Famous: A Small Town Secret Romance

by Emily Bishop

In spite of my determination to have my own house, it’s still an unrealized dream. For the past four years, I’ve been a renter, mostly of shitty apartments where having a key doesn’t necessarily mean you’re keeping anyone out.

  One day, though.

  “I wish I could show you,” Blake says. “Do you want to come?”

  God, I need to get this little smile off my face. No wonder he feels like something is happening between us. I’m accidentally sending all these signals. “Better not,” I say, not looking at him. I focus on the fountain. “I’m already breaking two rules.”

  Blake beams. “Property-after-dark and flirting?” he guesses hopefully.

  I roll my eyes and grin away from him. “No,” I say. “Property-after-dark and Ms. Madden’s assistant recognized my necklace as your key.”

  “You’re not going to get rid of it, are you?” he wonders, as if worried.

  “They can fire me,” I scoff, my fingers looping around the key again. “I’m not giving them this necklace.” I look at him and he looks at me, and we freeze, hanging in each other’s eyes for a second. “Shit,” I breathe. “Now you know.”

  A soft, real smile moves over Blake’s lips. “That conversation meant a lot to you,” he deduces.

  “You have no idea,” I gush, finally able to say it aloud now that he knows. “It changed the way I saw the world. I wasn’t lost. I was free. There’s a big difference.” My eyes flash to him, and I elaborate, “I had escaped from my husband just a few weeks before we met, and…it was hard at first.” My eyes flash back to the fountain. I never talk about Jared. “Anyway.”

  “You’ve come a long way,” Blake assures me. I close my eyes and let his voice wrap around me, but I don’t acknowledge it to myself. If I admit the way his mere voice is affecting me, then I admit a lot of things. “Are you with anyone right now?” I don’t answer him, and my eyes stay shut. “For real?” he adds.

  I exhale and my shoulders round. “No.” I open my eyes and look at him for the first time in a while, because I can’t bear to look at him.

  His oceanic blue eyes go to me, too, and I bristle against the magnetic pulse that travels through my body. I can’t go to him. “It’s obvious that you’ve got some kind of neglected fetish about girls like me,” I tell him, busily wrapping my arms around myself and drawing my knees up to my chest on the fountain’s edge. I twist a little and turn completely from him so he can’t even look at my face anymore. “Maybe you want to satisfy your curiosity. But that’s not my cat to kill.”

  Blake offers a wounded laugh. “I wasn’t even thinking about it,” he assures me smoothly, and my heart chills. I squeeze my eyes shut and shake my head a little bit, scolding myself for thinking that one of these bachelors wanted me. The whole axis of this show is the unattainability of the men, jackass. Duh.

  “So, are we friends, then?” I wonder.

  There’s a beat of silence, and Blake says, “Yes. We are friends.”

  A sad, warm fire kindles in my heart. Friends. That’s not too bad. “I haven’t had a guy friend in a long time,” I say, glancing over my shoulder at him. Even though my back is turned, he’s already looking at me with intensity, and I offer a meek smile. “My ex-husband wouldn’t allow it, and when I finally did get free, I ended up… befriending a lot of creeps. Eventually, I just gave up on it altogether.”

  I hear him slide closer, the rustle of cloth against stone, and then feel the warmth of his palm between my shoulder blades. As on the yacht those years ago, tingles spread across my back and even reach down between my legs.

  “You don’t have to worry about me,” Blake swears. “I only date women who can potentially bore me to literal death. I’ve always been a bit of a thrill seeker that way.”

  An unexpected laugh pops out of my mouth, and I glare over at him. Blake slings an arm around my shoulders, and I don’t even bristle. I melt against his chest and revel in the solidity of his arm draped across my chest, hugging my back against his side.

  “You’re funny,” I tell him with a little nudge. We stare across the garden together, only able to see the lights of the trailer camp from here. I sigh. “I don’t want to go back there.”

  “It’s all the same, isn’t it?” he whispers against my ear. “Cameras everywhere. What’s the difference?”

  “Oh, this is a very private moment,” I contradict him. “It will get so much worse at the mansion in LA.”

  “Oh, god,” he grumbles.

  “Yep. Prepare yourself.” I lean back deeper into his chest and gaze up at him. “Why are you doing this show if you hate it so much?”

  “I could ask you the same thing,” he retorts.

  “Be real for a second.”

  “Why?” he counters.

  “Because I want you to,” I answer. “For real. Why are you doing this?”

  I don’t realize what’s happening until it is too late, and he eclipses my view of the distant trailers in a descent to my lips. I stiffen, steeling myself like he’s going to hurt me, and his mouth crushes gently yet firmly over mine. His fingertips skate up my arm and come to cup my chin.

  I don’t mean to kiss him back. It’s just… happening. I whimper softly, and my neck loosens as the resistance flows from my body. My lips fall apart against his, and he’s in my mouth instantly, taking full advantage. His free hand drives up into my hair and clutches a fistful. His tongue, his breath, his touch–everything happens in surround sound, like we’re pressed against each other in an enclosure, but the enclosure is our own embrace.

  I let it happen. I let it all happen, and I just float.

  Blake leans back, angling my torso to slip down into his arms in a dip. His lips break from mine, and I drag in a breath as if I’ve been drowning. The stars overhead are so bright. I gaze up at him and he peers down at me, both of us bedazzled.

  When he kisses me again, I’m ready for it.

  My fingers travel up into his hair and pull him deeper against my mouth. He’s smooth and he tastes so good, just like a fresh, clean mouth. I love feeling him.

  I wonder what his dick feels like.

  My pussy twinges plaintively, surprising me.

  She hasn’t bothered me with lust in a long time, and we kiss harder, becoming manic. We break for air and rush together again. The energy shifts into a frantic, dark, clawing hunger and his hand breaks away from my chin, skating down the front of my black camisole, between my breasts, migrating further until his palm slips across the crotch of my skin-tight leggings.

  I know he can feel my desire now. My breath is ragged and loud, my eyes are cloudy and mindless, and there’s physical heat wafting off my pussy.

  He grunts his approval against my mouth and strokes me through the fabric.

  A lightning bolt arcs from my core, and I writhe, shoving myself out of his arms, propelling myself in one swift movement into a standing position.

  Part of me is still back on that fountain, making out with Blake hardcore, while the rest of me storms from the garden. My thighs pump hard and carry me far in a matter of seconds.

  “Roxanne!” he calls after me. I hear him running across the lawn and glance over my shoulder just in time to see him hurtle a shrub. Damn it, I want to smile. “Where are you going?”

  “Back to my bunk!” I yell, mostly to myself. “We’re supposed to be friends! And friends don’t do that stuff!”

  “People can do whatever they want; there are no rules,” Blake assures me, catching up to my rapid pace and matching it easily. He’s looking at me as he speaks animatedly, but I keep my eyes pinned to that huddle of trailers in the distance. I have to get my head out of my vagina and back to real life. He’s Sir Berringer, the Billionaire Bachelor #6. And I’m Roxy. The makeup girl. From Los Angeles. Come on.

  “There are rules, Blake,” I snap at him. “You just don’t get that.”

  “I know you feel it, too,” he insists.

  “Could you shut up?” I still don’t look at him, even though he’s right beside me
now. “Is that physically possible for you? Because if anyone hears you, I could get in big trouble.”

  “I said I know you feel it, too!” he shouts, and I whirl to shoot daggers at him with my eyes. “And I don’t care who knows it!”

  “You might think that none of this is real and we’re all the same,” I hiss, “but that’s only true if a super volcano erupts or something. Until then, I need this goddamn job. That’s the difference.”

  One of the trailer doors swings open, and I whirl from Blake, mentally juggling all the different elements of the lie I’m formulating. I wasn’t walking. Blake was walking. Blake needs help with something. Yeah. He’ll back me up. He’s a fast thinker. He doesn’t want me to get fired.

  Ms. Madden comes swaggering toward us in black compression pants and an oversized t-shirt, scowling. “What the hell is going on out here?” she demands to know, advancing from the trailer. “People are trying to sleep. We’ve got a big day tomorrow.”

  “That’s exactly what I was trying to tell him,” I huff, climbing into the trailer where the only six women in the crew are all bunking.

  “Can no one control you?” Ms. Madden wonders, arching a thin brow at Blake. “I might not have the authority to tuck you into bed myself, but I do have the authority to tell you to leave one of my girls alone.”

  She reaches back and takes my hand, which is odd. Ms. Madden is not the touchy-feely type.

  I move to take my hand back, and she squeezes it. Hard. She doesn’t look at me as she talks to me, but maintains unwavering eye contact with Blake instead.

  “Don’t touch the bachelor,” Ms. Madden reminds me icily. “Isn’t that what I said? Aren’t those the rules?”

  “You don’t decide whether or not she touches me,” Blake tells her. “She does.”

  “I didn’t,” I lie to her in a soft, breathless voice. “I didn’t touch him. Nothing happened.”

  Blake looks at me, perhaps expecting that I will explain the nature of the relationship to Ms. Madden, and I stare back at him, hoping that my eyes are not as sad as they feel. He looks back at Ms. Madden, shaking his head.

  Blake lifts his hands, showing her his palms. “No one touched anyone, Candace. Sorry for disturbing camp.” He bows deeply and doesn’t look directly at me again. “Goodnight, ladies.”

  “Goodnight,” Ms. Madden returns.

  “Night,” I echo. My heart feels funny, like I might be falling ill.

  As Blake strolls across the green back toward his massive mansion, Ms. Madden twists and examines me with her dark, skeptical eyes. The woman is terrifying, even though she’s still holding my hand.

  Ms. Madden grimaces and yanks my hand between her own, placing two fingers firmly against my pulse. She stares at me, ruthlessly scrutinizing my hair, my eyes, my lips. I realize too late that she’s checking out my claim that nothing happened, and I probably look a lot like a woman who’s been making out. His fingers were up in my hair. His mouth wasn’t on mine in any gentle way.

  She tosses my wrist from her grip as if it’s disgusting.

  “No drinking,” she reiterates in a hiss. Her eyes burn into mine. “No wandering. No souvenirs. And no flirting. But where were you? You were wandering. And what were you doing? You were flirting. Three strikes and you’re out, baby girl.”

  “But I wasn’t—”

  “Oh please. I’m an adult, Roxy. I know what I’m looking at. And don’t think Blake doesn’t see it, either.”

  A little voice inside says that I shouldn’t pursue her words, but I ask. I have to know what that means. “What are you talking about?”

  “How desperate you are,” she answers coolly. “Anyone can see it, especially a man like Blake Berringer.” Ms. Madden scoffs and shakes her head at me, squinting thoughtfully. “He’s a bachelor, Roxy. He’s Bachelor #6. I mean, come on. You know how these men are. They’re gorgeous billionaires.” She laughs and keeps shaking her head, the darkness around her lightening. The air of control and cruelty breaks away and a slightly nicer Ms. Madden emerges. “He’s probably going to sleep with every woman in this trailer unless I stop him.” Then she gestures into the trailer, and it seems as if she’s my friend. It seems as if she’s looking out for me, that she’s happy to protect me. But that isn’t how it feels.

  I feel cold and stupid.

  “We all make mistakes,” Ms. Madden says from behind me, guiding me back into the trailer. “Just don’t let it happen again.”

  Chapter 5

  Blake

  I know she’s gun-shy, and that’s fine. I’m trigger-happy…

  I wake up the same way I went to sleep: glaring at the ceiling.

  Someone is knocking on my door. I didn’t sleep well enough to start a new day yet. For Christ’s sake, the last vestiges of my nightmare are still clinging to me. There’d been an unshakable cloud of unmanned studio cameras following me through the streets. If I slammed a door and locked it, one would float through an open window. There was no escaping them.

  “Blake?” Miles’ voice bleeds through my bedroom door. “Did you already leave your breakfast order with Felipe?”

  “No,” I call back.

  “May I come in?”

  “Not yet. Tell Felipe I want a sausage and pancake sandwich.”

  “Are you being serious?” Miles wonders.

  “Yes. Do it. I need to sink my teeth into something juicy.”

  Miles departs, and I rise for twenty minutes of yoga. Maybe a few downward dogs and sun salutations will rinse this feeling out of my hair.

  How did last night start somewhere like that fountain, with my tongue caressing Roxanne’s and my hand slid between her thighs, and end up somewhere like those trailers, with her cowering behind steely-eyed Candace?

  Her words echo back to me as I flow into a tree pose and hold for a few minutes, breath steady.

  “I do have the authority to tell you to leave one of my girls alone.”

  My jaw clenches, even as I hold the tree pose with immaculate balance.

  Yoga can’t fix everything.

  Candace can’t just tell me what to do. I’m not that kind of guy, and I never have been.

  One of her girls, she called her. Like she isn’t a free woman.

  Roxanne wants me. I know she does. She was lying to Candace last night. She’s afraid she’ll lose her job, and she doesn’t expect anyone else to take care of her. But that kiss at the fountain was no lie. The way she looks at me is no lie.

  Someone knocks at the door, and my head whips to glare in that direction. I’m just prepared for today to be a bad day.

  “What?” I snap.

  “I brought your riding attire,” Miles informs me hesitantly. “The film crew downstairs requests that you join them in the gardens in an hour. They asked that I remind you that your date is with Shannon, the secretary from Illinois.” I correct his pronunciation, and he thanks me. “She loves horses, and this is the horseback riding episode. You’ll show her the grounds and later enjoy the private box at a race. It should be lovely.” There’s a pause, and then, “May I come in, sir?”

  Damn. I suppose I can’t hide from this arrangement all day, can I?

  “Of course, Miles.”

  The other man observes as I go through my morning routine, but his expression is one of concern.

  “Are you all right?”

  “Yes. No. Last night, I kissed one of the girls.”

  “Oh? Was it the secretary from Illinois?”

  “The girl in the crew, with the dark hair. The one I met at a party a few years ago.”

  “Oh, Blake,” he says, as if he’s disappointed, and I glare at Miles.

  “What?”

  “What would your parents think?”

  I bristle at the mere suggestion that I might consider their posthumous spite before kissing a woman. I’m offended that Miles actually sides with them.

  “They’re dead, Miles,” I inform him, very honestly. “They’ve joined with nirvana and don’t care who I fuck
.”

  ***

  Out on the green, there are trainers and horses and lawyers and stunt doubles. I wear a starchy white button-down and khaki riding crops with dark brown riding boots, feeling ridiculous. I prefer to ride without the uniform and the saddle, but the lawyers were quick to amend that. We’re all standing on the sidelines now, waiting for clearance to get on the actual horses. The trainers, the producers, and my lawyer are arguing with such tenacity they’re probably spitting all over each other. There’s a liability issue, and no one can film until it’s resolved.

  “Hey,” a familiar, husky American female voice rises up behind me.

  A fist wraps around my heart and gives it a little squeeze. It’s her.

  “Hey,” I return, glancing down. She’s wearing her My Billionaire Bachelor t-shirt again. Her hair is down and wild, like bedhead, at odds with the artful mask of makeup on her face. It’s flawless, and you have to appreciate it for that alone, but it changes the contours of her face in some unclear way. It creates an optical illusion which leads me to wonder if it’s really her; her lashes are too spiky, her cheekbones too prominent. The earthy red lipstick hardens her mouth.

  I remember how soft and fresh she felt last night, crumbling in my arms. No cameras. No costumes. Just action.

  I want to rub her lipstick away with my thumb.

  Roxanne watches me like she knows exactly what I’m thinking, and she’s going to stomp out that little spark of rebellion with her ass-kicking boots. “I was sent over to fix your hair,” she informs me very professionally.

  I scoff. “My hair is perfect.”

  “It’s too much hair for horseback riding. You look like a damn Jonas brother.”

  I sneer, but I’m also uncertain. “A what exactly?”

  Roxanne grins and steps closer, calming me the same way one of these trainers would calm their horse. She whispers and coos and clicks, and my eyes flutter closed, bewitched. She laces her fingers through my hair, and I let her. I enjoy her feather-light touch on my scalp and lean back for her, allowing her to gather all my hair into a tight little knot and fasten it with a band at the top of my head.