Sexy Bachelor

by Maggie Monroe

  “Hey, you’re here.” Lea smiled, but I could see it. She was hiding something.

  Caleb examined her. He could see it too. He glanced at me. “Something happen while we were gone?” he asked.

  She shrugged. “I might have screwed up. A little.”

  Aaron traipsed over. “Lea’s not the one who screwed up.” He was always puffing out his chest where Lea was concerned. I didn’t know how Caleb put up with it.

  “Technically I did. Sorry, Blake.”

  “Just tell us what’s going on,” I suggested.

  She looked over her shoulder. I could see from where we stood there was someone down by the waves. I thought it might be a girl. What the hell? I started to lay into Lea, but she was already scrambling.

  “I didn’t know you were going to be here tonight.” Her eyes darted in my direction. “And she’s leaving anyway. I didn’t want you not to come, and she didn’t want you to have to leave.”

  “Darlin’, darlin’.” Caleb put his hands on her shoulders. “You are talking a mile a minute. Who is here?”

  But I knew. She didn’t need to say her name or explain how it happened. I took off for the water.

  “Blake, wait.” Lea tried to follow me, but Caleb pulled her back in the circle.

  “Let him go,” he instructed.

  I didn’t know what I was going to do. I only knew I had to see her.

  The music died down the closer I got to the surf. The fire bounced shadows off the water. Her silhouette was still. I stopped before I was close enough to touch her. She was staring ahead. Maybe at one of the ships sailing by. The wind kicked up and my body seized involuntarily when I smelled her shampoo. Her long hair danced all around her.

  “Aly?” I called her name.

  She turned around as if she had been expecting me to call her name. “I’m leaving. I swear I didn’t come here to crash your party. Lea didn’t know you would be here.”

  “I know. She stopped me at the top of the beach.” I paused. “Second time today this has happened.”

  “Second?” Even in the dark I knew the confused look on her face.

  “I saw you earlier at the press conference.”

  “You were there and you didn’t say anything?” She threw out the accusation.

  “You were working. I was working.” I wasn’t going to tell her what seeing her did to me.

  “Right. Because uncomfortable isn’t fun, is it?” She started to walk up the beach away from me.

  “Hey, I thought we were talking.” I jogged to catch up to her.

  “I’m going to tell Lea goodbye and head home. I don’t know what to say to you, Blake.”

  “How about something that doesn’t make my head spin?” I glared at her harder than I intended to. She had me switching emotions faster than the waves rolled in.

  “Your head? Are you saying I’m throwing mixed signals?” She sounded incredulous.

  “Just tell me what in the hell happened in San Antonio, Aly. Can you do that?” I stopped huffing for a second to calm my voice. “Let’s not argue about it. Let’s not get mad. I want the straight, honest truth.”

  “Which part? The part when I confided in you and told you things I’ve never told anyone, and then you kicked me out with a fucking credit card the next morning. Because that’s the part that really sticks out to me,” she fumed.

  I scratched my head. “I told you I had a business meeting. Two to be exact. How could you be mad at me for that? I made sure you were taken care of.” Was she seriously mad about that?

  She stormed farther down the beach. “I can’t do this. I’m angry. I can’t talk about it without getting angry. I can’t look at you without wanting to claw your eyes out.”

  “That sounds a little harsh, sweetheart.” She had walked past the bonfire party. This part of the beach was completely dark. I had to step closer to try to see her face.

  “I’m serious.” She spun to face me. “I’ll leave. You can go back to the party. We don’t have to do this.”

  “We need to do this. I don’t play games. If this is some kind of game to you, which I’m starting to get that feeling, I’m out. When I saw you this morning and then down by the beach again tonight, I thought I needed to say something. Try to apologize for something. Although I don’t know what had you so pissed.”

  “You. You had me pissed,” she seethed.

  “Because of the credit card? What about the stunt you pulled? I called. I texted. I had the damn bellhops looking for you. Do you know what it felt like when I thought you were missing?”

  “Missing? Why would I be missing?”

  I threw my hands in the air. “I don’t know. Maybe because you had just told me a horrific story about how your sister is on the run.”

  “You thought I ran?”

  I shook my head. “No. I don’t know what I thought. I only knew I couldn’t find you. I thought you were lost or someone took you.” I sat on the sand. “Saying it out loud sounds damn ridiculous.” I laughed.

  She sat next to me. “So you weren’t mad about the schedule? You were trying to find me?”

  “I thought I had made that clear. I turned the hotel upside down.”

  She stared ahead. The green light passed the red one on the horizon. “I’m sorry I made you worry. I shouldn’t have done that.”

  “No, you shouldn’t have.” I hung my head. “But I know now why you did it. You thought what you told me didn’t matter.” I shifted in the sand, twisting my body toward her. I didn’t care that she closed her eyes when I held her face between my hands. “I know what it’s like to carry family secrets. I wouldn’t disregard something like that. I felt honored that you shared it with me.”

  Her eyes fluttered open. I wished I could see the hazel flecks under the stars. “But, the way you acted. You were a jackass.”

  “Ok, so maybe I was focused on the meetings. They are multi-million dollar contracts. Fifty million if you want to know. I was slightly preoccupied. It didn’t mean that night wasn’t important to me.”

  “Oh.”

  “Yeah, oh.” I leaned toward her. The air suddenly seemed still and calm as if the waves weren’t rolling toward us any longer. Nights on the beach could be cold, but I didn’t feel the chill on my skin. How was I back in this situation again? The same beautiful girl kept landing in my hands. “I’m going to ask you something I have never in my life asked someone.”

  “What’s that?” Her voice had lost some of the anger and resentment.

  “Can I kiss you?”

  “Why would you ask me that? You usually just do it.”

  “Because this time is different.” I steadied my breath. It was all I could do not to kiss her now. My heart was racing.

  “Different how?” she whispered over the breeze.

  “Different because we’ve both already walked away once. Kissing you now changes everything.”

  “How?”

  I wondered if she was confused or needed every ounce or reassurance I could give her to convince her I meant what I said. It would have to be different.

  “Because I think we’ve established that there might be something between us other than fun,” I explained.

  “But you don’t want more than fun. You told me in the car things aren’t supposed to get serious. You don’t want to cross lines or mix business and pleasure. I heard all of it.”

  My thumb brushed over her lips. “Did you miss this?”

  She nodded, her mouth parting slightly to kiss the pad of my thumb. I felt the urges rise in my chest.

  “I did. I tried not to. I swear I don’t how you made me miss you, but you did.” She nuzzled against my neck, and I held my breath. “Blake, I’m scared to do this again.”

  I tilted her chin toward me. “We have to rewrite all the rules.”

  “I think that’s the problem. You have too many rules. I don’t know what I can and can’t do. First it was no interviews. Then one interview. Then you wanted me to stay over, and then you didn’t,
only to end up spending the most incredible night in your bed with a promise it was a one-time deal.” She huffed. “And then on the way to San Antonio we agreed we were only in this for the fun. But I totally hijacked that when I unloaded all my family problems on you. We clearly have no fucking clue what we’re doing.”

  I laughed. “You make it sound like we are escaped mental patients.”

  “I’m glad you find this funny.”

  “It’s the way you laid it out. We can’t make up our minds.”

  “No we can’t.”

  I pulled her to me so she was straddling my lap. “Unless maybe we had an idea from the beginning of what this was, and we didn’t want to face it.”

  “What’s that?” she asked.

  “That we should just see how things go.” My heart felt heavy. I could feel the pulse thicken in my veins as I held her in my arms.

  “Are we going back to fun status?” There was an edge in her voice. Distrust and skepticism crept in again.

  I shook my head. “No, darlin’, not fun status.” I kissed her cheek. “I’m talking about something real. We see where things go.”

  “It sounds open-ended. I’m not trying to put you in a corner, but I’m trying to figure you out, Blake. I don’t know what you want. I keep trying to twist myself to be that girl, and it’s making me dizzy. I’m not even the kind of girl who tries to fit into a certain mold. It never works, and it’s not going to work with you either. Look at what’s already happened. A cool, fun girl never would have run up your credit card and gone missing all day. A fun girl wouldn’t have stormed out.”

  “I’m not asking you to be someone you’re not.” I touched the bare skin below her shoulder. “I like this girl.”

  “Is that really what you want?”

  “Tell me what you want.” I kissed below her neck. The shirt hung loosely from her shoulder. “What did you think about this week besides punching me?”

  I could tell she was hesitant to tell me. “Come on, we’re both out on a ledge here. Talk to me.”

  “All right. I thought about you before I fell asleep and when I woke up.” Her voice quieted. “I thought about how I felt when you kissed me. And how I wished you were next to me in bed. But not just the sex. God, this sounds like I’m a complete sexpot.”

  “Hey, no it doesn’t. Keep going,” I urged.

  “It sounds crazy, we don’t even know each other that well. But I missed your voice.” She ran a hand along my jaw. “And your hands.” She threaded her fingers through mine. “And the way you make me laugh in the middle of a stupid argument. All of that.”

  “Can I ask you something?”

  “Why not? We’ve already stripped this thing down to nothing.”

  “Can I go home with you tonight?”

  “See? I knew it was about sex.” She sat back a little, balancing on the hold I had on her lower back.

  “The sex is fucking incredible,” I growled against her ear. “Thinking about it right now makes me want to take you here on this beach. I don’t care about the bonfire. I wouldn’t care if someone walked over here. But no. I want to go home with you. I want to spend the night with you. No sex. I swear. I want to be with you, Aly.”

  She peered at me. “I don’t think I believe that.”

  “Before this turns into one of our games or challenges, I’m trying to tell you, Alyson, that I’m interested. I’m not a relationship guy. I’m not going to pretend that I am. You know that’s not me. So when I say I want to see where things go, I’m trying to tell you I see you in my life. I want you in my life. I want more than sex. As much as it’s killing me to even say that.” I grinned.

  “Where is all this coming from?” she asked.

  I shrugged. “I don’t want to let you go tonight. When I saw you standing by the water I had a choice to make. I could walk away and we’d never get this figured out, or I could do this. I could talk to you. Tell you I want you. Show you how much I’m willing to try.”

  “You really feel all of that?”

  “I do.” I planted a kiss on her shoulder. “But you have to tell me. What do you want?”

  “I don’t want the games either. I can’t be the perfect girl who fits in your romcom scenario. It’s not me. I have too many opinions. We’re going to fight. We’re going to argue about things. Don’t you think we’ll drive each other crazy?”

  “I like arguing with you. Keeps things unexpected.” My hand slid up her back. Good God, she wasn’t wearing a bra. I had to take a deep breath.

  “But what happens when we cross signals again?”

  “Then we talk, baby. Just like this.” I brushed her hair away from her face. “We talk.”

  I didn’t want to waste another syllable. All I could think about was showing her what she was doing to me. How much I missed her. How I loved making her feel good. I swore if she would do this, I would prove to her I could be trusted. I wouldn’t scare her again. I wouldn’t walk away.

  “I want to, Blake. But we’ve already gone so fast. Too fast probably. And when you touch me, I can’t think. It feels like I’m supposed to be wrapped up in you and that shuts my brain off. I want you all over me. I don’t want to talk. I don’t want to think, but we have to figure it out. I can’t live in this hot and cold world we started. It’s too confusing.”

  “Come on.” I shoved her off my lap and pulled her to a standing position. “I want to show you something.”

  “Where are we going? I have no resistance where you’re concerned,” she warned.

  “I have an idea, but you have to trust me for another five minutes. Can you do that?”

  “Maybe I should set a timer,” she joked.

  We walked along the beach, the lights of the high-rise hotels coming into focus as we approached. There was a band playing at one of the tikki bars. The reggae music drifted over the dunes to where we stood on the beach.

  I halted her, the waves washing over our feet. Alyson looked at the scene in front of us. “I don’t get it.”

  “This is what I do. This is my life.” I stood behind her, the towers rising above us. “One day I might own this entire stretch of beach.” The buildings were lit up like Christmas trees.

  “Ok. I know you’re ambitious.”

  “No, not ambitious. I’m certain,” I stated plainly. It was a fact.

  “And what exactly does this have to do with you and me?”

  I walked from behind her, and stood facing her so that my body blocked her view of the hotels. “Right now I only see you.” I traced the side of her face. “But it doesn’t mean what’s behind me doesn’t matter to me. I need help figuring out how to do both, I guess.”

  I could see it. The battle within in. She wanted to say yes, but we had scared the shit out of each other. Things started out too hot too fast, and now we were trying to figure out a way to keep it from slipping away.

  “Is this even possible?” she whispered.

  “I think so.” I folded my arms around her.

  “And what happens with work? None of that has changed.”

  “Shh.” I brushed my lips against hers. “Stop thinking and kiss me.”

  Her hands fastened behind my neck. “I’m scared, Blake.”

  “I’ve got you.” My mouth pressed against her lips.

  Chapter Sixteen

  Alyson

  I don’t know how he had managed to change my mind. He didn’t just change it. He rewrote everything I had planned. Drowned out every doubt I had. Convinced me we wouldn’t shatter into a million pieces if we stayed together. I looked out at the beach. Blake left a note for me. He had gone running.

  I wore one of his button-up white shirts and sipped a cup of coffee. I stretched out on one of the chaise lounges and picked up a copy of Men’s Fit. It wasn’t like I was going to find a copy of Vogue lying around his apartment. I loved how his cologne lingered against my skin from the fold in the fabric. I smiled almost to the point of giggling. I knew I had it bad.

  My Saturday
mornings since I moved to the island usually consisted of cleaning my apartment, working out, and making a list of things I needed to pick up at the grocery store. Sometimes I drove over the bridge to shop just to make the excursions last longer.

  I wondered what a Saturday with Blake would be like. The end of the shirt fluttered with the wind.

  Moments like this I missed Kendal. I should be able to call her and tell her about the crazy night I had. That’s what sisters were for, but I needed to accept no matter what was going on in my life, she wasn’t going to share it with me. I walked back inside and returned with my phone.

  I scrolled to my last call and dialed.

  “Hey, Lea. It’s Alyson.”

  “Hey, how are you?”

  “Good. I wanted to thank you and apologize I guess for last night.” I twisted my lip under my teeth.

  She giggled. “Things worked out with Blake, I guess?”

  “You could say that.” I didn’t know her well, but I was aching for some girl talk. My head was spinning. My heart was about to burst. I was riding a roller coaster with him.

  “Blake’s a good guy. A little misunderstood, but deep down he’s a sweetheart. He just needs the right girl.”

  My stomach rolled. Was I that girl? Last night his words convinced me I was.

  “Yeah, I think I get that about him.” I was reluctant to share, but it was exactly why I was reaching out to her.

  “Can I ask you what happened between you two last night? I saw you walk off together so I knew you’d be ok. You can tell me to butt out if you want. I’m being nosey. But, seriously I’m dying to know.”

  I giggled. It was her genuine interest that broke me down. “Honestly, I didn’t want to see him again, except I really wanted to see him again. Does that make sense?”

  “Complete sense. I’m marrying a Davenport. I get it. What did he say?”

  I extended my legs to the edge of the chaise and adjusted the pillow behind my back. “I guess I should start at the beginning if this is going to make any sense.”