Losing Her (The Lexington Series Book 1)

by Belle Winters

  I didn’t even turn around. I sighed and said the only thing I could, “get out. Go home, and don’t come back.”

  He grunted and I felt him getting up, “fuck this. I don’t have to fucking deal with this shit. Get your shit together then come find me. I’m sick of this back and forth shit with you all the time.” He said.

  I could hear him packing his things and I turned to face him. I wanted him to see the seriousness of what I was about to say. “I wouldn’t fucking wait on it if I were you.” He shrugged as he threw the rest of his stuff into his bag and walked out of the room without another word. I heard his car start up and drive off. A few minutes later, my door opened. It was Nick and Mel. They both came and sat on the bed with me.

  “Did Landon just leave?” Nick asked.

  I nodded, “I kicked him out.”

  “Did you talk about it?” Mel asked.

  I grunted, “talk no. he just basically told me I annoy the shit out of him and I’m being a nag and he didn’t want to be bothered with that type of shit. That I should go find him when I was over whatever was wrong with me. I didn’t even have a chance to bring it up with him. Ever since yesterday he’s been angry and taking it out on me. He doesn’t want me asking questions or saying anything really. And he fucking cheated on me you know? And he’s blaming it all on me. And he’s keeping it a secret, saying it’s basically none of my business.” I sighed. “I just couldn’t take anymore. Of the way he was treating me and talking to me. I mean I was already hurt finding out about what he did and you know they said he was with someone. He probably did something with her. That’s probably her saliva. I highly doubt she’d try to have sex with him if he appeared dead you know? I tried to keep all the hurt to myself knowing that he was also going through things but it was just too much.” I explained.

  Nick slammed his hands down on the bed and growled, “that fucking bastard.” He stood up and stomped out of the room. Mel stayed with me, and the next thing I knew I heard the front door and a car leave. Mel looked out the window and sighed. Looks like Nick is gone now too.

  We cuddled together in the bed for a while. It was about 2 hours later when we heard a car come back. I turned to the opening of the bedroom door and Nick came in. He had a rag around his hand. I shot up in the bed and ignored the smarting in my ribs.

  “What the hell happened to you?” I asked him.

  He waved his hand as if it was nothing and Mel got up and turned on the light then grabbed him towards the bed. She unwrapped his hand, and we saw his knuckles were busted. “Nick, what the hell happened? You tell me now or god help me I will put you in a chokehold.” I threatened.

  He sighed, “Fine Ali. I drove to the house and didn’t find Landon there or his car. I waited for a while and then when he didn’t come I called him. He answered the phone and when I asked where he was he said he was minding his business he’ll see me tomorrow. I drove around, and low and behold I find his car in a driveway. I go and knock on the door and no one answers. It was probably stupid but I checked the door and it was opened. With everything that had happened I instantly got scared thinking someone fucking drugged him again. I made my way through the house and finally found him. Balls deep in Delilah. I got so fucking mad that I hit him… a few times. He got in a good shot or two but after I hit him again I called him a fucking dummy and left.” Nick explained.

  I gasped and this time I couldn’t hold back the tears. “I knew it from when we were in the hospital that he didn’t want me anymore. Some other guy fucked me. While I was pregnant with his child, then beat it to death. I know he thinks this was my entire fault.” I sobbed and Nick cursed pulling me into his lap. He held me while I cried and whispered soothing words to me. His phone started going off and he looked at it and ignored the call. I knew it was Landon. I told him it was ok to talk to him but he shook his head and informed me that he wasn’t ok with him being a dick. Not to me.

  The weekend went by Landon-less. When Dean asked, I shrugged and told him the truth. He’s a dick and I asked him to leave. We were supposed to return to school that Monday, so Sunday we got our stuff together to clear out of James house. I was dreading moving back in with Landon. I didn’t want to be around him after everything. First to find out he cheated, and he took that anger out on me. Then to know he left here and went right into her arms was the last nail in the coffin. My anxiety was extremely high when it was time to go.

  Samantha had stopped by my room to see if I needed any help. I shook my head and she must’ve seen the panic in my eyes. She grabbed my hand and sat me down on the bed next to her. “Spill it honey.” She prodded.

  I sighed, “in a nutshell. We found out that Landon had cheated on me the night everything happened. And he was being a royal asshole to me about it. He doesn’t even know that I know. I kicked him out Friday, and when Nick went after him to confront him for his behavior he found him at the girl’s house. In a… compromising position. They threw a few punches, and that’s all she wrote. Now I kind of don’t want to go back and face him.” I said with a shrug.

  She shook her head, “you kids and your drama. Listen, you can stay here honey. Grab some stuff and your car and you don’t have to go back yet. Take some time for yourself or to work it out without the pressure of living together or to just get over it. You’re always going to be welcomed here Lucy.” She reassured me.

  I thought it over and then nodded. I needed to be away from him and I finally have a decent alternative to staying at Deans. I stopped packing and went to tell Nick and Mel my choice. Nick was not happy. He wanted me around and he probably assumed that Mel wouldn’t go by the house if I wasn’t there. So in true Nick fashion, he got up and went to seek out Samantha. I laughed because I knew what he was going to do. Beg her to let him stay too. I had to see this I knew it would be epic.

  Nick did not disappoint. He found her and James in their room. Mel and I brushed past him and went into the room. James looked at all of us in question.

  “Sexy Sam, I heard that you’re letting Lucy stay?” he asked.

  Samantha looked weary and amused, “I did… I was just telling James.”

  “You going to make me leave?” he asked her with a pout. He dropped down to his knees and waddled over to her on his knees until he was at her feet. “Please Sexy Sam. Don’t kick me out, let me stay. Think about our children,” he waved a hand at me and Mel, “they need us. Both of us. I know their confused with James all in the mix but you know that what we have is real. You need me here too. Who will make you laugh and call you Sexy Sam? I am begging you on my knees, please give me another chance. I promise to stop groping you in public.”

  James sputtered and looked at Nick then Sam, “what the fuck is this kid talking about?” he asked.

  Samantha shushed him, “get up Nick. Come here.” She said holding out her arms. He stood and fell into them hugging her tight. “You can stay, only if you promise to come sneak into my bed when James leaves for work.” She released him then, and grabbed his face in both hands and placed a loud kiss on him square on the lips. She walked past him and pinched his butt causing him to jump. She stopped walking and frowned and grabbed a handful of his ass. “Jesus, you could bounce a quarter off this thing.” She walked to the door and turned back pointing a finger at Mel. “If I were you, I’d try it.”

  We exploded with laughter. James was cracking up and shaking his head. Nick was still frozen in place. When he unglued himself he turned to us and said, “did you see that? I didn’t imagine it right?” he asked.

  Through my laughter I confirmed it did in fact really happen. He collapsed on the bed as if he was fainting. James swatted him in the head with the paper he was holding, “now would you stop hitting on my wife boy.” He said to Nick.

  Nick sat up on his elbows and raised a brow to James, “were you just in the same room as the rest of us. She practically assaulted me. I’m sorry James but she wants me.” He wiggled his eyebrows, “I’ve died and gone to heaven.” James shook his he
ad and laughed.

  Nick looked over to me and Mel when the laughter faded, “you girls ready?” he asked.

  We nodded and got up. James waved at us, “I’ll see you guys in a little while then.” He said when we all were heading to the door.

  We helped Mel get her stuff to the car and we dropped her off first. Then we headed home to pack some stuff. Dean wasn’t there but Nick called him to tell him the situation. He understood, and wasn’t surprised Nick was also going to stay. When I spoke to him he laughed and said he knew it was so Nick could be able to breathe down Mel’s neck as much as possible. I laughed and agreed. I also asked him about Max coming over and stuff, and even him. I was clear in saying that the only person I didn’t want to see was Landon. He said he would make sure he made time and that I could kidnap Max whenever I wanted to. I thanked him and disconnected.

  When we got to the house Landon was sitting at the breakfast bar coloring with Max. He looked up when we entered the room and frowned. Good, I didn’t want to be here just as much as he didn’t want me here. I placed a kiss on Max’s head and ruffled his hair. I made my way up to my room to pack without so much as a peep. Nick was on my heels. I took out some items for the next couple of weeks and realized I needed another bag. I hadn’t gotten half my stuff inside and it was already full. My larger one was the one I already had over at James’s. I went to Nick’s room to borrow one and went back to my room to finish. When I got there Landon was in my room sitting on my bed looking at the bag.

  I crossed my arms across my chest. He must’ve sensed my presence because his head snapped up and he narrowed his eyes. He waved a hand across my stuff and asked, “what is all of this Lucy?”

  I rolled my eyes and scoffed. I dropped Nick’s bag down on my bed and began to put the rest of my stuff in it. The fact of the matter is, I didn’t have that many clothes so between these and the ones I already took my closet looked bare. I ignored him and went into the bathroom to collect some toiletries they hadn’t thought of when they packed my stuff before. They were guys, why would they think to pack tampons? I was laughing at that thought when I walked back into the room. Landon was standing now and I stepped around him and dropped the stuff at the top of the bag.

  “Lucy, I know you heard me. What is this? What are you doing?” he asked again.

  I sighed, so he was going to make this difficult was he? “Packing so that I can leave.” I said as coldly as I could muster.

  “You’re moving out?” he asked in a whisper.

  I thought about that. I only spoke to Sam about staying until I could be around him. But being in the same room as him now, I don’t know if that would ever be possible. I could feel all of the hurt of everything that’s happened in the past couple of weeks. If I couldn’t ever get over it, I wondered if James would let me live with him for my last semester until college. I shrugged, “not sure. Maybe, maybe not.” Was all I told him.

  He growled and grabbed my bag when I went to drop my lotion into it. I arched an eyebrow. “No you’re not. You aren’t going any fucking where Lucy. Now cut the shit and put your stuff back.” He demanded.

  I scoffed and reached for the bag. He tossed it across the room and the contents spilled out. I sighed, I didn’t want to fight with him. I couldn’t take it right now. I began to walk towards the bag to put my stuff into it and he came to stand in front of me blocking me. “Listen Landon, I’m leaving. That is it. My decision is made.” I explained hoping he’d give up on whatever the hell this was.

  Right, this was Landon king of having his way. “Lucy, you aren’t leaving.” He said.

  “Yea, I am. Now please get out so I can finish packing.” I asked him.

  “You can’t kick me out because I fucking live here.” He took a deep breath then roared, “AND YOU’RE NOT FUCKING LEAVING!” my second bag went flying.

  Nick was in the doorway in a heartbeat. His eyes narrowed on Landon. “Dude, leave her the fuck alone. She wants to leave you. Not the house, but you. You’re not making it any better.” He turned to me. “You almost done?” he asked. I waved a hand at my stuff scattered around half in the bags half on the floor but nodded. I just had to stuff it back in. he looked back at Landon. “Just get the fuck out.”

  Landon looked like he wanted to argue and then looked at me. I turned my head away from him. I heard him leave and then a loud bang that made me jump. Nick nodded at me and before he left I whispered, “can we hurry?” he gave me another nod and went back to his room.

  I quickly threw all of my stuff back into the bags and zipped them up. Nick appeared in the doorway 5 minutes later and took my heavier bag before going downstairs. I did another sweep of the room to make sure I wasn’t forgetting anything, and went out behind him. When I walked out of my room I saw a huge hole in the wall outside my door. That must’ve been the bang I heard. Had he seriously punched the wall? When I got downstairs Nick and Landon were in a heated conversation by the door that I couldn’t hear because they were whispering. They must’ve heard me coming because they both stopped. Nick shook his head and headed out the house leaving the door open.

  I was passing by Landon when he reached out to touch me. I flinched and he frowned. He let out a sigh before speaking in a whisper, “Lucy please don’t do this. Don’t leave me.”

  I let out a humorless laugh, and began walking to leave. I told him in my most sarcastic voice, “you should be happy babe. It’ll be just like old times now. You can start bringing Delilah back. You know rechristen your bed and all.” I was walking out of the door when I tossed over my shoulder, “hey you should even christen mine. I don’t even know if I’ll ever use it again.” I pulled the door closed behind me with a slam and made my way to my car. I followed Nick back to James house, and Nick took our stuff upstairs.

  I was still frazzled by what happened earlier and Nick must’ve known. He came into my room and watched mean girls with me then slept with me. I put my head on his chest that night and had a dreamless sleep.

  The next day I rode with Nick. No football practice today and he was on edge about me and Mel returning to school. He decided he was the boss of us and we were forbidden from driving ourselves. I told him it wasn’t possible for him to watch us at all times and he agreed. But he promised that he will do as much as he could.

  When we entered the school, we passed Landon perched at his locker with Delilah hanging onto him. When we walked passed she gave us a little wave and then pulled his head down and kissed him. I turned my head, and rolled my eyes. Nick growled this whole thing is putting a strain on Nick and Landon’s relationship. Landon never even looked at us. Mel was bright red with anger, but I wouldn’t let this shit get to me. I couldn’t, this was my fault. I knew it deep down that I shouldn’t have gotten into a relationship with him but I did it anyway. This exact same shit has happened more than once before, but did I go with my brain? Of course not. So how the fuck could I be mad about all of this when I knew fucking better. This time it’s a big ass shame on me.

  Nick walked us first to Mel’s locker than to mine. Then he walked us to our first classes. He wouldn’t be able to keep this up all day. When we reached my class he placed a kiss to my temple and told me he would see me when the bell rang. Landon was standing outside of the room, surprise, surprise, with Delilah. I nodded at Nick and walked past them. They came in behind me. I chose a seat in the middle of the room where there were no empty seats around me so there would be no options of them being next to me.

  Class flew by and by the time I packed up my stuff and made it out of the room, Mel and Nick were waiting for me. When I looked back I noticed the room was empty except for Landon and Delilah. What the fuck why are they everywhere today? The rest of the morning carried on like this. Between every class I ran into the happy fucking couple, and me, Nick, and Mel alternated between picking up and dropping off each other.

  When it was lunch time we all crammed our stuff into my locker and made it to the cafeteria. We grabbed pizzas and sodas and walked ove
r to our usual table. Today, there was no empty seat next to Landon. It’s like him and Ricky shifted over to make an extra seat on the other side of Nick. Me and Mel sat down on either side of him. It was about 5 minutes later when Delilah sauntered up to our table.

  She stood behind Ricky and sighed. “Why is there always a seating issue over here? Can we just go back to our old table babe?” she wined.

  “You’re annoying” Nick said.

  She rolled her eyes and sneered at him, “so are you.” She threw back at him. “Besides I see a perfectly available seat if that bitch would get the fuck up. It’s not like anyone over here even likes her but you.” She looked me up and down. I picked up my soda to take a sip to keep from commenting. I will not feed into this shit. “Leave it to you to go to a party and hook up then scream rape. Was it because you contracted something you nasty whore. You got what the fuck you deserved.”

  The air rushed out of my lungs and I heard the crinkle from the can in my grip. The anger escalated inside of me pretty fucking quickly. There were people talking but I couldn’t hear anything over the sound of my heart beating in my ears. That fucking night, took so much from me. I wasn’t even fucking safe at school no more. The baby I didn’t know about gone, Landon… gone, even though I kind of lost him before the incident. My fucking pride is gone, my body, my sanity, my fucking memories. All of this taken away from me… and this bitch jokes about it! I didn’t realize I was even standing, when I had her in my line of sight. She was looking at me with a disgusted look on her face, and goddamn proud of herself. It’s like I had tunnel vision. The anger peaked when she smiled and I swung. I clocked that bitch dead in her face. She dropped her tray and lunged at me and grabbed my hair. She was trying to knock me down, but I wasn’t going down alone. I swung my arm out and grabbed her and we toppled together. When we hit the ground a vision flashed in my head. Someone grabbing my hair and throwing me to the floor. I saw the foot swing out and a hard kick landed into my stomach. It was that night and it spurred me on. I no longer saw Delilah, I saw my rapist. A shadowed figure that hurt me. I climbed on top of her and began raining punches down as hard as I could. I don’t know how long this went on, when I felt hands wrap around my waist. I grabbed her hair because I wasn’t done. She fucking hurt me so bad. She deserves for me to hurt her the way she hurt me. She killed my fucking baby! She was dragged up with me with the grip I had on her hair. From the hold I couldn’t reach down to punch her so I began kicking. I heard her cry out and I felt my foot making contact. More fingers came to pry my fingers off of her and when they did I was lifted further into the air being carried away. I kicked and screamed I didn’t want to be taken where no one can see me. I didn’t want them to hurt me again. I fought harder, as hard as I could. I was scratching, swinging, kicking and screaming.