[2015] Western Love

by Christian Michael

  Sadie stayed through the afternoon and helped Kayla with dinner. “Will you and Pecos stay and eat with us?”

  “Not tonight,” Sadie smiled. “Your little one will fall asleep and trust me at four months, you and Curt need some alone time together. Don’t forget, my friend that being a mother doesn’t negate the fact that you’re a wife as well.”

  “I’m not sure I know the meaning of the word right now,” Kayla laughed, exhaustion coating the sound.

  “Trust me, you will. It will get easier and you’ll once again find the longing for your husband undeniable.”

  “How do you and Pecos manage it with three children?”

  “The jump was difficult, especially because Pecos and Rachel are so much older already, but we learned as all parents inevitably do, to take things one day at a time. Eventually it all irons out and life becomes a routine that everyone can live with.”

  “I sure hope so,” Kayla chuckled. “Alright my friend. I will strive to remember that I am both a mother and a wife. You do me a favor and enjoy both your husband and your kids as well.”

  “I plan to,” Sadie laughed. “We’ll see you next weekend for supper. Maybe I can cook this time.”

  ***

  Curt came in later that afternoon to get washed up for supper. “Was that Sadie I saw leaving earlier?”

  “Yes,” Kayla elaborated. “She came by to visit and see how I was doing adjusting to life after Albert’s arrival.”

  “That was sweet of her.”

  “Truly,” Kayla smiled. “She admonished me to remember that I am equally a wife and mother.”

  “What does that mean?”

  “I just think she wanted me to remember that being a mother doesn’t mean I’m not a wife. That I should remember you, as well as, Albert.”

  “You do remember me, don’t you?”

  “Maybe not in the areas I need to, although I do try.”

  “Albert’s only four months old, surely intimacy can wait.”

  “Sadie has a point,” Kayla said, bringing a spoon of spaghetti sauce over so he could taste it.

  “Fabulous,” Curt said. “And what would her point be?”

  “That being parents doesn’t negate that we’re married, that we’re spouses who are supposed to love each other.”

  “So holding off on intimacy is a symbol of not loving each other?”

  “I’m not saying that,” Kayla said, her frustration growing. “I’m just saying that it’d be nice to spend some time with you that doesn’t revolve around the ranch and Albert and everything else. To just sit with you and enjoy a cup of coffee, even if we never say a word to each other.”

  “I’m sorry Kayla,” Curt sighed. “I promised to be honest and upfront with you and I haven’t been. The truth is, I’m terrified to touch you. I’m scared that we’re not ready, that you still need to heal. I’m scared of getting pregnant too soon after Albert. I’m afraid that I’ll fail him and you.”

  “When did the man that I love become so fearful?” Kayla asked, coming over to him. Pressing a hand to his cheek she brought his beautiful baby blues to her face. “I love you Curtis Aaron Langley, no matter what life throws at us. I don’t care if we have two babies of twenty. I don’t care if we have this ranch or a two-bedroom shack. As long as I have you, Albert and God, I’m happy and I’m home.”

  “I don’t deserve you Kayla. But I swear I’m trying to be worthy of you.”

  “Oh hush,” Kayla scolded him. “You are worthy of me. If you weren’t we wouldn’t be happily married with a beautiful little boy and a life that fulfills us.”

  “Once again you’re absolutely right,” Curt chuckled. He brought Kayla into his arms and pressed a tender kiss to her hair. As they walked into the kitchen to start supper, Kayla thought about her ticket to Texas. She thanked God again, that she’d only asked for a one way ticket. It was all she’d needed.

  *****

  THE END.

  Winning Her Heart

  Christian Romance

  CHRISTIAN MICHAEL

  Prologue

  Becca Stanley kept her head down as she left third period English and headed towards her last class of the day, Algebra II, with Mr. Rathburn. They had an exam that day and math was her worst subject by far. An otherwise straight-A student, Algebra was her Achilles heel; without fail she always managed to get a low C. I don’t know how I even manage to get that much! Dang it what’s the last part of Distance? Square root of umm… x two and one squared…was it plus or minus next – plus, that’s it. Plus y two and one squared. OK good. I know that one. What’s next? Oh crap I’m here. Oh Lord, help me now. The bell rang as she took her seat in her usual spot, the corner seat in the back row.

  Just as Mr. Rathburn got up from his desk to lock the door for the exam – late students weren’t allowed to take the exam and there were no make-up tests – Greg Fields, the school’s star quarterback, literally skidded into class.

  “Close call, Mr. Fields,” Mr. Rathburn said dryly as he locked the door, “I trust you actually studied for this test seeing your playing privileges hinge on the results?”

  “No sweat, Mr. Rathburn, “Greg said as he headed towards the only empty seat, “I’ve got this one in the bag.”

  Mr. Rathburn made a choking sound in the back of his throat, something like a cross between a cough and a disbelieving snort, while he passed out the tests.

  “Hey Becks”, Greg said as he sat next to her, “how you doing?”

  Becca blushed but greeted him steadily before writing her name on her copy of the test.

  “Okay class, you know the rules.” Mr. Rathburn’s voice punctuated clearly, “Head’s down, only pencils are allowed on your desk. Put away the calculators, you won’t need them this time. You have until the bell to finish. I suggest you make wise use of your time, you’re going to need every minute.”

  Becca tried to keep her attention on the test but her mind kept straying to Greg Fields. Why did he have to sit next to me?! On today of all days! She had known Greg all her life, they were neighbors when they were kids. Ever since then, Becca had had a crush on Greg – and he knew it too! But as high school boys were wont to be, he was inconsiderate of her feelings and teased her mercilessly.

  The other kids at school took their cue from him and they had no problem poking at her because they all knew Greg was out of her league. Short and chubby with glasses and a bush for hair, no one would ever say Becca was attractive, or even cute. If they were nice, they would say she was adorable and had a nice personality. Which, as everyone knows, is just code for no-boy-in-his-right-mind-would-date-her. If people weren’t nice – say, for example, most high school girls – they called her the Ugly Duckling.

  Becca rushed through her exam as fast as she could while still trying to solve all the problems correctly. She was the first to finish. She turned in her paper, gathered her stuff and left the school in record time and headed to the ice-rink where she knew she wouldn’t need to even worry about Greg or the fact that Prom was coming up and she would be home because, really, who was going to ask her out? High school was a popularity contest and seeing as how she was the dead bottom of the pack, no one would commit social suicide and risk being associated with her.

  Truly, though, she really didn’t mind. Becca was an only child and her parents weren’t what one would call involved. They were usually travelling – both her parents were in the airline industry as captains of commercial liners. Both made more than enough for the three of them to live comfortably.

  While she had no doubt her parents loved her, she recognized at an early age that they were too involved in themselves, each other and their careers to pay her much mind as long as she stayed out of trouble. She was used to taking care of herself and for all the fact she tried to hide among the masses in school, Becca was actually pretty self-assured. She knew who she was, she knew high school wasn’t forever, and she knew she could make something of herself if she wanted to. She just wished she wasn’t
so obviously in love with Greg Fields.

  At the rink, Becca wore her usual training outfit of leggings and a long sweatshirt. She knew that she should wear something more formfitting to make her spins tighter and cleaner but such outfits made her feel too exposed, even when covered from neck to toe. She was well-endowed and she didn’t like the looks that came her way from guys when she wore tighter clothes. They were always ogling her body and they didn’t care about who she was. She had learned her lesson well from the one summer fling she had when she was sixteen, two years ago.

  Henry Miller was a handsome boy and Becca had been flattered by the attention he paid her. He was sweet and cajoling and captivating. One day, he had asked her to meet him at the rink for a date to watch the first of the season’s amateur skating shows. Henry was already there when Becca arrived earlier than they had planned; she saw Henry sitting with Greg and some of the other football players. She gathered her courage and made her way to them with as much of a confident smile as she could muster. She was proud that she had managed to catch the attention of a handsome guy like Henry.

  She stopped in her tracks a couple rows behind them though when she heard her name spoken.

  “Yo, Henry,” one of the guys, Devin, said. “Heard you’re going out with Becca Stanley. What the heck, man? Didn’t know you were interested in Ugly Ducklings!” This provoked a round of snorts and laughter from the pack.

  “Oh no, dude, I’m not interested in her face,” Henry said gamely, scratching his head. “It’s the rest of her that’s got my attention – know what I mean? I’ve got her right where I want her too. She’s practically putty in my hands. I bet I can get her to give it up tonight!”

  “Seriously? I thought she was after Greg,” another guy pitched in, tossing a football in the air.

  “Yeah,” Greg said, laughing, “she’s been trailing me like a love sick puppy since the fourth grade! Thanks for taking her off my hands man!”

  Becca, swaying on her feet, quickly and silently made her way back the same way she came in. She went to the parking lot, got in her brand new Infiniti – a sixteenth year birthday gift from her parents – and went home. She felt the tears well up but she didn’t let them fall. The conversation she overheard replayed in her head on repeat like a bad song. Numbly she got out of the car and went inside her house. She called Henry’s house and left a terse message on his private line telling him that she overheard him at the rink and to never contact her again.

  Lucky for that boy, he never did contact me after that. Wish I could turn off my feelings for Greg just as easily though. I may be a love sick puppy but I’ll never pursue him again. Even so, she allowed herself to briefly entertain the thought of dancing with him in two weeks at Prom as she glided across the ice. What would it be like to feel his arms around me? Ugh! Stop it! Just one month more of high school and then I can put as many miles between Greg and myself as I want!

  Present Day

  Greg Fields vented a sigh of relief when he saw his cabin come into view. It was the middle of the afternoon when he pulled into the attached car porch and stepped out of his Escalade. He breathed in the cool mountain air as he opened the door to his home away from home. Situated against a backdrop of ice-capped peaks, calm blue skies and a deep blue valley filled with a natural lake, the two story cabin was far from rustic. The floors were hardwood, the counters were granite, the appliances were top of the line and the walls boasted floor to ceiling windows. He had hired an interior decorator to furnish the place before he had left the last time after purchasing it - about two years ago. The warm earth tones and the comfortable furniture would never be featured in his posh mansion but he loved the feel of it in the cabin.

  He loved the life he had in Denver; things were never dull for the twenty-eight year old star quarterback of the Broncos. Sometimes though, a man just needs to get away and hide for a while. But he was sick of the limelight and the “friends” who just wanted a piece of him, his money or their fifteen minutes of fame. He had been playing the game and living the life for five years and that was a really long time in the pro world. It was off-season anyway and the training rounds wouldn’t start for a couple more months – the perfect time to get away and breathe. In the mud room, he kicked off his shoes and stretched. He had driven all the way from Denver to Oregon by himself. It was a long and lonely trip but it had been exactly what he needed.

  Two nights ago he had been wasted. He and some of the boys had gone clubbing that night at an exclusive place down-town. Getting girls to entertain him was an easy task – they were a dime a dozen. They could tell he was money from miles away and he was used to having them fawn over him. The cash was flowing out in streams and the booze was pouring in without end. Someone had bought out the cocaine and pot; they all took turns snorting a line or two (if not more) or smoking the blunt. The music was loud and heavy and he was having the time of his life dancing with gorgeous twin brunettes; in his high he couldn’t remember their names but it didn’t matter, they just wanted their bragging rights and he just wanted them. No strings attached. Come morning they would be gone, a wisp of memory from a wild night. Just the way he liked it.

  Greg jerked out of slumber long before dawn, disoriented by a severe head ache. The twins were draped on his bed on either side of him and looking at them made him feel….ashamed? Why do I feel shame? I should be congratulating myself. He shook his head to clear his mind. He woke the girls up and told them to leave. After calling a cab for them and making sure they left, he went and took a hot shower.

  What’s the matter with me? He was restless and angry and frustrated. But he didn’t know why. He grabbed his keys and made his way through marble and gilded hallways, all the way to his five car garage. Maybe a drive will clear my head.

  Climbing into his favorite car, Greg opened the garage and roared down the driveway and out into the street. He didn’t have a plan in mind. He just drove and let his mind wander. For the life of him, he had no idea what he thought about but by the time he came out of his own mind, he realized he was on I-80 W, it was three o’ clock in the afternoon, his car was almost running on empty and he was starving.

  He pulled over at the next exit and spotted a Wal-Mart. After fueling up at a nearby pump, he went to the mega-store and bought some necessities and a couple of sandwiches. He drove for another hour before he felt the exhaustion kick in. He followed his GPS to a Hilton, checked himself in to a suite and crashed until late the next morning. Over breakfast, he decided he would drive to his cabin in Bend and take a breather. The restlessness and dissatisfaction he felt when he had woken the previous morning still hadn’t left him and Bend was the perfect place to refresh himself.

  ***

  Becca Stanley rolled out of bed with a groan and fumbled for the alarm clock she had deliberately placed on the shelf on the other side of her room.

  Becca stared at the clock trying to make sense of the screen. It took her a minute to realize it was reading an hour later than it should. Crap! It’s 7:15? How?! Ooh no, I need to get moving now!

  She ran to the kitchen and turned on the coffee maker and set it to keep the warmer on before running to the bath room to take care of the morning necessities and brush her hair before dressing in her running clothes and heading out the door. She shortened her usual hour long run to half an hour and hopped directly into the shower when she got back home. Fifteen minutes later she was getting dressed in a long bright orange top with a belted gray cardigan and black leather slacks. She went back to the kitchen to pour her coffee into a mug; he took a bite of a bagel, which had been topped with cream cheese and a drizzle of honey, and sipped her coffee while she headed to her prayer room.

  The cozy little guest house she rented was in the back of a larger property and it was perfect for her. It had two bedrooms, a living area, a relatively roomy kitchen with a breakfast nook and a two-car garage. She had converted one of the bedrooms into an office space where she could work and meet with clients. The room’s sizea
ble walk in closet had been standing empty until she made it into her prayer room.

  For Becca, the prayer room was a sanctuary and her favorite place in the whole house. When she walked into it, she was immediately at peace. Her daily quiet time with God was the one thing she never missed out on, whether she was in her room or not. She would skip a shower, cancel her morning run or even re-schedule a client first before she would skip her prayer time. Her faith was the cornerstone of her life and always had been. She knew very well she would not still be standing had it not been for the fact that the Lord sustained her.

  Becca had moved to Bend, Oregon almost two years ago when Texas had become too dangerous for her. She had been working as a high powered prosecution attorney in downtown Dallas in a private firm as one of the few women in a sea of sharks. She was on the fast track to becoming a partner when Henry Miller had waltzed back into her life. He was a defense attorney who was defending a rich low life sex and drug trafficker she had been trying to put behind bars for years. That should have been her first clue about the type of man Henry was.

  Once again though, she had allowed herself to be flattered by the man who now had an appreciation for all of her – body, face and mind – or at least claimed to. In her freshman year of college, Becca had hit a late growth spurt and the six extra inches had transformed her body from chubby, to curvy in all the right places. She took up running to work off the stress of college and that toned her body even more. Thanks to a wonderful roommate, she had learned to tame her bush of hair into silken masses. Her glasses were replaced by contacts and she started to wear just enough make up to enhance her eyes and mouth without distorting her entire face. She had graduated Magna Cum Laude from her college and passed the bar with flying colors.

  Henry had been astounded by the change in her and he was very charming and sweet in the beginning, taking her out and actually spending time with her instead of a phone; they had real conversations and a lot of fun getting to know one another. He seemed to have changed from the jerk she had known in high school. He was so considerate of her and even understanding of her desire to remain physically pure before marriage, he never pushed her for more than she was willing to give.