Rock the Beat bf-3

by Michelle A. Valentine

  The grin on his face lights up my entire world. “You know I do. I think I’ve loved you since we were five. I’m just the idiot who didn’t realize how much in love I was until this summer when I found myself getting jealous over any guy I caught looking at you. The feeling that you’re meant to be mine won’t leave me, and I don’t know what to do about it, or if you even feel the same way.”

  “Is that why you stayed away all summer?” I ask.

  “Yeah. I was hoping it would go away and we could stay friends, but all that went to hell that first day of school when I saw you and you needed help. I knew then I could never be just your friend. I’m always going to want more with you. I feel like you’re my forever or something.”

  Emotions from within me take over and tears well in my eyes. “It might’ve taken me a little longer to come to the same conclusion, but I feel exactly the same way.”

  Noel’s thumbs trace over my cheeks. “I love you, Lane.”

  I smile as a tear falls freely from my eye. “I love you too.”

  He leans in and presses his lips to mine. My eyes drift shut and I fall into his kiss—fall into him. This is everything I never knew I always wanted. His lips part and mine move in sync with his until he finally slips his tongue in my mouth. This isn’t my first kiss, but it is the first time I’ve ever felt something kissing a boy. It’s like tasting my future and I can picture my entire life in my mind—a life with Noel.

  With more skill than I knew we both possessed, we slide down to the floor of the dock without breaking our kiss. I grip handfuls of his shirt and he teases the skin on my back just under the hem of my blouse. This is moving entirely too fast, but I can’t find a logical reason in my brain to stop the madness. Being so close to Noel feels incredible and I don’t want it to end.

  Noel lies back, pulling me on top of him, allowing me to feel the bulge in his jeans against my thigh.

  I’m scared as hell, but the way his lips move against the soft skin on my neck makes it a little less intimidating. “We don’t have to go any further than you’re ready for, Lane,” he says, his breath hot and tempting on my flesh.

  I press a feather-light kiss on his cheek. “I love you and I’m ready. We aren’t strangers, and I can’t think of one other person I would rather experience all my firsts with.”

  Noel tucks my hair behind my ear. “I want to be your only.”

  There’s no fighting against that. That kind of magical romance is something all girls dream about. I’m just lucky I’ve found my prince so soon.

  “I want you to be my forever,” I tell him before he crushes his mouth to mine and we head into our forever.

  Chapter 3

  End of Junior Year…

  NOEL

  The drums pound out the last few beats of the song and I grin as I look at my band mates. “Yeah! I think we finally nailed it!”

  Sam, the drummer taps the high-hat with his drumstick. “Finally! It only took us fifteen tries. You have to stop being such a fucking perfectionist, Noel, or we’ll never have enough of our own songs to make a demo. We can’t keep spending more than a month on one song.”

  “We need to have our shit together because after graduation next year we need to get on the road and find paying gigs like we talked about,” I answer and then run my fingers down the thread of the guitar.

  “We need to play more covers,” Leon says, scratching the back of his shaggy head. “That’s what people want to hear.”

  I stare at the two other guys in the band dumfounded. Sam pushes his glasses up the bridge of his nose and glances toward Leon as they wait on me to say something. Don’t they see that originality is everything in the music business? Labels want bands that are different. We have to stand out and be the best.

  I shake my head and smooth my dark hair back into my ponytail. “We’re going to practice our own shit until our fingers bleed. We have to be on point if we want a record deal. Don’t you guys want that?”

  Leon shrugs and sets his bass in its case. “We do, but we aren’t obsessed with it the way you are.”

  I open my mouth to protest, but Sam cuts me off. “Leon and I have been talking.”

  I narrow my eyes. “About what?”

  Sam shoves his fingers through his bright-red hair. “We aren’t going with you after graduation.”

  I shake my head. Unbelievable. These two jackasses are supposed to be my best friends—the guys who have the same goal as me. “We’ve talked about this!” I throw my head back and growl. “What the fuck, guys? I thought we were taking Thunder Dome on the road as soon as school’s over?”

  Leon sighs and his scrawny shoulders slump a bit. “I’m a senior, dude. My mom had me fill out some college applications, and I got into a few, some offered scholarships. I’m heading to Kentucky University next fall on nearly a full ride. I can’t pass that up.”

  “Who gives a shit about college, man? We have a great thing going here with this band. We could really be something one day. Don’t you want that?” I argue. Why would anyone pass on the opportunity to become a rock star? Choosing college over that is so fucking lame.

  “I know you don’t like it, Noel, but I’m applying to colleges as well. Music will always be there. You should think about going too, and maybe try once we get done with school.” I study the freckles on Sam’s face as he speaks and try not to completely lose my shit.

  College will never be an option for me. Never. It takes me five times longer to read something than the rest of the kids in my L.D. class. Having Dyslexia hasn’t been a fucking picnic in high school. Things get so jumbled in my brain and I know there’s no way in hell I could make it through college courses.

  I’m so glad Lane and I are on the same page about this.

  “Whatever. You guys do whatever you have to do. I’m going on the road as planned as soon as we graduate next year. Lane will travel with me while I play solo shows until I find a band to hook up with.” Both guys look at each other with an expression on their face that almost looks like pity and it makes my blood boil. “You know what, fuck you guys!”

  “Noel…” Sam tries to stop me as I unplug my guitar and flip it around to rest against my back. “Don’t be like that, man. We’re just trying to be honest with you. Do you know what the odds are of us actually making it in the music industry? Slim to none. I’m just trying to be realistic. We need to go to college. It’s the sensible thing to do.”

  I throw my hands on my hips. “"You know what's sensible? Following your dream when you have the talent and the drive. I know I'm going to make it. It’s okay if you guys don’t believe in me. Lane does, and she’s the only person I need.”

  I turn to walk out of Sam’s garage just as Leon says, “You don’t know Lanie as well as you think. Seems to me like you two have different ideas about the future.”

  I whirl around. “What’s that supposed to mean? I know my girlfriend—better than she knows herself.”

  Leon shrugs indifferently. “Maybe you do, but that doesn’t explain why she was in the guidance counselor’s office getting college applications today. Why do that if she isn’t planning on going?”

  I shake my head and storm out the door. “Whatever.”

  I rub the back of my neck as I walk towards my black Chevelle and pull the strap from around my neck and lay the guitar along the backseat. Surely Lane would tell me if she had doubts about the plan we’ve had in place since we became official our freshman year? She wouldn’t just leave me hanging. We’re forever, and there’s no way I can spend years without her on the road.

  I slam the door once I’m inside and fire up the engine. It roars to life and the only thing on my mind is finding out if Leon’s claim has legs.

  A few minutes later I park in Lane’s driveway. This place has been like a second home to me since I was a little kid. I love her parents as if they are my own—another reason why we are perfect for each other.

  The white Cape Cod with a red roof, shutters and door fits perfectly
into the scenery next to Cedar Creek lake. It looks happy, like Lane. I love living on the water, and someday when I’m a famous rock star I’m going to buy a place on a lake for Lane and I to live in and start a family. She’ll love that.

  I knock on the door and step back as Lane’s dad opens the door. He grins the moment he sees me. “Hi, Noel. How are you, son?”

  I shove my hands in the pockets of my jeans. “I’m fine, Jim. Is Lane here?”

  Jim scratches his dark bearded jaw-line and nods. “She’s down at the dock, fishing, I think. You’re welcome to grab a pole from the garage if you like.”

  “Thanks. I think I’ll do that.”

  Jim steps out of the house, closing the door behind him, and pulls a set of keys from his pocket. “Let me unlock the man-door for you.”

  I follow Jim inside the garage. It’s funny—as a kid I thought he was a huge man, but now at seventeen my height nearly matches his six-foot frame. Time really does change everything.

  He hands me a black rod. “She should have bait down there.”

  After I thank Lane’s dad, I make my way down the hill to the dock. There’s always a certain level of comfort that falls over me when I come out here. Most of the major events in my life have taken place on this very dock—bonding with Lane, telling her I loved her, and even our first time together has all happened out here. This is most definitely our spot.

  I lay my pole down and sneak down to where Lane sits on the edge, dangling her feet over the end. I place my hands over her eyes. “Guess who?”

  She grins. “Um, Ryan Reynolds?”

  I laugh and kiss her cheek. “Fuck Ryan Reynolds. You’ve got Noel Falcon, and I’m much better.

  “I don’t know…” she trails off in a singsong voice.

  “That’s it,” I growl and tackle her down to the dock and straddle her.

  Lane squeals as I tickle her ribs and kiss her neck. “Stop! You’re going to make me pee.”

  I laugh. “Never. Not until you tell me I’m the best.”

  She tries to catch her breath. “A little conceited, aren’t we?”

  “Only when it comes to you. I know I’m the best man for you.”

  She adjusts her back against the wood and I smooth her hair back from her face. “You’ll get no argument from me.”

  I grin and lean in and kiss her lips. “That’s good to know.”

  As much as I want to take this to the next level I know I can’t. Her parents could be watching us out of their back window and that would be awkward for all of us. I pull back and push myself up so I can sit next to her.

  After helping her back up to a sitting position, I grab my pole and begin to poke around in the tackle box for some plastic bait.

  “How was band practice?” Lane asks.

  I stiffen a bit, that this conversation will probably lead to an argument, and I hate when we fight. “Not good. The guys are both punking out on going on the road after graduation. Looks like it’ll just be me and you.” I cast my line into the water and I notice Lane fidget a bit. The best thing to do is get things out in the open. “Leon has this crazy idea that you don’t want to go either. He’s not right, is he?”

  She doesn’t look at me as she cranks her reel. “I want to go with you. You know that. But, I think maybe going to college first is a pretty good idea.”

  I roll my eyes. “Not you too. Come on, Lane. We’ve talked about this a million times. Don’t you want freedom? The chance to go on the open road together before we have to face all that grown-up shit that people always bitch about.”

  Lane sighs. “It’s not that easy, Noel.”

  “Yes it is, Lane. Do you want to be with me or not?”

  Her head snaps in my direction. “Of course I do. Why would you even say something like that?”

  “Because if you want to be with me, then we have to be together.”

  “Then why don’t you enroll in a college with me.”

  I shake my head. “You of all people know I can’t do that.”

  “I’ll help you.” She places her hand on my thigh. “We can get through school together just like we do everything else.”

  “Not college. I’m not cut out for it and I can’t go. Not even for you.” The words leave my mouth and I instantly regret them.

  Lane’s face twists. “You’re an asshole.”

  She shoves herself up from the dock and takes off, sprinting towards her house.

  “Fuck,” I curse myself as I break into a full run to chase her down. She makes it halfway up the hill before I grab her from behind and spin her around in my arms. Her breath is ragged and her olive skin flushes. “I’m an idiot. I’m sorry. You know I didn’t mean it the way it sounded.”

  A tear streams down her cheek. “I don’t get you, Noel. Is music so important to you that’d you’d throw everything we have away to get it?”

  I shake my head, but I know it would be a difficult choice. “No. You’re all that matters to me.”

  “Then show me,” she whispers.

  I wipe away her tears with my thumbs before I press my lips to hers. “I will.”

  Chapter 4

  One Year Later—Graduation Night…

  NOEL

  There are at least ten parties going on tonight and we’re going to make our rounds, but first, Lane wants me to meet her on the dock for a private celebration. I grin to myself knowing this will be the last night we have to hide in order to have sex. This time tomorrow Lane and I will be out on the open road, making our way with no solid plan, going in whatever direction the music takes us.

  I know she has her doubts. She expresses them nearly everyday, but I know she doesn’t really mean them. Once I get her out on the road everything will be fine. I just have to prove it to her that I can make it as a musician. I want her to be proud of me.

  She’s already waiting for me at the end of the dock. Her long brown hair falls in waves around her shoulders. The loose strands blow idly in the light breeze coming in off the lake. A tight jean skirt and cream colored shirt accentuates the deep tan she’s already gotten even though it’s only the beginning of summer. My girl is so damn beautiful. I’m a very lucky guy.

  Excitement overtakes me and I rush down and scoop her up in my arms, lifting her off the ground. “We did it, babe. Can you believe it?”

  She laughs in my arms. “I’m so proud of you, Noel.”

  I nuzzle my nose into her hair. “Not as proud as I am of you. You aced every single test they threw at you. You’re a fucking genius. When I become a famous rock star, I’ll pay for your tuition—anywhere you want to go.”

  “Noel—”

  I cut her off, not allowing her a chance to argue with me. “Anywhere. I won’t take no for an answer.”

  Lane frowns. “I can’t let you do that.”

  I furrow my brow. “Of course you can. You’ll deserve it. It’ll make the little bit of struggle we have to go through at first totally worth it.”

  “Noel—” I cut her off again while I go on about the fancy house and cars I’m going to buy her, and she pushes on my chest.

  I frown and set her on her feet. “What’s wrong?”

  Her delicate fingers rub her forehead before running through her hair. “I don’t know how to tell you this.”

  I trail my hand up the bare skin on her arm and then stop when it reaches a strand of her hair. I wrap it around of my finger suddenly nervous about what she has to say. There’s a slight quiver in her voice, and that’s never a good sign. That only happens to her when she’s nervous, and there’s not one thing she should be nervous to tell me.

  I lick my lips. “Whatever it is, just tell me. We’ll get through it together.”

  Lane shakes her head. “This time we won’t.”

  I take her face in my hands and force her to look into my eyes. “Lane, you’re not making any sense.”

  She closes her eyes. “This is so hard.”

  I feel her tense under my touch as a tear falls down her face an
d my heart falls to the pit of my stomach. Lane never cries and it’s something I can’t stand to see. “Please don’t cry. Baby, I’ll fix it. Whatever it is, I’ll fix it.”

  She opens her green eyes and stares at me, her eyes searching my face for answers. “Don’t leave tomorrow.”

  I flinch. “The way you just said that makes it sound like I’ll be leaving by my self.”

  “You will be if you go,” she whispers.

  I shake my head. “No. You promised you were going with me.”

  “I can’t go with you, Noel.”

  I drop my hands from her face. “What do you mean, you can’t? We talked about this since freshman year.”

  “Exactly,” she cries. “We had no clue what we were talking about back then. Things change, Noel. I don’t know why this is such a huge shock to you. I’ve been telling you for the last year that I want to go to college.”

  “I didn’t think you were serious. Damn, Lane. Why are you waiting until just now to tell me this? We had a plan.”

  “You had a plan. Not me. Not one time have you asked me what I wanted!”

  I close my eyes and pinch the bridge of my nose. “Yes I have.”

  “No. No you haven’t. Have you heard anything I said about going to college and living in a dorm?”

  “I heard you. I just didn’t think you were serious.” I sigh. “I can’t believe you’d pick going to college over being with me.”

  “That’s the same way I feel every time you pick music over me.”

  “I never pick music over you!”

  “No? If I won’t go with you, are you going to go anyway?” she challenges.

  “Yes! Because that’s been our plan.” I raise my voice, completely frustrated by this blindside. “Music is my fucking life. You know that. It’s all I have.”

  “You had me.” Lane bites her plump, bottom lip as forces a cry back. “This is the end for us.”

  My heart squeezes so hard in my chest that panic starts setting in. “Please, Lane. Don’t do this.”

  She kisses my cheek. “Goodbye, Noel.”

  My body turns completely numb as she turns and runs away from me. I should pull it together and go after her and force her to understand and try harder at convincing her to come with me, but I can’t move. The idea that Lanie Vance is no longer mine hits me hard and I drop to my knees, shaking uncontrollably. I fist my hair in my hands and allow myself to cry for the loss of the only girl I’ll ever really love.