His breathing was ragged. “So we still do this and I have to watch you every day with Will and pray the fuck you don’t both get drunk when I’m not around?”
I could hear his breathing speed up a little as he waited for me to answer him. “Either you can trust me or you can’t. I’ve laid myself bare to you here.”
I swallowed hard. “I didn’t have sex with him, not intercourse anyway.” I tried to explain to him what happened, but it still sounded like I couldn’t control myself around men. I stared silently at him in the darkness.
“So, it’s okay because you were dreaming about me?”
I huffed. “No Alfie. It’s not okay, it was never okay, and I can’t change that. I’m being completely open with you because I won’t risk something coming between us if we are going to be together. Now you have to decide if we go forward together, and I decide whether I’m going to let everything slide that’s gone on before too. Don’t forget how much you hurt me.”
“I love you, Lily. I’ll have to get over it, and you’ll have to earn my trust with him. It doesn’t mean I have to like it though. I don’t want you to be all touchy feely with him from now on.” I didn’t know how the hell I was going to work with Will now, knowing that I’d be hurting Alfie.
“You won’t have to worry about Will. That was definitely a one-time experience that won’t be repeated.” I was shocked when Alfie sat up and held my face in his hands. I straddled his hips and we folded in each other’s arms, inhaling deeply. He buried his face in my hair.
“We have to work, honey,” he whispered.
“I can’t help the feelings of rage and jealously at the thought of you with those other guys.” I could see his eyes in the moonlight and how devastated he was by my admission, but everything was out there, at least on my part.
“Maybe they would never have happened if you had been honest with me Alfie. We’ve both made mistakes, some more extravagant than others. You’re it for me. I don’t want to have sex with anyone else.”
“I don’t want you to worry about it, either, I’m yours.” Alfie smiled and his grip tightened in my hair at the nape of my neck, and he pulled my head closer. He kissed my temple. “I’m sorry, Lily… for everything,” he whispered.
Our kiss deepened, his tongue playing in my mouth, encouraging the crazy feelings that he always evoked in me. He groaned loudly, and licked down my neck to my collarbone. I moaned, “Mmm.” Alfie chuckled as ran his hand down my naked back and cupped the bells of my ass.
I murmured into his mouth. “Hmm?”
He whispered in my ear, “Goose bumps, or in your case, lust lumps. We always get them whenever we touch each other. Hell, I get them sometimes when you talk, or bite your lip, mostly any shit like that really.”
He suddenly pushed me back and positioned himself on top of me. Alfie settled himself between my legs and rubbed his jean clad erection into my mound growling. “I didn’t come here to fuck you tonight.” He leaned his forehead on mine, and I felt his breath hot across my mouth.
“You didn’t?”
He snorted. “You think I’m going to lay all that heavy shit on you about Kara and Gary, and go ahead and have sex with you afterwards? That would be me just taking what I wanted without considering your feelings,” he stated seriously.
I smiled at him. “Wow Alfie, genuine consideration for my feelings, I’m touched.” I ran my hands over his back. He held my gaze intensely. We didn’t speak, until I broke the silence.
“What if I wanted to?” No sooner were my words out, then Alfie’s mouth crushed mine, his hands running all over me.
We were groping and grabbing at each other, as he kept repositioning me, kissing me all over my front and back. His lips hit all my erogenous zones, igniting a fire of passion in me.
Alfie rolled me onto my stomach and pulled me up onto my knees effortlessly by putting his arm underneath and across my waist, my breasts and shoulders still resting on the bed.
The moment he had me where he wanted, his mouth devoured my entrance, sucking and licking me from my anus to my wet heat.
He groaned into my core sending vibrations deep inside me. “Fuck, you’re so ready for me, I’ve missed this.” He sat back on his heels and raked his fingernails down my back, drawing them to the side. I shuddered, and moaned loudly, it was almost too much. “So responsive, did you feel this with the others?”
I shook my head. “Say it!” he commanded. I turned my head to make eye contact with him behind me.
“Alfie, no one has ever made me feel like you do.” His face was expressionless.
“Describe what you feel to me,” he ordered.
I didn’t have to think about it. “When you touch me, it’s like a thousand volts of electricity coursing through my body. The pleasure is almost unbearable.” He wrapped his fist around his cock and began playing with himself, stoking and pulling. I turned to face him and took him in my hand, pushing him back down to the mattress.
My mouth kissed and teased his thighs and his scrotum. I took one of his balls in my mouth and sucked. His head jolted forward, his eyes wide, before letting it completely fall with his head hanging off the end of the bed.
I licked the length of his hot, smooth, velvety shaft, teasing the tip of him with my tongue. “Ah, Jeez,” he hissed through his teeth. “That feels so fucking amazing.
“Take me in deeper, babe,” he cooed. I drew his cock in further, and Alfie’s hips arched, pushing himself in further still. He began rocking and thrusting, his hand curling into my hair. He held it in a messy pony tail. I sucked vigorously, hollowing my cheeks.
Suddenly he stopped. “Out,” he ordered. His movements were swift, turning me over and pulling me back into the position he’d chosen before.
He took his cock in his hand and rubbed up and down my entrance again. He began to probe into me, penetrating me slowly, the speed feeling torturous, but eventually he allowed himself that final glide until he was deeply imbedded inside me. “Oh, so fucking tight.”
He rocked into me slowly and pulled himself back, taking himself all the way out, rubbing himself up and down and re-entering me deeply. He hissed, and I moaned, “Yeah, like that.” He continued for several minutes, in the same slow pace, making me wriggle and push back into him, wanting a faster rhythm.
He pulled out and flipped me over and turned the nightstand light on. “Look at me,” he told me. I gazed up at him intensely. He entered me again, “Oh, yeah, like that… mmm.” I nodded. His face was serious, as his length moved slowly inside me.
“Promise you won’t cause me any more hurt, Alfie,” I whispered as I stared at him.
“I won’t. I don’t want to hurt you. I’ve never wanted to hurt you. I just want to make love to you.” He continued to thrust slowly and unhurriedly into me.
“Tell me you’re mine,” he demanded.
“Yes. I am.” I stated it as a fact. He laced his fingers in mine and raised our hands above my head.
“No, say it properly,” he growled.
“Alfie, I’m yours, only yours.” He smiled, his lips curving around the sides of his mouth.
“Mine.”
My words seemed to fuel him, his pace got faster, and he thrust into me with an anger and possessiveness I had never encountered with him before.
We had gotten a little rough at times, but this was different; it was like he was claiming me. I came screaming and shouting his name, and only three thrusts after me, I felt his warm hot seed explode around inside me.
He pulled me tightly to him and inhaled deeply. “You're mine, Lily, you wreck me. No one else touches you and no more barriers for us, Lily,” he growled angrily. His statement suddenly stunned me, as I realized he hadn’t used a condom.
CHAPTER 22 – TAKING CHANCES
Last night should have been wonderful, and it was, for some of it. Thing was, other parts were like a slow car crash as I unburdened myself about Will, but hurt Alfie, and possibly completely fucked up my working relationsh
ip with Will. I couldn’t believe how crass my actions have been with these men.
I was lying with the sunlight blocked out by the blinds; it was daylight, but the blinds made the light in the room dim. Alfie was lying sound asleep facing me, my leg draped over his hip, the sheet barely covering our legs.
I loved just watching him sleep, being able to feast my eyes on my gorgeous man. I could lie here doing this for days and not get tired of it. The soft shades of his unshaven face made him look more rugged and sexy, if that was at all possible.
His beautiful, thick eyelashes were long and flawless, fanning out just above his cheekbones, giving him a vulnerable, innocent look.
I loved his eyes. I only had to look into those soulful eyes to read his emotions, the changes in color belying his true feelings no matter what. I ran my finger gently over his soft skin again; it was flawless, smooth, and silky and just cried out to be licked and stroked.
Most men have noses that are broad or pointy or hooked, like Roman noses, but Alfie’s was the perfect fit for his face. Perfect was a word that kept springing to mind when I was trying to think of how to describe him, but it was absolutely the only word that fit, because there was nothing second-rate about him, that was for sure.
I realized that I was biting my lip quite hard when my gaze fell on his full mouth. His lips were so kissable, I studied his mouth wanting to push my lips to his, and sink my tongue into his hot mouth, but I’d wake him.
My eyes drank in his stunning shiny skin, taut over his fantastically sculptured pectorals and abs. His arms weren’t too bulked out, but were muscular from holding his instrument for long periods and from flexing as he played it.
I loved the way his strong arms circled my stomach when he pulled me to him from behind. He definitely made me feel secure when he did that. I hadn’t ever seen Alfie train or workout, but I figured he must, to have a body this finely tuned.
His abdominals could only have been achieved from a combination of weight training, diet, stamina, yoga strength moves, and circuit training. He looked more lean muscle than bulk, but playing in a band with two hour straight sets was demanding, and being on stage, using the amount of energy his set demanded, was a workout in itself.
I pushed my hand under my pillow and exhaled, realizing that he’d stolen my breath when I was watching him. He had that effect on me.
Sometimes I plain forgot to breathe when he was around. He rolled onto his back. The sheet had fallen away from him completely, leaving him exposed, his morning wood stretching out in front of him, in a come-and-get-me wave.
I licked my lips and my eyes flicked back to his face; he was out of it. I realized there was a smile on my lips, and well, to be honest, he was very pleasant to look at, and I wanted to surprise him.
I began to move my leg off his body really slowly. It was only on him from my knee down now after he’d rolled over. When our skin finally lost contact, he shifted his hips slightly, but didn’t wake up.
I crawled down, scooting on my side, so that my face was level with his hips, and gingerly pulled myself onto my knees hovering over him.
I dipped my head, and I gently flicked his glans, my wet tongue grazing over his apa. Alfie’s cock twitched. I grinned and placed my mouth gently over it and licked slowly, with no other part of our bodies touching.
He felt hard and smooth. The skin around his cock felt silky and warm. It was amazing to touch. It was a shame skin like this was kept inside pants all day.
I could actually relate to men when they had their hands down their pants, if it felt that good, and if I was a guy, I’d probably be doing that whenever the opportunity presented itself too.
I drew him out of my mouth, blew on his glans, then licked it slowly and took him back in my mouth again. Alfie groaned. “Ahhhh…morning to you as well.” He smirked. For someone who had just woken up, he had a wicked glint in his eyes.
I took him in my mouth again and he growled, his head turned to the side, and he bit his bottom lip, his hips rising to push more of himself into my mouth. I moaned, and he hissed at the sensation the vibrations gave him. “Face…you,” he muttered, tapping my thigh. He wanted his mouth to have access to my sensitive flesh.
I turned my body, planting my arms either side of his thighs. My knees landed either side of his shoulders, as his hands skated up the back of my thighs and over the bells of my ass to anchor themselves in front of my thighs.
His fingernails grazed me as he dug his fingers in and pulled me back onto his face, his tongue hardly touching me, but making me soaking wet.
I took him back in my mouth and sucked greedily, my tongue licking up and down and occasionally I let my teeth graze him. ”Holy shit,” Alfie hissed and widened his legs further apart, groaning. “So fucking sweet, you’re incredibly beautiful, inside and out,” he whispered sexily, before growling again, and his face rolled back to my entrance, his tongue ridged and probing.
He ran his tongue back and forth, the pressure driving me wild with want for him. I moaned loudly. My hips began to wiggle, pushing myself back onto his face, as I tried to catch his tongue to penetrate me.
I needed more, and as if he sensed it, he pulled me back onto his face suddenly. He sunk his tongue deep inside me, and fucked me hard with it, but it still wasn’t enough.
“I need you, inside me, Alfie,” I whimpered and sounded pathetic. “Please Alfie.”
I curled away from his grasp and leaned down into his jean pocket on the floor for a condom. Ripping it open, I placed it carefully over his apa, and ran the latex over this shaft.
I smoothed it down and cupped his balls with my other hand. His legs widened, and he smiled. “You’re amazing, Lily. This feels as incredible, you’re incredible, ” he murmured, smiling at me, holding my gaze, staring at me sensually, his eyes full of lust.
I straddled him and wiggled my hips, earning me a small smack on my ass from him. His hands cupped my breasts, and his fingers rolled my nipples into little buds, just ripe for him, when he lifted his head and flicked them with his tongue.
His hand slid under me from behind and slid into my hot moist sex. “Oh, Lily, you’re so ready for me.” I leaned forward rocking on the hard length of his cock and kissed him. His hand immediately tangling in my hair, mine following his lead and doing the same to him.
“I love you, Alfie,” I whispered. It felt great to finally be able to say that out loud. He pushed me back, his hands cupping both sides of my face.
“Of course you do, what’s not to love?” He grinned, teasing me.
He tickled me, and I giggled, and suddenly he grabbed my hips, raising me to my knees and thrust into me, sinking the length of his hard thick cock deep inside of me. “Ah, Fuck.” He sounded relieved. “You okay?” he asked, his gaze absolutely locked into mine.
I rocked him so slowly it seemed to go on forever. Neither of us hurried, my fingers laced in his, our eyes staring intensely at each other.
Alfie pulled me down on him, kissing me so thoroughly I was panting when he released me. “I’ve been waiting all my life for you, you’re mine,” he whispered. I smiled into his neck.
“I’m so glad you waited for me to be yours.” He smiled and flipped me over.
We continued to make love for a couple of hours, and slept soundly in each other’s arms until after lunch, when Alfie’s cell woke us. Alfie stretched and inhaled deeply, then rolled towards the nightstand and picked his cell up.
He sat up quickly and swiping the lock on his smart phone answered the call. “Kara?” He was suddenly alert, his hand swept through his hair, and he padded into the bathroom, then burst back into the room. “Blue, yeah, right now, I’m on my way, just get there and I’ll meet you there in fifteen minutes.”
He was shrugging himself into his jeans and pulling his boots on. “What’s going on? What’s happening, Alfie? What’s wrong?” He looked gravely at me.
“Sorry honey, I need to deal with this. I’ll call you later. I don’t have time to expla
in now, but I promise I will when things are a little less time critical.” He pulled his t-shirt over his head as he made his way out of the bedroom.
I was already out of bed and pulling on some gray sweat shorts and a camisole top. I followed him through to the sitting room, but saw him disappear out of my door, the latch clicking closed behind him.
I fought back the feelings I had from New Year’s Day. I knew this time what the deal was with Kara. I wasn’t sure if that was a comfort or not, because now I knew that when Alfie ran to her it was because there was a threat to her.
Alfie running towards danger did nothing to reassure me that we were going to be okay. I grabbed my cell. I wanted him to tell me when they were safe.
Pink Lady: let me know as soon as you are safe. You have my heart, please take care of it. Love you. <3
I closed my cell. I didn’t expect him to reply, and he didn’t. She was in danger, and he was her lifeline. I understood that, but I hoped whatever Alfie was working on happened soon, because I would hate for this to be a permanent feature of our relationship if we were to make it together.
In the afternoon, Will texted me asking what I was doing later. I hit the call button. We needed to talk before he saw Alfie.
“Hey, Lily, do you want to go dancing later? Mandy and Neil are coming.” I could hear Passenger ‘Let Her Go’ playing in the background. I loved that song. I wasn’t sure how Alfie would feel about us all going out together.
I told him that I had told Alfie about what happened between us, and said that we would have to tread carefully. “Fuck, Lily. I can’t believe you told him.” I could hear the tension in his voice, just as I had heard from Alfie when I told him.
I explained that Alfie and I were now together, but we didn’t want our relationship known to everyone. “You let him in again? After all the shit you told me? Why him, Lily?”
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