FireSong

by Roberta Gellis

  Although Fenice was glad that she had appeased her husband and that he was pleased with her desire for a normal, simple life, she remained aware that the real cause of his dissatisfaction was not the one he had stated. No one could have believed she was pretending joy. It had welled out of her so freely that her sincerity must have been apparent.

  Fenice wondered whether she should ask what had really angered her husband, but she dared not. To ask the real reason was to imply that Aubery had lied, which would set off his quick temper, and besides, Fenice was not certain that she wished to know. What if her dancing about had reminded him of his first wife and he had seen her as an unwelcome usurper? Or, if the cause was something silly and of no importance, it would be stupid to recall it to his mind.

  So Fenice said nothing, but a shadow of uneasiness lay in a corner of her mind, and it began to trouble her again that Aubery still said no love-words to her. From the time they had made up their quarrel after she had been so stupid as to try to refuse entering the queen’s service, she had not thought of the matter, accepting it as part of Aubery’s way of doing things. He had shown her so much approval, so much confidence, bringing his worries and his joys to her during the day and joining more and more freely in love play during the night that the lack of tender words seemed unimportant.

  Now she wondered. Aubery called her Fenice and sometimes, playfully or when in grand company, my lady, but he never called her my love or dear heart or flower of my soul, as Delmar used to do before Lady Emilie poisoned his mind. Even when Aubery lay under her, his eyes glazing with passion as he watched the generation of his pleasure by her rising and falling body, and he cried out in a moment of nearly unendurable joy it was merely her name he uttered. Perhaps that was enough. Perhaps he had never used words of love because he felt they were not fitting words for a strong man to say, but perhaps it was because he did not love her.

  Fenice did her best to rid herself of these unwholesome thoughts. She told herself she was an ungrateful wretch. Blessed with a husband who treated her with all the courtesy a great lady could desire, who paid no more attention to any other woman than a minimum of politeness demanded and plainly showed his preference for her in all company, how dared she ask more? But such a question only illustrated too clearly that she felt Aubery was withholding from her some ultimate part of himself.

  Since Aubery’s release had arrived before they had unpacked more than what they would need for that one night, there was little to do to make ready, and the very next day they rode north to Blancheforte. Their sudden departure had given Sir Savin, who had traveled south with the king as part of Lord Guy de Lusignan’s household, the hope that Aubery had somehow offended the prince or the queen. The idea had pleased Savin mightily and had reduced the urgency of his desire for revenge. Nonetheless, he had no intention of trying to restore himself to Edward’s favor. He was delighted with his present situation.

  Because the king’s half brothers were cordially hated by many, and there had been a few unpleasant incidents, Guy de Lusignan had been perfectly willing to take into his household a strong fighter who professed himself obligated to him and his brothers and very eager to serve them. And Savin did his best to show himself useful in the weeks between his arrival and the king’s departure to meet his wife, son, and new daughter-by-marriage on their return from Castile.

  Sir Savin was fortunate. Circumstances provided an opportunity for him to protect Lord Guy from an exasperated merchant, and he also demonstrated his ability in intimidating those who resisted giving the various bribes and presents one or another of the brothers demanded or those who threatened to appeal to the king for redress.

  Since Savin tended to add his own extortions to those of his masters, he was finding his new place profitable as well as pleasant. Thus, he avoided the prince rather than courting his notice, and hoped that Lord Guy would not remember that he was supposed to go back into Edward’s service. Savin was primarily concerned about the handsome perquisites he was taking, but he still wished to kill Aubery while they were away from England, if it were possible.

  The best place to do that would be Bordeaux, where Aubery was almost certainly going and where Savin had made connections of the type best suited to ambush and assassination. However, the prince was not returning to Bordeaux with his parents. The royal party was separating, Edward and little Eleanor were going to tour Gascony to show themselves as the new duke and duchess. Savin did not wish to be part of this entourage. All of the prince’s people would have to be on their very best behavior to impress the Gascons with the mercy, kindness, and justice of the new rulers. While in Bayonne Savin was very quiet and kept out of everyone’s way.

  Fenice was delighted on their arrival at Blancheforte to find that Raymond and Alys were still there. She had not been certain that they would have remained in Gascony so long after the war was actually over. They had been away from Aix much longer than usual, and Lady Alys had already been worried about her children. Not only were Alys and Raymond still in Blancheforte but Sir William was also there, grumbling about his long separation from his beloved wife but asked to remain by Richard of Cornwall, who had written that the king intended, if he could, to visit his mother’s tomb and have her body transferred to the church at Fontevrault.

  This was now possible because King Louis was, at long last, back in France. Alphonse, Raymond’s younger brother who protected the interests of the Comte d’Aix in the French court, had written a gossipy letter that provided the cynical details surrounding the homecoming. Louis’s crusade had been a disaster and had ended in his own capture by Sultan Ayyub at Mansurah in Egypt. But Ayyub had been more merciful to Louis than Louis would have been to Ayyub, demanding no more than that the French king yield what little he had previously conquered and pay a king’s ransom for his release. Ayyub was content to leave Louis’s soul to what Christian consolations it could find, whereas Louis would have insisted that Ayyub’s Moslem soul be converted.

  In fact, so stubborn was Louis in his determination to perform the impossible and drive the infidels from the Holy Land that he lingered in Syria for three years after he had been freed. All he had was the helpless remnant of a shattered army, but he hoped that his pious example would inspire other Christian monarchs to send assistance. Even his mother’s death in 1252 had had no immediate power to shake his resolve. By 1255, however, he had given up hope of waking the conscience of his brother rulers and yielded to the increasingly frantic pleas of his regents to return to governing his kingdom.

  Fenice and Aubery were deeply interested in the fact that Louis had again taken the reins of France into his hands. In the king’s absence, those who governed uneasily in his stead had regarded the long-standing truce between England and France strictly, that is, they would refrain from attacking, but acted as if all those who owed fealty to Henry of England were enemies of Louis of France and were to be accorded no courtesies.

  Thus, only under the most exceptional circumstances was an official safe conduct for passage through France issued during the king’s absence. Louis was of a more generous and flexible disposition. He had always interpreted the truce in the widest sense, as a preliminary to a peaceful accord. Thus, he had most graciously agreed to allow Henry to do what he liked with his mother’s remains and, indeed, to move freely within France with a reasonable escort. Aubery would have heard the news in Bayonne had he not been so eager to avoid any official of the royal party lest he be snatched back into service.

  Having commiserated with his stepfather who was waiting to join Henry and the queen when they came back to Bordeaux preparatory to setting off for Fontevrault, Aubery asked Raymond if his brother, Alphonse, could obtain a safe conduct for Fenice and himself. Permission to travel through France would save them the choice between a most dangerous and uncomfortable sea voyage—if they were able to find a ship that would attempt the long sail to England at this season—or remaining in Gascony until the spring.

  Raymond said that he could
foresee no difficulty and sent off a messenger that very day to Alphonse. He was rather amused at Aubery’s haste to be gone before the king returned to Bordeaux, commenting that most men would kill for the advantages Aubery was so eager to throw away. However, Sir William, Alys, and Fenice all supported Aubery stoutly—William and Alys because they had strong reservations about a close association with King Henry, and Fenice because, despite the kindness of the queen, she could not completely overcome her fears and knew she would be far happier living quietly.

  Although the safe conduct they desired did not arrive before the royal party, Henry was far too happy in the company of his wife and too busy with the plans he was making to think of Aubery. Of course, had Aubery presented himself, the king would have been reminded of his existence, happy to see him, and happy to praise him for doing his duty so well. Aubery knew it and was so eager to avoid his monarch’s notice that he hardly was willing to go outside the walls of Blancheforte.

  By the time the royal party returned to Bordeaux, Savin had learned that Aubery was not out of favor. No one was certain why he had left so hurriedly, but the assumption was that it was some urgent personal business that called him away. Savin was annoyed, but it was too late to do anything about it. Since Aubery was still in high favor, it was impossible for Savin to believe he would not have come to court to exploit his opportunity. Thus, he was almost certain Aubery had already left for England. Besides, his gains from illicit profit were still excellent, and Lord Guy seemed satisfied to keep him in the household, so Savin dismissed Aubery from his mind. Sooner or later, Savin told himself, he would get his revenge for the injuries Aubery had done him.

  Fortunately, Henry and Queen Eleanor set off on their journey before Aubery lost patience with his confinement. Only a few days later Alphonse’s letter came containing a safe conduct from King Louis. Fenice and Aubery wasted no time. Every day’s delay would subject them to more chance of bad weather. Since they were taking with them no more than their clothing, packing took no long time. Five English men-at-arms, half of Sir William’s little troop, went with them to help guard the baggage, and they chose to take the most westerly route, through La Rochelle and Nantes to Cherbourg. The crossing from Cherbourg was best for them. That from Calais was shorter but was not practical because it would add hundreds of miles to their journey in France and because Dover was much farther from Marlowe than Portsmouth.

  In the chilly predawn of mid-November, Fenice attended mass for the last time with her father and stepmother. She prayed passionately for their long life and happiness, for the health and well-being of her half brothers and half sister, for her sister, Enid, in service with Lady Beatrice, Countess of Provence, and all those she was leaving behind, even Lady Jeannette and Lady Emilie. She knew she should be frightened and lonely at the idea of going so far away and at the possibility that she would never again see those who had been so dear to her, but truly she was neither frightened nor lonely.

  Fenice did weep a little after they had broken their fasts and her father and Lady Alys accompanied her to the bailey to embrace her for the last time, but her tears were more of excitement than of sorrow. She would be a lady in her own manor again, as she had been in Trets. And even if she often lived in Marlowe where Lady Elizabeth ruled, she had nothing to fear from Lady Elizabeth. Sir William had been exactly as Lady Alys described him, and Lady Alys had assured her that Lady Elizabeth was the kindest person living.

  Besides, in England no one knew she was only a serf woman’s daughter. In recompense for the evil thought, forbidden by Lady Alys and an implied criticism of her dear, kind father, Fenice hugged them both again and wept a little more. Then Aubery put her up on her mare and they were off, clattering across the drawbridge, Fenice twisting in her saddle to wave and wave as long as she could see the figures watching them ride away, waving and weeping because she felt guilty at not being sadder.

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  When the road bent so that she could no longer see Blancheforte, Fenice wiped her eyes and nose and turned to look at the view ahead. It was familiar at this point because they had to ride to Bordeaux to cross the river. Despite the damp chill of the morning, Fenice knew it would be a beautiful day. Ahead to the east, the sky was streaked with pink and gold. Soon the sun would be up.

  “Are you afraid of going so far from your family and being alone with me?” Aubery asked suddenly.

  Fenice turned startled eyes up to him. They were riding close on the narrow road, Aubery holding Draco in so that he would not outdistance Fenice’s much smaller mare. The stallion was snorting and shaking his head in irritation at the constraint, and Fenice wondered whether it was because Aubery had needed to raise his voice over Draco’s noise that it had sounded sharp to her.

  “No, Aubery,” she replied, “of course I am not afraid. You have always been kind to me.” Then her clear eyes shadowed. “And closeness is no guarantee of happiness.”

  Aubery’s first reaction to her answer was pure pleasure. He had been a little annoyed at her crying. After all, she had known from the beginning that she must eventually go to England with him, and she had seemed eager to do so. But when she said that closeness was no guarantee of happiness, he realized he was being unreasonable. It was only natural that she should be sad at parting with Alys and Raymond, and that statement could only refer to her first marriage. Her husband’s lands had been very close to Tour Dur.

  Although he really wanted to ask what she meant in the hope that she would say outright her first marriage had been unhappy, he did not do so. If Fenice spoke of…what was the man’s name? Delmar, that was it. Would she not expect him to speak of Matilda? Aubery shied away from the thought. He did not want to speak—or think—about Matilda.

  Instead, he said, “Then you will not mind, I hope, if we make the best speed we may on our journey.” He, too, glanced at the sky. “It will be fair and not cold today, but as we go north, the weather will not be as good, and the slower our pace, the worse it will get.”

  “I will not mind at all,” Fenice assured him. “Let us go as far as the horses can take us.”

  Aubery smiled at her. Her ready response, which held no shadow of regret at the implied increase of distance from her father and stepmother, pleased him, but the remark had only been something to say. He did not wish to idle on the road but did not feel any need to hurry, either. Unless they had very bad luck, the trip to Cherbourg would take no longer than ten days, and it would be senseless to exhaust Fenice and the horses to save a day or two. That could make no difference.

  In fact, Aubery had had no intention of covering as much as the forty-odd miles they did that first day. He would gladly have stopped sooner, for although she did not complain, Fenice looked very tired toward the end of the ride, but there had been no suitable place. The two villages they had passed had been so poor and filthy that he did not for a moment consider taking over one of the huts. For a while Aubery thought they would have to camp in the open because the road passed through a long, hilly, forested area, more desolate than he had expected. However, they met a merchant’s party going south and were assured that there was a larger village ahead, where they could find food and shelter.

  They found more than that. Hardly had they settled into the one decent chamber the inn afforded than there was a loud disturbance in the main room below. Fenice paid no attention, but when she came toward Aubery to disarm him, he shook his head.

  “What—” Fenice began, but was interrupted by the creak of the stairs and the landlord’s trembling voice at the door saying that there were gentlemen below who insisted on having the chamber.

  Aubery strode forward, one hand on his sword, and Fenice’s breath caught with fear. “Do not—” she cried, but he was already out the door and headed down the stairs. She followed a moment later, determined to run out and summon their men from the stable if a fight should develop, but only got as far as the stair landing when she heard Aubery say in an amazed voice, “My lord Warwick, gen
tlemen, what do you here?”

  “And who are you to ask?” a haughty voice responded.

  Followed so immediately that Aubery could not answer by a loud laugh and a second voice, saying, “Back off, John. Do you not see it is Aubery of Ilmer?”

  From her perch on the landing, Fenice could not see which of the three armed men confronting Aubery had spoken, but if she could have reached the second she would have scratched out his eyes. In her experience, to say something like that was sure to provoke a fight, for the man who had been warned would doubtless feel he must prove he was not afraid. Fortunately, before the first speaker could respond to the challenge, Aubery intervened.

  “I would gladly give up the chamber to you, Lord Warwick,” he offered, “but my wife is with me. If I can find—”

  “No, no,” Warwick interrupted quickly, his voice more pleasant. “I thought you were some French or Poitevin popinjay with a doxy. I would not think of depriving Lady…er…”

  “Fenice,” Aubery told him.

  During the conversation, Fenice had hurried quietly down the stairs. Now that the initial confrontation was over, she was certain her presence would prevent any new threat of aggression from arising. She approached the men and dropped a deep curtsy.

  “I have no wish to discommode you, my lords,” she murmured. “Perhaps—”

  “You do not discommode us at all,” Warwick assured her, casting an admiring glance over her as she rose from her bow. “In fact, if you will give us your company this evening, we will be repaid in full measure and overflowing for any small inconvenience the lack of a private chamber will cause.”

  Fenice cast an apprehensive glance at her husband, but he was smiling and nodded permission. Whatever uneasiness Aubery felt about her relationship with her first husband, he was not jealous of other men. Over the months they had traveled with the queen and prince and stayed in Castile, he had discovered that Fenice offered other men no more than common courtesy, and less if she could do that without giving offense. He no longer feared that her sexual response to him was a sign of a generally lecherous nature and found himself rather proud of the attention she received and the envious comments and glances that were his portion.