Then the day he gets out of rehab he calls me and says that he can’t be with me anymore. That what he said was a lie. That he was just confused and coming off coke. Apparently he was all of a sudden all better and that he’d send all my clothes back because he had a moving company come to collect my belongings to move to LA again. He canceled my tickets. I argued on the phone with him half of the day. I heard about the pregnant lady on the news but he swore that it wasn’t true and that it shouldn’t matter because this is over. I told him he needed to tell me to my face. I deserved at least that much. I figured once he saw me he might stop pushing me away. He’s pushed me away so much and backed out of so many things. It sounded like what we used to go through. Except that maybe he was willing to try for more. So I was going to come to Bakersfield. But I called and switched it to here so I could surprise him, maybe make him happy to see me and that I was trying. Then the rest is history.”
A knock at the door comes. Talk about perfect timing. Johnathan gets up and wheels in the food cart. Ashley slides out of the chair and stands by him, collecting what he ordered for her. He knows her well enough to know what she likes. He didn’t ask me. So I’m guessing he assumes he knows what I’d want. Probably not but it’s a sweet gesture. Only Stacy usually knows what I like. Ah, hell! Fuck Stacy!
Ashley takes her food to the table and he rolls the cart in to my bedside.
“Here. I ordered you some bacon and waffles, fresh fruit, a chocolate muffin and a blueberry. I didn’t know which you prefer. Also there’s orange juice, coffee and apple juice.” He says standing next to me eyeing my meal.
“Thanks. But can you do me one favor?”
“Anything.” He says sweetly. I love this side of him, how freaking adorable.
“Can you take the coffee and dump it out or if Ashley would like some give it to her then get rid of it? I still love the stuff but it has too much caffeine and I can’t feed the babies that. Even if I want it for myself.” I ask nicely.
“Oh baby I’m so sorry. I didn’t realize. I’m so stupid.” He smacks his head, his face scrunched in anger at himself. I reach over and take his hand into mine.
“Will you stop that? That looks ridiculous and it’s just coffee and you didn’t know. It was sweet of you to remember that I like it in the first place. Okay?”
His face softens and he takes the coffee and he raises it to Ashley. She waves him off and he walks it into the bathroom and I can hear him pouring it down the drain. God I love coffee. But if it’s near me it’s like torture and I know eventually I’ll breakdown and have a cup. It’s just better not to have it or anything smelling like it around. Even coffee scented candles set me off.
“Ok so now I know about this past stuff. What else is going on?” I say and look to Johnathan, sitting on the couch.
“Aren’t you going to eat?” he doesn’t have any food or drink anywhere.
“No. The food was for you, the babies and Ashley.”
I shake my head. “No, it’s not, you need to eat too. If the babies eat, you eat. Now come here.” I wave him over.
“Ashley is this going to bother you if I have him sit with me and I make him eat?” I ask her politely. The poor woman doesn’t need to be hurt any more than she already has been.
She shakes her head, and swallows a piece of her bagel down. “No, if you can make him do anything that would be a miracle and he does need to eat. So by all means. I’m fine. Don’t worry about me.” She gives me a half smile.
He comes over and sits down on the bed his legs hanging off, the cart next to him. I reach up and grab two pieces of bacon. “I eat a piece, you eat a piece.”
I hand him it to him and he takes it and feeds it into his beautiful mouth. And I eat mine. It’s salty and crunchy and divine. I was starving. I grab both muffins after he’s finished.
“Which do you want the chocolate or the blueberries?” I ask offering him them both.
“No.” he shakes his head. “You eat whatever one you want and I’ll take the other.” he says. I look into his eyes they’re so beautiful, I could look at them all day. They’re green like fresh grass, totally mesmerizing.
“I like both that’s why I’m offering Johnathan.”
He leans over towards me. “Move your hands please.” He orders kindly. I listen. Then he pulls back the covers and scoots closer, opens up my robe to uncover my belly again and pushes back up the covers to makes sure my female parts aren’t shown to Ashley. He places his lips to my belly. “Let’s ask them.”
“Okay little guys or gals what kind of muffin do you want this morning?” he thoughtfully asks them. Then turns his ear to my belly. “Uh, huh? Ok… Yep… I’ll tell her.”
I giggle watching him; this is just too damn adorable. I love this man.
“Ok mommy they want to eat the blueberry and they want daddy to have the chocolate.” He says pulling away from my belly with a giant ear to ear smile.
“Is this because they know daddy prefers chocolate?” I smirk wiggling the chocolate one in front of his face.
He snatches it away and peels back the wrapper taking a big bite. “No they said that mommy wants blueberries because they’re healthier for them. So daddy gets the other.” He says with his mouth full.
“Well how thoughtful of them.” I laugh and peel back my wrapper and take a big bite. “But I hope that they have better manners than us because my mama taught me not to eat with my mouthful.”
He extends his hand and wipes some crumbs from my mouth. I think I just fell in love all over again. God, he’s perfect like this. My heart is soaring again and I can’t believe I can be this lucky to have this wonderful of moment to cherish forever. The butterflies are back fluttering in my tummy for the time being. I’m half tempted to lean up and kiss him. But I can’t.
We finish our meal and Ashley finishes hers.
“I don’t want to leave your side but I’m going to because you want me on the couch. But I want you to remember that I’m doing this for you. Not because I want to.” He says.
“Here take a juice with you.” I offer him the orange or the apple.
“I’m not going to ask the babies again mommy. You decide which is better for them.”
I keep the orange and hand him the apple. He takes it and sits back on the cream couch.
“So now we know all about what poor Ashley’s been through so why don’t we hear from the asshole that hurt her and me.” I gaze his way.
“Fine. Okay. I’m going to talk to Ashley, okay?”
I nod giving him the go-ahead and he pivots on the couch.
“Last night when you came here was uncalled-for. I know I hurt you but I’ve been putting the love of my life through hell for the past few months. I know most of it’s my fault. But I shouldn’t have lead you on. I was afraid to be alone if she wouldn’t be with me after rehab. So I did the stupid thing and called upon you. I know it was wrong to do. But honestly I thought I could be happy with you and I didn’t think Emily would want me. I’ve said and done a lot of shit to her. Including knock her up as it seems.” He smiles my way.
“But when I said not to come until Bakersfield I meant it. I was going to say good-bye and do it the nice way. Then you showed up and I flipped out and if it wasn’t for Deacon stepping up to shield her she would have put herself in the middle of that huge mess. This drama I cause has got to stop. I know when we were together I hurt you and fucked around. But I have changed. I haven’t slept with anyone but her and one other woman in the past almost eleven weeks. I love her. And I’m not saying this to hurt you. I’m just being honest. That’s why I called you because I love her and I thought I was going to be alone and you’re the only woman I could be with if it wasn’t her. And it’s not because I’m in love with you. I’m not. But it’s because I like you and we are friends. I’m fucked up. I get that, but she’s the only person on this planet who makes me want to be a better person.” He looks to me again with a heartwarming loving expression.
“I get
that J, I can tell you love her. I noticed it last night when I was fighting with you on the stage and you kept moving to make sure she was being blocked from it all. And you kept asking James if she was okay. You don’t do that with other women. You could care less. And apparently as I gather you’re having twins with her. I’m proud you want to be a dad finally or at least I hope you do. I don’t need an explanation I’ve been dealing with the same over and over again with you for a year. I’m just sad it didn’t work out like I’d hoped. I will always love you a lot. But I know if you and I were to be together and you couldn’t change I’d be back to square one anyhow. I just hope if you two end up together you treat her right and let her talk to you like she does because you need a good kick in the ass.” She explains to him.
I can’t believe this woman, she is going for sainthood. If I was her I’d rip him another asshole. But she obviously doesn’t work that way. Good for her in that sense. I want to rip him another asshole just for her. She’s so sweet and adorable!
“And you.” She turns to me. “If you want to be with him, be with him. I know he’s screwed up in the head but I think he’s willing to work on it if you’ll be with him. He needs that. God knows we’ve all been hoping he’d settle down for a long time. But he never found the right one. If he gets out of line I know you’ll keep him in it. I’m glad you have balls. He needs that a lot. I could never do that. And if I did he didn’t care. He does with you. Just please don’t hurt him. He’s been through a lot in his life. He deserves to be loved.”
“I do love him. I just don’t trust him. But I understand what you mean. We’ll figure it out. Thanks for being so great about all this. I know it can’t be easy.”
“No, but it is when you know what’s best for the person you love. And you’re it Emily. Oh, and we’re not engaged. I bought this ring with the credit card he gave me and thought if I bought one it would make him marry me. I know it’s stupid, but a girl can dream.” she raises her hand showing me the diamond, and stands up. “Listen guys I’m going to leave you to it. I’m going to go back home and move on with my life. I’ll keep an eye out in the media for a wedding announcement.” She winks at him. “Good luck.” She says heading towards the door. She opens it and out she goes closing to behind her still in her pajamas.
Chapter Nineteen
As soon as the door shuts and Ashley leaves Johnathan looks to me.
“I can’t believe she’s that nice you’re an idiot for not wanting her.” I blurt.
He shakes his head. “No I’m not. I told you I want you and I was going to have you. I just fucked it up a lot along the way. Now let’s get down to business.” He says standing up quickly and dropping his boxers to the ground to reveal a hard and sexy cock.
I laugh and shake my head back and forth. “I can’t believe you’re hard.” I blush looking at it. Fuck it’s huge. I forgot how big his cock really is and he’s got rather large balls too.
“Baby, when I was kissing our babies in your belly I would smell your wet pussy. I wanted to taste it then. But I held back. You sitting there naked under that robe has taken everything out of me not to make love you to you right in front of Ashley.” He takes a slow step towards the bed.
“Don’t you feel bad at all? I mean you just broke the poor woman’s heart and now you want to fuck me?”
Ok he’s so damn hot. I know this isn’t right to do so soon. But Jesus, look at that rock hard body. I can’t believe that’s going to be all mine to use all the time. Hell yes! No more B.O.B! Or I hope not. Well okay maybe sometimes because a man can only perform so much. But damn he’s one fine motherfucker. That cock of his has to be like ten inches at least and so round. I bet I can’t even wrap my fingers around it. Shit! I’m so horned up and wet just thinking about it. This isn’t right. Not after all this. But hell I don’t think I could say no even if I wanted. That body is so sexy with its deep V at his hipbones.
Off comes his shirt. Damn look at all those beautiful tattoos. I lick my lips.
He takes a step closer lifts his head into the air and inhales.
“I’m not going to fuck you baby. I’m going to make love to my soul mate and you’re already wet for me. I can smell your sweet pussy baby.” His lips curl up naughtily. He has some dirty thoughts floating through that mind of his.
I swallow hard. “I’m not your soul mate you haven’t been with me long enough to say that. We’ve been dating what three minutes? And yes I’m wet. You’re a damn sex god what do you expect?”
He wiggles his eyes brows at me and takes another step. Shaking his hips back and forth so his cock swings side to side. He’s putting on a show for me. A hot as hell show. He grabs his cock in his hands and pumps it for me to see. Oh, fuck yes, that’s so sexy. My clit is thumping. My heart is racing a million miles an hour.
“You want me to get you into the mood more baby?” he licks his lips and jerks himself up and down and back again. Humping his hips with it. Hell yeah! Stroke that cock. He takes his free hand and grabs his nuts tugging on them. He’s almost bare, he keeps himself cleanly shaven down there. Makes everything stand out even more. He stops at the head of his cock and squeezes a little pre-come out and it glistens on the tip making my mouth water. Damn I want him!
“Can I try something?” I stare at his cock. I want that thing I my mouth. I want to taste it.
“Whatever you want to do to me baby. Do it.” He releases his cock and lets it fall. It’s so heavy and sexy with a deep vein protruding from it. I uncover myself and crawl across the bed. At the end I give him the come-hither finger and lick my lips. This is the perfect position to suck him into my mouth. Oh yes!
He walks over so he’s close enough I can grasp him in my hands. I tilt back a little and look up into his eyes.
“Can I touch him?” I whisper sexily gazing into his beautiful eyes, biting my lower lip.
He growls. “I’m not going to last long but yes.” He breaths heavily and I see he’s so excited pre-come is oozing out of his hot ready for me cock.
“I’ll let you make love to me afterward if you’d like.” I say and grasp his hardness into my hand. I can’t fit my hand around it but I take it as much as I can. I pull him closer steering him to my mouth. He groans.
I stick my tongue out and slide it gracefully against the tip and swirl it around in his pre-come. He tightens up his body and moans throwing his head back. It’s salty on my tongue and I love salty. Yum! “I’ve never done this before so guild me if I’m not doing it right.” I say my lips pressed against the tip.
“Oh baby. You can do whatever you want as long as you touch it.”
I stroke my hand up it and lick the tip again. “Oh yes. Just like that baby. Lick it again.” He growls watching me pleasuring him with his eyes burning with fiery lust.
I reach under me and untie my robe so I can touch my nipples.
I suck his hot juicy head into my mouth. And he about loses it. His body quakes and he sucks in a hard breath and lets it out.
“Fuck.” He moans.
I suck it in further and go up and down and he groans in this throat fisting his hair. His face is so sexy. He stands still even though I know he wants to hump into my mouth. I lap his hard length needy with my soft tongue as my mouth encases him. I hold my breath and I push him into the back of my throat and further and further until his balls are at my chin and my mouth has swallowed him whole. I look into his eyes and they’re huge. I can’t breathe but the feeling of his giant cock in my throat puts me on edge. My core is pounding. I might just come from sucking him. He’s breathing hard and can’t stop moaning. I pull it out just a little so I can breathe and push it all the way into my throat. It’s so huge. I grab my nipple and pitch it between my fingers and moan hard with his cock stuffed in my mouth.
“Oh fuck baby. Are you touching yourself?”
I nod and pull harder on my nipple, fuck this is hot and I moan again. His huge cock in my throat and I love having my nipples in mild pain. Damn! I pull his coc
k out and suck onto the head hard-and-fast as I tug my nipple. I moan. Oh shit….Yes… I think I’m going to come this way. I hump the air and fuck him with my mouth. Oh yes! I tug hard on my nipple a wave of pain and pleasure pulsates through me.
“Oh god baby. Yes. I can’t believe you’re sucking my dick. Oh fuck…” he moans. I suck harder drinking his salty pre-come, humping the air.
“Oh baby if you…” he moans and breathes out hard his body shudders. “Fuck I’m close.”
I suck harder milking his cock. “Baby stop I’m…. oh shit.”
He tries to pull back. I grab it with my hand and I dive it down into my throat and hold him there. He’s panting and his head is thrashing as he watches me deep throat him. Hell yes!
“Baby stop… I can’t come in your mouth. You won’t like it…Oh shit….”
I grab his balls and tug “Oh fuck!” he screams and throws his head back and bucks into my mouth, spurting his hot seed into my hole. I drink its thick salty goodness all the way down. I hold him there and his body spasms from the orgasm. I slowly remove his sexy cock from mouth and I lick my lips savoring all of his beautiful semen. It tastes so damn good.
“Baby you shouldn’t have swallowed that, most women don’t like it. I tried to pull it out.” He says. I think the guilt is already getting to him.
I scoot back and sit back and open my robe showing him my entire naked body. He growls watching me. I tug my nipple in one hand and slide my finger in my slit with my other.
“Does this look like I didn’t like sucking you baby? Does it look like I didn’t want you to drink your hot come? It tasted so damn good.” I moan and lick my lips again.
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