Cries of Terror

by Anthony Masters

  ‘No, I don’t,’ said the boy.

  ‘You do,’ said his father. ‘And because you do, it is not too late to reason with you. There is no harm in a fantasy, old chap. There is no harm in a bit of make-believe. Only you have to know the difference between day dreams and real things, or your brain will never grow. It will never be the brain of a Big Simon. So come on. Let us hear about this Mr Beelzy of yours. Come on. What is he like?’

  ‘He isn’t like anything,’ said the boy.

  ‘Like nothing on earth?’ said his father. ‘That’s a terrible fellow.’

  ‘I’m not frightened of him,’ said the child, smiling. ‘Not a bit.’

  ‘I should hope not,’ said his father. ‘If you were, you would be frightening yourself. I am always telling people, older people than you are, that they are just frightening themselves. Is he a funny man? Is he a giant?’

  ‘Sometimes he is,’ said the little boy.

  ‘Sometimes one thing, sometimes another,’ said his father. ‘Sounds pretty vague. Why can’t you tell us just what he’s like?’

  ‘I love him,’ said the small boy. ‘He loves me.’

  ‘That’s a big word,’ said Mr Carter. ‘That might be better kept for real things, like Big Simon and Small Simon.’

  ‘He is real,’ said the boy, passionately. ‘He’s not a fool. He’s real.’

  ‘Listen,’ said his father. ‘When you go down the garden there’s nobody there. Is there?’

  ‘No,’ said the boy.

  ‘Then you think of him, inside your head, and he comes.’

  ‘No,’ said Small Simon. ‘I have to make marks. On the ground. With my stick.’

  ‘That doesn’t matter.’

  ‘Yes, it does.’

  ‘Small Simon, you are being obstinate,’ said Mr Carter. ‘I am trying to explain something to you. I have been longer in the world than you have, so naturally I am older and wiser, I am explaining that Mr Beelzy is a fantasy of yours. Do you hear? Do you understand?’

  ‘Yes, Daddy.’

  ‘He is a game. He is a let’s-pretend.’

  The little boy looked down at his plate, smiling resignedly.

  ‘I hope you are listening to me,’ said his father. ‘All you have to do is to say, “I have been playing a game of let’s-pretend. With someone I make up, called Mr Beelzy.” Then no one will say you tell lies, and you will know the difference between dreams and reality. Mr Beelzy is a day dream.’

  The little boy still stared at his plate.

  ‘He is sometimes there and sometimes not there,’ pursued Mr Carter. ’Sometimes he’s like one thing, sometimes another. You can’t really see him. Not as you see me. I am real. You can’t touch him. You can touch me. I can touch you.’ Mr Carter stretched out his big, white, dentist’s hand, and took his little son by the nape of the neck. He stopped speaking for a moment and tightened his hand. The little boy sank his head still lower.

  ‘Now you know the difference,’ said Mr Carter, ‘between a pretend and a real thing. You and I are one thing; he is another. Which is the pretend? Come on. Answer me. What is the pretend?’

  ‘Big Simon and Small Simon,’ said the little boy.

  ‘Don’t!’ cried Betty, and at once put her hand over her mouth, for why should a visitor cry ‘Don’t!’ when a father is explaining things in a scientific and modern way? Besides, it annoys the father.

  ‘Well, my boy,’ said Mr Carter, ‘I have said you must be allowed to learn from experience. Go upstairs. Right up to your room. You shall learn whether it is better to reason, or to be perverse and obstinate. Go up. I shall follow you.’

  ‘You are not going to beat the child?’ cried Mrs Carter.

  ‘No,’ said the little boy. ‘Mr Beelzy won’t let him.’

  ‘Go on up with you!’ shouted his father.

  Small Simon stopped at the door. ‘He said he wouldn’t let anyone hurt me,’ he whimpered. ‘He said he’d come like a lion, with wings on, and eat them up.’

  ‘You’ll learn how real he is!’ shouted his father after him. ‘If you can’t learn it at one end, you shall learn it at the other. I’ll have your breeches down. I shall finish my cup of tea first, however,’ said he to the two women.

  Neither of them spoke. Mr Carter finished his tea, and unhurriedly left the room, washing his hands with his invisible soap and water.

  Mrs Carter said nothing. Betty could think of nothing to say. She wanted to be talking for she was afraid of what they might hear.

  Suddenly it came. It seemed to tear the air apart. ‘Good God!’ she cried. ‘What was that? He’s hurt him.’ She sprang out of her chair, her silly eyes flashing behind her glasses. ‘I’m going up there!’ she cried, trembling.

  ‘Yes, let us go up,’ said Mrs Carter. ‘Let us go up. That was not Small Simon.’

  It was on the second-floor landing that they found the shoe, with the man’s foot still in it, like that last morsel of a mouse which sometimes falls unnoticed from the side of the jaws of the cat.

  The Misanthrope

  J. D. Beresford

  I

  Since I have returned from the rock and discussed the story in all its bearings, I have begun to wonder if the man made a fool of me. In the deeps of my consciousness I feel that he did not. Nevertheless, I cannot resist the effect of all the laughter that has been evoked by my narrative. Here on the mainland the whole thing seems unlikely, grotesque, foolish. On the rock the man’s confession carried absolute conviction. The setting is everything; and I am, perhaps, thankful that my present circumstances are so beautifully conducive to sanity. No one appreciates the mystery of life more than I do; but when the mystery involves such a doubt of oneself, I find it pleasanter to forget. Naturally, I do not want to believe the story. If I did I should know myself to be some kind of human horror. And the terror of it all lies in the fact that I may never know precisely what kind.…

  Before I went we had eliminated the facile and banal explanation that the man was mad, and had fallen back upon the two inevitable alternatives: Crime and Disappointed Love. We were human and romantic, and we tried desperately hard not to be too obvious.

  Once before a man had made the same attempt and had built or tried to build a house on the Gulland rock; but he had been defeated within a fortnight, and what was left of his building was taken off the Island and turned into a tin church. It is there still. We all went to Trevone and ruminated over and round it, perhaps with some faint hope that one of us might, all-knowing, have the abilities of a psychometrist.

  Nothing came of that visit but a slight intensification of those theories that were already becoming a little stale. We compared the early failure of thirty years ago, the attempt that was baffled, with the present success. For this new misanthrope had lived on the Gulland through the whole winter – and still lived. Indeed, the fact of his presence on that awful lump of rock was now accepted by the country people; to them he was scarcely a shade madder than the other visitors; that remunerative, recurrent host that this year broke their journey to Bedruthan in order to stand on Trevone beach and stare foolishly at the just visible hut that stuck up like a cubical gall on the landward face of that humped, desolate island.

  We all did that; stared at nothing in particular and meditated enormously; but in what I felt at the time was a wild spirit of adventure, I went out one night to the point of Gunver Head and saw an actual light within that distant hut; a patch of golden lichen on the mother parasite.

  Some aspect of humanity I found in that light it was that finally decided me; that and some quality of sympathy, perhaps with the hermit – mad, criminal, or lovelorn? – who had found sanctuary from the pestilent touch of the encroaching crowd. It was, in fact, a wildish night, and I stayed until the little yellow speck went out, and all I could see through the murk was an occasional canopy of curving spray when the elbow of the Trevose Light touched a bare corner of that black Gulland.

  The making of a decision was no difficult matter, but whi
le I waited for the necessary calm that would permit the occasional boat to land provisions on the island two miles out from the mainland, I suffered qualms of doubt and nervousness. And I suffered them alone, for I had determined that no hint of my adventure should be given to anyone of our party until the voyage had been made. They might think that I had gone fishing, an excuse which had all the air of probability given to it by the coming of the boatman to say that the tide and wind would serve that morning. I had warned – and bribed – him to give no clue to my friends of the goal of my proposed excursion.

  My nervousness suffered no decrease as we approached the rock and saw the authentic figure of its single inhabitant awaiting our arrival. I had some consolation in the thought that he would be in some way prepared by the sight of our surprisingly passengered boat; but my mind shuddered at the necessity for using some conventional form of address if I would make at once my introduction and excuse. The civilized opening was so hopelessly incapable of expressing my sympathy, presenting instead so unmistakably, it seemed to me, the single solution of common curiosity. I wondered that he had not – as the boatman so clearly assured me was the case – had other prying visitors before me.

  My self-consciousness increased as we came nearer to the single opening among the spiked rocks, that served as a miniature harbour at half-tide. I felt that I was being watched by the man who now stood awaiting us at the water’s edge. And suddenly my spirit broke, I decided that I could not force myself upon him, then return with the boatmen to Trevone. So resolute was I in this plan that when we had pulled in to the tiny landing-place, I kept my gaze steadfastly averted from the man I had come to see, and stared solemnly out at the humped back of Trevose, seen now in an entirely new aspect.

  The sound of the hermit’s voice startled me from a perfectly genuine abstraction.

  ‘Fairly decent weather today,’ he remarked with, I thought, a touch of nervousness. He had, I remembered, addressed the same remark to the boatmen, who were now conveying their cargo up to the hut.

  I looked up and met his stare. He was, indeed, regarding me with a curious effect of concentration, as if he were eager to note every detail of my expression.

  ‘Jolly,’ I replied. ‘Been pretty beastly the last day or two. Kept you rather short, hasn’t it?’

  ‘I make allowances for that,’ he said. ‘Keep a reserve, you know. Are you staying over there?’ He nodded towards the bay.

  ‘For a week or two,’ I told him, and we began to discuss the country around Harlyn with the eagerness of two strangers who find a common topic at a dull reception.

  ‘Never been on the Gulland before, I suppose?’ he ventured at last, when the boatmen had discharged their load and were evidently ready to be off.

  ‘No, no, I haven’t,’ I said, and hesitated. I felt that the invitation must come from him.

  He boggled over it by saying, ‘Dashed awkward place to get to, and nothing to see, of course. I don’t know if you’re at all keen on fishing?’

  ‘Rather,’ I said with enthusiasm.

  ‘There’s deep water on the other side of the rock,’ he went on. ‘In the right weather you get splendid bass there.’ He stopped and then added, ‘It’ll be absolutely top hole for ‘em, this afternoon.’

  ‘Perhaps I could come back …’ I began; but the boatman interrupted me at once.

  ‘Yew can coom back tomorrow, sure ‘nough,’ he said. ‘Tide only serves wance-avery twalve hours.’

  ‘If you’d care to stay, now …’ began the hermit.

  ‘Thanks! it’s awfully good of you. I should like to of all things,’ I said.

  I stayed on the clear understanding that the boatmen were to fetch me the next morning.

  II

  At first there was really very little that seemed in any way strange about the man on the Gulland. His name, he told me, was William Copley, but it appeared that he was no relation to the Copleys I knew. And if he had shaved he would have looked a very ordinary type of Englishman roughing it on a holiday. His age I judged to be between thirty and forty.

  Only two things about him struck me as a little queer during our very successful afternoon’s fishing. The first was that intense appraising stare of his, as if he tried to fathom the very depths of one’s being. The second was an inexplicable devotion to one particular form of ceremony. As our intimacy grew, he dropped the ordinary formal politeness of a host; but he insisted always on one observance that I supposed at first to be the merely conventional business of giving precedence.

  Nothing would induce him to go in front of me. He sent me ahead even as we explored the little purlieus of his rock – the only level square yard on the whole island was in the floor of the hut. But presently I noticed that this peculiarity went still further, and that he would not turn his back on me for a single moment.

  That discovery intrigued one. I still excluded the explanation of madness – Copley’s manner and conversation were so convincingly sane. But I reverted to and elaborated those other two suggestions that had been made. I could not avoid the inference that the man must in some strange way be afraid of me; and I hesitated as to whether he were flying from some form of justice or from revenge, perhaps a vendetta. Either theory seemed to account for his intense, appraising state. I inferred that his longing for companionship had grown so strong that he had determined to risk the possibility of my being an emissary, sent by some – to me – exquisitely romantic person or persons who desired Copley’s death. I recalled, and wallowed in, some of the marvellous imaginings of the novelist. I wondered if I could make Copley speak by convincing him of my innocent identity. How I thrilled at the prospect!

  But the explanation of it all came without any effort on my part.

  He sent me out of the hut while he prepared our supper – a quite magnificent meal, by the way. I saw his reason at once; he could not manage all that business of cooking and laying the table without turning his back on me. One thing, however, puzzled me a little; he drew down the blind of the little square window as soon as I had gone outside.

  Naturally, I made no demur. I climbed down to the edge of the sea – it was a glorious evening – and waited until he called me. He stood at the door of the hut until I was within a few feet of him, and then retreated into the room and sat down with his back to the wall.

  We discussed our afternoon’s sport as we had supper, but when we had finished and our pipes were going, he said, suddenly:

  ‘I don’t see why I shouldn’t tell you.’

  Like a fool, I agreed eagerly, when I might so easily have stopped him.…

  ‘It began when I was quite a kid,’ he said. ‘My mother found me crying in the garden; and all I could tell her was that Claude my elder brother looked “horrid”. I couldn’t bear the sight of him for days afterwards, either; but I was such a perfectly normal child that they weren’t seriously perturbed about this one idiosyncrasy of mine. They thought that Claude had “made a face” at me, and frightened me. My father whacked me for it eventually.

  ‘Perhaps that whacking stuck in my mind. Anyway, I didn’t confide my peculiarity to anyone until I was nearly seventeen. I was ashamed of it, of course. I am still – in a way.’

  He stopped and looked down, pushed his plate away from him, and folded his arms on the table. I was pining to ask a question, but I was afraid to interrupt. And after a moment’s hesitation he looked up and held my gaze again, but now without that inquiring look of his. Rather, he seemed to be looking for sympathy.

  ‘I told my house-master,’ he said. ‘He was a splendid chap, and he was very decent about it; took it all quite seriously and advised me to consult an oculist, which I did. I went – in the holidays with the pater – I had given him a more reasonable account of my trouble – and he took me to the best man in London. He was tremendously interested, and it proves that there must be something in it, that it can’t be imagination, because he really found a defect in my eyes, something quite new to him, he said. He called it a new fo
rm of astigmatism; but, of course, as he pointed out, no glasses would be any use to me.’

  ‘But what …?’ I began, unable to keep down my curiosity any longer.

  Copley hesitated, and dropped his eyes. ‘Astigmatism, you know,’ he said, ‘is a defect – I quote the dictionary, I learned that definition by heart; I often puzzle over it still – “causing images of lines having a certain direction to be indistinctly seen, while those of lines transverse to the former are distinctly seen.” Only mine is peculiar in the fact that my sight is perfectly normal except when I look back at anyone over my shoulder.’ He looked up, almost pathetically. I could see that he hoped I might understand without further explanation.

  I had to confess myself utterly mystified. What had this trifling defect of vision to do with his coming to live on Gulland, I wondered.

  I frowned my perplexity. ‘But I don’t see …’ I said.

  He knocked out his pipe and began to scrape the bowl with his pocket-knife. ‘Well, mine is a kind of moral astigmatism, too,’ he said. ‘At least, it gives me a kind of moral insight. I’m afraid I must call it insight. I’ve proved in some cases that …’ He dropped his voice. He was apparently deeply engrossed in the scraping of his pipe. He kept his eyes on it as he continued.

  ‘Normally, you understand, when I look at people straight in the face, I see them as anybody else sees them. But when I look back at them over my shoulder I see … oh! I see all their vices and defects. Their faces remain, in a sense, the same, perfectly recognizable, I mean, but distorted – beastly.… There was my brother Claude – good-looking chap, he was – but when I saw him … that way … he had a nose like a parrot, and he looked sort of weakly voracious … and vicious.’ He stopped and shuddered slightly, and then added: ‘And one knows, now, that he is like that, too. He’s just been hammered on the Stock Exchange. Rotten sort of failure it was.…

  ‘And then Denison, my house-master, you know; such a decent chap. I never looked at him, that way, until the end of my last term at school. I had got into the habit, more or less, of never looking over my shoulder, you see. But I was always getting caught. That was an instance. I was playing for the School against the Old Boys. Denison called out, “Good luck, old chap,” just as I was going in, and I forgot and looked back at him.…’