Damaged - Jacinta's Story (Destiny Series Book 3)

by J. L. Perry

  “Fucking hell.” He cups my face in his hands. “You’re not making this easy. I would love to take you upstairs right now and fuck that hot little body of yours until you scream my name. But I can’t do it. Don’t you see, that’s all I would be doing? I don’t make love—I fuck. You are so sweet and innocent, I can’t do that to you. You need someone who will make love to you, someone who will treat you how you deserve to be treated. I’m not that person.”

  “I’m not trying to make this easy. I don’t want you to make love to me and I most certainly don’t want to be anyone’s girlfriend. I don’t even want your phone number.” His eyebrows rise as I speak.

  “Are you saying, you’re using me for sex?” He sounds shocked. He places his hand, over his heart and fakes hurt. “I can’t believe you would use me like that.” He’s trying hard not to smile.

  “That’s right. I only want you for your body.” I reply with a smile. “Will you please take me upstairs and fuck me now?” I can’t believe I’ve just said that. He’s going to think I’m some crazy sex person.

  He bursts out laughing. “I have never met anyone like you. You’re so fucking adorable. You are making it very hard for me. I’m trying to be a gentleman here.”

  I’m wearing him down. So, I up the ante. I step closer and reach for the buttons on his shirt. Slowly, I undo them, one by one. When his shirt is hanging open revealing his ripped body, I lift my eyes to his face and smile sexily. At least I hope it’s sexy. I push his shirt aside so I can get a better look. I notice a small tattoo across his heart. It says ‘Blake’. I desperately want to ask him who Blake is.

  My eyes rake over his chest and his abs. His body is amazing, every bit as gorgeous as I imagined. I have a sudden urge to lick him. I lean forward and place a small kiss on his stomach then lick from his navel up to his chest. I suck a nipple into my mouth and he growls. He’s trembling. I am actually making him tremble.

  I can’t believe I actually licked him.

  Being around Cassie and listening to her endless sex stories is paying off. She’d be so proud of me.

  Another growl erupts from the back of his throat as I place tiny butterfly kisses on his neck. I feel it vibrate on my lips. “You’re killing me here. How am I supposed to do the right thing by you?”

  “Don’t,” I reply with a shrug as my hands wander all over him. I slide my hand down his body and stroke him through his jeans. His cock bulges behind the zipper of his pants. He throws his head back and groans loudly.

  “What the fuck are you doing to me?”

  “I’m taking advantage of you.” I reach up and grab the back of his head to bring his mouth down to mine. I crush his lips with a passionate kiss.

  In a matter of minutes, he changes his mind. He scoops me into his arms and carries me up the stairs. He takes them two at a time.

  He lays me down on his bed. I’m not interested in my surroundings, I can’t take my eyes off him. All I care about is having another one of those mind blowing orgasms.

  He eases his body over mine and gazes at me. “Are you absolutely sure you want to do this?”

  “I have never been more sure of anything in my life.” He lowers his head and crushes his lips against mine.

  I reach for his shirt and push it off his shoulders. I notice he has more tattoos down one of his arms, I lightly brush my fingers over them. I’ve never thought tattoos were sexy before but, everything about him is sexy. Damn sexy!

  He lifts me into a sitting position and pulls my dress over my head. His eyes are devouring my body as he lays me back down. Clothed in only a white lace bra and matching panties, I’m surprised I don’t feel self-conscious. I’ve never let a guy see me in my underwear before.

  “Fuck, you’re so beautiful,” he breathes. He pushes down one of the lace cups of my bra and sucks my nipple into his mouth. Of course, I moan. My nipple hardens. It feels so achingly good. He unhooks the front clasp of my bra, draws it down my arms and, with a flick of his wrist it sails across the room.

  “Fuck me,” he says as his eyes lock on my boobs. His hands graze my sides as they zero in on their targets. “Please tell me these are real.” He sounds surprised.

  It takes me a few seconds to realise what he’s saying. Oh, my boobs.

  “Yes they are,” I answer shyly.

  “They would have to be the nicest tits I’ve ever set eyes on.” He lowers his head into my cleavage and rubs his face from side to side. I giggle.

  “Fucking perfect,” he mumbles against my skin.

  He raises his head, lust and want cloud his eyes. “This is your last chance to stop,” he warns. “If we don’t stop now, before we go any further, I won’t be able to hold back anymore.”

  I’ve embarrassed myself by begging him to have sex with me. Nothing I say now can make it any worse. “Am I going to have more orgasms?”

  “Most definitely,” he replies with the sexiest smile I’ve ever seen.

  God, even his teeth are perfect.

  He leans forward and brushes his lips against mine before making his way down my body. He kisses and licks every inch of me. When he gets to the band of my panties, he lets out another growl as he pulls them down with his teeth. He’s an animal—surprisingly, I love it.

  He rises off the bed and pulls them down my legs. He then licks a trail from my ankle to my inner thigh. My body shudders with anticipation as a small moan escapes me. He does the same with my other leg, before hooking them over his shoulders.

  I love the look of hunger in his eyes as he cups my arse in his hands and pulls me up towards his face. I should be embarrassed by what he’s about to do, but I’m not. If this is going to be my one and only time, I want to experience it all.

  He blows his hot breath over me and I whimper. Actually whimper. When he licks right up my middle, I’m in heaven. My whole body trembles as I moan and arch my back.

  When he starts to devour me with his very skilful mouth and tongue, I nearly fucking lose it. I practically scream, and it’s so loud I even scare myself. I put my fingers in his hair and tug on it, as I hold his face there—I don’t want him to ever stop what he’s doing. It feels amazing! I never knew my body could feel this much pleasure.

  Wolf pushes one of his fingers inside me and I scream again as another orgasm takes over my body. This one’s even stronger than the last. It’s so intense that I’m actually seeing stars by the time he’s finished.

  “That was so fucking sexy,” he breathes as he kisses his way back up my body. “You taste fucking delicious,” he adds as he looks up and smiles at me. I notice his lips are glistened with my juices. He licks them before bringing them down to meet mine. I can taste myself on him. It doesn’t turn me off which surprises me, I actually like it. What he just did is something I definitely want to experience again.

  The passion in Wolf’s kiss almost brings tears to my eyes. This night is getting better and better. He pulls away long enough to remove his jeans and boxers. When he reaches over to his bedside table and pulls out a condom, I’m relieved. Of course I am on birth control, but I’m not about to tell him that.

  Cassie made me go and see the doctor to get a prescription months ago. She’s a freak when it comes to things like that. I suppose when you have sex as much as she does, there’s a high risk of falling pregnant.

  I watch as he opens the foil packet with his teeth. God, he’s so sexy! He doesn’t take his eyes off me once. I look down and watch as he rolls the condom on. I’m fascinated. Shit, he’s fucking huge. The size of him actually scares me. I’m positive that monstrosity is not going to fit inside me.

  He covers my body with his again. He nudges my legs open with his knee and settles between my thighs. I can feel his erection at my opening as he brings his lips down to mine again.

  “This is going to hurt a little at first babe,” he says against my mouth. “But, I will be as gentle as I can okay?” I nod like an idiot. All I really heard is the babe part. No one has ever called me babe before. I like it
.

  He gently rocks his body back and forth as he slowly enters me. It feels amazing and painful all at the same time. It’s not as bad as I thought it would be though, more of a stinging sensation as he stretches me. He’s only a fraction of the way in, so I brace myself for what’s to come.

  ****

  Mason

  Fuck, it feels good to be inside her. She’s so tight and I’m only part of the way in. I can’t remember sex feeling this good before. Maybe it’s because it has been three long, torturous months since I’ve had it. Or maybe it’s just her.

  I know what I’m about to do is going to hurt her, and the thought of hurting her doesn’t sit well with me. I don’t want to cause her any pain. When I look into her beautiful blue eyes, I can see she’s been hurt before. Don’t ask me how I know this, I just do. I can see the pain she tries to hide, and for some reason it makes me feel sad.

  I brush the hair off her forehead as I look down at her beautiful face. “Are you ready?” I ask. I only have the tip of my cock inside her, and I’m about to push in all the way. “Just relax okay.” She smiles at me trying to mask her uncertainty, but I can see straight through it. She shuts her eyes tight like she is bracing herself for the pain. I smile.

  She’s so damn cute.

  I lean down and brush my lips gently against hers. I fucking love her lips, they are so soft. I plunge my tongue into her mouth and deepen the kiss. I’m trying to distract her from what’s about to come. It’s killing me to be inside her, not moving. I need to fucking move, but I need to break through her virginity first.

  When I feel like she is distracted enough, I thrust myself deep inside her. Fuck, she feels like heaven. God, I’m in love with her pussy. I break our kiss and throw my head back as a loud groan escapes me.

  “Fuck your pussy feels like heaven,” I breathe as I pull back and thrust into her again.

  She lets out a little gasp. Fuck, did I hurt her? “I’m sorry babe,” I say sincerely as I stop moving. I look down at her. “Are you okay? Do you want me to stop?” Please say no…Please say no! I don’t want to fucking stop. I can’t believe I just asked her that.

  I’m buried up to my balls now. I’m not moving again. I’m giving her body time to stretch and adjust. She is so fucking tight. She feels good. So…fucking…good! I’ve never been with a virgin before.

  Well, actually when I was fifteen there was this one girl. It was the first time for the both of us. It was awkward and fucking humiliating, and over in less than a minute so that doesn’t really count.

  “Don’t you dare stop!” she practically screams in answer to my question. “I’m fine now. Will you just move already?” I let out a laugh. I fucking love her fiery side.

  I position her hands above her head and lace my fingers through hers, as I gently rock into her. We both moan at the same time. “Oh god, you feel so good babe,” I practically whimper.

  “Oh Wolf,” she moans. “You feel so good too.” Fucking Wolf! It makes me chuckle. I want to tell her my name’s Mason, because I want to hear her scream it.

  Things feel different with her. I can’t explain what it is, but I feel drawn to her somehow. I’ve never met anyone like her before. Of course, she’s a total fucking babe, and her tits are fucking perfection, but that’s not what’s drawing me in. There’s something I see when I look deep into her beautiful eyes.

  I know she acts all tough and confident on the outside, but when I look into her eyes, I don’t see that. What I see is someone who is scared and fragile. It gives me an overwhelming feeling inside, like I need to protect her.

  I know that sounds dumb, because it is. I don’t even know her real name for fuck’s sake. But, I find myself wanting to know her name. I want to know everything about her, and that shocks me. I’ve never wanted to know anything about the girls I’ve fucked before. Well, maybe if they’ve had a sex change or they have AIDS or STD’s. Sure, I want to know about that. But anything else, sorry not fucking interested.

  I’m moving faster now, and she is meeting me thrust for thrust. She is making these sexy little noises, and I’m finding it hard to control myself. I’m right on the edge, but I don’t want to blow until I make her come again. I start going through the motions of changing a tyre in my mind. That’s pathetic right, but hey, it’s her first time and I want it to be memorable. I don’t want her to ever forget how great we felt together. I sure as hell won’t.

  She wraps her legs around me as she throws back her head and screams. I mean fucking screams! I love how she just lets go like that, it turns me on. I feel her inner muscles clench around my cock as her nails dig into my back. I can’t hold back any longer. I thrust myself into her a few more times, hard, before I find my own release. Fuck, she has me screaming now. I’m glad my neighbours’ houses aren’t too close.

  CHA

  PTER SIX

  Jacinta

  Wow! That’s the only word to explain what just happened. I never thought my first time would be that incredible. Shit, I want to do it again.

  Like right now!

  I’m lying on his chest and Wolf has his arms wrapped around me tight. He kisses the top of my head, which I think is sweet. I’ve never laid in anyone’s arms like this before. I like it.

  “That was fucking mind blowing Red,” he breathes. I have to agree with him, because it was.

  “Can we do it again?” I ask hopefully, and he chuckles.

  “Give me a few minutes to recover. Then I should be good to go.”

  We lay there in silence while we try to catch our breath. I suddenly feel sad knowing I won’t see him again after tonight. But we agreed to no-strings-attached sex, so there’s nothing I can do about it.

  I give him the few minutes he needs before I attack him again. I don’t even recognise the person I am right now. I start kissing his chest, while I’m still lying in his arms. He groans as I climb over him and straddle his waist. I look down at him and, of course, he is staring at my boobs.

  “Fuck Red,” is all he says, as he runs his hands from my waist up to my chest.

  Yep, definitely a tit man!

  I bring my lips down to his. He’s a phenomenal kisser. Seriously, I could kiss him forever. He breaks our kiss after a few minutes, before reaching over to his bedside table again. When he pulls out another condom, I smile at him.

  Woohoo, we’re going to do it again!

  I take it from him and rip it open with my teeth. “God you’re sexy,” he groans, as I roll it onto his impressive length. He lifts me up and guides me down onto him.

  “Oh god,” I moan as I throw my head back.

  This time the sex isn’t so gentle. It’s wild and frenzied, and I’m loving every minute of it. I even have another two orgasms. He makes me and my body feel amazing. I wonder if sex will be like this with everyone, or if it’s just him?

  We are both exhausted when we’re done. This time I don’t even lie beside him, I’m sprawled out on top of him. I can’t believe I waited this long to have sex. I have missed out on all those years of pleasure. Now I finally know why Connor and Cass are such whore bags.

  Wolf strokes my hair as I lay on top of him. “Even though you are using me for my body, thank you for what you gave me tonight, Red. I didn’t think it would mean so much to me, but it does.”

  I feel myself getting emotional as he speaks. Tonight has meant a lot to me too, and I will never forget it as long as I live.

  I look at him as the tears fill my eyes. “Thank you for making my first time so incredible. I’ll never forget it.” He cups my face as he pulls me down towards him. Our lips meet. He gives me a soft, sweet kiss. Before I know it he has flipped me onto my back and we are going for round three.

  I feel tender down below, but this time he’s slow and gentle with me. He’s actually very sweet, as he gently rocks into me. He has my hands pinned above my head again, his fingers laced through mine. He’s gazing down at me. In this moment, the connection I feel with him is overwhelming. I wonder if this i
s what making love feels like, because it’s definitely not fucking.

  ****

  Mason

  The last time I fuck Red, I take my time sweet with her. I don’t know why, but I want it to be special. I want to show her that she’s special. She made me feel things tonight that I thought I was incapable of feeling. I know we agreed on only one night together, but I’m not ready to let her go yet. I’m actually surprised that I want more from her, but I do.

  I fucking need more!

  Before sleep claims me I smile to myself. Red’s beautiful body is wrapped in mine. I’ve never spent the whole night with anyone before, but I want her to stay with me. I even plan to take her out for a nice breakfast in the morning.

  ****

  When I wake in the morning, a smile graces my face as the events of last night flood my mind. Those feelings I felt before falling asleep last night soon vanish though. When I roll over to pull Red back into my arms, I’m shattered to realise she’s fucking gone. Fuck! The crushing feeling that settles over me, shocks me.

  ****

  Jacinta

  I slip out of Wolf’s bed with a heavy heart. I laid here waiting for him to fall asleep before untangling myself from his incredibly sexy body. I’m definitely not ready to leave yet, but I don’t have a choice. There’s no guarantee that I won’t have a nightmare if I fall asleep. I don’t want him to see that fucked-up part of me. I want him to remember tonight with fond memories. Our night together has been perfect, and I’ll never forget it as long as I live.

  I quietly crawl around on my hands and knees on his bedroom floor, trying to find all my clothes. I vaguely remember them getting flung across the room earlier, in various directions. I find my dress, bra and shoes, but I can’t find my panties anywhere. After about twenty minutes of searching for them, I give up. I will have to go home panty-less, I don’t have a choice.

  I stand beside his bed, watching him sleeping for a few minutes. I desperately want to climb back in beside him and wrap my body around his again, but I know I can’t. Eventually, I drag myself away and make my way into the hall.