First Instinct

by Suzie O'Connell

  “She did. She’s had a lot more time to build since she went back to Montana.” Bill paused to look at the photograph of his niece. “Her friend June took this picture and the one of my sister’s cabin on the wall behind me. So, Pat, you don’t have any plans tonight, do you?”

  “No more than usual.”

  “Good. Mary wanted me to invite you over for dinner. She said something about not bothering to come home tonight unless I brought you with me.”

  Pat chuckled. “I suppose I shouldn’t keep you from your wife’s good cooking… not that you couldn’t stand to miss a meal or two.”

  “Keep it up, smart ass.” Bill opened one of the drawers on the desk and took out a manila envelope. “See you at the house?”

  Pat nodded and left.

  As he drove to Bill’s house, he decided that an evening with Bill and Mary was the perfect medicine for his ailments. So long as that subject wasn’t broached. However, Mary was always careful to steer Bill clear of it, especially on days like this one. As much as he didn’t like talking about that weekend three years ago or the miserable months leading up to it, he knew he’d have been lost if Bill and Mary Granger hadn’t been there to pull him back from the proverbial cliff’s edge. As it was, he still wasn’t too many steps back from it.

  “Pat, welcome!” Mary greeted him with a warm hug when he arrived at the Grangers’ modest house on the bluff overlooking the Indianola beach. “I’m so glad you came.”

  So am I, he thought. “Can I help with anything?”

  “No. Everything’s ready. We’ll just wait for Bill to get home. He called a few minutes ago to say he was leaving. Would you like anything to drink? Beer? Wine? Juice?”

  “Water would be fine, Mary,” he replied.

  He followed her through the house to the back deck. The handiwork of Bill’s niece was everywhere. More frames of weathered wood, like those on Bill’s desk at the sheriff’s department, hung on the walls, filled with family photos and more of his sister’s cabin in Montana. Walking through the Grangers’ home was a stroll through a Rocky Mountain dream. Mary dabbled in interior design as a hobby, and she’d put the rustic furniture and decorations to perfect uses. Her house could have graced the pages of a magazine devoted to Western living.

  Pat would love to meet Bill’s niece someday. Bill had tried to introduce them in the past, but work, school, distance, or something else had always prevented it. Admiring her work, he got the sense that she was dedicated, driven, and artistic but also giving, loyal, and he suspected a little stubborn. Any woman who chose to make her living in a field that traditionally belonged to men was no soft lady to take what life handed her.

  Pat followed Mary outside to the deck. Below him, the tide washed up the broad sand spit, reaching toward the rocks farther up the shore. The old ferry dock stretched far out into the glassy ripples beneath a cloudless sky and to his left, Seattle glinted in the distance, bathed in the rich golden light of the westering sun. It was a rare, perfect March day laden with the promise of the warmer months to come.

  “Oh, I wanted to ask,” Mary said. “Do you know if Shannon got the birthday present we sent? It was supposed to be there yesterday, but I haven’t had a chance to call your mom to ask. I’m sorry it was late, but it took longer than we expected to ship.”

  “It was waiting for her when she and Mom got home from Seattle. She loved it.”

  “Did you change your mind and meet them?”

  Pat shook his head. “No, but I talked to Mom yesterday. I still can’t believe my little sister is seventeen already.”

  “Neither can I, but I can’t believe you’ll be twenty-nine in a few more months, either. It doesn’t seem like so long ago that your father was more excited about your birth than graduating from college.” Mary smiled fondly and patted his hand.

  “Are you calling me old, Mary?”

  She laughed. “Indeed not. You’re just a pup. I’m calling me old. Was Shannon disappointed you didn’t go?”

  “No. I think she understands.”

  Mary hesitated a moment, then said quietly, “I’m glad Bill convinced you to come work for the sheriff’s department. I think you’re happier here than you would have been if you’d stayed with the Seattle PD.”

  “It’s certainly a much quieter job. Grandpa Antony says the Kitsap Peninsula fits me better, and he’s right.” Pat smiled fondly. “He was so proud that I’d seized the opportunity to become a detective and glad that I was happy.”

  If Mary noticed how his voice hitched on the last word, she didn’t say anything. Instead, she pointed out the beach party below them. A group of teenagers had broken away from the bonfire and were now racing across the sand toward the water’s approaching edge, followed by a black lab, a border collie mix, and two smaller mutts. Their excited, carefree voices rang wonderfully in the still evening, and Pat’s depression slipped away.

  Bill arrived a scant twenty minutes later to find his wife and Pat laughing uproariously at the antics of the teenagers and dogs.

  “Glad to see your mood’s improved, Pat,” Bill remarked as he joined them.

  “Your wife is a charming woman,” Pat said. “I can’t help myself.”

  “She certainly is.”

  Mary went back inside, leaving them to talk. Dread wormed its way back into the pit of Pat’s stomach. There was nothing overly prodding about Bill’s demeanor, but Pat suspected his enjoyable evening was about to head in a direction he didn’t want to go.

  “Before you give me your usual, evasive responses, hear me out.”

  “Do I have a choice?”

  “Absolutely not.” Bill took a deep breath and plunged ahead. “You’re regressing. Over the last few months, I’ve watched you slide back down into the pit. I’d be willing to bet a large sum of money that you’ve had as many bad days as good in the last three months. That worries me, Pat. You’ve worked too hard to recover from Sara.”

  And there it was.

  “I want you to take a vacation.”

  “I’m fine, Bill.”

  “I’d be more convinced by the truth, and we both know that isn’t it.”

  “C’mon, Bill. It’s been a long, wet, gray winter. Everyone’s been—”

  The look Bill gave him—brows lifted, mouth flat—silenced him.

  “There’s a trend here, Pat. Every time something reminds you of Sara, you have one of these days after. What did you see, hear, or do yesterday that reminded you of her?”

  “My mother mentioned her. First time I’ve talked to my mother in two months, and she came up. She always does.”

  “What do you mean, mentioned her?”

  “Mom thought I should be warned, but I wish she hadn’t told me. Apparently, yesterday when she took Shannon shopping for prom in Seattle, they bumped into Sara at the mall. She asked how I’ve been.”

  “That little….” Bill shook his head. “I’m sorry, Pat. I shouldn’t be dragging you through this tonight. It just makes me so angry. What you need is a good woman like my niece to show you Sara isn’t worth any of the pain she’s caused you.” He cleared his throat, and Pat sensed he was stalling. “My niece is the other reason I wanted you to come to dinner tonight.”

  Pat sat back in his chair and gaped. The situation had suddenly gone from depressing to absurd. “Oh, no. They’ve finally gotten to you, haven’t they? Listen, I’m sure she’s a very nice girl, but…”

  Bill’s laughter rang out in the still evening air. He kept laughing until his eyes glittered wetly. “You think that’s what I’m trying to do? You really know how to bring a man to tears, Pat.” He wiped beneath his eyes, still chuckling. “I’d bet my niece would be a much better match for you than any woman anyone in the department can find, and as much as I’d love to have you legally a part of my family as a nephew, I’m afraid my reason for mentioning her is more serious.”

  Bill pulled the manila envelope out of his bag and handed it to Pat. On the cover was one of the more unique names he’d seen.
He knew it was the name of Bill’s niece, but Bill had always pronounced it like the flower alyssum when he wasn’t calling her what sounded like “Allie.”

  Inside the envelope was what appeared to be a criminal file but less official. It included a sheet of personal data with the last known address, phone number—both of which were months out of date—the physical descriptions of the man, and a photo. Pat narrowed his eyes. There was something about the hazel eyes that hooked his attention, a contained fervor shimmering beneath a placid surface. The man had the look of someone who had spent his entire life reaching for something unattainable and had not yet realized the hopelessness of his endeavor. The longish, messy medium-brown hair was further evidence, but beneath the mop, the man could be called good-looking. What a pity. Behind the photo was a copy of a restraining order. There were a few more pages, but Pat shifted his attention for the time being back to Bill.

  “What is this?” he asked.

  “The biggest favor I’ll ever ask of you. Aelissm called me two days ago. I told you that she moved back to Northstar but not why. Adam Winters—” Bill tapped the picture from the file. “—won’t leave her alone. We filed a restraining order against him, and he’s broken it, but he’s off the grid. I can’t find him to arrest him.”

  “So you want me to find him.”

  “Yes and no. There’s more to it. The night Aeli’s boyfriend, Brent Ellington died, he tried to rape her. Adam heard her scream, came to her rescue and started to strangle Brent. Aeli ran out. Brent died a few hours later of a burst aneurysm, possibly brought about by being throttled, but there’s no way to prove that. A neighbor saw Brent stumbling back to his apartment later that night. She thought he was drunk, and he was. By that time, Adam was long gone, so Brent was still alive after Adam left. The landlord found Brent’s body in the morning when he entered the apartment for a routine testing of the smoke alarms. It’s a mess.”

  “Sounds like it.”

  “Anyhow, a copy of the statements and records of Brent’s death are in the back there, along with the statements Aeli gave to get the restraining order and what she dictated to me over the phone the day before yesterday.” Bill paused and took a deep breath. “Adam has had a thing for her since they met a couple years ago. At first, she was flattered, and I thought he would have been a better match for her. Until this mess happened, I liked him. I still want to like him because I think he’s a good man beneath it all, but something snapped that night. He’s become obsessed with her.”

  “Obsessed how?”

  “Calling her, writing her letters, and proclaiming his love for her. A couple times, she arrived home to find him sitting on her couch.”

  “Sounds like a bit of a creep.”

  “I hate to say it, but yes. She changed her number a couple times, and when she decided she had no desire to finish her master’s degree in Seattle, she moved in with her parents here in Indianola for a few months, but he didn’t get the message.”

  “And now she’s in Northstar. How did that come about?”

  “Her grandparents called about six months ago and asked if she was interested in taking over operations of their inn. Her grandmother also works at the local post office, and the inn is getting to be too much work. She said yes, and the move has been good for her because she enjoys the work at the inn and the blacksmithing class she teaches one night a week at the college in Devyn, and she’s been able to unwind. Until Adam called her two nights ago.”

  “So, how do I fit in to all this?”

  “This is your vacation. I want you to go to Montana, take a couple months to relax and clear your head. And, while you’re at it, find anything you can about Adam Winters and protect my niece if the need arises.”

  Pat considered Bill’s request, then laughed. “Good one, Bill. You almost had me, what with the file and the story.”

  Bill’s eyes hardened. “I wish to God this was a joke. There isn’t much Aeli can’t do, but when she told me Adam had called again, she was in tears. I don’t trust anyone else to do this, Pat, and even if I did, I’m not kidding about wanting you to take a break. You need to get away for a while, take a step back, and forget about Sara.”

  “It’s not that simple, Bill.”

  “I understand that. I also know that working yourself half to death hasn’t done you a bit of good. I’m hoping a good, long vacation away from everything that reminds you of her will succeed where distraction has failed.”

  “I suppose you have it all figured out,” Pat said sharply. He winced. He hadn’t meant that to come out so harshly.

  “You’ll stay with Aelissm, of course. She could probably use a little extra help at the Bedspread, and it would give you something to do.” Bill held Pat’s gaze for a moment. “I love you both. I hate to see either of you struggling.”

  “How long do you expect me to stay there?”

  “As long as necessary, on both counts, even if I have to pay you out of my own pocket.”

  Pat sat back in his chair, stunned. This was one hell of a favor, and he wasn’t sure if he was up to the challenge. He glanced at Bill, saw the silent plea in the older man’s gaze, and considered it. He very briefly thought about turning Bill down, but his boss—his friend—had done a lot for him over the years.

  “Do you need a day to think about it?”

  Pat shook his head. “I’ll do it. And I’m sure you’re right that I should get away for a while. Maybe it will help.”

  Bill scribbled some notes on a piece of paper and stuffed it in the file. “All right, then. It’s all here. We’ve notified the local law enforcement about the restraining order, so if you do find Adam, he can be dealt with legally. Aaron Hammond lives in the valley and is a sheriff’s deputy, so if you need any help, call him. I’ve included his contact information in the file as well as all the numbers for the Devyn Police Department and the county sheriff’s office. I really hope you won’t need any of it. I keep hoping Adam will come to his senses and just leave Aelissm alone.”

  Mary’s return with dinner brought an end to their head-spinning conversation. They talked about other things while they ate, but as Pat listened and talked and laughed with his friends, his thoughts were focused on what he might be facing and how he could best tackle the task. It was… refreshing.

  “I really appreciate this, Pat,” Bill said as Pat was leaving. “You have no idea what peace of mind I’ll have knowing you’re there with Aeli.”

  Pat nodded and tucked the file under his arm. He leaned down to embrace Mary and thank her for dinner. As he drove away, he began to wonder what he’d gotten himself into. When he got home, he picked up his road atlas and glanced at the notes Bill had scribbled as he studied the map of Montana. There it was, a tiny dot in the southwest corner of the state. The nearest town of any size was Devyn to the east with a population that nearly matched its elevation of just over five thousand feet. Beyond that, the closest city was Butte, many miles more to the north. His eyes traveled back to the little dot that would be his home for the next little while.

  “Northstar, here I come,” he sighed. Then he chuckled as he recalled the picture of Bill’s niece with her buck. “Looks like someday is just around the corner. It’ll be nice to finally meet you, Aelissm Davis.”

  “Uncle Bill, I didn’t want you to send me a protector. That’s the last thing I need.”

  “Then you shouldn’t have called me.”

  “You’re wasting his time.” Aeli glanced at her friend, rolled her eyes, and sighed. “When I called you the other night, I only wanted to let you know Adam had called me again. That’s all.”

  “You’re not fooling anyone, Aelissm, except maybe yourself.”

  “I don’t know how Adam got the phone number here, but he can’t find me. Hell, Unk, you couldn’t find this place last summer, and you’ve been here before.”

  “You thought Adam wouldn’t find you when you moved to your parents’ house, too, remember?”

  “Yes, but—”


  “Humor me, Aelissm.”

  “I don’t need someone to watch over me like I’m a child.”

  “I know you can take care of yourself, Aeli darling, but Adam is not the same man he used to be.” Her uncle sighed, and she pictured him sitting in his recliner at home, massaging his temples. “I chose Pat because I trust him and because I know he can protect you. Knowing he’s there will ease my old heart.”

  “Old? Ha!”

  “I’m serious.”

  “I know you are. All right, fine. It might be nice to have a man around.”

  Bill laughed. “I know that tone. You’re a devil, you know that?”

  “Yep. Anything else?”

  “Yes, actually. Make sure Pat relaxes while he’s there.”

  “Will he be here on vacation or to protect me, Unk? Because that seems a little contradictory.”

  “Both. He went through a bad break up a few years ago and hasn’t given himself the chance to get past it, so I’m using one stone to kill two birds.”

  “A bad break up, huh? You’re not playing matchmaker again, are you?”

  “No, but it certainly wouldn’t break my heart if the two of you got together.”

  “Uh-huh.”

  “Just make sure he gets some rest while he’s there, will you?”

  “I’ll see what I can do. Well, I should probably get off this thing. I don’t want to run up June’s phone bill.”

  “All right. Love you, Aeli Girl.”

  “Love you, too, Unk. G’night.”

  She set the cordless phone back in its cradle and glanced at her friend, who sat on the couch with her scrawny, twelve-year-old foster son, Luke, curled up beside her. It amazed Aelissm how much their lives had changed in the last year. And yet, here they were, together in Northstar again. Suddenly, she was very grateful her grandparents had asked her to start taking over management of the Bedspread Inn because, until she’d returned to Northstar six months ago, she hadn’t realized just how much she’d needed to come here. The utter peacefulness of the remote valley was such a welcome relief to the constant pulse of Seattle. Besides, this was home.