Leonardo’s Shadow

by Christopher Grey

  LEONARDO’S SHADOW

  Or, My Astonishing Life as Leonardo da Vinci’s Servant

  CHRISTOPHER GREY

  ATHENEUM BOOKS FOR YOUNG READERS

  NEW YORK LONDON TORONTO SYDNEY

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  I am indebted to: The New School, which gave me a second chance. David N. Meyer, who encouraged me when I faltered. Jennifer Lyons, agent, who believed in the book. Caitlyn Dlouhy, editor, who brought out the best in me. And Katrina, who praised every draft, however terrible.

  This book is dedicated to Eileen and Stephen Grey

  … and to the memory of Stephen M. Lavell, writer and friend

  I

  What do I remember?

  “Thief!”

  “Grab him!”

  “There he goes—!”

  “Don’t let him escape—!”

  I was running right and left, wildly and without thought, threading my way through the stalls of the market in the main square.

  Ten paces behind, a great crowd was chasing me, waving sticks and fists, cursing and shouting. Some of them were old, but that didn’t stop them. There were women, too. All had sour faces.

  They thought I was a thief.

  If I was caught I would be strung up by the neck from the nearest doorway and left there to swing, for the dogs to bark at.

  So I ran and I ran, skipping in between the market stalls, knocking down barrels of salt fish and baskets of red plums, always keeping a tight hold on my ragbag.

  Each time someone new saw me running, they took up the alarm—

  “Stop, thief!”

  “Somebody take him!”

  “The boy must be stopped!”

  But I would never let them—even though I felt sick almost to death. I had the fever, I knew that. There was a mist in front of my eyes and I was burning up inside.

  But to stop now was to stop forever.

  Never! They would never take me while I lived.

  I led them around and around, diving under tables and over carts, pulling down barrows and boxes behind me, but still they followed, more and more of them.

  The sun was blazing overhead. It was midsummer. The flies were thick in the air, hanging heavily over the meat and fish.

  There was a terrible smell. I wanted to vomit.

  And then I stumbled—and a great cheer arose from behind me.

  “He’s fallen!”

  “Take him now! Now!”

  But I got up almost as quickly, my head spinning, bright lights flashing in front of my eyes. Which way—?

  Fifty paces ahead of me was the Cathedral.

  The great doors were wide open.

  I started for them.

  Up the marble steps—one, three, five—leaping over a beggar, fast asleep—

  “He’s entering the Cathedral!”

  “He mustn’t—!”

  And then I was inside.

  Running from the bright white summer light into the dense dark gloom straightway robbed my eyes of their sight. I rubbed them again and again.

  The marble under my bare feet was cool. It made me shiver.

  High above me in the Cathedral vaulting I could hear birds flapping their wings. The sound filled my head. I clapped my hands over my ears. All my senses were on fire because of the accursed fever.

  The windows were made of glass stained blue and green and red. The light streamed through them. I looked at my hands, covered with colored bands. The marble floor was filled with a rainbow light. The colors were swirling before my eyes. I was going to fall—I couldn’t stay up—

  “There he is!”

  No time to rest. No time to think. They were still on my tail.

  I took a deep breath and started to run again—

  Up the central nave towards the high altar at the far end of the Cathedral.

  God will save me!

  A priest ran out of the shadows—

  “Halt, boy! You cannot—”

  No! I pulled myself past him, leaving him to fill his arms with air.

  I looked left and right—

  The mob was inside the Cathedral, fifty or more of them, fanning out across the vast floor, their cries echoing against the high walls.

  “He’s over there!”

  “We’ve got him now!”

  Then I saw it.

  A candle in one of the side chapels gave off a dull yellow light.

  A half-open door.

  I ran between the benches, falling over one old man praying—no, he was drunk, by God, and let out an awful groan—

  Across the aisles and to the door. I pushed it open.

  A staircase leading upwards.

  Nowhere else to go—

  I started to mount it at a run, counting the steps in my mind as I went.

  Twenty …

  Round and round, the stairway wound.

  Forty …

  A small, barred window. I looked out. Below me, roofs and more roofs.

  Sixty …

  The dizziness came over me again. I leaned against the cool white marble wall for a few breaths, until the strange feeling had passed.

  The walls surrounding the stairway were so close now that they almost grazed my shoulders as I made my way ever upwards.

  Eighty …

  The only light was a dull gray haze that came from small square holes in the wall.

  It was cold.

  But I was sweating fit to melt. The fever gripped me in every part. My legs felt lead-heavy. How much longer did I have?

  Voices! Almost like whispers, so far below.

  At least I had a good start. And they would only be able to climb the stairway in single file. It was too narrow to let them all up at once.

  One hundred …

  My breath was coming so fast I had to slow myself, I was coughing madly.

  Up and up the stairway went. Would it never end?

  One hundred and twenty …

  I stopped again to listen. Not a sound. Had they abandoned the chase? Silence, except for my heart, thump, thump, thump.

  The air grew even colder.

  One hundred and forty …

  And then, when I thought my legs would give way from the effort, I was face-to-face with a small door.

  I pushed at it. And again. Rusted hinges. At last it opened—

  And for a moment I had to shield my eyes from the dazzle of the afternoon sun.

  On each side of the walkway were many carved spires pointing upwards to Heaven.

  The wind was blowing a gale up here.

  The clouds were so low they were almost grazing the tops of the spires.

  Birds were perched on the statues lining the sides. There were nests tucked into the stonework.

  I was on the very roof of the Cathedral.

  I ran to the edge and looked out between the spires to see what was below.

  Roofs, streets, and people small as crumbs.

  I looked up. Beyond the city—fields, forests, and, in the far distance, snow-capped mountains.

  It was so beautiful.

  But I had no time to admire it.

  “I see him!”

  They had followed me up, and faster than I thought they could—now they were spilling through the little door, one after another.

  I ran headlong to the front of the Cathedral.

  “He can’t escape!”

  Nowhere to go now. Nothing in front of me but air. I stuffed my ragbag inside my shirt.

  Then I climbed up the marble carvings and stood at the top, holding on to the cross at the highest point.

  “Come any closer and I’ll jump,” I shouted.

  They halted, the great crowd of them.

  One man, bearded, stepped forward.

  “Yo
u’re a thief. And you’ve led us a fine dance. Now give back what you stole and we’ll hand you over to the Guard.”

  “String him up!” someone shouted.

  “I’m not a thief—I took nothing!” I shouted back.

  “Come down, boy, or suffer for it,” the man said.

  “I’ll die before I let you take me,” I yelled, and cast a quick glance downward. It made my head spin. Could I jump? Did I have the courage? I hoped I would not feel anything when my head hit the ground. Perhaps it would all be—

  “Get him!”

  And they ran at me.

  I climbed to the very tip, and then, standing as tall as I could—I let go, holding my arms out wide.

  They gasped.

  “You’ll fall, you little fool!”

  I smiled. Truly, I did not care.

  “I’m not a thief!” I shouted at them.

  “Then show us what’s in the bag!” one of them bellowed.

  I pulled it out from inside my shirt and prepared to undo the knot.

  And then—

  The great bells started to ring. Dong! Dong! Dong!

  And at that moment the sun turned its face towards me and my eyes were filled with light—my whole head was bursting with light and sound—I shut my eyes, and for a moment I felt calm and at peace, nothing but the feeling of the air surrounding me—and then I felt myself falling over the side—but I did not try to stop myself or clutch at the stone ledge as I fell—it felt good to be free of the earth and to close my eyes, I did not want to open them again, ever—and I let myself fall over the side of Milan Cathedral, still clutching my ragbag, and as I fell I was so happy that now I would be able to sleep and sleep forever—

  II

  But I did not sleep forever.

  I woke up. In a strange bed. An old woman dressed in black was sitting on a chair next to me, holding a cross and muttering to herself. Her eyes were closed. She was praying. Several times she looked as if she was done, but as soon as I opened my mouth to speak she started up again. Finally, she was silent. She had fallen asleep. That’s the only time Caterina is ever silent. And not even then, if you consider how she snores.

  “Where am I?” I said.

  She opened her eyes.

  “Praise the Virgin, awake at last!” She turned round to the door, which was open, and shouted, “Master! The boy is recovered! Heaven be praised, he lives!” Then she turned back to me and smiled. She had only two teeth. I began to laugh, but it turned into a fit of coughing.

  “The Master thought he had found you only to lose you,” she said, pressing a damp cloth to my head. “It’s usually the other way with him—he loses things only to find them again. Like keys. He’s such a great thinker he cannot keep the little thoughts in his head—they are always getting crowded out by the bigger ones.”

  I pushed away her hand and pulled myself up. The light from the window was too strong, it hurt my eyes. I was wearing a night-shirt. Somebody had undressed me, then. How dare they!

  “Who took my clothes?” I said, trying to shout, though it came out more like a whisper. “Give me back—(cough!)—my clothes!”

  I had to lie down again; my head felt heavier than a block of marble.

  “Won’t do you no good,” she said, tucking in the sheet. “Burned to ashes. Filthy, they were.”

  “Where am I?” I said again, trying to draw breath.

  “The Master’s house. He saved your life, boy.”

  And then it came back to me: the chase through the market, the ascent to the roof of the Cathedral—

  “What happened? I was falling—”

  “Now, now,” she said. “The Master will tell you everything you need to know.”

  She continued to wipe my brow with the cloth. It felt good.

  “How long have I been here?” I said, at last.

  “Long enough.”

  “And who are you?”

  “You may call me Caterina. I am the Master’s housekeeper, and have been these eight years past.”

  She held up my head and raised a cup of broth to my lips. I swallowed. It was scalding hot. I coughed and gasped. Then I took a few more sips and fell back on the pillows, all my strength extinguished.

  “You’re in the Master’s bed, boy. He wants you to have the best bed until you are well, poor lamb. Now sleep.”

  But before I did, I had the strength to ask: “Who is this master, then?”

  She frowned at me. “Why, its Leonardo da Vinci, boy! Everybody knows him!”

  I was in bed seven weeks. Every day Caterina brought me all the news, even when I asked her not to, there was so much of it. The priest who lashed his horse with a whip and was kicked in the head by it, never to rise again. (Caterina pronounced herself satisfied with that result; she hates cruelty to animals.) The new law forbidding ladies to have pearls sewn on their dresses, unless they be the wives of knights, captains, or councillors. Which meant, Caterina said, that a lot of ladies would be lying about their husbands’ rank, because pearls were the fashionable thing, and when one lady wears the new fashion in Milan, they all have to.

  There were many other stories I slept through, not that Caterina would have minded; for her, the story is in the telling, not the listening. She will lay siege to your ears with a bombardment of words until you wave the flag of surrender, but she has a heart like our Lombardy countryside, full of beauty and goodness for as far as the eye can see. She was so kind to me I had to hide my face from her, or she would have seen me cry. I did not deserve such kindness.

  Sometimes, late at night, I would wake and see a tall man standing near the fire; at other times he would be stooping over me. The Master. Once, he touched my hair.

  My strength slowly returned to me, but nothing more of my memory. Who was I? Why had I been running from the rabble? Too many questions, my head could not hold them all.

  And then, one morning, I opened my eyes to find him sitting next to the bed.

  He asked me if I was feeling better.

  Yes, I said. A bit.

  Then he asked me if I could remember my name.

  No. Nothing except being chased and falling from the roof of the Cathedral.

  Nothing else?

  Nothing.

  He nodded, slowly. The fever, he said. It must be the fever.

  And then he told me what happened.

  He had been working high up on the facade of the Cathedral that day, replacing an old stained-glass window with a new one which he had himself painted. He and three helpers were standing on a wooden platform built for the purpose. They were in the middle of setting the new window into place, when—

  “There was a heavy thud as something landed on the canopy above our heads.”

  “I fell from the roof on top of you?” I said.

  “At first we imagined that a piece of marble—a spire, or perhaps a statue—had come off. Our platform shook with the force of your fall—it was not so sturdy, having been built for lightness as much as strength—and we thought it might break up and take us all down.”

  I could remember nothing of this—nothing!

  Then the Master continued: “My helpers were holding on to whatever they could, shouting and praying to God—the platform was swaying, it seemed about to lose its moorings—and then you rolled over the side of the canopy—”

  I sat up. “And?”

  “As you fell I caught your wrist. With my other hand I gripped the head of a stone gargoyle for support—”

  “Yes? Yes?”

  “I held on to you as you dangled over the side of the platform, which shuddered and trembled with the strain. I did not let go. And slowly, with help from the others, when they had recovered their wits, we hauled you back up.”

  “What happened to the mob that was after my blood? Didn’t they—”

  “They dared do nothing, once it was known that you had been saved by Leonardo da Vinci. I carried you out of the Cathedral without any hindrance.”

  And the Master told me
that I continued to clutch the ragbag and would not let go of it until I had fallen asleep in his house. Then he had undone the knot and looked inside. He found three objects. A silver medallion, on whose face the picture of a bird, its wings outspread, was engraved; a small, plain wooden cross; and a solid, red-jeweled ring.

  Now he asked me if I knew where they came from.

  I did not.

  “You must have stolen them, then,” he said, looking away as if ashamed of me. “That is why the crowd was chasing you.”

  “I did not steal them!” I said hotly. “I’ve never seen these things before!”

  “Then what were they doing in your bag?”

  I had no answer to that.

  “If you think I’m a thief, I’ll go,” I said, and I tried to get out of the bed.

  He placed a strong hand on my shoulder and held me down.

  “I did not say that. But if you are a thief, you will soon be caught. And then what? An appearance before the magistrate and straight to the city jail. Or a hanging.”

  I did not want either of those things.

  “So what will you do with me?” I said.

  “I have decided to make you my servant.”

  Without thinking, I said: “What? Your servant?”

  “Yes, my servant!” he said. “Is that such an unwelcome prospect, to be the servant of Leonardo da Vinci?”

  “I don’t want to be a servant,” I said.

  “Perhaps you would rather live as a thief—and die as one, too!”

  “Better that than being ordered about all day,” I said.

  He became angry then and threatened to put me out of the house.

  “See how long you last without my help!” he shouted.

  I stared back at him, my face red. Go on, throw me out, I thought. I didn’t ask to be brought here.

  But I said nothing.

  “You had better learn some manners, insolent boy, if you want to keep a roof over your head,” he said, and left the room.

  After that he did not come to see me for some time, and I had only Caterina for company.

  “Well?” she said, one day. “Do you want to be the Master’s servant or not?”

  What choice did I have?

  I told her yes.

  Ah, we have had many arguments, the Master and I, since I became his servant, and they always end in the same way. He insults me.