Laura Joh Rowland - Sano Ichiro 07 - Pillow Book of Lady Wisteria

by Pillow Book of Lady Wisteria(lit)

  Lord Niu looked wary, but nodded.

  "Then the best thing to do is unite our two clans in a marriage between Hirata-san and me," Midori said in a rush. "The wedding would mean a truce. We'll be allies, not enemies."

  A thoughtful look came over Lord Niu's face. Its two halves seemed almost to align.

  Midori took heart because in spite of his peculiarities, Lord Niu wasn't entirely impervious to logic. She remembered what else Reiko had told her to say, when they'd met earlier that morning: "The union will also protect you from the Tokugawa. They won't attack a lord whose daughter is married to the chief retainer of the shogun's sosakan-sama."

  Lord Niu pondered; something awakened in his dreaming eye. He wasn't completely out of touch with the world, either, Midori knew. Even if he didn't realize that the Tokugawa wouldn't start a war and disrupt the peace they'd maintained for almost a century, he understood the benefit of marrying a daughter to someone with a Tokugawa connection. And he had a clever instinct for seizing chances to serve himself. A short eternity passed. Midori held her breath. Then Lord Niu hopped off the dais and crouched in front of her.

  "Do you want so badly to marry?" he said.

  He appeared so concerned about her that Midori's heart leapt. "Yes," she breathed.

  "Well, I suppose that can be arranged." Rising, Lord Niu beckoned to his chief retainer, who came to him. Lord Niu whispered in Okita's ear; Okita listened, nodded, then left the room. Midori wondered what was going on. She prayed that her father would change his mind about Hirata.

  "Are you in love with this boy?" Lord Niu said.

  Midori thought she felt her father relenting. Could this possibly mean he'd sent Okita to apologize to Hirata's father and ask for another miai so the marriage negotiations could start fresh?

  "Yes," Midori said, poised between fear and joy.

  A gradual frown eclipsed Lord Niu's face; his right eye veered slowly. "I shall permit you to marry, and I desire that you should make an advantageous match. But I forbid you to wed the Hirata boy."

  Midori's mouth fell open in stunned disappointment.

  "Whatever his high connections, I don't trust him or his father," Lord Niu said. "A marriage is no guarantee of their good behavior toward me. They would cut my throat as soon as the wedding was over, and sack my province. You shall marry an ally I can trust. I shall begin seeking prospective husbands at once."

  Midori didn't want to bear her baby out of wedlock, but neither did she want Hirata's child born into a marriage between her and a stranger. "Please, Honorable Father, I don't want to marry anyone but Hirata-san." Frantic, she prostrated herself at Lord Niu's feet. "He loves me as much as I love him. We must be together!"

  "Shut up!" Lord Niu raged. "You'll do as I say!"

  "If I can't marry Hirata-san, I'll die!" Midori wept now.

  "I order you to renounce him."

  "No. Please!"

  "Do it, or I'll kill you."

  Lord Niu grabbed her hair, forced her head back, and held the dagger to her throat. Midori sobbed in terror and panic. She didn't want to give in, yet as she felt the cold steel against her skin, she knew her father was serious. She would rather let him kill her than give up Hirata, but she must protect her unborn child.

  "All right," she cried. "I renounce Hirata-san. Just please don't hurt me!"

  "That's better." Lord Niu smiled, released her, and stood. Midori collapsed in a miserable heap. "Now you'll promise to accept a husband I choose for you, or marry the first man that Okita sees passing my gate."

  "No!" Fresh horror reawakened Midori's defiance.

  Lord Niu cocked his head, listening as footsteps came down the corridor. "Ah. Here he is now."

  Okita entered the room, bringing another man with him. The man had straggly hair and missing teeth, and wore filthy rags. He carried a begging bowl that held a few coins. Okita pushed him face-down in front of Lord Niu.

  "Greetings," Lord Niu said as though the beggar was a visiting dignitary. "Many thanks for coming."

  "It's a privilege," the beggar stammered, clearly awed and puzzled at being summoned by the daimyo.

  Lord Niu hauled Midori close to the beggar. She gagged on his stench. "This is my daughter," Lord Niu said. "How would you like to marry her?"

  The beggar looked dumbfounded by what must have seemed to him a stroke of unbelievable luck. "I would like it very much, master, if that's your wish."

  Lord Niu glared at Midori. "Do you promise?"

  Hope died in her, as did the will to resist. "I promise," she whispered.

  23

  The Pillow Book of Lady Wisteria

  As I sit writing by my window, I look down at the street filled with merrymakers. The potted cherry trees are pink with blossoms whose petals fall like snow. How fleeting is their beauty! And how fleeting was the happiness that I hoped would last forever.

  Four years ago I stood beside Sano-san in the parlor of the brothel. He said to the proprietor, "I redeem Lady Wisteria from her servitude to you."

  His attendants paid a chest of gold coins in exchange for my freedom. I was so overwhelmed by love for Sano-san that tears poured from my eyes. His eyes shone with desire for me. We were eager to flee Yoshiwara together, but the departure rituals had to be performed, and such a momentous occasion as the end of my suffering deserved proper celebration.

  The next day I dressed in fine new robes that Sano-san had bought me, then I distributed the farewell gifts he'd provided. My attendants and I promenaded through Yoshiwara, visiting all my friends and giving them packages of boiled rice and red beans. I gave smoked bonito to the teahouses and ageya where I'd entertained clients. All the entertainers and servants received tips from me. Everyone wished me a long, prosperous life. Then Sano-san and I hosted a lavish banquet. I was drunk on wine and joy. Ah, to have the powerful, wealthy sosakan-sama as my lover! I would be safe and want for nothing.

  At last we were escorted to the gate. Sano-san helped me into a palanquin. He and his entourage escorted me all the way to Edo. I laughed, sang, and never looked back at the wicked pleasure quarter.

  I thought Sano-san would take me to Edo Castle, but we stopped in a neighborhood in Nihonbashi. His attendants carried my belongings into a house.

  "I rented this place for you," Sano-san told me.

  Though I was disappointed, I supposed that a man of his rank couldn't marry a courtesan straight out of Yoshiwara; some time must pass before I gained enough respectability to be his wife. And the house would suit me fine until we could live together. It was small, but clean and prettily furnished, and Sano-san had hired servants to wait on me.

  I said, "A thousand thanks for your generosity. Will you stay awhile?"

  His ardent gaze moved over me. "Oh, yes."

  He drew me close. His hands slipped inside my robes. They fell away. I sighed with delight as he caressed me. I loosened his sash and parted his garments and unwound his loincloth. His organ sprang erect. Dropping to my knees, I worshipped him with my mouth. I licked and sucked and stroked him. He threw back his head, moaning, growing larger and harder.

  He raised me and led me to the bed. He sat propped against the cushions, and I straddled him. I rode him slowly and gently, then faster and harder. We breathed and moaned together. As he grabbed my hips and thrust into me with mounting urgency, I leaned toward him and pressed my mouth to his.

  I had taught Sano-san and many other men this lewd, exotic technique. The warm, wet joining of our lips, tongue, and spit drove him wild. He bucked, shouting as he released inside me. His rapture brought on mine. I floated on waves of ecstasy. We were one, our bodies and spirits inseparable.

  Reiko sat holding the book, her lips parted and eyes glazed with shock at what she'd read.

  The story couldn't be true!

  Sano had never said he even knew Lady Wisteria; he couldn't have been the lover who'd freed her from Yoshiwara. And there couldn't be two pillow books. This one was surely a forgery.

  Yet even a
s Reiko tallied the reasons to disbelieve the story, a cold, sick feeling gathered in her stomach. This second pillow book matched the description of Lady Wisteria's, while the first was just a handful of papers. Worse, the passage in which Sano coupled with Wisteria had struck an ominous chord in Reiko.

  Sano liked to make love to her in the position described in the book. He also liked pressing their mouths together during sex. Reiko had never questioned how Sano had developed this practice she'd never heard of; she'd assumed it was something all men did in secret. Had Wisteria really taught it to him?

  Despite her fear of finding proof that Sano had withheld information from her, or more descriptions of his past amorous adventures, irresistible curiosity compelled Reiko to turn the page.

  Spring warmed into summer before I began to suspect that I was merely Sano-san's mistress, not his betrothed. He visited me every other night or so, and we coupled as passionately as ever, but he never mentioned marriage. He seemed content, while I grew bored with sitting alone in my little house and waiting for him. Anxious about my future, I began dropping hints.

  "It's so lonely when you're gone," I would say.

  "Partings are necessary," he would say with a mischievous smile. "Without them there would be no joyous reunions."

  "How I'd like to see Edo Castle," I would say.

  "Someday you shall," he would say.

  Autumn came, then winter. The passing seasons made me too desperate to be subtle any longer. One night, as we lay together, I blurted, "When are we going to marry?"

  Sano-san looked surprised. "Marry? You and me?" He laughed and shook his head. "We're not."

  I was shocked. "I thought you loved me," I said. "I thought you freed me so we could be together."

  "I do love you," Sano-san said, "and I'm sorry you got the wrong idea. But a man of my class can't marry a woman of yours. I thought you understood."

  He meant I would always be a whore, good enough for bed, but not for matrimony. I was crushed!

  "Besides, I'm engaged," Sano-san said with a sheepish grin.

  "Engaged?" I gasped. "You never told me."

  "I didn't want to upset you," he said. "And it didn't seem that important."

  Not important! His news hurt as if he'd stabbed me in the heart.

  "Who is she?" I demanded.

  "Magistrate Ueda's daughter." ,

  To hear more about her would worsen my pain, but I had to ask: "Is she beautiful?"

  Sano-san gave me that flirtatious look of his. "Not as beautiful as you. She's nobody special. But her father is an important man. It's a good match for me. The wedding will be sometime in the New Year."

  I rose and staggered backward, clutching my chest. "You're going to take this girl into your home, into your bed." Tears filled my eyes. "Oh, I can't bear it!"

  Now Sano-san seemed puzzled. "Why are you so upset? My marriage needn't change anything between us." He stood up and put his arms around me. "I'll come and see you as often as ever."

  He meant that I must share him with the magistrate's daughter, and he would enjoy us both! I felt chilled by his callousness, then hot with rage.

  "If you marry her, you'll never touch me again!" I cried, pushing him away.

  Sano-san laughed. "Don't be silly," he said.

  He grabbed my arm, pulled me close, and pressed his mouth to mine. I bit his lip. He shouted and reared back. Blood ran down his chin, and I tasted it on my own tongue.

  "Witch!" he yelled. He slapped my cheek so hard I fell to the floor. "Don't you ever hurt me again. And don't ever tell me what I can do or not."

  I hated him then as much as I loved him. "I'll leave you," I sobbed.

  "Really?" he jeered. "Where will you go? How will you live without the money I give you?"

  "I'll get another man," I said.

  His face turned dark and terrible with rage. "Oh, no, you won't," he said. "You're mine. I paid for you. And I'll have you however I want."

  Then he was upon me, yanking up my skirts, weighing down my body under his. "Stop!" I screamed, furious that he would treat me so.

  I tried to push him off. I beat my hands at him, I tried to squirm away, in vain. Finally I gave up and surrendered. His organ was hard against my loins. He shoved it into me, and oh, the hurt!

  "Please have mercy," I sobbed.

  But Sano-san laughed and groaned and thrust and enjoyed my suffering. When at last he finished, he climbed off me. As I lay sore and weeping and humiliated, he wiped himself on my kimono.

  "That should teach you your place," he said.

  Revulsion halted Reiko's reading. She uttered a sound of indignant denial. This wasn't her husband described in the pillow book. The Sano she knew was good and kind, not mean nor violent as the story portrayed him. He would never mistreat a helpless woman nor take pleasure in forcing himself on her. But doubt eroded Reiko's disbelief.

  She realized how little she knew about Sano's relations with other people. His personality might have a different side that he kept hidden while at home. Nor did Reiko know anything about women in his past. She'd never wanted to find out and shatter her fancy that Sano had never loved a woman until her. Now her ignorance left her defenseless against suspicion, and her inexperience with men made her a poor judge of male character.

  Had Sano really spoken so disparagingly of her to Lady Wisteria?

  Had he indeed loved Wisteria and meant to keep her as his mistress after he married?

  Reiko swallowed the sickness that rose in her throat. Bracing herself, she resumed reading.

  We quarreled again and again. My rage annoyed Sano-san, but I couldn't give up trying to convince him to break his engagement, even though nagging would drive him away.

  The day before his wedding, I made such a scene that he left in disgust. And he didn't come back. A month passed. I thought my heart would break from missing him. Another month went by, and the landlord threatened to evict me because Sano-san hadn't paid the rent. The servants left because they hadn't received their wages, and I had to feed myself on tea and noodles from a nearby stall. The little money Sano-san had left me was running out. I wrote his name on a paper and hid it, but the old charm didn't work. Sano-san didn't come. I would starve to death in the streets!

  Then one night three months after his marriage, as I huddled over a fire made from the last of my coal, the door opened, and there he was. I was so overjoyed that I threw myself into his arms and wept.

  Sano-san laughed. "This is a nice welcome. Maybe I should have stayed away longer."

  His mocking hurt, but he made love to me with such ardor that I knew he'd missed me. He also paid the landlord, rehired the servants, and gave me money. His visits resumed, and I realized that unless I wanted to lose him entirely, I shouldn't nag him. I must use better means of persuading him to divorce his wife and marry me.

  Whenever he was with me, I dedicated myself to his satisfaction. I caressed the nether region between his buttocks with my tongue. I paid a hunter to bring me a live wolf and hold it while I coupled with it and Sano-san watched. Often I would hire young girls to join us in the bedchamber. When we were apart, I worked a charm to make him faithful to me. I drew a picture of his private parts and boiled it with sake, vinegar, soy sauce, tooth-blackening dye, dirt, and lamp wick. But a year passed, and although Sano-san always came back to me, I seemed destined to spend my life on the fringes of his.

  Still, I forced myself to be patient, even on the night when he said his wife had just given birth to their son. This was proof that he bedded his wife even though he said he didn't love her. How jealous and miserable I was that she had borne him a child, while my love for him was barren!

  And the child bound him more tightly to her, dividing us.

  But I smiled and congratulated Sano-san and hid my feelings. Patience and perseverance were my only hope of winning him, and eventually they paid off. It was in the year that the child was born, during the month of leaves, while Sano-san and I sat on the roof viewing the full
moon. He was in a thoughtful frame of mind.

  "I've accomplished more in my life than I ever expected," he said, "but it's not enough. The shogun treats me like a flunky. That despicable idiot will never give me a higher rank, more wealth, or my own province to rule because he likes keeping me where I am. When he dies and I lose his protection, my enemies will jump at the opportunity to destroy me. My only hope of survival is my son."

  A cunning look came over his face. "The boy is strong, bright, and handsome. The shogun has no sons of his own, and therefore no one to succeed him. I shall persuade him to adopt my son as his official heir to the regime. It will take time, of course. My son must grow up and earn the shogun's affection. There are obstacles to clear out of the way. One of them is Lord Mitsuyoshi, the shogun's current favorite. But I know just how to deal with him. Eventually my son will be dictator, and I, who raised him to power, will be secure for the rest of my life."