What Not to Bare

by Megan Frampton

  Alasdair wished he’d just shut up. It wouldn’t be possible to slide back into oblivion, not while the loudmouth was yelping. At least the rest of the customers had quieted, waiting to hear what it was the Scot was selling.

  Alasdair watched as Mackenzie leaned down and pulled on something—an arm? While he pulled, another man—a younger one, his face contorted in a sneer—shoved a woman onto the table where Mackenzie held her, tightly, around the waist. She didn’t struggle, just gazed at the assembled crowd with a blank expression on her face. Too blank.

  Alasdair sat up. His head throbbed from the effort.

  “What’ll you bid?” Twenty or thirty men were watching—no, inspecting—the woman on the table. Alasdair wiped a hand over his face, clearing his bleary eyes.

  She was medium height, with dark, curly brown hair. Her gown was modestly cut, but tight, as if it had belonged to someone else, and her breasts strained at the fabric. Her figure looked lush and inviting, the kind of figure men slavered after.

  The kind of figure that would make every man in the room want her.

  “Untouched.” Mackenzie winked, a grotesque leer, and then bent down and inched her skirt up slowly until her entire ankle and part of her shin was showing. She wasn’t wearing shoes or stockings, and the pale, white flesh of her leg gleamed in the candlelight.

  Alasdair stared, transfixed by the lovely curve of her calf, the delicate bones of her ankle. His eyes traveled up, taking in the much-washed fabric of her gown, her luscious breasts, the graceful column of her neck.

  He noticed a dark area on her shin. A trick of the light? A birthmark marring that otherwise perfect skin?

  He glanced at her face, dreading what he would see there, but knowing he had to look anyway.

  As he’d expected, no emotion registered there. Her eyes were dull, her pupils huge and dark.

  It was worse than if she’d been frightened or trembling—she was so distant from what was happening, he doubted she even comprehended it. And that blankness, that empty gaze, cut through to the heart he’d thought was blackened forever.

  Damn it. He was going to have to do something.

  “How do we knows she’s a virgin?” a voice asked. “Who’s to say she ain’t just pulled a fast one on you?”

  Mackenzie let go of the woman, who wobbled unsteadily as her skirt tumbled down. The Scot rolled his head back and laughed, hooking his thumbs in the waistband of his trousers. He bobbed forward and eyed the crowd. “ ’Cause she’s a vicar’s daughter, my lords. And she comes straight from church, pure as an angel. God’s honest truth,” he finished, chuckling at his own wit.

  There was a moment of silence—Reverence? Appreciation?—and then the bidding started.

  “Two pounds!” a gruff voice shouted from behind Alasdair.

  “She’s worth more’n that,” the younger man said from behind Mackenzie, his voice tinged with desperation. Mackenzie turned around to shush the man, and then faced the crowd again with that patently false smile plastered on his face. He clasped the woman to his side.

  Not that she was struggling. Alasdair doubted she even could.

  “Two pounds three shillings!” A large man to Alasdair’s right flung his hand in the air, then swept off his hat and bowed toward the table. “Although the lady might want to consider paying me after I’m done with her,” he added. The men in the room laughed. A few derisive comments followed.

  The woman didn’t react at all.

  Anger roiled in his gut, anger at the crowd, the greasy Scot who had her on the table, the man standing behind her, even anger at her for allowing herself to be put in this position.

  She needed rescuing. And he was the furthest thing from a knight in shining armor anyone could possibly imagine.

  “Three pounds, gentleman, for the pleasure of taking this dell’s virtue. For the pleasure,” Mackenzie said, running his hand from her waist up her side, “of owning her.” He slid his hand forward and placed it on her breast, squeezing it, stroking it, his eyes closed in exaggerated ecstasy, his other hand reaching toward his crotch.

  She remained still. Not looking in any particular direction, just—placid. Calm. As though she weren’t being eyed by a group of lusty farmers while being fondled by a crass, pretentious Scot with suspect fashion choices.

  Alasdair jumped up before he could stop himself. “Five pounds!” he barked, thumping on the table with his closed fist. The men in the room glanced around in surprise, obviously wondering where the real gentleman had come from.

  Alasdair hadn’t spoken more than a few mumbled words since arriving at the pub—he hadn’t wanted to be noticed. But now every man in the place was gawking at him, his accent giving him away as Quality.

  There was a low murmur as hands were shoved back into pockets and the men began to shuffle from side to side. Alasdair had won the bidding, as much with his accent as with his money.

  The auctioneer’s eyes opened and his hand dropped back to the woman’s waist. “Well, then, my lord,” he said, “she’s all yers. Provided, of course, you’ve got the ready?”

  Alasdair didn’t bother replying to Mackenzie’s implied insult. He shoved his fingers in his pockets for his money as he stepped forward. He’d planned exactly how much to spend tonight—enough to get deliciously deadened, but not enough to actually kill him. And then, because old habits die hard, he’d stuck some more bank notes in his pocket in case of emergency.

  This, he reasoned, was an emergency.

  He strode up to the table, unsteady on his feet at first. The room was silent, so quiet the rustle of the money in his hand echoed like a hammer in Alasdair’s brain.

  The man waited for Alasdair to place the note on the table, then removed his hand from the woman’s waist, pushing her forward until she teetered on the edge of the table. She stepped forward so that one foot dangled off the table, then Mackenzie gave her a push, and—

  She fell into Alasdair’s arms.

  It was not an elegant rescue, the kind where the noble prince gathers the humble milkmaid gently in his arms and consecrates the moment with a kiss. Her elbow landed smartly on his head, his arm muscles stretched and protested under her weight, and for a moment he was convinced they were both going to end up in a heap on the sawdust-strewn wood floor.

  He staggered, sliding her down his body until her feet touched the floor and she was able to stand on her own. He reached up to rub the sore spot on his head, and then clasped her by the arm to keep her from falling over. “Are you all right?”

  She shook his hand off and nodded, but he wasn’t sure she had really heard the question. He needed to get her out of here before she emerged from her stupor.

  Before she realized what had happened to her.

  And then what the hell was he going to do?

  “Come along,” he said. He could hear his own rough tone, the voice he’d used with green recruits. He was lucky he was staying in the inn upstairs—she had clearly been drugged, and was unsteady on her feet.

  They mounted the small wooden staircase in silence, Alasdair holding her upright as she shuffled along. He dug into his pocket for the room key, and then held her close to his body as he opened the door.

  He held the door open for her, then slammed it behind them and gestured toward the narrow bed. “Sit down there.”

  The covers were in disarray from where he’d thrashed about in the throes of one of his nightmares, but of course she didn’t notice. She sat where he’d indicated, her hands folded demurely in her lap, her eyes fixed on a point in the distance. Some of his men had worn that same look in battle. He sat down beside her, unutterably weary. So much for his glorious plans of oblivion.

  He could tell when she began to emerge from whatever it was that had possessed her—her eyes, the stormy dark blue of an angry sea, began to focus. Her pupils narrowed. Her entire body began to tremble.

  He wrapped an arm around her shoulders. She was shaking so hard it jarred him, and he put his other arm across her ches
t to gather him to her. Then he began to lie down, still holding her, wrapped up in his body.

  “Shh,” he said, wishing that she had someone else to take care of her. The bed was narrow, barely big enough for his large frame, much less another person. He tried to make himself as small as possible—not easy, considering his size—while also trying to keep himself as distant from her as he could.

  He had no idea how to calm her. He could hear her teeth chattering, even though her body was warm next to his. He tried not to think about how warm she was, in fact, nor how soft her skin was, nor how her bottom was tucked into his groin.

  He was not doing a very good job of not thinking, he knew. But at least he wasn’t acting on his thoughts.

  He could do nothing but lie there next to her, holding her as she began to thrash in earnest. He instinctively flung his leg over hers, holding her down, and clasped her even tighter in his arms.

  She felt so good there. So right. Though he knew it was wrong to imagine it, he thought of her turning to him, offering him her mouth, allowing him to caress her breasts, her stomach, allowing him to pleasure her.

  And he would find solace in burying himself inside her, her warm sheath offering a welcome respite from his pain.

  He slid his hand down her arm—so soft, her skin. Her hair tickled his nose. It was redolent of some sort of floral, but of course he didn’t know what.

  And her body lay against his, the warmth and softness and utter femininity of her causing his senses to whirl.

  And still he did nothing but murmur and try to soothe her.

  Eventually, the shaking eased, and she lay still in his arms.

  “Did I do … was there …?” She spoke in a quiet voice.

  “No,” he said. “Nothing happened.” He took his leg off hers, and she turned her head, regarding him with a steady, serious gaze. Not timid, then, despite what she was going through. Frightened, of course, he could see that in her eyes, but not terrified or weak. He could bet she hadn’t gotten herself into this situation—it had been forced on her. He felt a grudging sense of admiration for her.

  “What’s your name?” he asked.

  “Mary.” Her voice was already stronger.

  “Well, Mary, welcome to hell.”

  ***

  Try as she might, Mary couldn’t convince herself he had a kind face.

  She lay on the bed as he paced, no doubt wondering just what he was going to do with her now that he’d bought her.

  Bought her.

  She couldn’t think about that too much or she’d start to scream. And that would be no help at all in her current situation. Better to assess her reality: him.

  She peered up from under her lashes. He was tall, taller even than Tall Tom who helped her father with odd jobs around the vicarage.

  Welcome to hell. His voice was sharp and rough, but she could tell he’d intended to be gentle. She wondered if he’d ever been gentle in his entire life—oh, yes.

  He had; when he’d held her, when he’d murmured those soft, soothing noises in that sinful-as-chocolate voice. That was gentleness. And a welcome respite from her own hell. She didn’t remember much of the evening, just her half brother dragging her to this awful place and forcing something down her throat.

  People staring at her. Him taking her up a flight of stairs, lying next to her on this bed. Had they really shared such an intimate space?

  The warmth his body left behind on the bed was proof, even if she didn’t have her hammering heart to offer testimony as well.

  What was he doing here? In this place? Buying women?

  She sat up, suddenly too aware of her surroundings. Him.

  It was hard to imagine he’d need to buy anything, much less female companionship.

  His eyes were green, as light and clear and pure as a stained-glass window on a sunny day. His eyebrows slashed across atop his eyes, two black, uncompromising lines. The bones in his face were sharp, too, the angles and planes making him more than just plainly handsome.

  Because he was. Handsome, that is. One of the most gloriously handsome men Mary had ever seen. Just looking at him made her catch her breath. His lips, his beautiful, luscious lips, were full and sensual, in marked contrast to the stark depths of his face. His black hair was long and tousled with a slight wave. It brushed the top of his collar. A collar that to Mary’s knowledgeable eyes was in need of a good cleaning.

  Mary’s eyes swept down the rest of him. He was broad shouldered and clearly athletic, his long, well-muscled legs standing in arrogant command.

  “If you’re done eying me like a cut of meat, Mary, perhaps you could tell me more about why we have found each other together this evening?” His tone was acerbic. Far from the man who’d held her. Who’d calmed her.

  She responded before thinking, in the frosty tone that used to make the schoolgirls she taught quake in their pinafores. “It is not necessary, sir. If you are done with me, done with this”—she rose and gestured around the spare, squalid room—“I can be on my way. There is no need—”

  He jerked his arm out and pulled her to him, raking his eyes up and down her body. “And where will you go? You are hardly in a position to say if there is a need or not. Don’t forget, I paid five pounds for you.”

  Five pounds. Likely a pittance to him, judging by the way he spoke and the quality of his clothing. A fortune for her, given that she had exactly nothing. Her half brother had made sure of that.

  She stared up into his face, noticing the laugh lines running from the corners of his eyes. So he had laughed a few times in his life. He held her gaze for a minute, and it seemed to Mary that his face almost softened. Like he was coming close to smiling.

  Which made her even more surprised when he released her abruptly. He walked over to the opposite wall and dropped his head down toward his chest. As though he’d suddenly been defeated.

  “I can pay you back,” she said, ignoring the voice in her head that asked just how she intended to do that.

  “How will you do that?” he asked. His voice had changed again—softened, but not in the warm way she recalled from before. This time it was more … seductive.

  And damn it if she didn’t feel her body react to it.

  “I am educated, sir, and if I find a position …”

  “What kind of position?” He moved back toward her, predatory, like an animal stalking its prey.

  Mary fluttered her hands in the air. “A governess, or a lady’s maid, or whatever is offered to me.”

  By now he stood close to her again. “And if I were to offer you a position?”

  Mary swallowed. There was no mistaking what he meant—she wouldn’t insult them both by asking if he had children for her to teach.

  He reached his hand up and grasped her chin with his fingers. “Perhaps if we are creative we can think of several positions.”

  Mary’s mouth opened wide in shock. Which, of course, is just the moment he lowered his head and pressed his mouth to hers.

  She couldn’t do anything for a few seconds but stand there, in shock, as his lips made contact with hers. Her first thought was that his mouth was so warm, in such stark contrast to his cold words and expression.

  And then his tongue licked her lips, a quick swipe that drew a gasp from her in response.

  She remained stock still, not moving, not touching him anywhere but where their mouths were joined. A part of her knew she should be pushing him away, but she was frozen. And yet warm—so warm from him, his mouth, the body heat that was seeping into her skin.

  And just as suddenly he pushed her from him so abruptly she stumbled, and he turned his head away.

  But not before she saw the look of despair on his face.

  “Go outside for a minute.” He spoke in a ragged whisper.

  “Where?” Hadn’t he just said she had nowhere else to go? Or had their kiss befuddled him as much as it had her?

  “Just leave!” he barked. “Wait outside until I call for you.”

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p; When she didn’t move, he advanced toward her as if he would physically remove her. She turned and fled out the door, slamming it defiantly behind her.

  Out in the hall she fumed at her lack of options. And his unnecessarily commanding tone. But what else should she have expected? Matthias had made her future inevitable. She had no money, no family, no future. Just a tiny thread of hope.

  She rubbed her mouth where he’d kissed her. Her first kiss—at least the first one that had mattered. Not quite as she’d imagined it would be. She could not think about it.

  As she had a million times since she’d discovered the truth, she clung to the thought of her mother, the woman she’d never known. Alive. In London. What did her mother look like? What did she know of her daughter?

  If she could just get to London and locate her mother, she would find out. Mary’s future would be—what? Better than this, certainly. It had to be. The alternative was unthinkable.

  She sagged against the door frame, her head pounding as she realized just what had happened in the past hour: she’d been drugged and sold at auction, and then she’d shared a bed with a man who wasn’t her husband, who had given her her first kiss before sending her into the hallway as if she were a misbehaving child.

  It was hard enough discovering she was the illegitimate daughter of a vicar; being the homeless, penniless, illegitimate daughter of a vicar was almost enough to make her lose hope. Almost.

  Mary smiled to herself as she realized the village’s nickname for her—“Merry Mary”—was being tested in perverse ways.

  Her thoughts returned to the man on the other side of the door. Her master. “What is he doing in there?” she muttered to herself.

  While she waited, her analytic brain cycled through the events of the last hour, the last week, the last month, until her head hurt. Or perhaps that was the aftereffect of whatever Matthias had given her. Just as she was starting to feel the rising pangs of panic, the door swung open and he stood there, one arm leaning arrogantly on the frame of the door. At least it seemed arrogant; she wasn’t sure if arms could be arrogant, but if they could, his definitely was.