Dear Georgie,
I Cook-ed the books: Go fuck yourself!
Secret Santa x
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CHRISTMAS FOR THE SICK
AT LUNCH I joined some doctors in a conference room. Decorations had been hung but it did not look particularly festive. Primping the room for Christmas was like using wrapping paper for a tourniquet or sewing up a wound with tinsel. It was good cheer misdirected. There were children dying of incurable diseases upstairs.
Still, that didn't stop anyone from celebrating. There was turkey with stuffing and cranberry sauce, and a few bottles of liquor to make merry. A trauma surgeon told a funny story about operating on a drunk driver in the emergency room. "There were reindeer on his boxer shorts," he said, making a joke about how all the deer were red-nosed from blood.
Everyone laughed. The radiologist on my right selected a bottle of mescal from the booze on the table and poured some into a clear plastic cup. He tilted the bottle toward me, grinning, and I held out my cup for a shot. We all must have been thinking the same thing — if the drunk driver's shorts were bloody, what had happened to his penis? — because a pediatrician started telling a story that had happened to him during his residency. A teenaged boy had been brought to the emergency room after trying to castrate himself. "Unfortunately," laughed the pediatrician, "he didn't understand that castration is not, in the technical sense, amputation."
An oncologist held out a bone from a turkey leg and let it drop into some cranberry sauce. "Did you reattach it?"
The pediatrician grimaced. "I couldn't. The boy's mother didn't bring it along. She couldn't bring herself to pick it up."
"She could have used a Pooper Scooper," said the radiologist.
"Or a pecker picker-upper," a male nurse suggested.
"Better yet," said the oncologist, picking the turkey bone out of the cranberry sauce, "she could have used shlong tongs to put it in a cock sock." He rolled the turkey bone inside a cocktail napkin and held it up.
"Does this lesson in gross anatomy amuse you?" asked the doctor to my left, a Brit by the name of Dr. Peterson. "Believe it or not, it's not unusual to see a patient who's tried to cut his member off. But I once had a man who did the opposite. He blew his whole body off."
I downed my shot of mescal. I could feel it burn in my throat. "What do you mean?"
"Back in London we had a car bombing once — the IRA, you know. The emergency workers recovered all the body parts of all the victims, but we had a certain appendage that we couldn't account for. All the male bodies had their penises, but we had a penis that had no body."
"So it must have belonged to a female," I said. "A hermaphrodite, or a pre-op taking hormones." I do not know why I thought this was funny — was it the drink? — but I laughed and reached for the bottle of mescal to pour myself another shot.
Dr. Peterson was perfectly serious. "All the women had their genitalia as well."
"Then where did it come from?" I asked, still holding the bottle in my hand. "There must have been another body. The emergency workers must have missed it."
"In the western world, there are never unrecovered remains. People always claim their dead."
"What if the bodies are mutilated beyond recognition?"
"We have very sophisticated identification techniques: dental records, fingerprints, DNA..."
"So where did this severed penis come from?"
"It could only have been the bomber."
"How so?" I burped, and the alcohol burned up into my mouth again.
"We hypothesized that the bomb exploded prematurely. The bomber's car must have hit a bump in the road and set off the bomb accidentally. He was probably carrying it on a plank or a board in his lap. The plank protected that one area, and everything else was literally blown to smithereens."
"How come no one came forward to claim the — ?"
"The remains? Who would? And what would they do with it?"
Just as I started to imagine a specimen jar full of formaldehyde, or perhaps one of those little coffins they put infants in, the radiologist reached in front of me. I was still holding the bottle of mescal in my hand. "If you're not going to pour," he said, "allow me." He took the bottle and, as he tipped it into my cup, the gusano slipped out. "The worm!" the radiologist hollered. "He's got the worm!" Soon the doctors were banging with their fists on the table and cheering rhythmically. "Eat it. Eat it. Eat it."
I watched the worm, a pinkish nub of flesh swirling in the alcohol, and thought of the bomber's remains. What would his survivors do with it? Bury it in a tiny grave the size of a beer bottle? Or would his widow keep it on the mantle in a jar of formaldehyde? And if so, would she ever be tempted to take it out and — well — in a moment of loneliness... After all, it was a genital, and in the final analysis there's not much you can do to guarantee the sanctity of your remains. "I'll just cremate myself," you say — but then some weirdo comes along to ejaculate in your urn and stir his semen into your ashes with a finger. For every type of cadaver, I thought, there must be a corresponding type of necrophile. No body is safe. Just because we cease to make active use of our sexual organs does not mean that others won't make a passive use of them. In death we become defenseless and, to necrophiles, irresistible. Every cadaver is a sex object, and in that sense the terrorist who blew off his body is a symbol of our common fate. In the end, we are all of us reduced to a dead genital.
I felt a nudge in the ribs. "Go ahead," said Dr. Peterson. "The gusano is not really a worm. It's a butterfly larva. Think of it as a thing with the potential for great beauty. Go ahead. Do it."
Laurence Staig
FREEBIES
THE OLD ONE-EYED Chinaman who stood in the market place was giving them away. He wasn't giving them to quite everyone though. Just people who took his fancy, and who said nice things about the pile of old junk that he was selling from his stall. The old man appeared to like kids, and was acting up like some weird oriental Santa Claus.
Dad had bought a wok from him, for Mum; it was going to be a Christmas present. I'd have preferred to go to Habitat, then you knew where it'd been, but Dad wanted to be his usual 'grassroots' self and buy the thing from the people who knew, really knew, about woks.
Dad really can be a boring old fart sometimes.
I wasn't so sure that Mum would know what to do with the thing anyhow, or whether or not she even wanted one. Her mind would be on other things this year, it being the first one without Grannie.
So I ended up being dragged around Chinatown, in the middle of dirty smelly old Soho, on a busy Saturday afternoon, just to get a piece of authentic Chinese frying pan!
The old Chinaman gave me the creeps. A wrinkled prune of a face, with green teeth in a gap-filled mouth, which gasped hot stale breath when he bent down to whisper in my ear.
'Please take it,' he grinned, 'for you. It is present. For you, how you call it? A freebie. With every twenty wok I sell today, a freebie. Yes, it is good, eh?'
He had to be joking, and what a coincidence.
How'd he know about my little hobby, anyhow?
It didn't matter, I'd got another one for the collection.
I looked at the little black plastic box with the dangling chrome chain. He must have read ray mind and I could certainly read Dad's. He just groaned. You see, I had a thing about 'give-aways'. Collected them all the time, out of breakfast cereal packets, from petrol stations when we got petrol, supermarkets, anywhere really.
I just liked them, like little trophies. Freebies, as the man said.
'What is it?' I asked.
'It doesn't matter,' said Dad through clenched teeth, 'it's kind of the gentleman to give us anything at all.'
'It clever key-ring,' said the Chinaman, 'instructions in little panel, where battery go. Batteries not included. You like? I sell you packet, here. Special price to you of one pound ninety pence.'
A leathery hand unfolded to reveal a packet of digital watch batteries, produced from nowhere like a c
ard in a magician's card trick.
Dad's face twitched. I sniggered.
'Crafty old sod,' I said to myself, 'he's just got Dad to shell out on a couple of batteries that he wasn't expecting to have to buy.'
Dad gave him what he sometimes called one of his 'old-fashioned' looks and pressed two pound coins into the Chinaman's palm.
The hand closed.
The old man wished Dad a happy Christmas, and turned to serve another customer who was interested in a wok set.
We didn't even get the change.
That Chinaman was smarter than he looked.
Dad, decided that we should walk to Trafalgar Square and perhaps take a bus or taxi back to Brixton. He still wanted to poke around in a few shops, just in case he saw something else he fancied.
'We've got to help Mary through Christmas now that Edith won't be with us this year. You know how dependent she was on the old bat -' he corrected himself, 'the old dear. Help her to take her mind off things, OK?'
He winked at me. I smiled back to keep him happy.
Hypocrite. I knew what he really thought about Grannie.
I hated it, too, when he called Mum Mary, so familiar, as though I was one of their wally 'drinks party' friends instead of a kid, and I could never get used to Grannie being called by her first name. It wasn't right. As far as I was concerned Grannie was Grannie, and she'd always been around.
'You're growing up now, Sarah,' he'd said to me once, 'you must start to behave more like an adult. I also think it's about time you stopped playing with all those stupid gimmicky toys you litter your room with.'
He always went on and on about how we were slaves of the 'consumer society' as he called it, and how I was a mindless dingbat to go along with it all.
That was a joke coming from a middle-aged bloke who thought he was really IT.
Me? I just liked freebies, that was all.
Dad hated the fact that the old Chinese prune had given me another toy. The joke was on him though: he'd bought me the batteries to go with it!
As we walked down Charing Cross Road I turned the little plastic tag case over in my hand. I wondered at first why a key-ring needed batteries, but then I realized what it was.
In gold lettering on one side was a line of Chinese letters; beneath that in English it simply said 'Chang's Quality Woks, Brewer Street, London, England (main distributors)'.
On the other side of the tag it said 'Key-Finder'.
The little yellow paper stuffed inside the base explained it all in sentences my teacher wouldn't have liked: Kee-Finder will nether let yuu down if kees yuu lose or mislay. Just whistle. If yor keys are within a 30' radios our tag will immeddiately return call with a serees of clere tones.
It was one of those lost-key locators. I was really pleased.
I couldn't wait to try it out.
Dad wanted to go into a bookshop near the National Gallery, 'Better Books'. He wanted to get Mum (or Mary) another present. I followed him in while trying to fit the pill-shaped batteries into the base of the key tag.
The shop was jam-packed. Christmas shoppers, cookery books and pictures of the Royal Family everywhere.
A lady in the shop, with glasses and a bun on the back of her hair, pinned a big round yellow badge on my coat lapel. She asked me if I liked books and wished me happy Christmas. There was a miniature book stuck in the centre of the badge, the size of a postage stamp. It opened, with pages like a real book. Above this was the message: Better books are Better!
It was a really good freebie. I hadn't seen one like that before.
Dad took my badge off when he saw it, and slapped it down on the counter. The lady with the bun glared at him.
Dad (or Jim if we're into parent-speak), was getting himself all worked up again. Mumbling about me being an easy target, a sucker for it all.
He bought a hi-fi magazine on the way out of the shop, and there was a freebie stuck to the cover with a bit of Sellotape. A Hi-fi Casebook pencil sharpener. It was clever. A little plastic compact disc with the sharpener on the other side of the spindle hole. On the way home he never lifted his head out of his precious hi-fi magazine once! Typical. He's just as much of a consumer-head as everyone else!
He wouldn't let me whistle on the bus, but when we got off at Brixton Hill I tried to get the Key-Finder to work.
So I whistled. I whistled at it, whistled in it, practically took the thing apart. Nothing.
Dad got mad, which was really ironic considering all the fuss he'd been making about the thing, said he'd a mind to go all the way back to Soho and give the man his batteries back.
I wasn't that bothered. After all, it had been free, it looked pretty and I could still put my keys on it if I wanted to.
But I had another idea, another use for it.
'Are you going to chuck it?' asked Dad as we turned into our drive, past the dustbins.
I shook my head.
Dad stopped and turned on his heels. A single finger was lifted.
I'm warning you, are you listening, young lady? You leave Dylan alone, he's got a hard enough life as it is trying to survive in the Brixton Hill gardens with all that other nonsense you've fixed on the poor little devil's collar!'
I just smiled, politely, and then shoved the key tag deep into ray coat pocket. Dad could be such a pain.
Dylan was scratching himself on the porch mat as we walked up the path.
The front door opened. Mum (or Mary) stood in the doorway.
She didn't look good. I sighed.
* * *
Dad (or Jim) was making caustic comments in the living-room about how the Christmas booze seemed to be prematurely lowering its level. The surface line in the large bottle of Gordon's, which sat on the Habitat trolley, was certainly nearing the bottom.
Even I noticed that.
But then again, Mum was depressed.
I spent my time out in the kitchen trying to make the key tag work, but it wouldn't give out so much as a peep. Dylan had struggled into the kitchen too.
Mum and Dad were rowing again and Dylan wanted to get out of their way.
I didn't blame him.
Dad was making the usual fuss about how she had to pull herself together, she'd a family (and him) to look after, just because Edith's number had come up we didn't have to spend the entire Christmas in mourning.
Then he threatened to re-convert the grannie-flat which we'd had built next to the garden shed. He'd always threatened to make it into an outdoor aquarium.
Ah well.
And my new freebie didn't work.
Dylan purred smugly down at me from the top of the boiler. His head was lowered from the weight of his great collection of Cat Consumables. Mum called him our 'Consumer Kitty'.
I attached the key tag to his collar along with the other freebies:
his Katto-Kipper personalized name disc
plastic Burger King bun
miniature Coca-Cola bottle
Holiday Inn room tag
MHI luggage label
Kellogg's Munchkin Man
and a Dr Who Energizer ring which wrapped around his neck.
That had been a special 'give-away' at the Arndale Shopping Centre in Croydon; he liked that best of all.
Dylan opened his sleepy eyes and stretched his paws and shook his new toy. Then, with a loud miaow, probably a 'thank you', he made for the kitchen door. His freebies crashed into the cat flap on his way out.
In the living-room they were still rowing.
Dad's voice was getting really loud.
Outside came the rumble of an approaching car. I suddenly had a bad feeling.
I heard Mum's glass smash at almost the same time as we heard the screech of brakes out in the front road.
There was an awful short tangled wail. The kind of sound cats make when they scrap. Then silence.
I heard Dad yell, 'Oh my God, no!' Dad can be 50 dramatic.
* * *
Yesterday was miserable: black and solemn.
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bsp; Dad blamed me. He was really mad. But it was good of him to dig Dylan a nice neat grave out in the back garden.
He kept muttering about how there had been far too much on his collar, and how the whistling keyring had been the final straw. Just slowed him down, so when he'd run across the street he was an easy target.
Mum told him to shut up, that he'd upset 'the child'.
'The child' indeed. I just ignored her.
We put Dylan in the soft soil where Mum had planted the Hobson's Garden Centre roses, just in front of the grannie-flat.
We buried him with full honours, all his toys intact. I'd wanted the key-ring back, just as a souvenir, but Mum was almost sick when Dad tried to find it. It was like picking a favourite strawberry out of a collapsed flan.
She called me a funny word. I didn't know what it meant, but I didn't like the sound of it at all.
A ghoul?
You can go off parents.
* * *
Sleep was very difficult that night, in fact everything was a funny blur. The air in my bedroom seemed thick and it was difficult even to breathe.
I opened the dormer window and looked down into the garden.
It was dark and cold, but winter clear outside.
A grey cloud passed over, and the grass in front of the grannie-flat reflected moonglow once more.
The garden shone.
A newly heaped pile of topsoil marked the spot. I had scratched Dylan's name on a coke can, and fixed it in the ground, a temporary tombstone.
The TV offer peacock wind-chime which hung within the window-frame sang softly as a gentle wind got up.
A last goodnight to Dylan.
I shivered and scrambled back to bed.
I must have forgotten to close the window because I remember the sounds well. So bright. Icy sharp.
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