to ask him such a thing.

  «I don't know what you're talking about, I am what you see. »

  I try to make it cool, I know exactly what you're getting but cannot understand as they really are, you can't, you don't know anything about me.

  «You know what I'm talking about, would you appear confident, sour and cold. I think you're the opposite. The question is: why are you doing this? »

  The fact that he has understood much of me scares me.

  «Why you do, Erik? I recognize better than anyone the pain, and you're full. » I hope I haven't ventured too.

  «I prefer to keep people at a distance. » pronounce these words with sadness.

  I Just hope don't go wrong in confide in him, when he's near I feel protected and safe. Differently but I think both of us are two suffering souls.

  «I'm afraid of losing people that I». Here I said, the words came out in a heartbeat. I feel as if a weight had been lifted. His hand moves forward stroking my face.

  «Two of us ». His words hit me straight to the heart. He's like me, that's why I understand.

  The scent of coffee caught my attention, whispered to his lips that was ready, I wanted to kiss him, but I did not, because I already know that this will all be over soon, and I can’ t continue to deceive me. We sat facing each other, our eyes didn’t stop looking, and I started to feel a strange sensation at the mouth of my stomach, I don’t understand what it was, it’ s something I can’ t explain.

  «What are you doing today? » I don't understand. Why do he interested?

  «It's Sunday, practically nothing. Why?». Lower your gaze blowing on hot coffee.

  «If you like, we can go somewhere». Her eyes in disbelief. Want to go out with me? Wait, should I be missed some step.

  «Why are you doing this? » I ask surprised.

  «I have nothing to do, and then I like your company. »

  His thinking is so sweet! Too bad the way they phrase things makes it look different. Because I am distrustful of the human race? Easy, experience teaches.

  «And here I thought you were going to have sex with some supermodel.»

  I may have overreacted but that is what I think. Starts to laugh out loud. Luckily, I thought I'd offended.

  «Do you think I don't resist 24 hours without taking me to bed anyone?». Is doubled over with laughter.

  «I read in a magazine that you have about 300 women a year. And Yes, I thought I was doing every night.»

  Now we are in utter embarrassment. Why I put myself in situations so absurd? I'm talking to him about his sex life.

  «You searched for information about me?»

  Oops, went back for real.

  «By accident. I just wanted to know for whom I worked. And I happened to read that article where they talked about, you know, of your women» I try to explain.

  «Since you know everything about my love life, why don't you tell me something of yours?»

  This is the least favorite topic, surely I will take for a fool.

  There's not much to say, I only had two guys but nothing major. I'm not a person from one-night stands, take me for stupid but I do believe in true love. And I hope to get lucky and meet him one day. «

  That's it, now you will mock me for eternity. Hush, don't say anything. But why do you keep staring at me? It makes me uncomfortable.

  «What is it? Is the truth. » She looks at me like I was an alien. I said so shocking? I don't understand.

  «I must go. I remembered to have work to do. »

  I am appalled. But what's wrong? What did I say? Slips quickly its complete and in less than five minutes is already at the door.

  «See you tomorrow».

  Leaves home with look low. What is wrong with it? Why did he escape? What kind of weird, even you said I have AIDS! Before asking me to spend a Sunday together and runs away. I let go on the sofa confused more than ever. He confused me, when he comes near, I go away and when I try to get closer, he is moving away.

  Chapter 7

  It's Monday morning, I'm running to the office; I'm 10 minutes late, I was awake all night thinking about him.

  We hope he has not arrived yet and that he doesn’t get angry.

  I went into the office and at one point his voice exclaimed in a reproachful tone:

  «Elisa, the next time you make a delay, you have to warn me, I like punctuality, which is no longer happening.»

  When he is so serious, he is scared.

  I lowered my eyes and apologized.

  He immediately ordered me to rewrite and check the contracts.

  They were a lot of leaves and wanted them all by the morning.

  I was very astonished, to be able to correct and rewrite in five hours.

  Nice way to retaliate for my delay and seeing that he had decided to challenge me this way, took all the documents without paying attention to him and I went to work right away.

  I'll make it pay for it.

  After four hours, my surprise was over. All the contracts were cleared for three times and with great satisfaction I went into his office without even knocking at the door and handing it over to him.

  He looked up unbelievingly and exclaimed,

  «Are you sure everything is perfect?».

  «I'm sure Mr. Truston,» I exclaimed. «Very sure. Do you want more? Mr Truston »

  «I need a coffee.» he replied, taking one of the contracts in his hand.

  I returned to his office after five minutes and rested it on the desk.

  «Congratulations, they are perfect. » he exclaimed.

  If I could, at that moment I would jump out of joy as a little girl, I realize that my day is about to end and tell him I'm going to leave.

  «Do you go to lunch together?»

  Of course, he is really moody, yesterday he fled away and today he wants to go lunch with me.

  I decided to give him a second chance and I answered him, yes.

  My answer, a small smile on his face lit up. He doesn’t know tha
t even though he's an asshole, I liked his company.

  When we got out of the building, sorry for the employees, they looked confused, surely they've done strange ideas, but I didn’t care, I've never been interested in what people think.

  We stopped at a restaurant across from the street, all this was so strange, he and I to lunch together.

  We got to a table at the back of the room, definitely reserved for him.

  He asked me what I was thinking and answered with great sincerity, as he had all his life so perfectly organized. He looked at me in a strange way, saying that he liked to have everything under control without having to waste time.

  In my opinion, this seems all very boring, and he did not hesitate to ask me what my idea of life was.

  I started hearing about it, I didn’t expect this question.

  I told him that if he knew me a year ago, he would judge my life, messy.

  These words came to my parents' mind and sadness took over and I could not hold back the tears.

  He seemed to pay attention to every single word, he asked me now how my life was and that question struck me deeply.

  I told him now that I didn’t have a lifetime and that I was just doing the necessary things.

  I looked in his eyes and saw in him compassion, what I always avoided because I don’t want anyone to see my suffering, I don’t want to punish anyone.

  From his mouth just one word:

  «I understand,» and then, nothing for the duration of lunch.

  At some point, he grabbed his handheld and called Sharon, telling her to cancel all appointments.

  I wondered why he makes it, given that he had some really important, but being the boss, he is deciding. He asked me if I had appointments in the afternoon because he wanted to take me to a place, and he said:

  «the only place where time stops, taking away the suffering. ,»

  So, grabbed my hand softly and went away from the restaurant.

  Chapter 8

  «Erik, it is wonderful!» my arms will tighten involuntarily, but I'm so happy right now. I never thought its surprise was that big. After a few hour drive we arrived on this stunning beach. I couldn't believe it, I love the ocean and it looks like he read my mind. The calm ocean of June, the Sun that warms our bodies, I feel so good. The thing that amazes me is that there is none. Very strange, unless this ...

  «This is your private beach, aren't it? »I ask. I get no response, but a simple smile slyly.

  I realize only now to be still clinging to his neck; taken from the embarrassment I blush, portraying his arms. I would like to take a dip in the sea! But there is a fundamental problem: I don't have a costume.

  «We should take a bath, it's too hot, » he says, removing his jacket. Now reads me pure in thought, I believe.

  «It would be nice, but I don't have the costume» do shrug.

  «And what's the problem? Are you ashamed to be seen in underwear? »

  But it should be? No, look, in my free time I go with my boss in a private beach and I'll show you in intimate, that is very sexy. How can he be so nonchalant? He speaks as if nothing had happened. Then did not understand the first thing about me, I'm not as smart as I may seem.

  «I don't think we should» I answer sheepishly.

  «Come on, Elisa, let yourself go. I had no idea I was a cloistered nun. I have seen millions of girls, it's not news to me. » Let me go, huh? He's doing it on purpose, he's challenging me, wants to see if I come on, I bet. I know I'm going to regret this, especially for the Black Lace thong. But, apparently, I decided to get a little cheeky, so I'll jump into the fray.

  At the same time we take off our clothes. Oh, if I'm embarrassed! But the damage is done. His eyes are fixed on my body, I must have something wrong, I do a quick look but everything looks good.

  «What?». I raise my hands to try and cover as much as possible on my body. She bites her lower lip and keeps staring at me.

  My attention is drawn from its members. Oh, my God, he got excited. I have to run into the water and cover me as soon as possible. It was a bad idea to undress but I'm glad to know that they're not indifferent.

  «Whoever last arrives is a coward! »

  I run toward the water as fast as possible. That's now also has a view of my backside. Nice work, David, I'm glad you had to cover for you. I'm almost to touch the water when his arms I they grab life uplifting. Slightly scream with fright.

  «I'm sorry, baby, I always win». Backing me on the sand and dives into the water.

  «So not worth» protest loudly going towards him. Wait, what did you call me? Baby? Again? Calm, maybe call all so. Why should I be an exception? I have to check it out.

  Swimming for several minutes in total silence until I can feel his presence beside me.

  «Why did you kiss me Saturday night?» he asks me.

  Maybe because you look like a Greek God? I refuse to answer that question. I ignore him trying to leave but his hand draws me to him.

  «You can't run away, now answer my question.»

  «But why do you want to know? Come in

  «I want to kiss you» whisper on my lips. Oh, Yes, please. Don't expect more.

  Taken by desire, wrap your arms around his neck, my legs are clinging to his life, I don't have the power to reason. I just want to let me go to this desire for me unknown. You see her run on my lips passionately.

  Right now all my rules are going to hell, for the second time. We seem hungry, wanting to taste more and more. Our tongues dance together with passion, as if he were expecting more.

  We cut ourselves off after a few seconds; my eyes are lost in his.

  «You are so beautiful. » I smile at her compliment and awkwardly mi detachment to swim away. Why run? Basically I wanted that Kiss, I wanted to stay in his arms. Maybe because it's all wrong, he's not for me, it's too ... too much at all. And I do not want to be another name on his list of conquests. Who am I kidding? I'm already, although I didn't go to bed.

  When I leave the water I find it waiting for me on the shore, looking angry.

  «Why would you always run away from me?» Crosses his arms waiting for an answer. It's time to say what

  «You are completely different from the girls I've met so far, and I really want to spend time with you. I admit that all this is strange but with you it all seems so natural».

  He comes dangerously. His proximity does not lead to anything good, I have to stay at a safe distance; instinctively back away.

  «Are you afraid of me? »He advances a few steps. I shake my head as I continue to retreat.

  «Why don't you let me go?».

  His voice sounds like a sweet melody, he is trying to persuade me. Still not clear to me all this insistence could have anyone. Why settle for me?

  «I can't» whisper.

  «Why?». Her mouth is very close to mine.

  «This is wrong. » Grab my hips making them clash with his pelvis. Moving his head constantly touching my lips, is imitating what I did to him at the club. He's flirting with me, as I have done with him. I can't resist a long time, my wall is crumbling.

  «Don't you think it's wrong to give all that up?» Whispers on my lips.

  «It may be. If you let me go, what would happen?» I ask.

  «Discover the paradise» responds. You can't even imagine how I would see the paradise with you but I also know that after I will end up in hell. I can't, I don't have to...but I would. He and his mannerisms are a constant temptation. If I go on like this, I already know that I abandon to this irresistible attraction.

  It takes a huge effort to tear myself from his grasp. Now, that's me, always running away when the going gets intense, are a coward.

  «I would like to go home» I say avoiding his eyes.

  Stiffens but says nothing. Who knows what will be thinking of me, surely I am missing a screw loose. Who would refuse such a man? Just me. Bloody fear.

  During the way of my home, we stayed silent and when I got out of the car I said him goo
dbye with a weak «hello», but he did not answer me.

  I felt guilty, had a nice gesture to take me to the beach, but I can’ t really trust myself.

  I threw myself in the shower hoping to clear it from my mind, but I got the opposite effect because all night I did nothing but think of him.

  I really feel very confused, I need to talk to my friend, I can’ t keep everything inside. Maybe she can help clarify my ideas.

  Lately , she’s a little present, it will be for that boy, odd that he has not talked to me, we always tell us everything.

  I decided to send her a message saying:

  “SOS, I need advice, can you come?”

  “I'm sorry, my dear, I'm too far away, what's going on?” She replied.

  “Where are you? Erik and I, we kissed again.”

  “I'm in Milan with Logan, tell me everything in detail.”

  “Who is Logan?” I said.

  “He's the guy in the club, then I'll tell you,” she replied.

  After telling her everything, I felt better. Clair said I let me go, it all seems so simple.

  So, why am I trying to complicate things?

  Chapter 9

  I'm roused by a noise. I look at the clock and are the 3:00 at night. I turn to the other side but the noise continues, preventing me to fall asleep again. When I connect, I understand that someone is knocking at the door firmly. I'd love to know who is breaking at this hour. Neighbors don't have any. I swear, if it's Clara, is the right time that takes. Get out of bed snorting and I head to the entrance.

  «Who is that? » furious howl, I hate being woken up, let alone in the middle of the night.

  «Open, I am Erik». I'd recognize that voice anywhere, is Erik.

  What the heck are you doing here at this hour? I'm staring at the door confused.

  «I need to talk to you. ' Seems visibly upset, wearing a gray suit and his hair is messy. It's weird to see him so.

  «What are you doing here?» I asked.

  Get in the House without responding. Please, go ahead as if you were at home. Maybe they should explain that without an invitation won't get in. Let's ignore that for a moment.