The Grand Tour

by Adam O'Fallon Price

  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, organizations, places, events, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

  Copyright © 2016 by Adam O’Fallon Price

  All rights reserved. Published in the United States by Doubleday, a division of Penguin Random House LLC, New York, and distributed in Canada by Random House of Canada, a division of Penguin Random House Canada Limited, Toronto.

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  Grateful acknowledgment is made to the following for permission to reprint previously published material:

  Alfred Music: “The Grand Tour,” words and music by George Richey, Norris D. Wilson, and Carmol Tayor, copyright © 1974, renewed by Al Gallico Music Corp. and EMI Algee Music Corp. All rights reserved. Reprinted by permission of Alfred Music.

  Hal Leonard Corporation: “I Can Help,” words and music by Billy Swan, copyright © 1974 by Combine Music Corp., copyright renewed. All rights administered by Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC. All rights reserved. Reprinted by permission of Hal Leonard Corporation.

  Cover design by Michael J. Windsor

  Cover images: (car) Bill Pugliano/Getty Images; (old man) Jne Valokuvaus/Shutterstock; (young man) Helder Almeida/Shutterstock; (beer bottles) Ansis Klucis/Shutterstock; (paper) phloxii/Shutterstock

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  Names: Price, Adam O’Fallon.

  Title: The grand tour / by Adam O’Fallon Price

  Description: New York : Doubleday, 2016.

  Identifiers: LCCN 2015031540| ISBN 9780385540957 (hardcover) | ISBN 9780385540964 (ebook) |

  Classification: LCC PS3616.R497 G73 2016 | DDC 813/.6—DC23 LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/​2015031540

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  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Epigraph

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-one

  Chapter Twenty-two

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  For Elizabeth:

  first reader, last love

  I have nothing here to sell you,

  Just some things that I will tell you,

  Some things I know will chill you to the bone.

  —GEORGE JONES, “THE GRAND TOUR”

  CHAPTER ONE

  OCTOBER 2005

  “Sir?”

  No.

  “Sir!”

  Someone shook him awake. A blonde woman blurred into view. He looked up at her, momentarily uncomprehending and depersoned. She was bent close over him, gripping his shoulders with painted fingers, engulfing him in her cloying perfume, a mist of candied strawberry.

  “Yes,” he said, feigning full consciousness.

  “You have to leave.”

  “Yes.”

  “You have to leave, sir.” The hostile corporate courtesy in that “sir” brought him closer to his senses. She wanted him to leave, but leave what? As his vision cleared, his first clue was provided by the blue tunic she wore, with a winged insignia over the breast. Another clue, quickly following the first, was the rows of seats behind her, telescoping forward to a point where his bad eyes couldn’t focus. It all came back to him in roughly the form of a second-person haiku:

  Your name is Richard Lazar and

  You are on the first stop of your book tour and

  You took too much Ambien

  “Where is everyone?” he asked, grappling futilely with the thin airplane blanket twisted around his arms like a straitjacket.

  “They already disembarked. I’ve been trying to wake you for a while. I thought you might have, that you were—”

  “No, apparently not.”

  In one violent motion, he wrested the blanket away from himself and rose to his feet, nearly falling sideways into the flight attendant in the process. She stepped back with her hands in front of her, palms up, as though giving plenty of space to a person having some sort of fit. He steadied himself, unwedged his suitcase from the overhead compartment, and lumbered down the aisle, jouncing side to side on dead legs. A friend of his back in Phoenix had given him some pills to take to make the flight easier. Well, they had done that, he thought. Combined with the pint of vodka he’d polished off in the plane’s bathroom, they’d made the flight very, very easy—the only problem was actually getting off the plane.

  He frankensteined it through the cabin and up the long jet bridge and emerged into the fluorescence of the shabbiest boarding gate he’d ever seen. He hadn’t seen many—the result of a lifelong fear of flying coupled with a general disinclination to go anywhere—but this was certainly the shabbiest. Several ceiling panels were half rotten with brown water stains, and one was missing entirely, providing a nice view of the filth-caked girders above. A darkened McDonald’s brooded to itself across the empty room.

  A tall kid wearing glasses, a backpack, and the faintest ghost of a beard stood alone holding a sign. R M LAZAR, it said in big block letters, each of which seemed to have been laboriously filled in with a Sharpie. He rolled his suitcase up, and the kid held the sign to his chest, as though to protect himself from a blow. His fine brown hair was swept in a delicate fringe across a high, worried forehead. Richard assumed the hairstyle was an attempt on the kid’s part to hide what looked like a palimpsest of acne.

  “Mr. Lazar?” the kid said.

  “Richard. You’re Lance?”

  “Vance Allerby.”

  Vance lowered the sign and extended his hand with a look of such dignified, grave ceremony that Richard had to fake a coughing spell in order to disguise very real laughter. “Wow,” he said. “Excuse me.”

  As they shook, the kid took a breath and launched into what was clearly a rehearsed speech: how on behalf of the university, how happy they were, how if there was anything they could do, and so on. He concluded, “And as the founding member and president of your regional fan club, the WARL-Aux, I just wanted to say that, on a personal level, this is a real honor for me.”

  “On behalf of the what?” Richard disengaged his hand.

  “The Washington Area Richard Lazar Auxiliary.”

  It took him a few seconds, with Vance looking at him expectantly, but he finally got it. “The Warlocks. Jesus. How many other Warlocks are there?”

  “At present?”

  “Yes, at present.”

  Vance blinked at him. “Well, right now, it’s just me. But I’m hoping to expand the operation.”

  Richard teetered on his rubbery legs, resisting the urge to look around and see if he was being fucked with. He was struck by a feeling that had become common, almost unremarkable, over the last year—that without realizing exactly when or how it had happened, he had been transported to an alternate dimension. This dimension was similar to the one in which he’d lived his whole life, but at certain moments, s
uch as this one, it became transparently outlandish and far-fetched. Recently, for instance, a man who signed his missives Sgt. Ricky had obtained Richard’s address and begun sending him maps of Vietnam with certain cities crossed out. It was nice to have fans—too bad none of them was sane. Or female.

  “Well,” he said, “it’s an honor to be here. Which way is out?”

  “Oh, sorry.” The kid grabbed the suitcase handle and led Richard through the ambitiously named Main Concourse, a widish hallway that featured a shuttered newsstand, a shoeshine operation on indefinite break, and a moribund Subway. A lone TSA agent leaned against the wall and mumbled jargon into a walkie-talkie held sideways.

  “How was your flight,” asked Vance over his shoulder.

  “I have no idea.”

  “Have you ever been to Spillman before?”

  “Like so many things in my life, somehow it never happened.”

  Richard gazed fondly at a small bank of rental kiosks they passed, thinking that maybe it wasn’t too late to call off the student escort, but they were already pushing outside into chilly damp air, climbing onto a moving sidewalk. Vance walked ahead, but Richard stopped and caught his breath. The overcast sky looked like a dirty sheet pulled over the horizon, the sun a dim flashlight behind it. Everything in the vicinity seemed to be painted gray by the drizzling mist. The sidewalk deposited him in the hourly parking lot, where Vance was already loading a battered Ford Explorer. Its rusty trunk was a patchwork of bumper stickers: KERRY/EDWARDS 2004, of course, but also COEXIST, SUBVERT THE DOMINANT PARADIGM, ESCHEW OBFUSCATION, BLUEGRASS PLAYERS DO IT CLEANER, and a decal of the USS Enterprise. Vance opened the passenger door, and Richard awkwardly hoisted himself up and in. He looked at the hand-lettered sign in the backseat and imagined Vance bent over it, pen in hand and tongue in the corner of his mouth. The image produced in him a surge of unwelcome affection for the kid.

  They drove in silence on the highway for several minutes, during which time Richard could feel Vance glancing over at him, working up his nerve to say something. The kid took a deep breath and said, “I love your books.”

  “Thanks.”

  “Without Leave is probably my favorite, but I’ve read them all.”

  “Well, as president of the WARL-Aux, you’d have to, right?”

  Vance seemed to be considering the question. “That’s true, I guess,” he said. Then, after another moment, “I’m a writer, too, you know.”

  “No. I didn’t know that.” Maybe, he thought, he could quietly undo his seatbelt, crack the door, and do one of those stunt-rolls down the sloping adjacent hill that overlooked the town. Maybe he’d wind up at his hotel.

  “I mean, not like you. I’ve lived here all my life.” Vance gestured out at the landscape, which mostly consisted of aging seventies strip malls interspersed with pine trees. “You’ve done things. I like stuff that has the force of experience behind it. You can tell.” Earnest intensity radiated from the kid like heat off blacktop, and Richard had to resist the urge to disabuse him of all the ways he was wrong. They drove in silence for another quiet minute, during which time he sensed Vance drawing another extraordinarily deep breath. Finally, Vance said, “Actually, I recently finished something. If you have time, maybe you wouldn’t mind taking a look at it?”

  “Sure,” Richard lied, guessing he would probably mind it a lot.

  Keeping his eyes on the road, Vance leaned back and felt around on the backseat and produced a copy box from Kinko’s, which he laid on Richard’s lap. “No rush,” he said. “But I’d love to know what you think about it.”

  “I’ll try and take a look soon,” he lied again, with deep regret at having said yes to a student escort. Why did he always make the wrong decision? Why on earth had he agreed to this? Why? Well, he allowed, because he’d liked the idea of someone picking him up at an airport with a sign, that was why. Because it sounded like the royal treatment and not a royal pain in the ass. Also because he’d planned on having a few drinks to celebrate his first night on tour and liked the thought of having a driver. Pride, as ever, goeth before a fall. Live and never learn, that was his credo.

  The road they were on curved up a hill, and the city, such as it was, stretched out in the valley beneath them. The buildings were meek and low, mostly constructed from beige brick, and the overall effect was a kind of apologia, as though the city fathers had tried to create as close to the impression of a kind of noncity as was possible while still, in fact, having a city. The inoffensiveness of it offended him. Phoenix—enormous, desiccated, crime-ridden, meth-infested, golfing community that it was—at least didn’t worry about hurting anyone’s feelings.

  “That’s the college,” said Vance, pointing to the left side of the vista, where there were more trees and more beige buildings. “That’s where you’ll be speaking tonight.”

  “What is that?”

  “Joel Whittaker Auditorium,” said Vance, grandly.

  “I see.”

  “Do you want a tour of campus? Or I could show you downtown.”

  “I heard something about a hotel.”

  “Oh, yeah. You’re staying at a Comfort Suites.”

  “A Comfort Suites?”

  “By Marriott.”

  ———

  The room was neither comfortable nor a suite, although according to the sign it was indeed by Marriott. A whiff of sour cologne lingered in the air, the room’s memory of a previous occupant. The air conditioner was on full blast, and when Richard briefly turned the dial down to low, the room began to fill with moist, unfresh air that felt as though it were being pumped in from an adjacent men’s locker room. The remote control turned on the TV but would not turn up the volume. Over the bed hung a disturbing painting of a small girl clutching a pail, alone on a beach with a shadow looming in the foreground. It seemed intended to be the shadow of a dune or natural outcropping, but the perspective implicated the viewer as a lurking predator. To make matters worse, the child in the painting bore a close resemblance to Richard’s daughter, Cindy, when she was young, all blonde ringlets and even wearing the same kind of old-fashioned gingham dress that his ex-wife, Eileen, had liked to dress her in. On the plus side, there was an Andes mint on the pillow.

  He put the mint in his mouth and emptied the contents of his pockets on the nightstand: a handful of unwanted change, mostly pennies; a matchbook from a bar at Phoenix Sky Harbor where he’d gulped down two preflight Bloody Marys prepared by a bartender with thinning hair gelled up in a tattered Mohawk, like the dorsal fin of a malnourished shark; his wallet (Velcro); a five-dollar chip from the Apache Nights Casino in Gila Bend; finally, a cell phone that his agent, Stan, had insisted he buy for the trip. He’d never owned one before and had only operated it once, to assure Stan it worked. There was only one number in it: Stan’s office in New York. He was to call whenever he got where he was going, since Stan didn’t trust him and treated him like a delinquent teenager, which was more or less completely justified. He managed to navigate the two necessary buttons, and Stan’s Brighton Beach monotone magically piped in through the ether.

  “Richard. Where are you?”

  “In Spillman.”

  “At the airport?”

  “The hotel. The English department sent someone over to pick me up.”

  “Who?”

  “Some kid named Lance. A real eager beaver.”

  “Well, don’t give him too hard a time.”

  “This place is a shithole, by the way.”

  “Spillman?”

  “Well, yeah, but the hotel.”

  “You’re the one who wanted to save the publisher money on lodging. ‘I can sleep anywhere,’ you said.”

  “Yeah, yeah.”

  “Call me tomorrow from Portland. Break a leg tonight.”

  “Copy that.”

  Waiting for the shower to warm up, he stripped down to his antique candy-striped boxers and stood wincing in front of the bathroom mirror. Mirrors were a bad idea these days. His cheeks, o
ver the last few years, had ruthlessly annexed the rest of his face; his eyes, chin, and jaw were a Sudetenland reclaimed by these great twin dictators. His belly’s wide expanse pushed his arms up on either side, giving him the look of an Oliver Hardyesque gunslinger about to draw in some twenties gag reel. He’d always been fat, but his fatness had lately made the genre leap from comedy to farce. At his once-a-decade checkup, in March, the doctor had frowned at him over the report on the clipboard—an exhaustive detailing of Richard’s bad habits and inadequacies—and asked what he thought the life expectancy was for a fifty-three-year-old, one-hundred-pounds-overweight drinker.

  “With advances in modern medicine, who can say?”

  “Very funny.”

  Eventually the doctor had badgered an entirely insincere promise from him to change his ways. Why would he do that, he thought, the shabby hotel room framing him in the mirror—they’d gotten him this far, ha-ha-ha. The unjolly fat man in the mirror scowled back at him. At least he’d somehow hung on to his hair. It was his one point of vanity, a still-thick quiff that he pruned back once a month. Greased into an unruly pompadour when he was much younger, it had looked like the hair of a doo-wop castrato; now, almost totally white and silky, it was the hair of the fantasy grandfather he’d never had, all of the men in his family either dying or disappearing as early as possible, like minor characters in a southern novel about female hardship and togetherness. During the seven-year interregnum between his father’s departure and hangdog return, he’d often stayed at the farm of his aunt Polly, whose own husband had, at the ripe old age of forty-one, keeled over obligingly in a distant field—a relatively dignified exit.

  He took a shower, got out and toweled off, put on fresh boxers, brushed his teeth, made coffee and drank a cup, regretted not bringing any booze to put in it, drank another cup, took a shit, checked the time, and there were still four hours to kill before he had to go speak. For lack of anything better to do, he picked up the kid’s manuscript from the desk. Lifting the lid off the box revealed a thin manuscript, three hole punched with a clear cover, entitled Infinite Galaxies of Sorrow by Vance Joseph Allerby. Why had he agreed to read any of it? Just reading the title had exhausted him. He sat on the edge of the bed and turned to the first page.