The Ghosts of Blood and Innocence

by Storm Constantine

  ‘Stop!’ Loki exclaimed. Instinctively, he’d put his hands over his ears. ‘I don’t want to know any more.’

  Zikael smiled faintly. ‘Well, perhaps you now know enough. The fact remains that such a thing has never been done before, and shouldn’t have been done then. A soul that would normally not be part of the Wraeththu matrix sniffed out the event and homed in on it. You should not look upon the fruit of that unnatural union as a brother. It’s something different. When you face him, you’ll know. You’ll sense it. You won’t need my words to convince you.’ He paused. ‘Loki, it’s you who has to kill this creature.’

  Suddenly, the beautiful realm around Loki seemed flat, like a badly colored painting. The wind in the trees was the rattle of bones. ‘Me?’

  Zikael nodded. His expression was bleak. ‘If there was any other way, I wouldn’t ask it of you. I’d do it myself. But I can’t. It has to be you. We know this for sure.’

  ‘Why?’

  Zikael regarded Loki steadily. ‘Because of the way he was made, we can’t touch him. He doesn’t know this, and he mustn’t know, but he’s protected from beings like us. Because of the way you are and the time of your creation… well, you could be his nemesis, if such a thing exists.’

  Loki swallowed. ‘Where is he, Zikael?’

  ‘He’s in Anakhai, east of Almagabra. You know that land?’

  Loki nodded. ‘Yes. I’ve visited most lands on our continent. The hara there are very independent. Has he made allies among them?’

  ‘Unfortunately, yes. As you know, the Gelaming are not always regarded favorably by other tribes, who resent their superior development.’

  Loki pressed his eyes for a moment with the fingers of one hand. ‘I’d like to discuss this with Geburael.’

  ‘We’ve no objection to that,’ Zikael said. ‘Diablo and Geburael have been loyal to us. Diablo will help you.’

  ‘I don’t want his help,’ Loki snapped. ‘I need to see this brother of mine, this creature. If what you say about him is true, then I’ll do as you ask, but for Wraeththu, not for the Hashmallim. If I have any doubt, I’ll not do it.’

  ‘That’s more than acceptable,’ Zikael said. ‘I’m sure that when you see him, you’ll know I’ve spoken honestly to you.’

  ‘Will your masters let me return to the earthly realm to see this creature?’ Loki asked.

  ‘I’m sure it can be arranged,’ Zikael said, somewhat vaguely.

  After this unsettling conversation, Loki returned to Ninzini and called Geburael to him via mind touch. While he was waiting for his surakin to arrive, Loki paced around the top of the tower. He knew that in some ways he’d been seduced by the Aasp and by Zikael in particular, who had swiftly come to feel more like a friend than a threat. Loki enjoyed otherlanes travel, and wanted to learn more. He wanted to take all this knowledge back to the earthly realm and be recognised for his achievements. He wanted to solve the dilemma that faced the world. But if murder was the cost, surely that was far too high to pay, whatever this unknown brother might or might not be.

  Ninzini, can you advise me? Loki asked desperately, but the tower was quiet. It might have been his imagination, but Loki felt he detected a faint air of disapproval emanating from the silent stones.

  When Geburael came through the doorway to Ninzini’s summit, Loki said, ‘I need you to hold me, Geb.’

  Geburael was not reluctant to comply. His arms were warm and strong and Loki was soothed by the contact. He could barely remember the time when he’d felt repulsed by Geburael. Now, the thought of not being with him was like trying to imagine life without his senses.

  Geburael was silent for some moments. Loki knew he wasn’t completely comfortable with the idea that Loki trained only with Zikael. He’d not said anything aloud, but Loki had picked up traces of this discomfort during aruna. Eventually, Geburael said: ‘What is it, Loki?’

  Loki sighed, and rested his face against Geburael’s neck. ‘Zikael has told me something. I feel confused about it.’

  ‘What has he told you?’ Geburael asked sharply.

  Loki took a deep breath, and then related his recent conversation with the Hashmal. At the end of it, he said, ‘I need to know your thoughts about this, Geb. Is this brother of mine the evil thing I’ve been told he is?’

  Geburael grimaced. ‘Well, we know the Aasp fear him, otherwise they wouldn’t have wanted to destroy his pearl.’

  Loki gripped Geburael’s shirt in both his hands. ‘They might fear him, but are we right to?’

  Geburael exhaled through his nose, stared Loki in the eye. ‘I don’t know – yet.’

  ‘You felt empathy for him when you heard his cry,’ Loki said. ‘Do you still feel that?’

  Geburael considered this, then released Loki from his embrace and stepped back. His expression was troubled. ‘I think that we should see him before we draw any conclusions. The Aasp wouldn’t order the excision and destruction of a pearl on a whim. He must be powerful for them to be that concerned about him.’

  ‘Remember what you felt, though. You didn’t want to tell Diablo.’

  Geburael drew a hand over his mouth, considered. ‘He reminded me of you. I felt part of you in him. That doesn’t mean he’s not what Zikael says he is. I’d know if I saw him, like I knew about you.’

  ‘Zikael said he’ll visit us later,’ Loki said. ‘We’ll insist that we’re shown this har. There’s no other way.’

  Geburael nodded thoughtfully. ‘Supposing they can show him to us. Zikael fobbed you off with a vague promise. If all he said was true, it might be dangerous to get close to this har – especially for you. Five times stronger than you?’ Geburael shook his head slowly. ‘If that’s the truth, we might be up against more than we know.’

  Loki paused, then said, ‘I know. But the Aasp might be more willing to allow you to get close to him, rather than me.’

  Geburael laughed. ‘The Aasp have never restricted my movements! It’s not a case of ‘allow’. All I’ll need is a few precise clues as to his whereabouts.’ Geburael reached out and clasped Loki’s shoulders. ‘And if it comes to having to kill him, I will do it, not you.’

  Loki pushed Geburael’s hands away. ‘I can’t ask you to do that!’ he exclaimed. ‘If blood has to be on somehar’s hands, it should be mine.’

  Geburael closed his eyes briefly. ‘Loki, Loki,’ he said softly, ‘have you no idea how much I love you? I won’t let you do this thing. You’ll return to your home realm one day. I don’t want this act to haunt your conscience. I’m a lost cause. I will do it. Don’t argue. A Tigron shouldn’t have the blood of his kin on his hands.’

  Loki stared into Geburael’s unflinching gaze. ‘Thank you,’ he said. ‘Can I ask you to do something else?’

  ‘Anything.’

  ‘Don’t let Diablo touch you again.’

  Geburael ducked his head, uttered a half laugh, but it was a sound of discomfort. ‘He hasn’t touched me, Loki, not since we were first together. I’m not sure how long I can keep that up, though. He’ll become suspicious.’

  ‘It’s nearly over,’ Loki said firmly. ‘Us being here, I mean. I really believe that. Please try, Geb. It won’t be for long.’

  ‘How do you see our future?’ Geburael asked, and now his voice was wistful. ‘Back in Immanion, will you still want me, or am I simply a comfort here, because it’s convenient?’

  Loki took Geburael’s face in his hands and kissed him. ‘We are close in blood,’ he said, ‘and I’m not sure what our family will think of us being together, but I’d be proud to have you by my side in Immanion.’

  ‘Perhaps it would only be a problem if we wanted a harling,’ Geburael said.

  Loki found these words shocked him, but not in an altogether unpleasant way. ‘Would we be inbreeding? Is that what you mean?’

  Geburael shrugged. ‘I don’t know much about Wraeththu biology, except for the basics.’

  Loki sighed. ‘Such considerations are a long way away, in both space and time.’ H
e gripped Geburael’s arms briefly. ‘Let’s cross that bridge if we’re fortunate enough to get to it.’ He backed away, rubbing his arms and then began to pace around the tiled floor. ‘For now, it seems like a dream. There are monsters in front of us: that’s what it feels like.’

  ‘Calm down,’ Geburael said. ‘There’s no point worrying about the future until it happens.’

  Loki threw up his arms. ‘I feel so restless, like I should be doing something. I can’t just sit around waiting for Zikael to come back.’

  ‘We could investigate Thannaril Below again,’ Geburael suggested hopefully.

  Loki shook his head. ‘No. I don’t want to go there.’ He pursed his lips. ‘I think I’ll keep practicing entering the otherlanes. It’ll occupy my mind.’

  ‘I’ll come with you…’

  ‘No!’ Loki said, then softened his tone. ‘Thanks, but I won’t be gone long.’

  ‘What are you thinking of doing?’ Geburael asked, suspicious.

  Loki scratched at his hair. His whole body felt uncomfortable. ‘Nothing. I just want time on my own, that’s all. Also, I want to be proficient in the otherlanes, not an amateur. I want to strengthen my skills. If I’m to go up against a har who’s potentially five times more powerful than I am, I want to be prepared. That includes having the ability to make a quick getaway!’

  Geburael laughed softly. ‘All right, but don’t brood alone. We’re in this together.’

  Loki couldn’t help grimacing. ‘You brought me into this, yes.’

  ‘I’ll wait here,’ Geburael said dryly.

  Loki went directly to his private realm and found himself a comfortable spot at the edge of his favorite lake. Perfumed breezes caressed the high branches of the trees. Blossom fell upon him like snow. He felt secure there, removed from all that was troubling. It was easier to think rationally in this place, without hot waves of apprehension washing over him. If his brother had to die, it must be accomplished without Loki’s family ever finding out. How could he think such a thing? Had he lost himself? And yet he was sure that Zikael had spoken the truth. The pearl had been created by three hara, which was surely unnatural. What had lived inside it was not strictly har. It was an opportunistic and greedy soul, like a cuckoo. Bigger than the nest.

  Loki opened his eyes and stared out over the water. It was so much simpler to exist here. He could walk forever, creating his path ahead of him; new vistas, new wonders. There might be a tower at the end of his journey, at the end of time, and at the top of that tower was Geburael, cleansed of all taint. He wondered how feasible it was to invent that, in so elastic a realm as this. Would the Hashmal let him keep it as his sanctuary forever? A breeze brushed over his skin and he shivered.

  Loki turned quickly, sure that someone was standing behind him. He perceived a shadow, a dark flicker on the edge of his vision. At once, he jumped to his feet, every hair on his body erect. A breath of chill wind flowed over him and harried the placid surface of the lake. The trees were not shedding blossoms now, but leaves. They came down in drifts, dried up and lifeless. Loki was flooded with the imperative to flee. Create a portal; get out! Something had invaded his realm, and it wasn’t Zikael.

  Loki’s vision blurred; it was as if the realm itself was disintegrating. He tried to form the portal symbol in his mind, concentrate on the particular type of seeing that facilitated opening it, but it was as if he’d lost the ability to focus.

  A disturbing shape had begun to manifest in front of him: a nebulous figure of a murky green color. Its eyes glowed yellow, sulfurous. Loki was filled with the urge to destroy it, an innate animal desire that eclipsed all instincts for survival. He was beyond controlling this feeling; it possessed him utterly.

  Expelling a roar of rage, Loki lunged towards the invasive presence. He had become, in an instant, furious hatred incarnate. He lashed out with clawed hands, grabbing handfuls of cold viscous material that was neither gas nor flesh, but something of both. The apparition hissed, and it was the sound of a thousand enraged serpents about to strike. An amorphous limb shot out from the roiling mass and gripped Loki by the throat. It was so strong. Biting, kicking, Loki fought desperately, but the creature was too powerful. It pushed him towards the ground. He couldn’t breathe. For the first time in a long time, Loki screamed in his mind for Cal. That too was instinctive.

  And the cry was heard, wasn’t it?

  Loki could barely see, but was aware of another form that hurtled overhead, kicking out. The image swam into focus and Loki saw that it was Geburael, his face set into a furious snarl. It all happened so quickly. Geburael’s attack on Loki’s assailant somehow managed to loosen its grip. Loki sucked in a lungful of air, spluttered. Something wet rained down onto him, but it wasn’t blood.

  Geburael yelled at Loki: ‘Get out! Get out!’ The invader was twining itself around him.

  Loki once again tried to form the portal, thinking that somehow he must drag Geburael with him, but it was still so hard to concentrate. The image of Geburael was only half visible through the seething mist of murky green. Spears of invisible energy were shooting in from all directions. There was a sound like thunder, a great crack and the sky disappeared. Loki saw what looked like an immense sedu manifest, its nostrils and eyes flaming red. It was no gentle beautiful creature, but demonic, its teeth too long, the lips peeled back from them like those of a mad dog. This creature seized Geburael in its jaws. Geburael fought back. From what Loki could make out, the initial invasive presence had vanished. It was insane. His serene realm had become a maelstrom of hostile energy.

  Loki redoubled his efforts, trying to push all distracting images from his mind. He must find a quiet space in his head, otherwise both he and Geburael were surely dead. Geburael was clearly in no position to open a portal himself. Concentration was almost impossible and although Loki sensed a portal was forming, it was too slow. He uttered a cry of despair, projected his intention with every shred of will he possessed. Then the portal was there, hanging before him: a splash of pulsating light. Loki leapt towards it, grabbing hold of one of Geburael’s arms as he did so. Sensations of his surakin’s pain shot through his fingers. He could feel the sedu pulling against him.

  ‘No!’ Geburael cried. ‘Go, Loki! Go now!’

  ‘I can’t!’ Loki yelled back, and his voice seemed to fly away from him and be swallowed by hurricanes of energy. ‘I can’t leave you!’

  ‘You must!’

  At that moment, a shout vibrated through the hectic air, like the voice of a dehar. It stripped the last leaves from the trees and cracked branches that began to crash to the ground. It flattened the grass and caused the waters of the lake to boil. This voice boomed Geburael’s name and the entire realm shattered into fragments of whirling color. At the same time, Zikael manifested in the portal; a tall dark shape with flying hair, beckoning urgently. His summons could not be disobeyed. Loki’s body complied with it beyond his will.

  Just before Loki was sucked through the portal, Geburael uttered a hoarse cry. There were entities all around him. He was consumed by them.

  Loki came to his senses on the floor of Ninzini, gasping painfully. He felt he’d inhaled acid and coughed up liquid, which was like sour water, but perhaps something else. Diablo and Zikael stood over him. Zikael too appeared shaken; his breath was labored, his silken hair in disarray. For once, Diablo had an expression other than disdainful contempt on his face. He looked distraught.

  Loki scrambled into a sitting position; his head swam. He was covered in a strange oily deposit, as if he’d walked through greasy smoke. ‘What happened?’ he managed to say. ‘Zikael…’

  ‘Our enemies seek to pre-empt us,’ Zikael said grimly.

  ‘Geburael…’ Loki’s voice was a plea.

  ‘He was taken,’ Zikael snapped. ‘There was nothing I could do to prevent it. I had to take you to safety.’

  ‘But what took him?’ Loki asked. ‘What were those things?’

  ‘You met your brother,’ Zikael said. ‘T
he abomination was there in that realm, along with other entities. I have no idea how or why.’ It was clear this lack of understanding had unsettled the Hashmal greatly, since it was rare he felt that way.

  ‘My brother…’ Loki clasped his head, which was aching in a deep, pulsing manner. A brief thought of the Thanax crossed his mind.

  ‘He must have been looking for you,’ Zikael said. ‘He obviously meant to kill you. Geburael must have followed you, and it’s fortunate he did. He sacrificed himself to save you. He called for me.’

  ‘And now that har has taken Geb?’

  Zikael shook his head. ‘No. A sedu came, but also something else. I believe an agent of the Aralisians has taken Geburael, no doubt at the injunction of the sedim. Your family is in league with the sedim. This is difficult, Loki. The time has come for you to make a choice. Your family is misled. Only you have clear sight now. Only you can save them.’

  ‘He’s so much stronger than me,’ Loki said. ‘You warned me.’ He stared at Zikael fiercely. ‘If you want my compliance, make me as strong. Help me to vanquish him.’

  Zikael held out an arm and Loki took hold it, let the Hashmal pull him to his feet. ‘Are you with us now, Loki?’

  Loki bared his teeth. ‘I am your avatar,’ he said.

  Behind him, Diablo laughed. Loki shuddered. He heard madness in that sound.

  Chapter Twenty-Eight

  In the garden of the prison house, Abrimel and Caeru sat on the ground, holding onto the young har they’d pulled from the otherlanes. Pellaz sprawled on the grass, some distance away, dazed. He had no clear idea what had just happened to them.

  A few moments before, in an uncomfortable cauldron of prickly energy, the three of them had projected their minds to try and locate Geburael. There had been nothing, a blank, and then something Pellaz could only describe as a psychic fanfare announced Geburael’s whereabouts to them. Pellaz had received the impression that the young har had manifested spontaneously in a realm that was accessible to them. Pellaz could not travel without a sedu, and neither could Caeru or Abrimel, but suddenly, against their wills, they were dragged into another realm, in the midst of a bizarre conflict. It had all happened so swiftly, Pellaz could barely remember the details, but they’d pulled Geburael back with them. Or rather, a sedu had become involved and facilitated it.