Tell Me You Do

by Fiona Harper

  ‘Pretty words, Knight. Hope your shoes can live up to them.’ McGrath reached forward and shook his hand. ‘Call my office in the morning and we’ll set up a meeting.’

  The Empire State Building stood silent and regal before them, its lights steady and unblinking in a cityscape full of movement and noise. Manhattan at midnight was stunning.

  It was chilly up on the top of the Rockefeller Center and Kelly pulled her wrap tighter around her shoulders. This was perfect. The only problem with standing on top of the Empire state Building was that you couldn’t actually see the Empire State Building all lit up—and that was something she’d really wanted to do. She was very grateful to Jason for whisking her into a cab after they’d left the party and bringing her here.

  It had been busy when they’d arrived, but now the crowds were thinning and heading back down to the plaza below. It was only because Jason knew people that the security guard now standing by the door just nodded and let them stay.

  She snuggled into Jason, who was standing close behind her, pointing out the different buildings and telling her a little of their history. He’d lived in this city most of his life and he knew all sorts of interesting little facts she’d never get from a guidebook.

  It had been like this since they’d run out of the Starlight Roof laughing. They’d kept in contact any way they could. Simple touches—a hand at her waist, holding on to his sleeve as they hurried for the lift, fingers intertwined in the cab on the way over. Neither of them had said anything, because neither of them had needed to. Something had changed. Deepened. They didn’t need to label it. Words wouldn’t make it more real.

  While he was still talking she turned round, keeping her body close against his, and smiled up at him. ‘We did it,’ she whispered.

  Jason stopped his commentary and looked at her. He’d been pointing in the direction of Madison Square Garden and he now dropped his arm and touched her face, stroking her cheekbone with his thumb.

  ‘Yes, we did,’ he replied just as softly. ‘For the first time I didn’t crash under my own steam and see how far “winging it” would get me. And it was all thanks to you.’

  She gave him a hangdog look. ‘I was more of a hindrance than a help, shooting my mouth off—’

  ‘No,’ he said firmly. ‘You saved it. He would have blown me off if you hadn’t stopped me.’

  Her lips curled up even further at the edges. She was so proud of him. ‘But you sealed the deal, Jason. Not me. He liked what you said.’

  She saw her words sink in and a look of amazement spread across his features. What? Had he thought it had just been luck? A fluke?

  He surprised her by picking her up and planting a firm, sweet kiss on her lips before laughing and setting her down again. ‘We did it!’ he said, shaking his head.

  Kelly thumped him on the chest with the flat of her hand. ‘That’s what I’ve been trying to tell you!’

  His expression grew more serious and he looked into her eyes. ‘We make a great team.’

  The words caused a shiver to work up from Kelly’s core and vibrate its way through her limbs. Jason pulled her tighter and hugged her against him, placing a kiss on the top of her head. She closed her eyes and thought her heart might crack in two.

  He was right. They’d worked as a team. Somehow the maverick loner had let her close enough to play with him rather than against him. And she’d played nicely, instead of making up her own rules and insisting on scoring all the goals herself.

  This was the man she’d only seen glimpses of in the previous month but had known was there. He was bolder and stronger and just plain more wonderful than she ever could have guessed. And she was falling in love with him, God help her.

  The fact she suspected no one else knew this side of him but her, not his past lovers or even his family, just made her want to weep. She wanted to lean off this balcony and shout it out for the whole city to hear. Make those sirens and car horns stop. Make them listen.

  It seemed he must have read her mind because he gave her a look that was deep and passionate and clouded with uncertainty about what was going on between them, but then he kissed her anyway. Kissed her like a man who had nothing left to lose. Like a man who’d flung himself off the cliff and was just waiting to hit the bottom.

  A discreet cough from behind them brought them back down to earth. Kelly glanced over Jason’s shoulder and gave the burly guard a sheepish smile. He winked back, even as he shivered. She patted Jason’s arm. ‘Listen, I think we’d better move round and see the rest of the view. That poor man is going to freeze to death otherwise.’

  He dropped one last scorching kiss onto her lips then took her hand and led her to look north towards the dark void of Central Park.

  She slid an arm around his waist and he lifted his arm and rested it on her shoulder. ‘Where are the Knight Corporation’s head offices?’

  His back muscles stiffened and he said nothing. A few seconds later he lifted his finger and pointed off to their left. When he spoke his voice was light and breezy, just as it had been the first day she’d met him. ‘You can’t see it from here, but it’s just the other side of the Hearst Tower.’

  ‘Jason—’

  He pulled her close, pressed an almost absent-minded kiss to her forehead then steered her in the direction of the door. ‘You’re right: it’s cold up here and it’s getting late. High time we let the guard get home.’

  ‘You’re not going to see your family while you’re here, are you?’ she asked.

  Jason just stared through the taxi window and watched the city go by. ‘This trip was a last-minute thing,’ he said, still not turning to look at her. ‘No time to plan a big, happy reunion.’

  She reached for his arm, laid her hand on the sleeve of his jacket. Moments ago, when they’d been on top of the Rockefeller Center, touching had seemed easy and natural. Now the weave of his coat felt rough against her palm and his muscles were stiff under her touch. ‘But you’re not even going to call, are you?’

  He turned and looked at her, gave her that couldn’t-care-less expression she knew so well—and hated so much. ‘It’s no big deal, Kelly. Some families are just like that. We’re very independent.’

  ‘Dysfunctional, more like,’ she muttered, not so quietly that Jason couldn’t hear her. Her family wouldn’t win any prizes for sanity and harmony, but at least when it counted they were there for each other. ‘It’s not going to kill you, you know. Why don’t you just call your father, see if he can meet up for a drink—or a coffee? Eight years is a long time. Don’t you think you ought to try and build a few bridges with him?’

  ‘Leave it,’ he told her in a low voice, and the rumble underneath the smooth words told her he was starting to crack. Just like he had that night outside the Tube station. But this time Kelly reckoned he could do with letting it all out. There was no way things were ever going to get better if he kept letting it all fester underneath the surface while he pretended there was nothing wrong. Sometimes the truth just needed to come out.

  ‘Why not, Jason? Tell me. Tell me what the problem is!’

  He swung round to face her. ‘Why do you think he sent me to London in the first place? There’s a convenient ocean between us to make sure he doesn’t have to bump into me that often.’ He shook his head. ‘He doesn’t want to see me, Kelly!’

  Usually, her first reaction when somebody attacked was to give as good as she got, but the hurt behind Jason’s furious expression drained away any desire to do that. She moved the hand that still rested on his arm just a little, but the cab drew up outside the Waldorf’s entrance at that moment and he sprang out of the cab and onto the sidewalk, leaving Kelly’s hand to fall onto the cracked imitation leather of the back seat. She sighed and shuffled out after him.

  She waited until they’d walked across the lobby, taken the lift to their floor and walked the short distance to their suite. Jason went to pour himself a drink from the bar in the sitting room—bourbon, by the looks of it—and then
he walked over to one of the long windows fringed by heavy gold-coloured fabric and stared out through the misty sheer curtain that covered the pane.

  ‘Okay … so things between you and your father are … complicated.’

  He gave a short, harsh laugh. ‘I never picked you as having that very British talent for understatement.’

  She saw the tiny barb for what it was: a distraction technique, one she often used herself, so she decided to let it slide. ‘What about your brother? You can’t just give up on your family, Jason.’

  ‘Even if they’ve given up on me?’

  She didn’t believe that. Her boys could drive her to distraction, but that didn’t mean she didn’t love them. She was sure it must be the same with Jason’s parents, but that Everest-sized chip on his shoulder was stopping him from seeing clearly.

  However, the key thing was that Jason obviously believed what he’d said, and she had a feeling he’d never fully conquer that all-consuming need to pull out and not get involved when things got tough unless he faced this. And suddenly Kelly really wanted Jason to be the kind of man who had it in him to stick around, who didn’t run from the tough situations in his life.

  He downed the last of his drink and put the glass back down on the sideboard. His gaze flicked towards his bedroom door.

  ‘It’s late,’ he said and checked his watch, ‘and we’ve had a pretty surreal evening… . I’ll see you in the morning.’

  She wondered for a moment if he’d kiss her again, but that sense of connection and ease they’d shared not an hour ago seemed to have evaporated entirely. He walked to his room without looking back and she watched him go. When he’d disappeared, she collapsed into the dent in the sofa he’d made and stared at the closed bedroom door.

  Great. Just when she’d decided to live a little, take a chance this thing—this rebound fling, or whatever it was—was going to go somewhere, it had all gone pear-shaped yet again. Great going, Kelly. What are you going to do now?

  CHAPTER ELEVEN

  JASON FROZE AT the soft knock on his bedroom door. There was only one person it could be and he wasn’t sure he was ready to see her yet. Too many conflicting thoughts were running through his head. He didn’t want to say the wrong thing, hurt her, and he was scared he would while he was feeling like this.

  ‘Jason?’

  He’d just finished brushing his teeth and the only light still on was the one in the bathroom. Half the room was draped in shadow. He padded over to the door, his pyjama bottoms low on his hips, and opened it.

  Kelly was standing there, her hair loose around her shoulders and kinked from where it had been liberated out of its updo. She was no longer in her slinky black dress and red heels, but an over-sized T-shirt that was threatening to slip off one smooth shoulder.

  He lifted his chin in lieu of a worded greeting.

  ‘Can I talk to you for a few minutes?’

  ‘Couldn’t we do this in the morning …?’ he started to say, but she pushed her way past him and walked into his room, leaving him leaning against the door jamb.

  ‘Hey!’

  Jason had a surreal out-of-body moment, one where he was looking down on himself, shaking his head, wondering just when he’d turned into the kind of guy who minded when a hot woman beat down his bedroom door.

  Kelly walked over to the bed and sat down on the edge. ‘I think you need to talk about your family, about your brother’s accident.’

  Well, Jason thought he had a greater need to jump off the twenty-fifth floor. Didn’t mean he was going to do it.

  She patted the edge of the bed and gave him a smile that was most un-Kelly-like—shy, sweet, inviting. And bewitching as hell. He found himself walking towards her, sitting down.

  But he wasn’t going to talk. Oh, no. There were much better games they could play with only a few pieces of clothing between them and a super-king-sized bed as their playing field. He turned to her with a devilish smile and pulled her to him. Her resistance melted a split second after his lips met hers and he gathered the thin cotton of her T-shirt and bunched it in his fists.

  This was what he’d been waiting for. Right from the moment she’d first strutted into his office and hypnotised him with that prim top button. But there were no top buttons now, just loose fabric and acres of soft skin beneath. He slid his hand under the hem of her T-shirt, found a long, lean thigh and worked his way up from there. Sweet mercy. He didn’t know when he’d wanted a woman more.

  Kelly inhaled sharply as his fingers paused at her hip bone, but he didn’t stay and explore. Not yet. First rule of play in Jason’s bed was that no one quit the game early. There was plenty of fun to be had before the big finish.

  ‘This … this … wasn’t what I came in here for …’ she gasped.

  He knew. That was the point. And he preferred his idea.

  His fingers started making lazy circles from her navel up to her ribcage. She arched beneath him. ‘Do you want me to stop?’ he asked.

  Her eyelids were closed and he watched myriad thoughts cross her features. ‘Yes … I mean, no … . Oh, God, Jason.’

  She pulled him to her and kissed him fiercely. Before he knew it they’d rolled over and she was on top of him. She pushed herself up on her forearms and her T-shirt draped down, offering the most wonderful space between skin and cotton. His fingers resumed their journey and he chuckled deep inside his chest.

  Kelly broke away from him, her breath coming in pants. ‘This is not funny! I was just going to … I was supposed to …’

  ‘Later,’ he whispered, and pulled her back down on top of him for a slow and lazy kiss.

  It almost worked. For a while she joined him, teasing him with her tongue, but then she slowed and sat up. ‘I know what you’re doing,’ she told him. ‘And it’s called playing dirty.’

  He put both his hands behind his head and grinned up at her. ‘Didn’t know there was any other way.’

  She didn’t smile back. Darn. That kind of line teamed with that kind of smile usually worked for him.

  Kelly shuffled up the bed, grabbed one of the pillows and hugged it against her front as she rested back against the headboard. He rolled over and crawled up the bed towards her.

  ‘Jason …’ There was both warning and pleading in her tone.

  He smiled softly, still pretty confident he could get her to see things his way. ‘What, Kelly?’

  She kept looking straight into his eyes as he got closer and closer. The curve of Jason’s lips increased. She wasn’t pushing him away and that had to be a good sign. He paused when they were only inches apart. But as they stayed like that, gazes locked, something changed … melted. The cockiness about the outcome of the evening drained away. Suddenly, all that charm and swagger he’d had planned seemed like a lot of … BS.

  That sobered him up pretty quickly.

  ‘I know it would be … amazing …’ She blinked slowly and exhaled. ‘But I can’t be one of your one-night stands, Jason.’ She started shaking her head gently and clutched the pillow closer. ‘Please don’t ask me to.’

  Her voice wavered on the last few words and he felt it deep down in his chest, in a place where he never felt anything anymore. The truth worked its way up from that forgotten spot and out of his mouth before he could think about stopping it.

  ‘There’s no way you’re a one-night stand.’

  Her eyes shimmered a little, but her mouth tightened. ‘How do I know you’re not just saying that to get me into bed?’

  ‘You’re already in my bed, Kelly,’ he said, his tone light and playful, giving away nothing of how much her question had hurt him.

  Was this how other people—women—really saw him? A predator with no scruples? He stepped outside of himself for a moment, tried to see himself with their eyes and was ashamed to admit that, yes, a lot of people probably did see him that way. But not Kelly. He hadn’t expected that from her. He’d always thought Kelly had seen … more.

  His jaw tensed as she continued to star
e at him, her eyes making tiny movements as she examined the individual features of his face, searching for the lie—the BS—he realised, and he saw the moment she let out the breath she’d been holding and relaxed her grip on the pillow.

  Jason sat back on his haunches and ran a hand through his hair. ‘Boy, that ex-husband of yours really did a number on you, didn’t he?’

  Her lips crumpled, even though she was still pressing them together, and she nodded.

  ‘You’re not a one-night stand,’ he told her again. ‘You’re more than that.’

  He could see her doing the math in her head as he reached for the pillow and prised it gently from her grasp before tossing it onto the other side of the bed. She folded her arms back over her torso, hugging herself instead.

  How much more? she was thinking. Two nights? Three? A couple of weeks?

  The truth was that he didn’t know, partly because he had no previous experience of how he was feeling right now to help him guess, and partly because he was too much of a coward to look into the future and do the calculation himself. He had a feeling it would be a sum that neither of them could afford.

  ‘Do you believe me?’ he asked.

  She nodded, but her brows remained dipped over her eyes and her arms locked around her middle.

  He knew there was only one way to prove the truth to her. Unfortunately, it did not involve the removal of clothes or further exploration of that creamy, soft skin. He sighed and threw himself onto the other half of the bed. ‘Okay,’ he said wearily, ‘I’ll tell you what you want to know, but on one condition …’

  ‘Oh, yeah?’

  He checked the display of the digital clock on the nightstand. ‘We get in the bed.’

  Kelly let out a disbelieving laugh, but Jason kept right on talking. ‘It’s five in the morning London time and we’ve been running on adrenalin for hours. We’re going to crash sooner or later and I’d rather be somewhere comfortable when I do.’

  She stared at him long and hard, and then she hitched her legs up and slid them under the covers. Jason slid off the bed, walked over to the bathroom so he could hit the light then made his way back to the bed, allowing the glow of the city coming through the open curtains to guide him. He stretched out, kicking the sheet to one side and was surprised when Kelly scooted closer and tucked herself under his arm. ‘So tell me … tell me about your family.’