The Trouble With Heroes....

by Jo Beverley

  “Does anyone smell anything funny?” she asked.

  “Just the chip shop fat,” Gyrth said. “Look, there’s Dan.”

  Jenny turned, suddenly breathing more easily. Dan, and looking normal. Not worried at all. Everything must be all right.

  He was in his fixer uniform of brown shirt and trousers, with assorted badges and braid of significance to those who understood, but there was nothing special about his looks.

  He was in his fixer uniform of brown shirt and trousers, with assorted badges and braid of significance to those who understood, but there was nothing special about his looks. They’d been alike all their lives. Average build, average height. Brown hair and blue eyes in an average face.

  But not anymore.

  Since he’d returned, something drew people to him like flies to jam. A fizz in the air, a brighter light, an energy that meant there was never a dull time when Dan was part of a group.

  Jenny could feel the fizz now, even though he seemed relaxed, as if this were just another evening in Anglia.

  Work over.

  Time to play.

  "I wondered where everyone was. Poking around down cracks between buildings?"

  "Peering out through arrow slits," Jenny said, hooking arms with him as they all turned to do down the circular staircase to ground level. "And re-analyzing Monty Python. Polly, tell Dan about the monty stuff."

  That kept things light and away from blighters for a while. Now, with Dan by her side and showing no sign of concern, Jenny wanted to forget about it all.

  But it wasn't so easy. Despite the chatter and laughter that something grated on her like an off note in music. When she and Dan ended up together behind the others, she had to ask. "Are there really more blighter attacks near the equator?"

  His look was quick, and perhaps guarded. "Yes, but don't worry. It's all under control."

  Leave it. Leave it. But she couldn't. "Then why are people pouring north?"

  She thought he wasn't going to answer, but he pulled a face. "You'll hear it on the news soon. Central has recommended that everyone in the affected areas leave until the hellbanes are stamped out. After all, one person ashed is one too many."

  He declared it as a trite motto, but Assam caught it and turned back. "Damn right. But the problem won't reach here, will it? Polly can't travel now."

  Polly and Gyrth stopped to listen as well. Perhaps they weren't as unconcerned as they looked.

  "Blighters have always been more active near the equator," Dan pointed out. "That's why Hellbane U is there, which means there are plenty of fixers on the spot, including the most skilled and experienced. They’ll deal with it."

  Jenny relaxed, and Polly said she was too tired to walk and wanted to take a tram and Gyrth went with them.

  Jenny and Dan strolled along in comfortable silence for a while, but she had questions, and this seemed the time to ask them. "Fixers can feel blighters, can't they? That's how you hunt them."

  "I wouldn't exactly call it hunting. Just stand around and they come."

  "I thought you had trouble finding them for training."

  "True, but the only way we know is to bait a trap.”

  “With what?”

  “With ourself. We go to a place where they’ve ashed animals and wait for one to turn up.”

  “Then you zap it. Before it ashes you. Do fixers ever fail? I mean, die?”

  “Very, very rarely.”

  But he could have died. She’d never imagined that.

  They paused to let a tram pass, and Jenny thought about what he’d said.

  When they were across the tracks, she asked, "What does it feel like? A blighter, I mean."

  He pulled a face. "It can't really be described. Like a nightmare, the awareness evaporates before we can find words to describe it."

  She started at how that mirrored her feelings.

  "Can non-fixers sense this? At a distance, I mean?"

  His look was quick and sharp. "You're sensing something now?"

  “No! I’m not a fixer, Dan. Don’t even think it.”

  "You don't want to be able to fix things? It's an honorable calling."

  "I know. It's the years away from home I couldn't take."

  He touched her face. "Don't worry. Some people have a trace, but not enough to be taken seriously. What are you picking up?"

  She tried to explain, but it was as he’d said. Words evaporated.

  Even so, her efforts seemed to make sense to him. Though she felt incoherent, it seemed to make sense to him.

  She tried to read his expression. "You're feeling the same thing, but much stronger?"

  "I assume so."

  "So they are coming?"

  "No, seriously, there's no need to worry, Jen. The action is all in the hotter lands."

  She stopped to stare. "What action?"

  He sighed. "The blighters and the fixers dealing with them.” He grabbed her hand and tugged. “Come on. The others will be there long before us." But three steps later he stopped. He muttered something, but he pulled the fine wire from his earring to his mouth. "Fixer."

  After a moment he pushed it back. "Kid fallen off High Wall near Watling. Luckily, only a broken leg. Want to come, or do you want to go on to the Merrie?"

  "Come." She rarely got a chance to see him work, and it always delighted her.

  Hand in hand they ran across to the nearest tram line and Dan waved one down, his uniform his authority. He seemed to have the lines in his head and they jagged rapidly across town to the west wall, where they found a boy on the ground with two nurses in attendance and a small crowd of gawkers.

  The patient was about thirteen with freckles and ginger hair. A tubby dark haired lad hovered, looking more shocked than his injured friend. It turned out that the patient had already had something for the pain.

  "Right leg," said the nurse who was kneeling beside him. "Tibia and fibula, I think. Might be spinal, too. Name's Jeff Bowlby."

  "Thought you could fly, Jeff?" said Dan, sitting cross-legged beside him.

  "Just fell. Will it hurt?"

  Dan smiled at him. "Not at all. Relax."

  He put his hands on the boy's leg, which was still covered by his jeans. Jenny knew the rules. Everyone did. In case of an accident do nothing except pain relief until the fixer comes, unless it's necessary to prevent death.

  The youth tensed anyway, but then his eyes widened. "It tingles."

  Dan didn't say anything. There really was nothing to see of what he was doing except a stillness that was very unDanlike. But this time, Jenny realized, she too could feel something.

  Tingling? That was one way to put it. What she felt was in the air, or in her mind, or rather, in a part of her mind she hadn't known was there. Oh, she didn't like this. She didn't like it at all. She wasn’t a fixer!

  A man rushed up. "Jeffy?"

  Jenny and the second nurse took an arm each before he could interfere.

  "He's fine," said the nurse, his voice steady. "Mr. Bowlby, is it? No great harm done and it's being fixed. We'll just need some details from you."

  The young man led the father away to comfort him with record taking, and sting him with a bill. Co-payment for foolishness.

  "All right?" Dan asked.

  Jenny turned back to see a slight shudder pass through him as he raised his hands from the boy's leg. "That's good as new, but take care of my work, okay, Jeff? Let's see if you've done any other damage." He passed his hands over the boy, pausing for a moment in one spot, then rose easily to his feet. "All clear."

  The boy started to sit up but the nurse beside him held him down. "Oh, no you don’t. We'll help your father take you home and keep an eye on you until the shock and medicine wear off." She looked up at Dan as if he was a miracle worker. "Good job, Fixer."

  Dan gave the nurse his tally and she typed in the code that would authorize his payment from Anglia's health program.

  Jenny noticed the expressions of the people around. Most were awed,
but some looked uneasy. They’d be ones who weren't comfortable with fixing, though they were glad enough if they needed it. A few nutcases called it sorcery, and some religious types worried about it being ungodly.

  She'd always thought that daft, but where exactly did fixing come from?

  As they returned to the tram stop, she asked, "Does that take a lot of your power?"

  "Not particularly. A string of those and I'd be wiped for a while. Normally."

  Normally?

  Before she could ask, he said, "As it is, I welcome the chance. If I don't use the energy it tends to... flare."

  He was walking so fast she had to work to keep up. She caught his hand, to slow him. "Flaring's bad?"

  “It can turn me a bit wild."

  "It's your greatest charm, Dan Rutherford, and you know it."

  He laughed. "I like it when you call me that. I know people like my energy, but there's an edge there."

  That put her worry into words. Flaring high spirits that led to exciting times, but that threatened a conflagration, perhaps mostly of himself. Though they could fix so many problems, fixers rarely lived to a hundred.

  "It's the magic," he said. He put an arm around her, urging her on. “We’re half the town away from the Merrie. The others must be wondering where we’ve got to.”

  A shiver went up her back at his touch. Not particularly unpleasant, but a shiver, and for a moment she thought that’s what he meant. But then she realized he meant the flaring.

  "You mean fixing?"

  "Magic’s a better word. A more realistic one."

  "Realistic? Magic doesn't exist.”

  "Who knows? Why so many Earth stories if it never existed? And they show it as dangerous stuff. Magic creatures who lurk in dark places and trick people to their deaths. Or seduce them with gifts and feasts, then keep them prisoner forever. Or make them dance themselves to death for amusement. That fits."

  She eased out of his arm. "That's superstition, and it’s nothing to do with what you do. With fixing."

  "Isn't it?"

  She didn't want this, not now, with her stomach queasy and her mind jangled by his touch, and by ashes on the wind. But his silence demanded something, and friends should be friends, so in the end she asked, "Well, is it?"

  He leaned against the tram shelter. "There's no way to compare, is there? They say fixing doesn’t work on Earth, but I’m not sure when they tried. I've thought of going back to find out, but who can afford it? Someone once said that all sufficiently advanced technology looks like magic. That’s another way of looking at it."

  The tram glided up and they climbed on. He led the way right to the back, where they used to sit as kids, but he talked quietly, even though there was no one close.

  "Fixers aren't normal, Jen. You have to see that. They warn us to be solitary, that it's safer. Not to return home. To keep aloof wherever we go."

  "Aloof?" It pulled a laugh from her. "Failed that part of the course, didn't you?"

  “Abjectly. And I insisted on coming back home." A fleeting grin faded. "Sometimes I think they're right."

  "No, they're not. Bad enough that you had to leave home for years."

  "People marry out. Your mother did. Or in, in that case."

  "That's different. That's love. And I wonder how people can love enough to do a thing like that."

  "So do I. I didn't like it, Jen."

  It was the first time he'd said that, and he'd been back two years.

  Chapter 2

  The tram stopped in Market Square, and they got out and crossed to the Merrie England pub. Gyrth, Polly, and Assam were at an outside table with a bunch of the others. Everyone hailed Dan as if he was rain in midsummer, asking where he’d been. Chairs shuffled. Yas, who looked like a princess from the Arabian Nights, snagged Dan's sleeve and virtually forced him into the chair beside her. Jenny found herself at the other end of the table, between Gyrth and Rolo.

  It was okay. She needed space. Things were shifting, and she didn't know what to do.

  Magic.

  Seduced with gifts and feasts.

  Driven to dance to death.

  For some reason Dan had wanted to tell her that, and now it was scarily easy to imagine when she remembered some of the wild times, often here at the Merrie.

  Not tonight, though. Beneath chatter, the mood was definitely not merrie, and it wasn't just her group. The tavern, even the square, seemed subdued. Thoughts of war returned to trouble her. People didn’t leave their homes without a serious reason.

  A quarrel started behind them, then Yas started complaining about "some bitch" who'd stolen a promotion from her, and the means she'd used. Back in the tavern, a crash suggested someone had dropped a whole tray of glasses. Raised voices....

  But then it changed. Being so aware of Dan she saw him do it, saw him open his gifts and set everyone alight.

  Saw him create a wild Dan Fixer night.

  Yas laughed and let her complaints drop. The shouting stopped. Someone called for music. Jenny went with Rolo and Tom to fetch the instruments from the back room and started rollicking folk songs. That wasn't unusual. Three nights a week they did it for pay.

  It went beyond that, though, tonight.

  Market Square was ringed with taverns and restaurants, all with tables outside on two levels. Soon everyone was joining in, thumping hands and feet with the rhythm. Fiddling into a sweat, Jenny glanced at Dan. There was no way to tell whether he was still making it happen, but she knew he was.

  Dancing to death....

  Other musicians joined them, and then they were urged out into the center of the square. Jenny ended up on a precarious spot high on statue of the first ship to Gaia leaving Earth. Perched up there, surrounded by singing and stamping, Jenny felt like the heart of a bright burning bonfire that shone out on hundreds of faces at tables, in windows, and crowding into the open space as well.

  She realized people were being drawn here from all around.

  Like moths to a flame?

  Or like a firestorm, sucking everything into infernal destruction. And what became of those at the center of such a storm?

  Where was Dan?

  She found him, leaning against the base of the ship, singing along with the rest, a tankard in one hand, a woman -- a stranger -- in the other arm.

  This couldn’t be bad. Dan wasn't bad. He was just flaring, burning off his whatever, and creating light against the dark at the same time.

  But why tonight did Dan the Fixer need so much light, laughter, and song? Why did he have so much energy to burn, even after fixing that boy's leg?

  What did it say about the blighters?

  She escaped that by diving back into the music.

  Tom called an end to it round about midnight.

  "We've got to stop. I'll get fired if my mates turn up." He was a policeman. "Last song!" he called in his strong voice.

  Despite protests, they huddled, trying to come up with the best piece to wrap this up without a riot.

  "Gaia," Jenny said, not knowing where that came from.

  Tom looked at her. "The anthem?"

  "You can sing it, can't you? I think it's right."

  No one argued, which was strange. They weren't in the habit of singing the planet's syrupy anthem based on a bad poem by one of the first settlers. Each settlement had its own, but Gaia was dragged out at any planetary-wide event -- usually to groans.

  Jenny wondered where the idea had come from and glanced at Dan, but he was sitting now, an adoring woman in each arm.

  Flies to jam. She'd better watch it. She wasn't going to ruin a friendship by turning stupid over Dan. But if he wanted the anthem, he could have it. She struck up a chord and Tom started to sing in his deep, strong voice.

  What a wonder it is

  To find a planet like this

  In the limitless oceans of space.

  Where the air is pristine.

  And the oceans are clean.

  Oh Gaia, you sweet, blessed place.


  Though hellbanes may ash,

  Our dream will not crash.

  We will cherish our new home forever!

  The crowd was singing along by then, and in the chorus, the thunder of it seemed to rattle the windows all around. With the gates closed and blighters attacking, the words had new meaning. Power crept up Jenny's spine, almost making her hands fumble on her fiddle.

  She glanced down at Dan again. He had his head back and his eyes closed as if he was absorbing something from the air.

  We come from an Earth

  Under burden of birth,

  It's beauty long gone and turned rotten.

  But here it is new,

  A rich gift to the few,

  Oh Gaia, here pain is forgotten.

  Though hellbanes may ash,

  Our dream will not crash.

  We will cherish our new home forever!

  With a treasure so grand,

  With such beauty to hand,

  What can we be but peaceful and giving?

  Never strife, never war,

  We will spill blood no more,

  Oh, Gaia, you were made for blessed living.

  Though hellbanes may ash,

  Our dream will not crash.

  We will cherish our new home forever!

  It was the crowd rather than Tom that repeated the chorus one last time, almost softly despite the hundreds of voices.

  Though hellbanes may ash,

  Our dream will not crash.

  We will cherish our new home forever!

  Like a lamp turned down, the roaring energy settled to a glow, and everyone began to drift peacefully away.

  She sat in the convenient dip between ship and Earth because her legs had turned weak. The others looked pretty shocked.

  "The power," Tom said.

  The magic, she thought, and she might have a bit of it in her.

  Dan stood waiting to help her down, but she jumped down by herself, then hurried back to the tavern with her fiddle.

  The publican, Ozzy Rooke, shook his head. "You're supposed to get the customers drinking, not out there singing the planetary anthem!"

  But he was joking, and he gave them all a free round of beer.

  Dan sat beside Jenny at the bar. She made a business of picking up her glass because it let her move an inch away. She probed the air around him. Nothing. Nothing more than the usual aura that was Dan. Had he burned it all up in that singing?