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Jacked - The Complete Series Box Set (A Lumberjack Neighbor Romance)

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by Claire Adams


  “And that qualification is met, for you, by making strangers uncomfortable over the phone?” I ask.

  “It’s just a thought,” he says. “Actually, as you say it, it does sound pretty dumb. What were you saying about the questionnaires and how they’re racially biased?”

  “What?” I ask.

  “I’m just kidding,” he says. “You still seem really tense. I’m just trying to get you to loosen up.”

  He gives me a self-satisfied grin, pointing a neon sign at the source of his smugness. He thinks he’s doing me a favor, showing me that loosening up and having fun isn’t the devil’s poison sent to wreak havoc on my soul, but the problem is that I’m not an uptight person.

  He’s putting this whole avatar over me that fits his preferred experience, and it doesn’t matter if it’s anything to do with who I actually am or not.

  That’s what pisses me off.

  “Listen,” I snap. “I’ll figure out the sampling method, but let’s get together tonight and come up with an idea, something we can really work on. When we’re done coming up with that idea, we come up with another one, and then another one, until we’ve got something that’s going to work, and I’m not uptight and we’re not crank calling people, either, and that does not, no matter what you might say, contradict what I just said about being uptight. It’s not being uptight to give a crap.”

  “You’re really pretty when you’re annoyed,” he says. “Has anyone ever told you that?”

  Surprisingly, yes, I have been told before that I’m particularly attractive when I’m annoyed—though I think the exact term used may have been irritated or peeved. I really don’t remember which.

  “No,” I answer, “and you’re an idiot.”

  “We still have like five minutes of class left,” he says. “You don’t want to spitball a few ideas while we’ve got the time to do it?”

  “I’d really rather spend what’s left of this class period facing forward and quietly reflecting on how nice it is to not have to talk to you and how I’m going to endure the coming months where such quiet moments are going to be in such short supply,” I answer. “So, let me give you my phone number. Send me a text after 3 and we’ll meet up.”

  “What happens before 3?” he asks.

  “Before 3, you’ll be waiting until 3 so you can send me a text,” I answer. “Now, I’m turning around. Quiet moment…”

  I turn my body and then my desk/chair combo back toward the front, and I lean back in my chair. Now, I’m scratching my desk and looking down at my desk, thinking about how awkward it is trying to give the cold shoulder to someone who’s sitting right behind me.

  It’s more anxiety-provoking than I would have thought. I hadn’t considered the sensation that he’s watching me right now because he’s sitting where he is, that he can’t help but be watching me right now.

  I lean over and open up my backpack, leaning over the side of my chair and giving a quick look. Ian’s not looking at me. He’s giving the middle finger to someone on the other side of the room, and I have no idea if he’s being playful or if a fight is about to break out.

  It might be kind of exciting if I weren’t sitting so close to the guy.

  On the bright side, though, at least I know he’s not staring at me. Not that he would, anyway.

  * * *

  The text came through a few minutes ago. Ian wants me to meet him at this café near where he lives.

  Frankly, I’m just surprised I heard from him at all. I was kind of hoping I could at least get the major footwork of this project done before Ian decided it was time to actually get interested.

  I get dressed and tell my dad I’ll be back in a little while.

  I’m still his little girl, and it’s really starting to bother me. I get that on some level, I’m always going to be his baby girl or whatever, but I am 20 years old. The least he could do is update his vernacular.

  “You going out to play with your friends, sweetheart?” he asks.

  “I have a project for one of my courses, and I’m meeting with my partner to go over the details,” I answer. “It’s for psychology.”

  “You’ve been taking a lot of those,” he says. “I thought you were done with psychology.”

  “Nope,” I tell him.

  “Huh,” he says. “When did you decide to go back to it?”

  “I never decided to go away from it,” I tell him. “The only reason I haven’t had any psychology classes the last few months is because that was summer break and I don’t have school then.”

  “You don’t have to get snippy about it,” he says, and I cringe. His eyes are wide and moving quickly from side to side. “I guess I just haven’t been as available as I should be.”

  It might be a less frightening sentiment if it didn’t look like he’s on the verge of a panic attack at the thought of missing some detail of my life, but it does, so it is.

  “We’ve just been talking about other things,” I tell him. “After classes, I don’t really want to talk about school that much, you know that.”

  “Yeah,” he says, seeming to relax a little. My dad is how I know I’m not uptight. If I were even a little uptight, there would be some aspect of his behavior that I could understand on some instinctual level, but it’s taken every psychology class I’ve ever taken and a lot of my own research to know that my father suffers from an inability to let go of his image of me as a small child that needs to be protected from anything and everything in the world. Most of the time, he just comes off as weird. It’s about that long before he finishes his thought. “I know that.”

  “I’ve got to go,” I tell him. “I don’t want to be late. I think my partner’s the type that’s not going to sit around waiting too long to do homework.”

  “All right,” Dad says. “Just drive safe, and I want you to watch out for kids on the road. They can just pop right out in front of you with no warning. They’re like cats.”

  “Cats?” I ask.

  “Or spider monkeys,” he says. “I don’t know. Whatever they’re like, they’re unpredictable. I just assume, every time that I’m driving toward a part of the block where a child is playing in the driveway or on the lawn that that kid is going to jump out in front of my car. It’s good to go slow, even if it looks like they’re going inside with their—”

  “Dad,” I interrupt and put my hands on his shoulders. “One day, I’m going to be graduated, and I’m going to be able to legally diagnose whatever it is that makes you think I’m still new to the world. Until then, is there any way you could tone down the hovering, nervous guy thing?”

  “Go,” he says. “Have fun.”

  “Thanks, Dad,” I tell him, and start for the door.

  “Be safe,” he says.

  I turn, smile, and say, “I will.”

  I turn back toward the door and get another couple of steps in before he says, “Call if you’re going to be late.”

  “Dad, it’s not going to make much sense to call if you don’t let me leave,” I tell him.

  “You’re right,” he says. “I’m chilling out. Be well.”

  Be well?

  I’m not looking the gift horse in the mouth. I just get to the door, turn the knob, and get to the other side of it as quickly as possible.

  The first few weeks of classes are always the most difficult, but it seems to be particularly bad this time. Dad’s starting to realize that I’m not going to be living at home forever, that one day sooner than later, I’m going to be out of this house and out of his life.

  That’s the way he puts it when he really wants to guilt me about it; “Out of his life.” After mom ran off, he’s been particularly fond of the phrase.

  Still, you’d think after nine years, the guy would have gotten things together. He’s still a reasonably young man, after all, but I’m not jumping back on the grenade of trying to get him to date again.

  Last time I got that particular bug up my butt, I set him up with one of the women I used to bab
ysit for in the neighborhood. Apparently, he spent the whole date talking about how Mom left and how someday I would leave him, too. From what I understand, the date was pretty much over when he started talking about how even if the two of them were to fall in love, she would only end up leaving him.

  Mrs. Aragon is a nice woman; she almost became a nun when she was younger until she decided she could better serve the world by dedicating her life to motherhood. Even with that gentleness of character, she still couldn’t take more than 20 minutes of listening to the sad tale that is my father.

  At one point, and they both told me this with the same mixed look of irritation and regret, she told him to “Quit whining or else even the birds won’t want to listen anymore.”

  In almost-nun terms, that’s like someone like Ian telling my dad to go screw himself.

  Now, though, I’m out of the house, and for a few minutes, I’m successful in pretending like things are going to be any less strained when I get where I’m going.

  The café is mostly empty. That should be a positive thing if I end up yelling at Ian at some point. It’ll also make him easier to spot, because he certainly isn’t here yet.

  I take a seat at a table in the corner with a good view of the whole café, so he’s sure to see me and I’m sure to see him. The way I see it, the sooner we spot each other, the sooner we can get to work. The sooner we get to work, the sooner we can be done, and the sooner we’re done, the sooner I can go over to Abby’s place and tell my dad that the project is running long.

  I don’t have curfews in the normal sense of the word. That’s one thing I was able to talk my dad out of after I turned 18 and agreed to live at home while I’m going to college—something I’ve been trying to get out of ever since that first day when I came home and he greeted me at the door with tears in his eyes and snot coming out of his nose.

  Ugh.

  Still, though, if I’m ever in after 10 o’clock, he gives me the dad talk. He never specifically reprimands me, but he makes sure that I know how worried he was waiting for me to come home and how he’d expected me so much earlier.

  I’m still waiting for the day that he loses it entirely and he tells me that I had him worried that I wouldn’t come back at all, but he’s somehow managed to avoid going down that particular winding path.

  The door to the café opens, but it’s not Ian. It’s some older couple who are smiling and nudging each other as they point out the wonderful kitschiness of what I could swear I hear one of them refer to as a, “European-style café.”

  This is utterly surreal, but I’m unable to enjoy it because I’m stressed about my dad and Ian’s still not here.

  It’s a wonderful life.

  Sometimes, I just want to track Mom down, even if it’s only on the telephone, and really let her know what I’ve had to put up with since she’s left, but then I start feeling guilty about being so cold. It’s just one fractured onus on top of another, and nobody wins.

  I order up some food and he’s still not here. The food arrives and I’m still sitting at my table alone. By the time I’m finished eating, my phone is in my hand.

  “Hey, what’s up, loser?” Ian answers.

  “Are you forgetting something?” I ask. “I’ve been sitting in this café for like—”

  “Yeah, I wanted to see how long I could get you to talk before you realized you’re talking to a voicemail, but I’m running out of time here, so, surprise. Leave a message,” the message ends and there’s a beep.

  “That is the stupidest message I’ve ever heard,” I tell him. “I’m sitting here at Antony’s on Sixth, Ian, and you’re still not here. I’ve been waiting for an hour now, and I’m really starting to get irritated that you’re not here. If you need to reschedule, call me, text me, let me know, but if you’re just going to—”

  The line beeps again. For a moment, I’m all excited as if it’s actually going to be Ian calling me, but it’s just the sound of the allotted message time running out.

  I call Abs.

  “How’s your date with skater boy?” Abs answers.

  “It’s not a date, and he never showed up,” I tell her. “What are you up to? I don’t think he’s coming, and it looks like I have a couple extra hours.”

  “I’m going to a party,” Abs says. “The Betas are throwing it and you’re coming with me.”

  “I’m not really the sorority party kind of girl,” I tell her.

  “It’s a frat,” Abs says. “Betas are a frat.”

  “Whatever,” I tell her. “I’m not really into frat parties, either.”

  “Come on,” she says. “I let you share your culture with me by going to that skating competition with you, now let me share my culture with you by coming to this party with me.”

  “Fine,” I tell her, “but if I find a way to get to Midwest Championships, you’re going with me.”

  “I don’t know what that means, so I’m going to say okay now and try to get out of it later,” she says. “Are you coming or what?”

  “Well, at least I can appreciate your honesty,” I tell her. “Where are you?”

  Abs gives me the directions, but I wait a few more minutes before I give up all hope of Ian showing up to get some work done.

  I try not to notice when the older couple that came in shortly after me exchanges money. I try not to focus on how pathetic I must be that an old woman would actually put money on my being stood up.

  I try a lot of things, but none of them seem to be working at the moment, so I just get in my car and leave.

  Abs sucks with directions, but I eventually come close enough to the site of the party that I can hear the stereo that’s going to have the cops on the doorstep before too long.

  This so isn’t my scene.

  I have to park down the block a ways, but that gives me a chance to call up Abs and have her meet me out front.

  “You made it,” she says.

  “I told you I was coming,” I tell her. “What’s the plan?”

  “The plan,” she says, “is to get plowed and then get plowed.”

  “I’m assuming one of those is drinking, and I’m also assuming that you decided to go ahead and get started on that,” I answer with a nervous laugh.

  “I’ve had a couple of drinks,” she says.

  Abs is a little difficult to classify on the alcohol/behavior scale. She’s not really a lightweight, but even with a small amount of alcohol in her system, it’s as if she was born without inhibitions. That said, she can drink everyone else under the table and never actually get to the point of being sloppy.

  It’s a pretty entertaining dichotomy, really.

  “The second plowed,” she says and then dissolves into giggles.

  “It’s sex,” I say. “You really didn’t leave that difficult a code to crack.”

  “You coming?” she asks. “I know, not yet, right?”

  She’s laughing boisterously now, drawing the attention of a few of the guys sitting on the front lawn with their clear plastic cups of beer. I’m wishing I was back in the café being the object of surprisingly large bets.

  “Come on,” she says and grabs my arm. “Hey look,” she says, “I’m tipsy and I’m still more gentle than you were with me.”

  “I think it’s ‘gentler,’” I correct, but there’s really no point. Whether Drunk Abs is an act or just a particularly strange way her body’s found to process alcohol makes no difference. She’s not going to listen to anything I have to say unless there’s some source of adrenaline attached to it.

  We get into the packed house, and I do my best to breathe without gagging from the stench of stale liquor and cologne-infused sweat.

  “Do you know anyone here?” I ask.

  “Of course not,” she answers. “That’s part of the fun.”

  “They don’t care that we’re crashing their party?” I ask.

  “Oh, come on,” she says, snatching a drink from the hand of an unsuspecting frat boy with a backward baseball cap. Yo
u actually don’t see that too much, anymore. “We’re two attractive women who are willing to get drunk at their party. What’s not to like about us being here?”

  Judging by the often, though not always, furtive glances from the guys around the room, I’d say she’s right about that much.

  “Oh, hey, look who’s here,” Abs says, and I already know I’m going to regret turning around to see whoever’s standing there.

  One of the most impressive things about Drunk Abs is that she can form meaningful connections with people in no time flat. She turns on her drunken charm and, if she decides to let someone in, that person’s got a drinking buddy until one of them gets bored with the other.

  It usually happens about three hours into any given party, but sometimes, those inebriated connections can last for years.

  Actually, come to think about it, the first time I met Abs, she was drunk.

  The two of us work because we’re so different, or at least that’s what we tell each other whenever one of us questions the friendship.

  It doesn’t happen as often as you might think.

  Anyway, I turn and, standing there like nothing’s wrong, is Ian.

  “Where were you?” I ask. “You left me in that café and you never intended to show up.”

  “Oh,” he says, “that’s right. We were supposed to get together for that thing.”

  “I left right after you texted me,” I tell him. “It’s not like it was some distant plan that you were…”

  I trail off because he’s not listening. He’s not even looking at me.

  Abs is putting a drink in his hand and batting her over-mascaraed eyelashes at him. Neither one of them speaks, but they both seem to come to the same conclusion and they walk off together.

  I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do, how I’m supposed to respond, but I instinctually walk after them right up until they’re opening the door to one of the many rooms in this house.

  They walk inside and close the door after themselves, and I’m beyond livid.

  Not only was I stood up for the main project in one of the fundamental classes of my degree, but now I’ve been publicly snubbed by my best friend and the guy I was supposed to meet at the café so they can go off and do some degree of I-don’t-want-to-know in the bedroom of a frat house.

 

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