Fighting Fate

by Barbara Speak

  "We both know this isn't my first time, Mike."

  He looked me in the eye for several seconds before he grabbed me by my waist and jerked my body back down to where I was to begin with, putting his hand back where it was before and started massaging me. I wasn't sure why he was avoiding answering me but soon I didn't care. He was touching me in ways he never had before and I could feel my walls stretching.

  I let out a moan when he pressed two of his fingers inside me but I screamed when his thumb started to draw circles on my nub.

  My whole body started to tense up as the pressure built higher and Mike never slowed down his pace. In fact, he was pushing even harder as he brought his body closer to mine. He grabbed the head and placed it next to me as he started rubbing it over my clit, at the same time his fingers still worked inside of me.

  I was losing my mind.

  "Do you remember anything about that night? No. So please don't let it count. Let me be the one and only man you remember. Let me be your first, last and every time in-between. I want you more than I've ever wanted anything, but I need you to tell me this is okay. That you want me to do this."

  The orgasm inside of me couldn't hold out any longer. One last push on my clit had me screaming, “Yes! YES! YES!"

  As I felt every muscle contract, Mike pushed the head of it in.

  "Ooowwwww."

  "I'm sorry, baby. It's going to hurt a little. I've got you as wet as you can get, you've just got to let me push."

  He leaned forward, resting his elbows above my shoulders and looked me in the eye.

  "I love you, Daisy. We don't have to do this tonight. If you want to wait, I will wait with you." And then he leaned forward and kissed my forehead.

  "I'm more in love with you now than I probably ever will be. You need to stop questioning this and just make love to me already!"

  I lifted my legs and wrapped them around his waist while I rocked my pelvis against him. I even grabbed his butt cheeks and pulled him further into me just to prove my point. Fuck did it hurt like crazy!

  Mike pushed even more, until he was all the way inside of me.

  We sat there, completely still for a few minutes, letting my poor body take a break before Mike started to pull back out.

  Out wasn't as bad as it was going in and then back in wasn't as bad as going out.

  "Just relax, Daisy. I don't know how long I'm going to be able to hold myself together here. MY God you're so tight."

  I tried relaxing but there was something called a penis stabbing me in the belly.

  "Look at me."

  I opened my eyes and found him waiting there for me. Without saying any words it was like we were able to tell each other everything. All joking went aside and my heart had never felt so full.

  He kissed my forehead again while he continued to slowly rock himself in and out of me.

  I started to move my body with his, until we created a rhythm together that had me seeing stars and then all of the sudden he stopped.

  "Why did you stop?"

  "I haven't had sex in a long time either, babe, you need to let me slow down or this is going to be over before it even starts."

  "Oh, okay."

  The last thing I wanted was for this to end. Everything was finally starting to feel good.

  He went back to slowly moving in and out of me, taking his time and driving me to a point that whether he was ready or not, I was going to have the monster of all orgasms!

  "I'm going to cum, Mike!"

  He still had ahold of my hips, rocking into me when at last, he placed his thumb on my nub. It was game over, I exploded. My whole body started to shake as I felt my muscles squeeze around him.

  I looked up and watched in fascination as his jaw dropped open and I could feel him throbbing as he finished with me.

  I've never had so many emotions hit me at one time before. It was completely overwhelming. Tears started rolling down my cheeks as I tried to process it all.

  When Mike looked at me, he slowly bent down and kissed each tear away.

  "I love you, Daisy."

  He grabbed me and pulled me with him as he rolled onto his back, with me ending on top of him.

  "Hey, you're supposed to be exhausted after sex, don't go bullying me around."

  "I just want you closer."

  "You're still inside of me, how much closer can I get?"

  "Don't ruin my moment."

  "I have no choice. You have to let me up."

  "No I don't."

  "Yes you do. I have to pee so bad it almost hurts and right now you have little swimmers trying to attack my eggs. I need to go to the bathroom."

  His grip only got tighter.

  "Come on, Mike, I'm serious."

  When he didn't let go it hit me.

  "You want to get me pregnant, don't you."

  I started to push off of him but his hold on me tightened, not giving me a chance.

  "Mike!"

  "MIKE!"

  When he finally let me go, I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom. Just as I hit the toilet I heard, "Being stuck with me wouldn't be the worst thing in the world!"

  Laughing to myself, I had to agree with him. It definitely wouldn't.

  You know when you graduate high school how people ask you where you see yourself in four years?

  I never thought in a million that I would be telling you that I got to marry the man of my dreams.

  I didn't know it could even be possible to be loved the way he loves me but he never tires of proving me wrong.

  Mike proposed the day I graduated from college. All of our friends and family were there to celebrate with us, making it one of the best days of my life.

  We got married six months later on the beach near my parent’s house, overlooking the rocks I love so much. It was there that I started giving myself the right to be happy again and I wanted it to be there when I took the vows to love him forever. Through the good and the bad we are never going to give up.

  Life isn't always easy. Bad things happen to good people. The only thing left to do is move forward and let that pain become a part of the past. I will never forget what happened, but I choose to be grateful for what came from it.

  We don’t always get to make choices in life. All we can do is live to the fullest, laugh as often as we can and love like there's no tomorrow. You never know what fate is going to throw at you but you have the choice to fight back as hard as you can. Diamonds are nothing but a lump of coal after being forced through a surmountable amount of pressure. Remember that the next time something hits you hard. You always have a choice

  Coming Early 2016

  The life of a Guardian is simple: take on the task assigned to you and complete it.

  I have been helping humans for hundreds of years and never have I questioned my work.

  My life was easy.

  All that changed when I was sent to help Marissa Johnson. She got her happily ever after and my job should have been finished. At least, it would have been, if it weren't for Zoey Marshall.

  My name is Adonis, and I am the Sentinel.

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  Acknowledgements

  I want to make sure everyone knows that making a book is a process and writing it is just a small piece of that. For that reason I need to thank

  Wendi Temporado- You are the best at what you do. Never have you told me to change anything about my writing style or how I want my characters to come across. You simply help me where I need it most and of course that's with commas, lol!

  Rebecca Pau- Once again you nailed the cover and have made this series more beautiful to look at than I could have imagined.

  To my beloved street team- Believers can't be bought. Each and every one of you support me beyond belief and for tha
t alone I bow down to you. For all the hard work and time you put in I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart.

  Jennifer Juers, Blythe Kuykendall, Ashley Talbott Ray, Lissette De La Hoz, Gladys Atwell, Kerri Mclaughlin, Natascha Bennet, Sanne Heremans, Shannon Mclaughlin, Tammy Hamilton Green, Tara Broadwater, Vicci Kaighan, I love you to bits!

  Mary Beth Witkop- You are my PR goddess. I couldn't begin to list what you have done and continue you to do for me but I can tell you how much it means. I love you to death.

  Kara Bailey- OMG! YOU ARE MY LIFE LINE. My tech savvy, idea making, raunchy picture sharing, best friend. To think we started out in such a different place. I wouldn't trade our history for the world but those fan girl moments will never be forgotten. This whole experience would be dull without you.

  For all of the bloggers that have gone from being strangers to friends- Thank you for making the Indy industry what it is. You work countless hours without pay to back those of us that are trying to make something of ourselves. I couldn't be more grateful for everything you do.

  To my amazing family and friends-Thank you for all of your ongoing support.

  To my dearest husband Tim- life hasn't been easy on us this last year. Me taking the leap into this world left you with a lot of things to accept and try to understand. A lot of time was taken away from you and for that I am sorry. Writing is a passion and as it grew I let it take over. Thank goodness you stood by me while I learned how to balance all that comes along with getting myself out there. It was hard but so were other things we have faced over the seventeen years we have been together. Life isn’t always easy but having you in it sure sweetens the pot. I love you with all my heart and soul.

  To my babies that are no longer babies- If you take anything from all this I want it to be this. Follow your dreams. Feed your passion and never let someone tell you that you can’t achieve whatever you set your mind to. It won't be easy but hard work and dedication always comes with its own reward. I love you two more than life.

  And finally to my kick ass amazing fans!- I went from writing one book and being scared to death to see what everyone would think of it, to writing a trilogy that I am now so proud to stand behind. Your words of encouragement and love for my writing fuels me more than you will ever know.