Stanley, Gale - Hiding His Wolf [Urban Affairs 4] (Siren Publishing Ménage Amour ManLove)

by Gale Stanley

  But now he saw that same hungry look on Noah’s face, and it nearly did him in. How the hell was he supposed to handle this? He loved Noah. The younger man brought out all of his possessive and protective feelings, and that confused the hell out of him. On one hand, he wanted to put Noah in a glass cage and pummel anyone who came near him. On the other hand, he wanted to pummel Noah’s sweet ass.

  It would be wrong on so many levels. Noah had been victimized. He needed time to heal. And Levi had seen the way Noah looked at Simon, and he suspected they had something going on between them. It was understandable. Simon had become the white knight in Noah’s life. That position should be his, but in reality he was one who had caused every one of Noah’s problems. He’d never meant to do it, but that didn’t matter. Now, maybe he could make it up to the boy in some way. But no sex. Fucking Noah would not atone for anything.

  Nor would fucking Simon. The DSA agent brought out all Levi’s baser animal instincts, but if Simon had something going with Noah, Levi would not come between them. An image of Simon fucking Noah popped into his head, and he stifled a groan. Here he was confined in an apartment with two perfect men, a dominant and a submissive, and he couldn’t have either one of them.

  “What’s wrong, Levi?”

  He looked over at Noah. When they were younger, the boy could always read him like a book. Evidently he still could. They were both sitting cross-legged and naked on Simon’s big king-size bed. The boy was half-hard. Levi really had to stop thinking of him as a boy. Noah was all grown up now.

  “I was just thinking about what you must have been going through all these years. Do you want to talk about it?”

  “No.” The tone of Noah’s voice left no room for argument. “I want to put all that behind me now. There’s no point in dwelling on it or wasting valuable time feeling sorry for myself. We need to focus on the future.”

  “Are you sure we have one? Do you really trust Simon?”

  “He put his life on the line.”

  “For you.”

  “For us.” Noah took Levi’s hand. “We need to stick together.”

  Levi looked in Noah’s eyes, and the breath locked in his throat. “I’d do anything for you, Noah.”

  Noah leaned forward and planted a gentle kiss on Levi’s mouth. His lips were like velvet, and Levi submitted, opening for Noah’s hot, searching tongue. Noah wrapped his arms around Levi’s neck, and their kiss grew wild and hungry. Noah straddled Levi’s naked thighs, and his hard cock pressing against Levi’s left no doubt what he wanted. Levi wanted the same thing but his conscience protested and he pushed Noah aside. “This is wrong.”

  Noah clung to Levi, encouraging him to continue the kiss—and more. Nothing had ever felt so right, but still Levi pushed him away and stood. Frustrated, he started pacing around the room like an angry predator.

  “Levi, I think about you all the time.” Noah bit on his bottom lip. “I thought you were dead, but in my mind I pretended that you would find me and we would be together—lovers like we were meant to be. That fantasy kept me alive all these years. Without it, I might have killed myself.” He started sobbing. “I want to belong to you, to feel you inside me, to scream your name when I come. Is that so wrong?”

  Chapter Fourteen

  Noah’s cries woke a drowsing Simon, and before he could stop himself, he bolted up from the couch and burst into the bedroom. Noah was huddled in a fetal position on the big bed. Without thinking, Simon settled down next to him and pulled him into his arms. His only intention had been to protect and comfort, but Noah’s bare flesh felt so good against his, he couldn’t help tightening his grip on the boy. “What’s wrong?”

  Noah choked back sobs and tried to draw a breath. “Levi doesn’t want me. I disgust him.”

  For just a second, Simon wanted to throttle the wolf, and then good sense prevailed. “That’s crazy. The last time you saw each other you were boys. Give him some time to come to grips with the fact that you’re a man now. He still thinks of you as a little brother.” Where the fuck are you, Levi?

  “I’m right here, Simon,” Levi’s voice sounded behind him, as if he’d been reading Simon’s mind. The half-breed stood in the shadows watching them. “Don’t play Dr. Phil with me, I know a man when I see one. I see you do, too.”

  Oh, shit. The wolf must fucking hate him. He released Noah from his tight embrace. “Levi, I’m—”

  “It’s okay, Simon, I’m not going to kill you.”

  “Good to know,” Simon muttered. He made a move to get up, but a heavy hand landed on his shoulder and kept him from rising.

  Levi joined them on the bed. Sandwiched between him and Noah, Simon found it a little hard to concentrate. “I don’t want to intrude on your time, Levi, but I heard Noah crying. All the time we were on the island, I never heard him cry, not once. I don’t want him crying now that he’s home.”

  “That’s the second time you said that,” Noah whimpered.

  “What?” Simon was honestly confused.

  “Home.”

  “This is your home, Noah, for as long as you want it.”

  Levi growled.

  “What is it with you, Levi? How can you be jealous and not want him at the same time? The kid fucking loves you. He always has.”

  “He’s traumatized. He doesn’t know who or what he wants.”

  “I think he does,” Simon said.

  “Of course you do,” Levi told him. “I see the way he looks at you.”

  “What are you talking about?”

  “Did you fuck him?”

  “Of course not! It’s gratitude, nothing more.”

  “Stop!”

  Levi and Simon both turned and stared at Noah.

  “I’m not a kid, I’m a grown man. Maybe what I went through made me grow up even faster. Okay, I had a rough time. I’m not the only one.” His voice got softer. “Please don’t tell me what I need or want. I don’t have a formal education but I can think for myself.” Noah put his arms around Simon and pressed his lips to his back. “I am grateful. You saved my life and Levi’s. I can never repay you. Doesn’t mean I don’t love you, too. I do.”

  Simon froze. Maybe the kid really didn’t know his own mind. He was still in a fragile state. “Why?”

  “Because you gave me back my manhood. Because you accepted me for who I am. And mostly because you’re sexy as fuck and you look more like a Werewolf than Levi does.”

  Levi snarled, and Simon burst out laughing. “Thanks. I think.”

  Noah’s face went all serious as he looked over at Levi. “I’ve always loved you, Rolf. It’s okay if you don’t love me back. It hurts, but I understand. Just please don’t make light of my feelings.”

  * * * *

  Levi was stunned. Noah was much smarter than he was. He’d come to believe that he would always be alone and unloved. That back-alley sex would be the only way he could get close to another man. Now he had a chance for so much more. Looking at the two men with him, he realized this was exactly what he’d always wanted and needed—a triad, a submissive lover in Noah and a man who could dominate him, Simon. But he couldn’t get past his guilt. And what could he offer Noah? He had nothing. Not exactly true. He had a heart full of love and the means to make a former slave smile again.

  “I love you, Noah. I always have. But I feel like I don’t have the right to your love, not after I’ve destroyed your family, your life, everything.”

  Noah reached for his hand. “It was your loss, too, Levi. You lost two families—and me.”

  Simon put a comforting arm around his shoulders. “You’re not the bad guy here, Levi. You’re just as much a victim as Noah. He sees that. Why can’t you?”

  Noah’s gaze locked on his, and his heart bounded into his throat. God, he loved them. Them? What was he thinking? Levi twisted his head to look at Simon, and the big man kissed him.

  * * * *

  Noah should have been surprised, but he wasn’t. He knew there was some kind of connection the
re. Despite the snarls and the glares back and forth, there was a spike of electricity between Simon and Levi whenever they were in the same room. Noah watched Levi’s red, swollen cock rise high against his stomach as his mouth crushed against Simon’s. Simon’s hand moved toward it almost as if it had a will of its own. Noah envied the closeness that seemed to come naturally to them. He wanted to experience a feeling of belonging with someone, to someone…

  The kiss ended as quickly as it had begun. Both men were breathless, and they looked guilty as hell.

  “I…uh. Sorry, Noah…” Simon said.

  Noah made a little noise and chewed on his lip.

  “What’s wrong, Noah?” Simon asked him.

  “Tell us, baby,” Levi encouraged Noah. “I’m sorry if we upset you. It won’t happen again.”

  “That would upset me,” Noah declared in deadly earnest. “Because I loved watching you two.”

  “You’re okay with that?” Levi blurted out.

  “I love you both,” Noah replied. “And you look hot together.” Noah looked from one to the other. “You look like you belong together. I want to be part of that. I want to belong.”

  “You do belong, baby.” Levi whispered. Simon nodded. “Levi is right. We’re not complete without you.”

  Noah nodded because he couldn’t talk over the lump in his throat. His pulse rate increased with his excitement. He’d never been so aroused before. His hand found its way down to his stiff dick and he pumped.

  “No.”

  Noah looked up at Levi, surprised.

  “That cock is mine. You don’t touch until I say so.”

  Noah let out a moan, but he removed his hand.

  “Good boy.” Levi rewarded him with a kiss.

  It was a kiss he’d waited for, forever. He parted his lips and let Levi claim his mouth. Their tongues sought each other’s out and the kiss turned white-hot. Noah never wanted it to end, but finally Levi pulled back breathless and looked into his eyes.

  “You sure you’re ready for this?” Levi asked. “You don’t have to prove anything. Not to us.”

  “Not about that. I need you, this, us. I want to be with someone who cares about me—”

  Levi gripped his arms. “You’re with two someones who love you.” He looked over at Simon.

  Simon leaned toward Noah and brushed his lips over Noah’s. “And don’t ever forget it.”

  Noah opened his mouth, wanting more but Levi’s hands started playing over his chest, distracting him. One finger rubbed a nipple, and then pinched it, making him groan. Noah wanted more, ached for it. He wanted to suck and be sucked, to touch, to taste. He reached for Levi’s hard cock. Knowing it might be in his ass later scared him just a little, but it excited him, too.

  “Noah.” Simon’s voice cut through the haze of arousal that surrounded him.

  It took all his willpower to release Levi and keep still.

  “Levi wants me to fuck him. Don’t you, Levi?”

  “Yes, Simon.” There was an edge of excitement in the shifter’s voice.

  “And you’re going to suck Noah, aren’t you, Levi?”

  Noah moaned at Levi’s enthusiastic yes.

  “Lie back.” Simon gave Levi a nudge. Then he grabbed a tube of lubricant and tossed it to Noah. “Get us ready, Noah.”

  Noah rested his head on Levi’s hairy thigh and drew the wolf’s heady musk into his lungs. When his breathing calmed a bit, he knelt between Levi’s legs. The wolf raised his hips to allow Noah better access. Noah squeezed lube on his hand and greased Levi’s hole. When he slid a finger past the tight muscle, Levi’s eyes rolled back in his head. Knowing how much he aroused his lover took him higher. He added another finger.

  “My turn, Noah.”

  Moving aside reluctantly, he let Simon take his place. Noah wrapped his slippery hands around Simon’s shaft and stroked lightly.

  “It won’t break.” Simon grinned at him.

  Noah pumped harder. He felt Levi’s hot eyes watching them.

  Simon groaned. “Enough.”

  Noah straddled Levi’s chest and brought his cock to the wolf’s lips, but Levi nuzzled him and went for his balls instead. Noah shifted position, and Levi lapped and sucked until Noah’s head spun and his breathing came in pants. Then a wet heat engulfed his cock, as Levi swallowed his length. “Oh, God,” he moaned.

  Suddenly the wolf tensed and growled around Noah’s cock. Simon had penetrated him and now the big man’s hard thrusts shoved Levi’s body further up the bed. Noah gripped the headboard and picked up Simon’s rhythm, thrusting into Levi’s mouth in tandem. The scent of their combined musk took Noah to the edge of a climax.

  “So close.” Noah’s hips jerked and he came with a loud cry. Levi sucked him dry and then released him. He rolled off and nestled against Levi’s side, wanting to retain the closeness.

  Simon thrust inside Levi. “Work him, Noah.”

  Noah wrapped a hand around Levi’s stiff prick and pumped. Levi groaned loudly.

  “Kiss me, Noah,” Levi begged.

  Happy to oblige, Noah lowered his head until his lips hovered over Levi’s.

  “Don’t tease me, baby.”

  Noah felt a wild surge of pleasure as he lowered his mouth over Levi’s. He would never get tired of kissing him. Swallowing his lover’s moans as he stroked his cock, Noah felt Levi’s body tense and knew he was close. He lifted his head, wanting to watch his lovers come. Noah’s gaze followed the drops of sweat crawling down Simon’s chest. Simon’s rippling muscles as he thrust into Levi’s body fascinated him. Noah loved watching them, loved the sound of flesh pounding on flesh, the noises they made. His hand moved faster…

  “Oh, fuck.” Levi’s body arched as he cried out, spraying his chest and Noah’s.

  Noah caught Simon’s eye as he lapped at Levi’s chest.

  Simon groaned, plunged deep and stilled. Soon after he pulled out of Levi’s body and collapsed alongside him, panting. He lifted his head and managed a grin. “That was amazing.”

  Noah wormed his way between the two big warm bodies. He lay on his stomach and looked from Simon to Levi. “I don’t ever want to lose this.”

  “You won’t, baby,” Levi promised. “I’m not going anywhere. I won’t leave you again.”

  “Levi’s right.” Simon added. “We’re in this for the long haul”

  * * * *

  Simon was sitting at the desk in the small spare bedroom that served as his office. Noah and Levi were out cold, but sleep eluded him. He’d been thinking where they could go from here. Different scenarios came and went, but only one could work. He looked up and caught Levi watching him from the door. Where the hell did he come from? Simon prided himself on his instincts, especially knowing when he was being watched, but Levi hadn’t made a sound. The man moved more like a cat than a dog. The half-breed came up behind him and looked over his shoulder. Simon closed his laptop immediately.

  Levi snarled. “Noah trusts you.”

  “I thought you did, too.”

  “Up to a point. You promised there’d be no secrets. Now you’re shutting me out.”

  “Where it concerns you and Noah, there are no secrets. But other DSA business is off-limits. I’m sorry, but it has to be that way. Innocent people could get hurt if you leak something, even inadvertently.”

  “I’ll buy that. For now.”

  Levi sat on Simon’s thinking chair, the recliner he used when he needed to formulate a plan in his mind. Earlier, when he first came in here, he’d sat at that chair until he knew what he had to do. It wasn’t an ideal plan. It was rudimentary and it was only a beginning, but it was the best he could do under the circumstances.

  “I have a plan.”

  Levi looked at him expectantly.

  “I can buy time for Noah. The director of the DSA believes that I’m making Noah my slave in order to use him as bait to catch you.” He paused to maneuver his thoughts.

  “Go on.”

  “I will be showing off my ne
w slave, but you on the other hand have to stay out of sight.”

  “If you think you’re going to lock me up in that closet again, forget it.”

  “I know that’s not doable, and for more than one reason. I expect the DSA will be making a stronger effort to monitor my apartment and my activities. Here’s one option. I can get papers made up for you and send you overseas—”

  “You want me out of the picture so you can have Noah to yourself. No way!”

  Simon sighed. He’d been expecting that reaction. “Do you really believe that, Levi? I care for both of you. I wouldn’t be doing this otherwise.”

  Levi’s expression softened. “It’s been a long time since anyone cared about what happened to me—besides Noah, that is. It takes some getting used to.”

  “For me, too. There was a time when the thought of being responsible for someone else was out of the question. Now I find myself wanting to protect both of you. So, yeah, I care, very much. Do you believe me?”

  Levi’s lips twitched. It was a bleak, tightlipped smile. “I don’t have much choice.”

  Simon nodded. “There’s one place where you’ll be safe and still close enough that we can see each other.” Simon let his words hang in the air for a minute. “Dogtown.”

  Levi drew in a deep breath. “There are Resistance members living in Dogtown.”

  “So?”

  “I don’t trust them.”

  * * * *

  “Neither do I,” Noah said as he entered the room. “I trust you.” He bent and placed a gentle kiss on Simon’s lips, and then he walked over to Levi and sat on his lap. “And I trust you. No one else.”

  “We don’t have many options,” Simon protested.

  Noah felt betrayed. “You promised me that we would stay together. All of us. I won’t lose Levi again.”

  “You won’t, baby.” The shifter’s arms tightened around him. “Maybe we should leave. If Simon can get us both some fake ID we can go abroad. Make a new life.”