Harvest of Sin

by Jordan Shay

  [LJ1]

  I looked at him, then at my mom who seemed to barely be breathing. I gave her hand a little squeeze. My chest ached and I felt the world spinning a little bit. The voices around me sounded muffled. I needed to get to Abe. I needed to get to my baby brother.

  “We don’t have to wait, Papa. Hold on.” I jumped up and started running towards the market.

  “Derek! Derek!” I started screaming, and I knew the other Amish folks were watching me. I didn’t care. I had to get to my brother’s side. And we didn’t have time to waste.

  He was already off the roof when I reached him and running towards his truck. “Can you take my family to St. Andrews? My brother…Abe…my little brother was in an accident.” I could barely get the words out.

  “Hop in.” He had the passenger door opened as I ran towards it and I jumped in. He then sped over to where my parents were, not even caring that he was driving on the church lawn instead of the driveway.

  “Mama! Papa! Come on!” My dad stumbled up and a couple other men helped get him and my mom into the back seat of the truck. My mom seemed to be in a state of shock. She wasn’t speaking. Nor was she crying, like Papa was.

  As Derek sped off, I kept rambling. I’m not sure why, but I needed to talk. My nerves were on fire and I felt like my body was electrified. I also felt a little like throwing up. I’ve never felt so terrified in my entire life.

  “Mama, are you okay? Mama?” She said nothing.

  “Papa, is Mama okay?” Papa said nothing. Derek looked over at me and then reached over with his right hand to hold mine. We made eye contact, and then the sobs came. Slowly at first, then violently shaking my entire body.

  Twenty minutes later we reached St. Andrews. Derek let us out at the door. He was a complete gentleman, and came around to help get my parents out. It was clear I was going to have to take the initiative in the hospital. Both of my parents were in shock.

  I ran up to the information desk. “I’m looking for my brother. I think he was brought here a little while ago,” I pleaded with my eyes. “Can you tell me where he is? He was in an accident.”

  “What is your brother’s name?” The lady was all business, her glasses at the tip of her nose, staring at her computer screen.

  “Abe. Abe Yoder.” She nodded. I mean, how many Amish kids do they bring in regularly? Not many I’m sure. The Amish aren’t ones to go to hospitals or even doctors very often. This lady was pissing me off.

  “Are these his parents?” The lady nodded towards my parents.

  “Yes, yes, and I’m his sister.” I was getting impatient. Instead of the lady telling us where to go she picked up the phone.

  “I have the family of Abe Yoder here. I see. Very well.” She hung up. “Someone will be here to take you folks back soon.”

  I grunted out loud. “Look, I’m sorry lady, but we need to see him NOW.” I put both hands on the countertop and glared at her. She stared blankly back at me. I backed up, my hands resting on top of my head in exasperation.

  A few moments later, a nurse in scrubs came out. “Are you the Yoder’s?” She asked. She smiled sweetly. At least there was one friendly face in this joint. I nodded. “Come with me. Abe is doing okay. He is in stable, but critical condition. He is sleeping now, we gave him something for the pain and he’s resting comfortably. I’ll let the doctor fill you in on the rest of the details.”

  Relief and agony flooded through me at the same time. Relief that he was okay, and stable. But agony that he was in critical condition and he was in pain. My parents followed behind me silently, holding on to one another,

  When we reached Abe’s room, the nurse showed us in and told us the doctor would be in shortly. “Wait!” I reached out and touched the woman on the arm before she could walk away.

  “Yes?”

  “There were a couple other kids in the buggy. Are they…are they okay?” I held my breath.

  “Yes, I think they will be. They were all hurt pretty bad, but they are all in a stable condition now.” She patted me on the arm. “They are tough kids. They will be fine.” She was a sweet nurse and then headed out of the room just as the doctor was heading in.

  The doctor was a middle aged man with round glasses and a round face. And very little hair. Too much stress probably. He introduced himself as Dr. Whitfield and gave us the rundown on Abe. Basically, he had a broken collarbone and a ruptured spleen. He wanted to do surgery tomorrow to remove the spleen and avoid any further internal complications. He explained how the spleen is something we can live without.

  So, why the fuck do we have one? I wanted to ask, but figured it wasn’t the time or the place.

  My parents nodded routinely as he spoke. My mother was sitting down holding Abe’s hand and my father stood behind her, his hands on her shoulders. Abe slept soundly. His face was a little beaten up, but otherwise he looked okay.

  After listening to the doctor for a few more minutes, I sat with my parents and watched Abe sleep. I don’t know what I would have done without him. And seeing the agony in my parents faces made me realize they didn’t think they could get by without him either.

  I wondered how they would feel about me? If I was gone. Forever.

  Emma, Dorothy and Jeb had finally arrived after the driver picked them up. Knowing that they were there eased my heart. The family was all together.

  Suddenly I remembered Derek, and wondered what happened to him. I couldn't believe I had forgotten about him. Was he still here at the hospital? Had he gone home? I was so grateful for him in that moment. I needed to thank him.

  I told my parents I’d be back, and I followed the signs back to the waiting room. The hospital hallways were brightly lit, and smelled sterile. Making my way back to the waiting room was like walking through a maze. Finally, I found the waiting room where we had entered at. Glancing around, I saw Derek, sitting in a corner chair, head in his hand, eyes closed. He looked so peaceful sitting there. His dark hair messily falling into his face, his jeans and work boots dirty from the morning’s work on the roof. He had left his work to drive my family to the hospital, and then sit and wait for us. My heart fluttered in my chest.

  I went over to him and sat down next to him. I wanted to wake him but he looked so peaceful. His perfect face. Dark eyelashes barely fluttering as he dozed. His hands in his lap, rough and greasy from his morning’s work. The desire for him to be in my life was strong.

  But the other part of my life was just down those sterile white corridors, one hooked up to tubes and the others sitting praying over him.

  I felt someone’s eyes on me, and looked up to see the lady at the information desk eyeballing me. I’m sure she didn’t get many Amish sitting in her waiting room. Especially ones that were sitting next to someone like Derek. I raised my eyebrows at her, but she continued to stare. What a rude bitch. Maybe she was checking out Derek. I couldn’t imagine any woman not wanting to check him out. He was mesmerizing. Fuck off bitch. Keep working on your computer.

  Just then, Derek started to move. He opened his eyes and looked over at me, slowly sitting up.

  “Boy, aren’t you a sight for sore eyes,” he smiled and rubbed at his face. “How’s our little Abe?”

  The fact that he had said, ‘our little Abe’ was not lost on me.

  “He’s gonna be okay. It was a bad accident though. My parents are still pretty shook up.” I continued to sit and stare at him. “Derek...I want you to know that…that I…”

  He put his hand up to my lips. “We don’t need to talk about this now, Sweet Anna.” It’s almost dinner time, and I’m hungry. Let’s get a bite to eat and then go check on Abe and your parents.”

  He stood up and reached for my hand, pulling me up next to him. “Let’s go hit the cafeteria.”

  As we walked by the information desk, I stopped and leaned in to whisper. “If you think he’s hot now, you should see what’s under his clothes,” I winked at her and left her sitting there, eyes wide and mouth agape.

  D
erek had walked on and hadn’t heard a word of it.

  Chapter Eight

  After spending the majority of the afternoon at the hospital, Derek drove my parents and I home. Emma, Dorothy and Jeb went home with their driver because we couldn’t all fit in Derek’s truck. Abe would need to stay at least a few more days, but he was out of the woods.

  Once at home, I went out to the barn to take care of the animals, only to find that someone already had. This didn’t really surprise me as the Amish are great for taking care of each other in times of need. I wonder if the English communities take care of one another like the Amish do. I saw the flickering of the oil lamps through the windows of my house. Such a peaceful and comforting sight. I was exhausted from the day, but not ready to go back inside. The fresh air, although cool, was helping me think.

  And I had so much to think about.

  I wasn’t sure what happened to Caleb earlier. Hell, I wasn’t even sure if he would talk to me again, after our conversation at the church. He really had every right to be pissed at me, but he wasn’t. He was a great guy. He can certainly do better than boring old Anna Yoder anyway. I know he will make a great husband for someone one day. I just don’t think that someone is me.

  Then there’s Derek. He really came through for the family today. I was proud and happy that he could show my parents what a great guy he really is. Of course, I don't think they paid any attention because of the circumstances. But maybe they will realize it later. My family means the world to me, and today I really felt that. I know if I choose Derek then I might as well kiss my family goodbye. Literally. I know I can’t have both, and that makes me incredibly sad. I went outside to sit down. The moon was full and I heard a coyote howl in the distance. I was sad, because I knew I could never have everything I wanted.

  My thoughts were interrupted, when I heard footsteps behind me. It was dark out, and I froze in fear, not knowing who it could be.

  “Hi Anna. I was hoping I would find you outside.” It was Derek’s soft and sexy voice. I closed my eyes. Maybe I was dreaming. “Anna? You okay?”

  “Yeah, Hi Derek.” I looked up at him. He sat next to me. “Thank you so much for everything you did today. It meant a lot to me. To my family.”

  “Of course Anna. I would do anything for you.” He paused. “And for your family” I saw him smile in the moonlight. That sexy smile always gets me going. I looked away.

  “Anna, it’s chilly out here. Do you want to go talk in the shed, where it’s warmer?”

  The shed. Did he really want to talk? Or were we going to the shed for other reasons. I was too tired to think too hard about it, so I blurted out, “Sure.”

  We got up and headed to the shed. It was pretty dark in there, but the moonlight provided enough light through the dusty windows to vaguely see one another.

  Once inside, Derek led me over to the straw pile. A familiar place for us. He put two fingers under my chin and brought my lips to his. He kissed me passionately, like he always had before, but this time perhaps more loving. He was gentle and I could feel how bad he wanted me just through his kiss. He pressed into me, and his hands found their way behind my neck. He was not going to let me go. I wondered if he could feel how badly I wanted him too..

  We kissed for several minutes when I felt his hand undo the pins that held together my dress. Within seconds my dress was undone and he was slipping it off of me. “Do you want to, Anna? I’m sorry, I just can’t resist you. If you aren’t ready to do this right now, just tell me,” He got all these words out in between kissing the entire top half of my body.

  “Derek, I want to. I need to. Please, don’t stop.” My body ached in anticipation.

  My dress lay beside me and he slipped my panties off next. Gently gliding them down my legs. I kicked off my shoes and used my toes to remove my socks. I laid on the soft straw, now completely naked. Derek took my bonnet off and tossed it aside.

  “I love your hair, Anna. It’s the color of gold.” He pulled my hair down and let it frame my face. My naked body lying there, lit up by the glow of the full moon. He was on his knees, slowly drinking my body with his eyes. I watched as they worked their way down, starting from my face, and lingering on my tits, down to my pussy, then all the way down to my toes.

  He leaned over and kissed me all over, spending extra time on my nipples, circling them with his tongue, and then gently sucking on them.

  Finally, he trailed his tongue down my stomach, to my throbbing, swollen clitoris. He licked at it slowly, like it was a lolipop. Then he took it in his mouth, and began to suck on it as he had done to my tits. I exploded with pleasure as electrical shocks jolted through me. He moaned as my juices flowed, entered his mouth. I could hear the sounds of wetness as he ferociously worked on my pussy. My hands grasped for something to grip onto, finding only straw in my reach. Just then, he slid one finger in, and then two. My body lurched upwards, and I thrust my hips up to take his fingers in even deeper. I couldn’t control myself, before I knew it, my pleasure hit a new level. He moaned and nibbled on my clit, thrusting two fingers to my g-spot to send me further off the edge.

  When my body was completely limp and at his mercy, he slipped his pants off. His large, hard, throbbing cock was ready. He grabbed the base of his cock and rubbed the head up and down on my pussy lips, before slowly pushing it in. I braced myself for pain, as I wasn’t sure what to expect. My clenched fists left my nails digging into my hands as I waited for it. The pressure hurt a little at first, and I yelped. He said, “Shhh, sweet Anna, I promise. It’ll get better, it won’t hurt as much.” Then he pushed in a little harder. Once he was in, his face tilted up, and the moonlight reflected off his face. I saw his eyes roll back in his head, and he closed his eyes.

  “Oh my God, Anna. You feel amazing,” He rocked back and forth, quietly moaning in pleasure. I felt a combination of pain and pleasure, grabbing at his back, clawing my nails in every time his thrust was too hard. I was sure that I was leaving marks on his back, but it didn’t seem to bother him. Derek continued to make love to me, his body moving in perfect rhythmic motion.

  My pussy felt so alive and I felt sensations I had never felt before. I forgot where I was and I forgot about all my problems.

  The pain slowly subsided, and I felt nothing but pure enjoyment. I opened my thighs wider, to take more of him in. Derek accommodated. He would nearly pull his cock out of me, then gently send it back in. All the way in. After fucking me for a while, he grabbed a tight hold of me and we rolled over. I was now on top of him.

  “Let yourself go, Anna. Feel me. All of me. Ride me the way you want. I’m yours.”

  Nature took its course, and I let myself go. The activity just came naturally to me. I sat slightly erect on top of Derek, with his dick still inside of me. I began rocking slowly, up and down. Finding what I liked. He let me take my time. Derek would move his hands from my hips to my tits, and back again to help drive my hips. I felt my juices sliding down his shaft. Damn it felt good. With every inward thrust, my tits flailed back and forth. I could feel this intense sensation coming over me. More intense than any other feeling I have felt in my pussy area. I was going to orgasm again. I lay closer to Derek, still on top of him. I thrust with momentum as he helped push me harder and faster on his cock.

  I groaned and shuddered as the orgasm took over.

  “That’s it, Anna. Cum all over my cock, baby. Let me feel you on my balls,” He had a hold of my hips and continued to fuck me from underneath.

  All of a sudden, I felt him get even harder inside of me and his grip tightened around my hips.

  “I’m going to cum Anna. I’m cumming,” He banged me so hard, I thought for sure, I was going to be sore afterwards. I didn’t care, it was worth it! I felt his hot liquid spurt inside of me, and he let out several long moans, completing his orgasm.

  After, I laid there on top of him. Listening to his heart, and his heavy breathing. His dick, slowing falling out of me. I realized I was no longer a virgin. I didn’t
regret it one bit. I loved every fucking minute of that experience. Then, I rolled off of him, and laid next to him. His arm around me, and mine around the front of him.

  “Holy shit, Anna. That was amazing.” He laid there, with his cock still semi-erect. We basked in the glory of our sex, as we laid under the moonlight for a few minutes longer. I had no idea how long we had been fucking, or how long we had been lying there. The memories of the day came flooding back to me as I came back to reality.

  “I gotta go, Derek. I’m sorry. I have to check on Mama and Papa.” I stood up to get dressed. He helped me find my clothes, kissed me, and said he would find a way to see me tomorrow.

  I sure hope he does. I sure hope so.

  ***

  The next day, I awoke with a new perspective on life. I felt new. Fresh. A woman. A real woman. No longer a virgin. No longer feeling like a child, governed by my parents. I laid in bed for a few minutes, just thinking about the ups and downs of the day yesterday. I was so thankful that Abe would be okay. I couldn’t wait for him to get home. I thought about my time with Derek. I’d always thought about my first time and wondered what it would really be like. Being with Derek, in that moment, making our two bodies as one; well, it was way better than I could have ever imagined or expected. I wanted more.