Can't Get Enough

by Gena Showalter

  "And she's just getting started."

  A low growl rumbled in his throat as he leaned down to nuzzle his cheek against hers. Beard stubble tickled her skin. "Those women...they meant nothing. You mean something. Scottie, you mean everything."

  Her ears rang as her heart thudded against her ribs. "I'm scared," she told him. So scared. But for the first time in her life, she wasn't going to run. She was going to face her fears and carve out a better future for herself. "Brock, let's go home and talk."

  Chapter Eighteen

  Home? Brock shook his head. The ten-or fifteen-minute drive would kill him. He needed to hash this out with Lyndie now, while she was receptive and open. His future hung in the balance. He'd finally gotten her comfortable with him again, and he wasn't going to risk a resurgence of her defenses.

  "Come on." He led her to an office in back of the bar. Since LPH Protection handled security for the Scratching Post, he knew the code to the lock. Although, considering that all the blood had rushed from his head, he had to take a moment to remember the order of the numbers.

  Along the way, he nodded to Jude. The best friend signal for: don't come knocking.

  Jude tried not to laugh, but the corners of his mouth were twitching.

  His friends had found happily-ever-afters--and so had Brock. He just had to convince Lyndie. The love of his life. His soul mate. My family.

  Family...

  I want to keep my family.

  Must proceed with caution. In the past, he'd had a tendency to Brock-block himself. If, at any time, Lyndie felt pressured, he would fail. If she felt controlled, he would fail. If she felt devalued or threatened, he would fail.

  When the office door locked, sealing the two of them inside a spacious room, he spun, took her purse, and tossed it toward the couch, then cupped her jaw. Though his body demanded a kiss, he could not let passion stop their conversation.

  "I used to think one woman was the same as any other," he said, "but you taught me different. There is no one like you."

  Her breath hitched, and her amber eyes filled with wonder.

  His chest constricted. Need to see that wonder in her eyes every day.

  "My Scottie is sweet and kind, funny and adorable, sexy and wild, strong. Everything I've ever wanted wrapped up in a delicious package made specifically for me. We fit together. And maybe it's just a chemical thing. Maybe it's fate. Either way, you make me want to be a better man. With you, I want, period."

  "Brock..." Mixed with that beautiful flood of wonder--shadows.

  He had yet to alleviate her fears. "I'm not afraid of commitment," he told her next. "Not anymore. Married life agrees with me in ways I never imagined. You are my family. The one I've always wanted but never had. And I know--you crave your independence. You're afraid I'll become an anchor like your first husband, and drag you down. But I have no desire to clip your wings, Scottie. I just want the privilege of soaring beside you."

  Her gaze studied his face, searching...searching...

  Did she find it, whatever it was?

  He braced, expecting rejection. He wouldn't like it, but he would deal. And he would fight harder. He would never stop fighting for them.

  With a groan, she looped her arms around his neck and kissed him. A kiss electric with passion. Between one heartbeat and the next, she turned him into a powder keg about to blow.

  Brock kissed her back, proclaiming the depths of his love with every wild stroke of his tongue. He took her mouth deeply, surely, nothing held back. He devoured, demanding total surrender--but he gave total surrender as well. Their breaths mingled until she became his lifeline, the only reason he lived. In more ways than one.

  "Brock," she said, his name a breathless rasp.

  He lifted his head. He was panting. She was panting, her small body awash with tremors.

  "Give me a chance, Scottie, and I will give you everything," he vowed.

  *

  He kept using that word. Everything.

  And the things he'd said to her... I have no desire to clip your wings, Scottie. I just want the privilege of soaring beside you.

  We fit.

  There's no one like you.

  She wanted to give him whatever he wanted, whatever he needed. But a small part of her also wanted to hold on to her dream, never again changing any part of her life for a man. The future was too much of an unknown.

  Can't think. Not now.

  "Just...kiss me, and don't stop," she said. "Please."

  As she pulled at his clothing, their mouths pressed together. Hello, kiss. Bye-bye, jacket...vest...shirt. Good riddance. Finally his chest was deliciously bare, the hard cuts of his strength on spectacular display. And oh, mercy, she had to have more of him. His taste intoxicated her, like a darkly spiced wine. His big body surrounded her, making her feel helpless and safe all at once.

  She trusted this man with every fiber of her being. Brock, who wanted to give her everything. Who'd never made her decisions for her. Who'd only ever asked. Who'd never lied to her or hurt her.

  He rucked up her dress before he lifted her off her feet and set her on the corner of the desk. The kiss never paused. The width of his hips pushed her legs apart. As he stepped closer, he tunneled his fingers underneath her soaked panties and thrust a finger deep, deep inside her.

  She gasped. The pleasure! Her inner walls clenched around him, as if to hold him captive.

  Her nails dug into his shoulders. Brock was fully engaged with her, desire making him ferocious--making her wet. Her breasts ached. Her nipples throbbed for his hands, his mouth. For Brock, only ever Brock. Her belly quivered. Every beat of her heart reminded her of a lightning strike, electrifying her. Heat spread, searing her from head to toe. Tingles erupted, and goose bumps arose as if summoned by black magic.

  Lyndie ripped at the waist of Brock's pants. "Get rid of these." As soon as the button popped open, the fly lowered, aided by the weight of his shaft. She reached past his underwear to wrap her hand around the base. Hard--as--a--rock. Long and thick. Perfect.

  He sucked in a sharp breath. "Yes." A growl as well as a command. "Touch me. Please."

  The fact that she had reduced this mighty man to pleading for a caress...her caress...

  As she stroked his length up, down, up, he thrust a second finger inside her. Then a third. Her body stretched to accommodate him, welcoming him, eager for more. With him, she always wanted more.

  Panting, he lifted his head. "Told you I can't get enough of you, yes? Did I also mention I want to have you in every position imaginable? One of the many reasons I need a lifetime with you."

  Lifetime...

  The juxtaposition of her pale hand on his bronzed chest--her delicacy against his hard-won strength--mesmerized her. Light versus dark. Fragile versus stalwart. As she traced his tattoos, the five-carat diamond he'd given her glittered in the light. Such a beautiful ring, given her by a beautiful man.

  The ache inside her intensified, pressure building...building...

  Rather than give her more--more, please!--he pulled his fingers from her sheath. A moan and groan mingled in her throat before escaping past her lips.

  "Brock!"

  He backed away. With his fly gaping open and his underwear anchored beneath his testicles, his shaft had free rein, straining toward her as if reaching for her. But Brock continued to back away.

  "Come back." Maybe she should repeat her command--while looking in his eyes, not between his legs.

  Impossible.

  He continued moving backward, and oh wow, he must have memorized the layout of the office because he had no problem maneuvering around chairs and a filing cabinet. When he reached the couch, he eased down, spread one arm over the top of the couch, and used the other to beckon her over. "Come here."

  How decadent he looked, a man awaiting his woman.

  Lyndie stood on unsteady legs. Must get to him. Only need and sheer stubborn grit kept her upright as she moved forward, almost in a trance.

  "Take o
ff the dress," he commanded softly.

  She remembered what he'd told her earlier. Lyndie would be naked, he would be dressed--at least partially--and pleasure would be unimaginable.

  Once, she would have balked at being ordered around. Heck, she had balked before. But Brock wasn't trying to assert himself as commander and chief of her life. No, he offered an exquisite give-and-take of passion.

  Tremors rocked her as she obeyed. Cool air brushed against her heated skin, driving her need ever higher.

  "Panties," he said next. A croak.

  Nearly agonized by the ferocity of her need, she shimmied out of the small scrap of lace, then tossed the garment.

  "Scottie, sweetheart," he said. "I'm undone."

  Naked, emboldened, she finished her journey and straddled his lap. His gazed hooded as he kneaded her breasts. Flicking his thumbs over her nipples, he made the ache a thousand times worse. Or better. Mmm. Definitely better. And worse. Dang him! Once again he'd fried the circuits in her brain.

  When he pressed his palms against her thighs, just over her knees, waves of heat washed over her, tantalizing her.

  "Tell me something you like about me," he rasped.

  A lance seared her, but it was different than the others she'd experienced. This one was barbed, causing a ricochet of other aches and twinges.

  Before they'd gotten sick, she'd mentioned how proud she was of him and his efforts to help his employees; he'd looked at her with such astonishment, as if the concept had never entered his mind. Now, even as her body trembled with desire, he struggled to believe she admired him.

  Realization: her opinion mattered to him.

  She alone had the power to tear him down or build him up. He was vulnerable to her.

  Another lance, this one sharper. "You have such a hard exterior, and yet you're a softie on the inside. I want to eat you up."

  As if mesmerized, he watched his finger as he traced the tip across the seam of her lips. "You think I'm a softie? While I'm hard as a rock?"

  She leaned toward him, her breasts smashing into his chest. With her lips at his ear, she whispered, "I think you're kind, smart, honest, strong, and loyal."

  He stiffened, his gaze darting away from her.

  Did he not believe her? "Proof. You took care of me when I was sick. Proof. You granted me another month of your time, demanding nothing in return. Proof. You look out for me, even when you're slammed with work."

  "Are you glad you took a chance on me?"

  "I...am. I'm glad I took a chance on us." An irrefutable and inescapable truth. A frightening truth.

  Brock clasped her waist, his fingers a white-hot lash against her flesh. "Take me inside, Scottie."

  Yes. Yes! But she didn't impale herself on his erection, as he expected. Oh, no.

  She knelt on the floor and sucked him deep into her mouth. He roared as his hips jerked. His hands settled in her hair, fisting the strands.

  "Scottie. Sweetheart." Both words sounded strained. "Feels so good, love. You're driving me mad."

  He was so wide he stretched her jaw, and so long she could only take him halfway down, but she relished the grunts and groans she wrung from him as she devoured his length. Tension emanated from him and only intensified.

  A rush of incomplete sentences spilled from him. "You are so...you have...incredible... I can't... I'm..."

  When he was nearly incoherent, she crawled up his body, lifted up on her knees, and placed her core at the tip of his erection. Driven by a desire too powerful to resist, she slammed down. More pleasure than she'd ever thought possible flooded her, and she cried out. Brock filled her, consumed her--owned her.

  No, no. Never owned. Can't go there...just can't.

  A low rumble erupted from his chest, his grip almost bruising, but wonderfully so. "Incredible. So hot and tight. So mine."

  "Yours." But for how long? Could she give him forever?

  Though her body demanded a rapid pace, she rocked her hips in a slow, lazy rhythm. Savoring the feel of her husband. The tactile strength he offered. The sight of him. Strain around his eyes and mouth. A mouth red and swollen from her kiss. Cheeks flushed with heat.

  "Want my cotton candy." He leaned down to fit his lips around one of her nipples and sucked.

  A new spear of pleasure shot straight to her core. Beard stubble prickled the underside of her breast, kindling for the fire already raging inside her.

  Must come. Can't wait. Her speed increased as she chased her climax. So close! But not close enough.

  Lyndie rode him with abandon, losing all inhibition. So good, so good, so good. More, just a little more. He was so...so...

  Deep!

  Brock arched his hips in an upward motion just as she slid down. The action allowed her body to take more--to take every delicious inch of him. An orgasm tore through her. As she cried out and shuddered, her mind spinning and soaring, her thoughts caught up in a satisfaction so complete she would never be the same, he flipped her to her back and loomed over her.

  Passion became fury. Beautiful fury. Deliciously merciless.

  He pistoned his hips, slamming into her again and again, prolonging her climax while seeking his own. On instinct, she wound her legs around his waist and locked her ankles. When she lifted her head and kissed him, kissed him with reverence and wonder, not just caught up in the moment but also caught up in the possibilities for their future, he came.

  His breathing as labored as hers, he pulled out and eased to her side. They lay cuddled together for a long while, wrapped up in each other, strength depleted.

  "I need to show you something," she said when she finally found her voice. She forced herself to untangle from the warmth of his body and swipe up her dress, then dug a piece of paper from the pocket. Then, with Brock watching her every move--and cool air kissing her bare skin--she traipsed to the desk, where she bent over to search for a pen.

  "Whatever you're looking for," Brock rasped, "I hope you never find it."

  Finally! With a triumphant whoop, she marked up the paper and sauntered back to Brock. "This is for you."

  Brow furrowing, he took the paper and read what she'd written--and howled with laughter. "A ticket for being too sexy and giving my wife too much pleasure. Now I must pay a fine of ten orgasms within the next week, or I'll be tied to bed and flogged?"

  Grinning, she curled up to his side. "Exactly right."

  "No wonder I love you."

  Um--what? He loved her? Lyndie sucked in a breath, only then realizing this wasn't the first time he'd mentioned the L-word. As she'd sucked him, he'd called her "love."

  At the time, she'd been too turned on to process. Now...

  A new tide of pleasure unfurled deep inside her. Except, when Brock realized what he'd said, his entire body tensed.

  He needed an out, didn't he? "Don't worry," she said, the slightest crackle in her tone. "I know you didn't mean you love me love me--"

  "Stop," he interjected. "Don't try to explain away the sentiment. Because I do. I love you love you. So much."

  "You do?" she squeaked.

  "I love you, and I like you, and I'm one hundred percent crazy about you, Scottie." He kept his arm draped over her middle, his hold tightening. An anchor in case she thought to flee? "I want you with me always. I want our marriage to--I want our marriage."

  She gulped. Did she love him back?

  She...she must. And oh, she'd feared this would happen. Falling in love with the next man she slept with. To be honest, though, sex had nothing to do with it. The emotion hinged on Brock, and Brock alone.

  But what if he fell out of love with her at some point? This was new to him. A novelty. If she got attached, and he later took off...

  Worth the risk, she decided. No doubt about it. She saw the truth now. Love was worth any risk. But she couldn't think of herself and only herself. She had to think of her future children.

  "Nothing to say?" he croaked.

  "I'm still afraid, Brock," she admitted, a tremor in her
voice. "Maybe more so now."

  He released a heavy breath she hadn't realized he'd been holding. "I've been on my best behavior with you, and I will continue to be. I try not to raise my voice. I guard my words. I control my temper when people like Lambert deserve a beating. But I do it because I love you and I want you in my life."

  "I want you comfortable around me," she said, "not constantly on guard. That's no way to live. Trust me. I know."

  "I remember your reaction to my temper when I almost got in a fight with the drunk. I never want to see such a frightened look on your face again. It kills me."

  "I wasn't frightened of you, but what might happen to you if someone pressed charges."

  He shook his head, as if he couldn't quite comprehend what she'd just said. "And anyway, I am comfortable with you. I like the man I am for you. The closet gentleman. I think he was always inside me, just waiting to break free. I just... Without you, Scottie, I have no life. I'm asking you to accept me as is. Please."

  "I--" Wait. Must think before I speak! On the surface, his request sounded reasonable. When she dug deeper, however, she found thorns and brambles and a thousand insects ready to bite. Until he relaxed his guard, fear would rule them both.

  When fear got its claws in you, it fed on your happiness. She was living proof! One day you would wake up and realize you were nothing more than a husk. A shell of your former self.

  If she fought her fears, he would have to fight his, or they wouldn't last; they couldn't. "I know you, Brock. I trust you and know you'll never hurt me. If ever there's a time you get angry, show it. You can curse. You can drink. I should never have tried to control your behavior after insisting you should never try to control mine. Whatever has happened--whatever happens--I'm not going to look at you differently. The secrets in your past, you don't have to worry anymore. I'm not afraid of who you were or who you are. I'm afraid of going all in and losing you. What if you get tired of commitment and want out after I've given my heart into your keeping?"

  His grip on her tightened, almost bruising, but she welcomed his fervency. "I will never tire of you. I know it with every fiber of my being. I will guard your heart as the treasure it is."

  "I'm willing to try, if you are. I'll trust you, and you'll trust me. You'll tell me about your past. Whatever secret you're keeping."

  "I don't need to share my secrets to know I'll want you always."