Obediently Yours

by Bella Jackson

  “You are a wish come true for me too,” I say. I ask the next question, the one that lingers in the air. “Where do we go from here?”

  Richard looks at me thoughtfully for a moment. “Where do you want to go from here?” he asks.

  “No, you first!” I exclaim, unsure how I want to answer his question.

  “Okay, I’ll answer first. What I want is—you! Any way you are willing. I want to wine and dine you. Spoil you rotten as my new girlfriend. I won’t deny the fact that I also want you to be my baby girl. Expand into real-life age play and do some scenes together if you want to. I want to dominate and control you. The urge to do so is overwhelming. We can ease into it, calm any fears you may have. But I know more than anything, I just want to spend time with you, Siobhan.”

  Oh, my word. His words are music to my ears. “The best of both worlds, huh?” I ask. Swallowing hard, I continue. “If you are asking me to be your girlfriend, Richard, the answer is yes, I would love to be. I want to spend time with you too. I can’t imagine leaving here today and going back to the way things were in my life. It’s as if my world has completely shifted on its axis. I want to pursue a relationship with you. As far as the age play goes, what we were doing before we met was divine. Doing it in real life would be another dream come true. I won’t lie and say it does not scare me to do so, but I would love to get to know my boyfriend Richard and my Daddy Dom much better.”

  “I’m so glad to hear you say that,” he purrs, pulling me into his arms for a firm embrace. “I have never wanted anyone as much as I want you, Siobhan. The desire to dominate you is just as overwhelming as my desire to date you and be your boyfriend,” he states with a wide grin that makes me grin back.

  “Well, Daddy Dom, how do we proceed?” I ask playfully.

  “Well, as you may recall from our emails, I have had a couple of real-life age play relationships in the past. In reality, it is not very different than online play. You will have rules to obey. I will add to them for sure. You will also keep your journal. Before we embark on a scene, I need more information about what you want and do not want. In the past, I have used the age play negotiation form like the one I sent you. Do you remember?” he asks. I nod my head. Oh, yeah, I remember how hot I got reading it.

  “I would suggest that we start with that, along with other paperwork that I have always required before engaging in any real play session.” Richard gets up and leaves the room, coming back in a few minutes, holding some papers.

  “These are forms that I have always used before engaging in any real-life play. One is a Medical History Form, tailored for my specific informational needs and the other is a BDSM Negotiation Form to identify desires and limits. I also have the Age Play Negotiation Form indicating my interests. You can look it over and determine which of these you might also be interested in trying. Would you be agreeable to completing these?” He hands me the paperwork.

  “Boy, you are very thorough about this,” I state, glancing the forms over, feeling overwhelmed by the list of questions on the top form.

  “Remember, I have engaged in all types of role play before, Siobhan. I believe in being safe, sane, and consensual. As a Dominant, I have a responsibility to ensure the safety and well-being of the submissive at all times. In order to do that, I need to have this type of information. It is also a guide to know what the other person’s limits are so I do not try to do something that is beyond what the other wants.”

  “But isn’t part of submission doing what the Dominant wants?” I ask, confused.

  “Submission is about that in part, yes, but there is so much more to it. In a Dom/sub power exchange, it is the sub with all of the power. Ultimately you control what happens or what does not happen. The forms are a starting point. Let me suggest you take some time to complete these forms and then we can review each other’s information together. Once we know each other’s parameters, we can negotiate a scene. This is all new to you, so I know I have to be patient. You may be eager to jump right in, I certainly am too, but I want to ensure your complete comfort before we proceed with anything. We need to discuss the information you put on these forms. Are you okay with that?” he asks.

  “Yes, do you have a pen?” I ask, smiling slyly at him.

  “I do indeed have a pen, Siobhan. Might I suggest we move into my office?” he asks, taking my hand. He leads me down the hallway and into the masculine room. “Why don’t you sit at your ‘special’ desk and chair, Siobhan, and complete your paperwork?” he asks, motioning toward the designated corner.

  “Am I being punished?” I ask mockingly.

  “No, little one, you are not being punished. However, I would appreciate that you use a respectful tone when addressing me. Your rules are still in effect, are they not?” His voice has a demanding tone.

  I blush and flush in arousal at the forcefulness of his words. Calling me “little one” in that voice just turns me on like crazy. I decide to just go with it. “Yes, Daddy, I remember my rules and I want to obey them. I’m sorry, Daddy.” I can feel the wetness trickling out of me.

  It does not go unnoticed that Richard reaches down to his pajama pants to adjust his sizeable erection. It is a heady feeling to know that I do this to him, that he reacts that way to me. I mentally give myself a high five in victory.

  “Very good, little one. I suggest you sit down at your desk. Take your time completing these forms. When you are finished, please come back out to the living room with them so we can review and discuss. If you need anything, come find me; otherwise, please take your time and be thorough, baby girl.”

  I sit down at my desk. The chair feels hard and unforgiving. I become acutely aware that my bottom is naked underneath the tee shirt. Arousal continues to trickle out of me, pooling underneath me. Oh, I can imagine how hard this chair must feel on a spanked bottom. I wonder if we will get to that today. As usual, I am thinking ahead too much. Let me start looking at these forms. The first one is Daddy’s Age Play Negotiation Form. I remember reading this in one of Richard’s emails. It seems like it was so long ago, yet it’s been such a short period of time since we first connected online. I cannot believe I am sitting here in his house, considering all of this for real.

  As I glance at the form, I remember the first time I read it. It outlines all of Daddy’s age play interests, hard limits, and type of scenes. I check off all since I am willing to try anything. There are only a few things that wig me out, but I trust Richard and know I can safeword if something becomes too uncomfortable for me. I totally agree with all of his hard limits, so that puts my mind at ease a bit.

  I move onto the next form. It says Medical History Form at the top. I begin to complete it.

  LIFESTYLE INFORMATION:

  Tobacco – no

  How often/much? Never

  Alcohol – yes

  How often/much? Occasionally

  Caffeine – yes

  How often/much? Daily

  Exercise – yes

  How often/much? Often—several times per week

  List Allergies: No known allergies

  List Prescription and Over-the-Counter Medications: Ativan, Ibuprofen, Vitamins

  List Previous Surgeries with dates: None

  CHECK IF YOU HAVE EXPERIENCED OR ARE EXPERIENCING ANY OF THE FOLLOWING SYMPTOMS:

  ►Headaches or migraines

  Fainting and/or dizziness, blackouts, blurred vision

  Ringing in ears or decreased hearing

  Nosebleeds or sinus problems

  Respiratory problems (shortness of breath, asthma, pneumonia)

  Heart problems (palpitations, heaviness in chest, high blood pressure)

  ►Kidney problems (UTI’s, stones, frequency, painful urination, blood in urine)

  Digestive problems (nausea, vomiting, cramps)

  Breast problems (fibrocystic breasts, pain or soreness, nipple drainage, cysts or lumps)

  ►GYN problems

  (Fibroids, vaginal dryness or itching, yeast infection

s, painful intercourse, cramps, pelvic pain or pressure)

  MENSTRUAL HISTORY:

  Age of onset: 9 years old

  Are your cycles normal or abnormal? Normal

  If abnormal, explain: n/a

  How many days of bleeding usually? 4–5 days

  Do you experience bleeding between periods? No, not usually

  Do you have Premenstrual Syndrome? Yes

  If yes, explain symptoms: moodiness, bloating, cramps, headaches

  MEDICAL TESTS (NOTE ANY ABNORMALITIES AND TREATMENT RECEIVED):

  Mammography, Date of last test: Never

  PAP Smear, Date of last test: March of last year

  Pelvic Exam, Date of last test: March of last year

  STDs, Date of last test: Three years ago

  Wow, that is a lot of personal information. It is as detailed as the forms I have filled out at the doctors. Silly girl, he is a doctor. That is why it is so thorough. Moving on to the next form, it says BDSM Negotiation Form.

  DISCUSSION BETWEEN DOMINANT AND SUBMISSIVE WILL OCCUR PRIOR TO ENGAGING IN ANY SCENE. INDICATE YOUR INTEREST OR DISINTEREST:

  BODILY FUNCTIONS

  Bathroom permission control: Yes

  Catheterization: Yes

  Diapers (wearing): Yes

  Diapers (wetting): Yes

  Diapers (soiling): No

  Enemas (cleansing): Yes

  Enemas (punishment): Yes, with discussion prior

  Forced bedwetting: Yes

  Shaving (body hair): Yes

  NEGOTIATIONS/QUESTIONS:

  Receiving pain? Yes

  Amount of pain acceptable? Mild

  Acceptable if play leaves marks? No

  Anal sex? Yes

  Blindfold? Yes

  Bondage? Yes

  Butt plugs? Yes

  Gags? Yes

  Medical scene/examinations? Yes

  Nipple stimulation? Yes

  Oral sex? Yes

  Suspension? No

  Swallowing semen? Yes

  Vaginal sex? Yes

  Will you wear a collar? Yes

  Describe any phobias: Enclosed places

  Indicate chosen safe-words: Will use traditional red, yellow, green

  CONTROL METHODS/PUNISHMENTS

  Clamps labia/clit: Yes

  Cold shower: No

  Completing unpleasant chore: Yes

  Corner time: Yes

  Crawling: Yes

  Enemas/suppositories: Yes

  Food restrictions: No

  Grounding: Yes

  Kneeling on uncooked rice: No

  Lectures for misbehavior: Yes

  Orgasm denial/control: Yes

  Restriction of privileges: Yes

  Sending to room/isolation: Yes

  Sensory deprivation: Yes if discussed prior

  Soap in mouth: Yes

  Spanking with cane: No*

  Spanking with hairbrush/bath brush: Yes

  Spanking with hand: Yes

  Spanking with strap/belt: No*

  Spanking over the knee: Yes

  Sleeping on the floor: Yes

  Speech restrictions: Yes

  Writing assignment, writing lines: Yes

  NOTE: *Not until I learn more about what my pain limits are.

  Out of the attached BDSM play list, indicate all activities that you absolutely do not want to engage in. This will be your list of hard limits and will be completely honored.

  Bestiality; Breath control/choking; Branding/cutting; Electricity; Exhibitionism; Fisting (anal/vaginal); Gun/knife/flame play; Public play/exposure; Swapping/swinging; Video/photograph

  When finished, I get up and my neck cracks from being in one position for too long. There were a few areas that are duplication. I look all of the forms over and make sure that I completed them honestly and thoroughly. Gathering the papers, I head for the living room and see Richard lying on the couch, reading a book. He looks up. “All finished?” he asks.

  “Yes, these were very comprehensive. I’ve never completed something so thoroughly before. It really made me think about all of the aspects of a Dominant/submissive situation. My hand is cramped up,” I say, laughing and holding the papers up for him to see.

  “Well, bring you and your hand over here so the doctor can take a look,” he says with a gleam in his eye.

  I walk over to the couch, sit down next to him, and lay my right hand in both of his. He proceeds to rub and massage my hand. God, it feels good. I stand up and say, “I’ll be right back.” His hands tighten on mine.

  He asks, “Where are you going?”

  “I need to use the bathroom. I’ll be right back,” I say, tugging on my hand, but he won’t release it.

  “Little girl, are you forgetting your rules again?” he asks sternly.

  “Um…I’m not sure what you mean, Richard,” I say.

  “One of your rules is that you must ask Daddy for permission to go potty,” he states firmly.

  “Yeah, but that is when we are online. We are not online right now. Are you serious?” I ask, perplexed.

  “Are you all right with calling each other Daddy and baby girl and following all of your current baby girl rules right now? That is not to say we won’t negotiate further, especially after looking over your forms.”

  I think for a moment. “Yes, Daddy. I want to obey your rules. I am sorry I did not ask you before. May I please have permission to go potty, Daddy?” I ask, using a small, submissive voice I never knew I had.

  Richard smiles warmly at me and says, “Yes, baby girl, you may go potty.” I head toward the bathroom. As I do, I think about how easy it is to fall into a baby girl headspace. I find myself wanting and craving his domination. I have an irrational and intense desire to please him. As usual, I am completely aroused.

  “Here’s my girl,” he says, reaching his arms out to me when I come back. “I’ve been looking over your Medical History Form and I have some questions for you, little one. Come sit with me.” He motions me over to sit with him on the couch. “Okay, let’s start with your Lifestyle Information. I am very happy that you have never used tobacco. Occasional alcohol use is fine, but never before or during a play session. It is too dangerous. I’m aware of your daily caffeine use. Tell me exactly how much caffeine do you consume in a day?” His doctor voice is demanding.

  “I have about three to four cups a day between tea and coffee. Always coffee in the morning, but I switch to tea as the day goes on,” I answer.

  “That is quite a bit of caffeine every day. I would like to set a rule up around this to reduce your consumption of caffeine. This is something we will negotiate when we determine your new rules,” he says smoothly.

  “Wow, I guess I never thought about you controlling that aspect of my life. I mean, the rules I have right now are fine and I can easily follow them, but this gets into territory that is very personal. I’m not sure I like the idea of you restricting my caffeine consumption,” I state, unsure.

  “That is what being submissive and giving control over to another person is all about. I, as the Dominant, set the rules and you, the submissive, obey them.” His stare is hard and penetrating. “Let’s move on. We will discuss this issue more later. For now, I would like to go through these forms first, okay, baby?” His voice is like velvet. Looking down at the form again, he says, “I’m glad that you exercise several times per week; that is good. No allergies, excellent. Okay, explain the Ativan to me, please,” he inquires.

  “Well, I take Ativan occasionally for anxiety. It’s not all of the time.”

  “How often do you become anxious?” he asks, concerned.

  “Usually during difficult times at work. More often after dealing with my mother.” I roll my eyes with this thought. “It’s a valid prescription and I only use it when I really need to,” I say in a defensive tone.

  “It’s okay, sweetie. I’m asking more out of my concern that you have anxiety issues, not that you use medication. I do not ever want to cause you to need anti-anxiety medication when we are together. Promise me you will be open, honest, and communicate with me if ever you feel anxious,” he insists.

  “Yes, I promise to talk to you. Of course,” I say soothingly. How sweet is he to be worried about my anxiety issues? God, I feel so lucky to have met him. Is he for real? I cannot help but keep asking that question over and over. If I wrote down all of the characteristics I would want for the perfect man for me, Richard would have every single one. I mentally shake my head in amazement.

  “I assume the ibuprofen is for occasional pain and the vitamins are daily supplements?” he asks.

  “Yes, that is exactly correct, Daddy,” I confirm.

  “No surgeries ever, sweetie?” he asks.

  “No, I’ve never needed surgery before. I am very healthy overall. I rarely ever get sick. Last time I went to the ER was when I was a kid. I sprained my ankle,” I say.

  “Excellent. Well, not that you sprained your ankle. It makes me very happy to hear that you are healthy and well. Okay, tell me about the headaches or migraines,” he inquires.

  “Well, I usually get headaches during that time of the month. It’s been a while since I had a full-blown migraine, but it does happen on occasion,” I answer.

  “Okay, and the kidney problems?”

  “I get kidney stones and the occasional urinary tract infection. That has been a while too.”

  “Well, it will be important to keep you hydrated, especially with the history of kidney stones. Speaking of which, you have not had much to drink since this morning. Please go into the kitchen and get two bottles of water, baby girl.”

  I do as he asks and return with the water. I hold out one bottle, assuming he wants one. He shakes his head and holds both hands out to me. I hand him both bottles, confused. He sets one on the coffee table and opens the other. He motions for me to sit on his lap and I do. He holds the water bottle to my lips.

  Ah, now I get it. I open my lips and take the offered water. Richard is watching me so carefully. I wonder what he is thinking. After a few sips, I motion to move away.

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