Until I Die Again [On The Way To Heaven] (Soul Change Novel)
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“Thank God you can still talk.” He gently touched the bruises that ringed her neck, causing an aching tingle. “Dr. Toby was worried that your vocal cords were damaged.” He removed his hand and looked intently at her. “Did you really forget about the baby?”
Her stomach flip-flopped as she tried her best to compose herself. Could he tell her hands were shaking within the confines of his grasp? She took a deep breath, hoping for some divine intervention in the form of a real good reason his revelation had shocked her into talking. Damn, but this complicated matters, even more than they were!
“The past is… muddled right now,” she whispered in a hoarse, strange voice. Her hand slipped from his and touched her nearly flat stomach. “Are you sure?”
“I’m sure. You’re only two months pregnant. Didn’t Dr. Toby tell you that the baby was all right?”
She shrugged. “She might have, I don’t know. My head was spinning most of the time.” She covered her mouth. “Oh gawd, I’m pregnant.”
“Maybe I’d better call Dr.—”
“No,” she blurted out. “I—I’ll be fine. Really. Just give me some time.”
“Time,” he repeated with a nod. “I’ll give you time. But this not remembering stuff is scary, Marti. Maybe your brain was deprived of oxygen for too long.”
“My brain is fine.” It was, wasn’t it? She did some times math problems in her head. Remembered a joke about a priest and a frog in a bar. Her first kiss in third grade, her self-absorbed mother. She shuddered. She’d sure like to forget that woman.
“Are you sure you’re okay?”
He’d been watching her ruminations, no doubt. He’d been watching her ruminations, no doubt. She nodded, then walked into the adjacent bathroom so he wouldn’t see the panic in her eyes. Her heart sank when she saw the stranger in the mirror. She had looked at that reflection a hundred times in the last day and a half, but it was always the same. The swelling was going down, making the purple bruises look more pronounced. There was one bruise, or mark really, that was different from the others. It looked like a sideways “V” with two little marks below it. The skin was broken where a sharp object had dug in.
Oh, how I wish this were all a nightmare, and if I screamed, I would wake up in my bedroom with pounding heart and realize it was all over. Then I’d just be back to worrying about the obsessive, crazy Mick. But it’s not a nightmare, is it? She’d pinched herself so many times red marks lined her arm.
She had to remember a life she had not participated in. Or run like hell from this place. But run where? Home to her husband, Jamie, and tell him that she had somehow gotten herself into the body of another woman, a pregnant woman?
She thought of Jamie, her real husband back in her real life. It had been two months since then for him, where she had lived in some abyss. She couldn’t dare to hope that he missed her. And she couldn’t dare blame him if he didn’t.
Jesse flipped on the television and settled onto the couch. The room was dark except for the bluish glow from the set. Two weeks ago, he had married a woman he hardly knew because she had manipulated him into getting her pregnant.
He couldn’t deny the protective instincts this attack on her aroused, but he didn’t much like them. Could she have staged the whole thing to elicit sympathy from him? He shook his head. No, Marti wasn’t gutsy enough to pull off something like that.
Through the night, he kept moving, twisting, sighing deeply every time he realized he wasn’t asleep. It didn’t take much to put him on alert, even the sound of quiet footsteps walking past him and the snick of the front door. Had he really heard Marti go outside alone, after what she’d been through?
Swinging to an upright position, he eyed the digital clock: 5:49. He located his jeans and slid into them as he walked toward the window. He spotted her silhouette on one of the swings that hung from the large oak tree out front.
She was slumped over, using her toe in the dirt to move slowly back and forth. He watched her for a while, trying to imagine what it would feel like to be overpowered and attacked in such a vicious way. He couldn’t. What he really wanted to do was find the son-of-a-bitch and rip him apart. His hand clenched with the need for that, the fury.
He glanced at the clock again: 6:10. He wasn’t going to let her wallow in self-doubt or whatever else she was dealing with any longer. He walked out into the damp, foggy morning.
“What the devil are you doing out here by yourself?”
She shrugged, staring down at the toe that kept her swing moving. He dropped down in the swing next to hers. They sat in silence as the early morning glow filtered through the oak trees. She looked at him for a few minutes, studying him. He held her gaze, wishing he could read her eyes. There was something different about her, but of course, there would be, given what she’d gone through.
“Do you believe in God?”
He narrowed his eyes. “Sure, I do. Do you?”
“I do now.”
“You think it was God who helped you get away from the… creep who attacked you?”
“It’s a lot more complicated than that.”
He wasn’t following her, but he wanted her to get out her anxieties. “Sometimes near-death experiences bring people closer to God, or give them religion when they didn’t have it before.”
She laughed, a strange, thick sound. “I’m not talking about a near death experience.” She pressed a clenched fist against her lips. “What do you think happens to people when they die?”
“They go to Heaven. Or hell.” He shrugged. “But you didn’t die.”
“Do you think it’s really cut and dried like that? I mean, is your only choice Heaven or hell, or is there another option?”
He crinkled his eyebrows. “Catholics believe in Purgatory, so I guess that’s a possibility.”
She studied him again, as if weighing whether to go on. Then she took a deep breath. “What if a person dies, but they don’t go to Heaven or hell. They wake up and are alive… but it isn’t their body they’re in anymore.”
“Marti, you’re not making sense.”
“Humor me. If that happened, what would you think had occurred?”
Something had gotten knocked loose in her brain. “It couldn’t happen.”
She bit her bottom lip, shaking her head. “I knew you wouldn’t understand.”
“Marti, what you’re saying is crazy. It would be incredible, amazing.”
“But God can do anything, right?”
“I guess, sure. But things like that don’t happen.”
“Yes, they do. Something crazy, incredible, and amazing happened to me. I don’t know why, but it did.” She took a deep breath, muttering what he thought was, “Cause I sure didn’t deserve it.” She spoke louder and enunciated each word, as though he were slow. “I am not Marti. My name is Hallie DiBarto, I’m from California, and I’m married to a man named Jamie.”
She might as well have been speaking a foreign language as far as he was concerned. It had to be delirium. Encouraged by his silence, she continued.
“Two months ago something happened inside my brain, and I died. I think God gave me a second chance here, in this body, this life.” She gestured vaguely around her.
There was no hint of craziness about her, no odd light in her eyes, but she was sure talking crazy.
“You’ve been through a lot. It’s just the stress—”
She stood and faced him, taking the chains of his swing in her hands. “It is not stress. I know it sounds crazy, it is crazy.” Her voice dropped to a whisper. “But it’s true.”
“Wait a minute, let me understand this.” He ran his fingers through disheveled hair, trying to make his brain understand. “You’re saying that you’re someone totally different in Marti’s body?” He was trying to put it together, but it sounded so… she had the right word: crazy. “That you died and came back in Marti’s body?”
“That’s what I’m saying.”
He stood and paced a few feet before turni
ng to face her. She dropped into her swing again and twisted nervously, watching his reaction.
“If you’re really some woman from California, then where’s Marti?”
She touched the bruises around her neck. “I don’t know. She must be dead.”
“Nolen Rivers swore you were dead when he found you by the side of the road, but—no, it’s crazy. I’m calling Dr. Toby—”
“No!” she said as loud as her hoarse voice could manage. “There’s nothing she can do about it. Do you think I’d make something like this up?”
“The problem is you believe it.”
She looked so fragile, sitting on the swing with desperation in her eyes. Like a battered doll. But it couldn’t be true. Yet, it could explain why she didn’t know she was pregnant. And why she didn’t look at him with annoying adoration the way she had before the attack. He shook his head.
She stood and crossed her arms over her chest. “Well, it doesn’t matter if you believe me or not, I won’t be around much longer anyway.”
He realized then that the woman before him was like a stranger. Those were not Marti’s words. “What do you mean by that? Where are you going?”
“Probably home to California. I can’t stay here. I’m married to someone else, for Pete’s sake, and I don’t even know you.”
Those words made him smile. “You didn’t know me before the attack either, doll.” The endearment had slipped by.
She relaxed her tensed shoulders. “What do you mean?”
He shrugged. “I hardly knew you before we had sex. It just sorta happened, and you said you were on the pill to make your periods lighter. A month later, you were pregnant. That was two weeks ago.”
She seemed to absorb that. “She tricked you into getting her pregnant?”
“You tricked me into getting you pregnant. At least you finally admitted it.”
She let out a sound of exasperation. “I’m not admitting it. As bad as I was, I would never has used a baby to snag a guy.”
“Marti, enough of this bizarre conversation. Let’s go inside.”
Table of Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
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