SINS: Devil's Horns MC

by Sophia Gray

  I sighed. “She’s staying with me right now because she needs protection,” I said. “I stuck one of the prospects with her.”

  “She has a kid,” Ram added darkly. “An eight-year-old son. Y’all can’t tell me you disapprove of protecting a little kid.”

  “Yeah,” I said, grateful at least one friend had my back. “I think it’ll all blow over sooner than later, but for right now, we need to be cautious.”

  “So why does this matter?” Andy leaned back in his chair and eyed me levelly. “I mean, she’s an ex. Why does this matter now? Who cares, man? She fuckin’ left you!”

  Anger boiled up in me and I had to consciously fight the urge to deck him. If it had been me in his shoes, I probably would have said the same thing. But that was no excuse for ignorance. And what happened to chivalry? Sure, the Angels weren’t the masters of civility, but we knew how to treat and protect women. After all, it was like part of the job.

  “She’s vulnerable and alone,” I said sharply. “And I gotta look out for her.”

  Andy nodded. “Fine,” he said. “What else?”

  Ram and Wolf looked at me.

  “Have you guys heard anything else about Damien? I want to find out exactly what his end-game is here,” I added.

  “Well, y’all were friends when you were younger,” Ram said. “And he hated you for succeeding when he never did. Do you think he’s just trying to pull us down? Distract us with Angel and then sink his teeth into our Achilles’ heel?”

  It was a black thought, but Ram was probably right. “Probably,” I admitted. “I’m sorry, you guys. I didn’t think it would blow up like this. After all, we were friends ten years ago.”

  Andy frowned. “What happened?”

  I shrugged. “He hated me for not being an outlaw,” I said. “He hated me for wanting to do right by Angel. We were friends when I was dating her, and he hated how important she was to me. It was like I couldn’t let a few hours go by without talking to her and making sure she was okay. Damien knew how important she was to me, and he exploited the fuck out of that. And when I didn’t drop her, he got fed up with me.”

  “But she dropped you, man. Why didn’t you just go back to being friends with him?”

  My stomach turned and I was reminded of the scene I’d thought over before meeting up with the guys. Angel leaving, Mom dying, all in the same day.

  “A lot happened at once,” I said finally. “And I didn’t feel like I could deal with being friends with him again. He didn’t trust me, and if I was broken up over Angel, well, I didn’t want to admit he’d been right. He always told me that she was too good for me and that one day would come when she’d realize that. And I didn’t want the bastard to know the truth.”

  The guys nodded. The silence between us was comfortable, but I still felt like I was over-sharing. Even with Ram, my best friend, it seemed like I was saying way too much.

  “So, she’s been attacked twice,” I said cautiously. “We need to keep an eye on her until we’ve subdued Damien. He must have his guys watching my house, because the second time was right after she snuck out.” I glared at Ram, still not entirely having forgotten about the incident. “And she shouldn’t have been outside alone, but she barely got twenty feet alone before those thugs showed up and tried to snatch her.”

  “This is more serious than I thought,” Andy said. “How you want to get him back?”

  “I don’t know,” I said, frowning. I steepled my hands on the table and rested my forehead on the hot skin of my fingers. “I mean, I told him to leave her alone. I threatened that I’d hurt him. But that was before the second time she was attacked. So obviously he didn’t listen, and obviously he wants to keep fucking with me.”

  “And what about the kid? Don’t you think that’s a liability, man?”

  I blinked. Andy, Ram, and Wolf kept their eyes trained on me. “He’s mine,” I said finally. “She was pregnant when she left, and she never told me. She never thought to get in touch and tell me,” I said. The words were hard to get out; it felt like I was choking on the severity of the situation. “His name is Chuckie, and he’s my son. Well, mine and Angel’s. And he doesn’t know I’m his dad, yet.”

  Ram nodded. I could tell he’d basically guessed as much from our conversation. I met his eyes, silently thanking him for not giving me up to the others.

  “And you can’t tell a damn soul,” I said seriously. “If anyone finds out about this kid, or my past with her, that’s an easy way to exploit me. I’ll be in trouble, and so will they.”

  The guys all promised not to say anything. After that, the air hung heavy between us. I didn’t want to keep talking about it, so I ordered a round of shots and watched Andy pull the cute waitress down on his lap.

  The atmosphere felt like we were all waiting for a bomb to go off. We needed a plan, and fast. But first, we had to take care of Angel and Chuckie.

  Chapter 16

  Angel

  After a few days in Trey’s house, I was about to go crazy. Chuckie had been just as well behaved as ever, but I felt bad for not telling him what was going on. Then again, how could I? How could I let him know he and I were the targets of a rival gang, when he didn’t even know Trey was his father? I couldn’t, plain and simple. There was no way to tell him anything without telling him everything. And while I loved Chuckie and knew he was mature for his age, I didn’t think eight was the right age to tell him about something so dire. With any luck, the whole situation would blow over and everything would be fine. At least, that’s what I wanted to think.

  Trey had spent the night out of the house with Ram. I was jealous as I watched them leave, not because I thought he was going to be around other women but just because I desperately wanted to leave myself. After all, it wasn’t fair. Trey couldn’t just expect me to stay here on house arrest! He wasn’t that cruel.

  “I want to go to work,” I announced, stepping into the kitchen. Trey was sitting down at the table with a mug of beer. He barely looked up at me as I crossed the threshold of the room. “It’s been days and I haven’t been outside, Trey. I’m going nuts.”

  “This is all for your safety,” Trey said. He looked up at me with a solemn expression on his gorgeous, fine-boned face. “Don’t you realize that?”

  “Yes,” I said. My cheeks pinked and I had to look away. “I know it is, Trey. But I’m so bored! And I need to make money. What happens if I lose my job? There isn’t another library in Centerville, and I can’t afford to move.”

  At that, Trey softened a bit. “I’ll send someone with you,” he said. “Hang on, I’m calling Ram.”

  I frowned. “He didn’t do a great job of watching me,” I admitted. “Are you sure you shouldn’t ask someone else?”

  Trey rolled his eyes. “You’re so demanding,” he said in a mild, jokey tone, but I blushed hard anyway. “I’ll call the prospect that was over here last night. That okay?”

  I thought he was being sarcastic at first and I was about to snap back at him when I realized that he was serious. “I’ll feel safe with him,” I said. And I would, too: the prospect was huge. A big, overweight guy with a bushy beard and sharp eyes. He was right on track to become the newest member of the Skullbreakers, and I felt like he deserved every bit of the fame that would come with that. He was even more intimidating than Ram, though not more so than Trey.

  “Thanks,” I said after Trey had made the call. “I’m going to get ready for work. Could I do some laundry later? I’ll need more clothes.”

  Trey nodded. “Whatever you want,” he said. “Make yourself at home.”

  The atmosphere between us was polite, cordial. There was no trace of the discomfort that had shown itself when I’d confronted him the other day. In fact, he seemed to have forgotten about it. Discomfort flitted through me as I realized how quickly he was able to compartmentalize all of this and get rid of it. I shuddered. Did Trey think about me? What about the other night when we’d slept together? It had been explosive and hot, e
ven more than our time together used to be. But if Trey could make himself forget about it, what was the point? What was I even doing here?

  Back in the room I shared with Chuckie, I looked around. It had been spotless when we’d first settled here, but now the floor was littered with crumbs from Chuckie’s animal crackers and my shoes. I blushed as I realized it looked like the typical apartment of a single mom. Quickly, I walked around and collected all of the trash on the floor. I wasn’t sure whether or not Trey had been inside, but at least this way he wouldn’t know what a slob I really was. Until I’d had Chuckie, I’d been a total clean freak. Trey even used to make fun of me because I had a habit of cleaning out his car whenever we were together. But those days were long gone; I couldn’t remember anything I owned that wasn’t covered in sticky gunk or melted candy.

  I sighed. It was the price of having a kid, even a kid as smart as Chuckie. And while I loved him with all my heart, sometimes I felt like I would have been happier without a child. It had turned my life into a perpetual cycle of caring for someone other than myself. I couldn’t remember the last time I’d had more than a few hours to myself. Hell, the first time in years was when I’d gone to the bar with Trey after those creeps had attacked me. And then I’d felt ragingly guilty about all of it, even though I’d been incredibly attracted to him. It was like once I became a mother, I lost my capacity for selfishness and for fun.

  The only clean outfit I had left was black jeans and a purple silk blouse. It wasn’t exactly spring-like, but I donned it anyway. I knew the blouse made my chest look even bigger than it really was. Part of me wanted to make Trey look at me. You don’t want to acknowledge your feelings for me, fine. Well, you won’t be able to ignore me when I look like this.

  I spent a long time twisting my hair into a Brigitte Bardot updo and putting on cat-eye black liner and red lipstick. By the time I was ready, I looked more like I was going to a nightclub than a library. I knew the customers would gawk. But I didn’t care. Shockingly, this whole mess had made me realize what my priorities in life were. And most of those revolved around Chuckie and my ability to keep him safe.

  “Wow,” Trey said when I walked back into the kitchen. I pretended not to notice, but secretly I was incredibly pleased that he’d noticed. Maybe he wasn’t as oblivious as I thought.

  “I’m out of other clothes,” I said primly. “Are you going to drive me to work?”

  Trey opened his mouth and I could tell he was about to lie. “I wasn’t planning on it,” he said smoothly. “But I think that would be better. I’ll wait at the library with you until the prospect shows up. That way you won’t feel like you’re in trouble.”

  I blushed, pleased. “Thanks,” I said. “I appreciate it.”

  I waited patiently as Trey collected his keys and wallet. He handed me a helmet once we walked outside.

  “We’re not driving?” I frowned. “What about my hair?”

  “You always look better with messy hair,” Trey said. He grinned and winked at me and I felt my stomach do a flip-flop of nervousness. “At least I think so, Angel.”

  The way he said my name made me feel like melting. I didn’t protest, but when Trey wasn’t looking I tried to smooth my hair under the helmet so it wouldn’t look flat when we got to the library. They didn’t know I was coming in that day — I’d called about a leave of absence — and for a moment, I felt a touch of self-consciousness.

  I wrapped my arms around Trey’s waist and snuggled close, burying my face in the back of his neck as he peeled out of his long driveway. He drove faster than he needed to, and I felt a thrill soar through me as he tilted his bike to the side for a dangerous turn. Clinging to him, I kept inhaling his scent of leather and sandalwood. It was incredibly arousing, and I could feel the area between my legs getting moist after only a few seconds on the back of his bike. Trey’s strong muscles flexed as he expertly navigated the bike around the back roads of Centerville. It was warmer than it had been, and the sun was peeking through the tops of the tall trees. For a moment, the beauty of the town struck me. When I realized where Trey was taking me, I felt my heart sink.

  “What are we doing here?” I yelled loudly into his ear. “This isn’t the way to the library!”

  Trey’s chest vibrated and I felt him chuckling under my tight grip. “Thought we’d take a scenic detour,” he called back loudly. “You don’t mind seeing the old homestead, do you?”

  I closed my eyes and rested my face against Trey’s shoulder. He was driving through the toniest part of town, where my parents lived. I hadn’t been back to their house since they’d thrown me out, and I was in no mood to see them now. As we roared past their house, I expected to feel a horrible sense of sadness rushing through my body. But instead I felt triumphant, free. There was something powerful about racing past these expensive houses on the back of a motorcycle, free and open and letting my hair get tangled and soar behind me in the breeze.

  When we passed Mom and Daddy’s house, I stared at the big black iron gate that had kept men like Trey out, unsuccessfully. It had always been a gorgeous house — a big brick Tudor — but suddenly it looked like a prison to me. It didn’t look like a happy place to raise a family, or even to live. It seemed like the people who lived behind the walls were more terrified than ever of being attacked by the commoners. I had to laugh; it was exactly the kind of thing Daddy was afraid of. But that’s what he and Mom were: rich white people hiding from the real problems of the world. When I was growing up, they hadn’t always seemed so tone-deaf. But Mom made ridiculous comments all the time, like “Why do people complain so much about not being able to afford an apartment? Why don’t they just buy a condo?”

  I shuddered, remembering a Hispanic family that had moved in down the block. They’d only made it six months. They were moneyed, just like us, but foreign. So not like us. Even though they all spoke impeccable English, Mom had campaigned to get them removed from our street. She finally took it up with her garden club, and they shunned the wife in the family until they finally admitted defeat and moved to the ethnic section of Centerville. I burned with shame thinking about how I’d avoided the daughter of the family whenever I saw her in school. I never found out whether or not the family had hated us as much as Mom and Daddy had hated them, but I had a feeling they probably would have been a little more generous.

  Mom and Daddy were definitely relics of a bygone era. The sad thing was that they’d never realized it themselves. They were doomed to see their influence wane and eventually disappear. Maybe I really was lucky for getting out and seeing the world as it actually exists. I couldn’t think of my parents without feeling regret, but as I got older, less and less of that regret was reserved for me. Rather, I pitied them for being so sheltered and provincial.

  Even though it was liberating to realize that I didn’t miss being around Mom and Daddy, it still made me sad to remember the driveway was the last place I’d seen Trey, until now. We’d parted on bad terms, the night of my birthday. I’d felt like a coward and a freak. I didn’t think I’d ever see him again.

  And for the longest time, I’d been right about that.

  Pressing my face into the back of his leather jacket, I couldn’t believe Trey and I were together again. Well, not together. Not boyfriend and girlfriend. We didn’t walk around with our hands slipped in each other’s pockets, and we didn’t kiss every time he drove under a bridge. But looking at him I felt the same passionate tug I’d always felt. His messy brown hair, his dark blue eyes. They were so gorgeous, so haunting. They spoke of an intelligent, lonely man. They spoke of a man who would do anything to protect what he loved.

  As we pulled up in front of the library, I felt some of my resolve weaken. After all, until pretty recently, I’d been one of those assholes living in the big houses behind even bigger iron gates. What if Trey had driven past there to remind me of who I was, to remind me we were from totally different places in life?

  It wasn’t a nice thought.

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��All right,” Trey said when I handed him back the helmet. I watched as he turned his bike off and stood up and stretched. “You wanna hang outside until the prospect shows up?”

  I looked around nervously. Even though I’d been working at the Centerville Library for years without incident, I could only see Randy and Nick approaching me as I stepped into the parking lot. I shuddered. The memory of their grubby hands on my skin and their foul breath wasn’t so easy to dismiss. Even with Trey next to me, I worried they would come back. After all, they hadn’t listened to him the first time. Why would they heed his second warning?

  “Sure,” I said. “There’s a bench over here.”

  I led Trey over to a small garden at the side of the library. I’d planted some herbs with the other librarians last summer, and we gave them away to all of the patrons who liked to cook. It had helped work feel more like home. Even though I didn’t think I’d ever have a big family, I liked my coworkers at the library. They were all quiet, like me. I wondered what their personal lives were like, but I appreciated that we didn’t gossip about that stuff. A couple of them had raised their eyebrows when they’d heard my last name was Carringer — Daddy’s wealth had made our family locally famous — but no one had ever asked me, and now I was pretty sure no one assumed we were related.