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by Franz Wright




  ALSO BY FRANZ WRIGHT

  Poetry

  God's Silence (2006)

  Walking to Martha's Vineyard (2003)

  The Beforelife (2001)

  III Lit (1998)

  Rorschach Test (1995)

  The Night World & the Word Night (1993)

  Entry in an Unknown Hand (1989)

  The One Whose Eyes Open When You Close Your Eyes (1982)

  The Earth Without You (1980)

  Translations

  The Unknown Rilke: Expanded Edition (1991)

  No Siege Is Absolute: Versions of Rene Char (1984)

  The Unknown Rilke (1983)

  The Life of Mary (poems by Rainer Maria Rilke) (1981)

  Jarmila. Flies: 10 Prose Poems (by Erica Pedretti) (1976)

  Pain passes for sunlight at some depths.

  —BILL KNOTT

  CONTENTS

  The One Whose Eyes Open

  When You Close Your Eyes

  {1982}

  In the Reading Room

  Asking for My Younger Brother

  My Brother Takes a Hammer to the Mirror

  Nocturne

  Trespassing on Highway 58: For Two Voices

  Dream of Snow: Los Angeles

  Arriving in the City

  From Rene Char

  Waking on the Mountain Facing Mount Konocti

  The Earth Will Come Back from the Dead

  Seeing Alone

  Blood

  Old Bottle Found in the Cellar of an Abandoned Farmhouse

  Knife

  Mosquitoes

  Trakl

  The Sniper

  The Wedding

  The Visit

  Drinking Back

  Initial

  The Wish

  Hand

  The Solitude

  Brugge

  Morning

  The Road

  Those Who Come Back

  The Old

  Brussels, 1971

  St. Paul's Greek Orthodox Church, Minneapolis, 1960

  Poem with No Speaker

  Last Poem

  The Brother

  Autumn on West Lorain Street

  View from an Institution

  To Her

  In Memory: 1980

  The Journey

  Home

  I Did Not Notice

  Lower East Side Dawn

  After

  Entry in an Unknown Hand

  {1989}

  I

  Untitled

  Winter: Twilight & Dawn

  Rooms

  The Crawdad

  Joseph Come Back as the Dusk (1950-1982)

  Quandary

  To the Hawk

  Audience

  Alcohol

  At the End of the Untraveled Road

  II

  Vermont Cemetery

  Morning Arrives

  North Country Entries

  Birthday

  The Note

  The Talk

  Ill Lit

  Word from Home

  Entry in an Unknown Hand

  Duration

  III

  No Longer or Not Yet

  IV

  Look into Its Eyes

  Biography

  The Day

  Night Writing

  There

  Poem

  A Day Comes

  Three Discarded Fragments

  The Street

  My Work

  Coordinates

  Waiting Up

  Guests

  Winter Entries

  Going North in Winter

  The Night World & the Word Night

  {1993}

  Illegibility

  Occurrence

  Pawtucket Postcards

  Provincetown Postcards

  Loneliness

  Words

  Forgotten in an Old Notebook

  Gone

  After Rimbaud

  Certain Tall Buildings

  August Insomnia

  Jamais Vu

  Night Said

  The World

  The Forties

  Untitled

  The Lovers

  Untitled

  Say My Name

  For Martha

  For a Friend Who Disappeared

  Untitled

  Time to Stop Keeping a Dream Journal

  Lament

  Midnight Postscript

  The Winter Skyline Late

  Clearlake Oaks (I)

  Clearlake Oaks (II)

  Mercy

  The Drunk

  The Angel (I)

  The Angel (II)

  The Angel (III)

  Theory

  The Door

  Thoughts of a Solitary Farmhouse

  Before the Storm

  Tidepool: Elk, California

  Untitled

  Elegy: Breece D'J Pancake

  The Spider

  Bild, 1959

  Whispered Ceremony

  Train Notes

  Rorschach Test

  {1995}

  Voice

  Infant Sea Turtles

  The Comedian

  Heaven

  One in the Afternoon

  Beginning of November

  The Meeting

  Late Late Show

  Heroin

  Rorschach Test

  Reunion

  Depiction of Childhood

  Night Watering

  Planes

  The Weeping

  Untitled

  The Family's Windy Summer Night

  The Leaves

  Ending

  The Mailman

  Twelve Camellia Texts

  The Blizzard

  Mental Illness

  Poem in Three Parts

  The Face

  Depiction of a Dream (I)

  Depiction of a Dream (II)

  New Leaves Bursting into Green Flames

  The Lord's Prayer

  Where You Are

  Untitled

  Black Box

  Church of the Strangers

  To the Poet

  The Lemon Grove

  Observations

  Van Gogh's Undergrowth with Two Figures

  To a Book

  The Disappearing

  Place

  A Place to Be

  Boy Leaving Home

  Acknowledgments

  The One

  Whose Eyes Open

  When You Close

  Your Eyes

  {1982}

  In the Reading Room

  Since I last looked up

  from my book,

  another appeared in the room

  seated at the long table across from me

  under the window,

  bathed in gray light.

  I don't think he has come

  to reflect on the lyrics of Verlaine.

  The one who with tremendous effort lifts his head

  and stares straight at me, and sees nothing;

  the one who suddenly gets to his feet

  as though his name had been announced.

  So far so good, no one has noticed.

  Below the readers' faces,

  set now in the impenetrable

  cast of people sleeping,

  pages go on turning

  in the silence, so much snow

  falling into a grave.

  The one with head bent, eyelids closed,

  looking at his hands.

  Asking for My Younger Brother

  I never did find you.

  I later heard how you'd wandered the streets

  for weeks, washing dishes before you got fired;

  taking occasional meals at the Salvation Army

  with the other diagnosed. How on one parti
cular ni

  you won four hundred dollars at cards:

  how some men followed you and beat you up,

  leaving you unconscious in an alley

  where you were wakened by police

  and arrested for vagrancy, for being tired

  of getting beaten up at home.

  I'd dreamed you were dead,

  and started to cry.

  I couldn't exactly phone Dad.

  I bought a pint of bourbon

  and asked for you all afternoon in a blizzard.

  In Hell

  Dante had words with the dead,

  although

  they had no bodies

  and he could not touch them, nor they him.

  A man behind the ticket counter

  in the Greyhound terminal

  pointed to one of the empty seats, where

  someone who looked like me sometimes sat down

  among the people waiting to depart.

  I don't know why I write this.

  With it comes the irrepressible desire

  to write nothing, to remember nothing;

  there is even the desire

  to walk out in some field and bury it

  along with all my other so-called

  poems, which help no one—

  where each word will blur

  into earth finally,

  where the mind that voiced them

  and the hand that took them down will.

  So what. I left

  the bus fare back

  to Sacramento with this man,

  and asked him

  to give it to you.

  Reno, Nevada

  My Brother Takes a Hammer to the Mirror

  {in memory of Thomas James}

  One in the morning: my brother

  appears at the back door.

  It opens.

  Lights are on.

  No one is home. The murdered

  eyes look in

  the bathroom mirror:

  It was raining when they buried me;

  I traveled, I fell ill.

  I can't recall shooting myself

  in the head.

  Have I said it

  before?

  It was raining.

  He switches the lights off.

  All windows are dark

  on the block where he stands now,

  the stars blazing on

  the closed lips

  pronouncing these words.

  Have I said it before: night

  arrives sowing

  the mirrors in black rooms with the stars.

  Have I said it before?

  I estrange.

  Light is someone.

  Father?

  Nocturne

  I am the black moon, the blank page, the field

  where they dug up

  the blindfolded skull.

  Think of the roots'

  thin fingers

  drawn so slowly, slowly

  as the growth of hair through

  utter darkness

  to drink—

  that is me.

  I am the shade trees growing near graves cast,

  the cellar door you have to open

  like a huge book,

  the bird in the ditch, its beak

  slightly parted.

  Sober, irreproachably dressed

  in a black suit

  or with long-unwashed clothes,

  the damaged nails,

  I come, the representative

  of my own nonexistence.

  I arrive with my eyes

  of the five-year-old child

  in a wheelchair, the light

  from two stars

  dead for a thousand years;

  I arrive

  with my voice

  of the telephone ringing

  in an empty phone booth

  on Main Street, after midnight

  in the rain.

  Trespassing on Highway 58: For Two Voices

  Horses stand asleep

  White shadows cast in at their feet

  It's here that I saw you last fall

  Lost in thought huge heads

  For one second

  Turn as I pass between stalls

  These vast barns house also

  The owl and the moth

  My nostrils dilated in shock

  The needling mosquito

  Galloping rats

  Here I saw you

  The drinker comes here

  Furtive sighs

  Float down from lofts

  Propped up with your back

  To a wall

  A single rope hangs From a beam

  Your legs

  Partly covered in straw

  The spokes of the moon roll across the broad floorboards

  A light wind stirred

  In the six-feet-tall corn

  Your forgotten face follows me back down the road

  Dream of Snow: Los Angeles

  Toward the end of November

  I dreamed that it snowed here

  I dreamed that I rose from

  the couch

  where I had been napping

  for weeks

  with the lights on

  I went to the window

  *

  As a child

  in Minneapolis

  I was warned at school

  not to eat the snow

  As a child

  I was drilled

  to get my ass up

  and my head down

  under the desk

  where it would be safe

  when the glass shattered

  It says in the newspaper

  airports are snowbound

  all over the country

  A girl in Nebraska is found

  in a field

  frozen to death in her nightgown

  It will be 80 degrees

  *

  And I

  will close my eyes now

  and lean back in this chair

  and watch the snow

  blowing in from the north

  over the freeways

  over the emptied suburbs

  over the gray waves

  over the graves of the skyline

  over the university over the Mercedes-filled parking lots

  of the pale physicists far from you

  Arriving in the City

  In the loose-fitting hospital gown,

  holding a juglike container of blood

  like a lantern,

  the vein of a clear plastic tube running out of it

  up one baggy sleeve, disheveled and pale, you approached

  down the aisle: on the night Greyhound

  somewhere between New York City and Cleveland,

  I abruptly woke up

  with the distinct impression I'd screamed,

  the one seated next to me still

  fast asleep—I am walking

  alone down Third Avenue now—those around me

  all still fast asleep.

  I find the address—it is on one

  of those unlighted, unfrequented side streets

  that are like passages

  marked in a book

  for undiscernible reasons.

  The light is on.

  I look up in the dark

  faintly luminous blue hall of sky

  between the walls

  of locked warehouses.

  Incontrovertibly,

  the light is on.

  I look up in the moon,

  bathing the bones of my face in the cold

  of that gray immaterial city

  inhabited by eyeless millions, gazing

  interminably at the world.

  From Rene Char

  To quiet you the poet

  Places to his lips

  A finger

  Whose nail is torn off

  *

  Often I speak

  Only to you

  So the earth<
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  Will forget me

  *

  The peace of dusk

  Moves over each stone

  Dropping

  The anchor of grief

  *

  With complete sobriety I remain

  The mother

  Of distant cradles

  *

  Lightning and blood

  I learned

  Are one

  I

  Who never walk

  But swim and soar

  Inside you

  *

  My future life

  Is your face when you sleep

  Waking on the Mountain Facing Mount Konocti

  If I looked long enough at my hand,

  in time

  I might picture fine hairlike roots

  twining around its fingers. If

  I stared long enough,

  I could see to the bones—

  or with a cold incandescence the bones would start shining.

  But I have looked up,

  my face ten years older

  since I first spent the night here,

  and nothing has changed:

  over the forehead of Mount Konocti

  the last stars are already fading, forgotten.

  The hawks' wings catch light, miles above, from the edge

  of this world's personal star

  minutes before

  it reaches my eyelids, which I want closed now

  in the chilly wind

  that comes as the moon sets.

  There is still time.

  There is time, and I can still open them

  if I wish.

  The Earth Will Come Back from the Dead

  Down empty roads gray with rain;

  through branches

  of new leaves then still

  more light than leaf;

  from turning alone, unperceived, with its sleeping, the wind

  the transfiguring wind

  in their leaves …

  from turning, slowly

  turning, turning

  green

  when everyone is gone.

  Seeing Alone

  Seeing alone

  was a door

  I walked through

  into a higher

  and more affectionate

  world, dim trees I come upon walking here

  presenceless

  rustling invisibly

  rustling

  Blood

  My blood sits upright in a chair

  its only thought, breath.

  Though I walk around vacant,

  inconsolable,

  somebody's still breathing in me.

  Mute, deaf, and blind

  yes—but someone

  is still breathing

  in me: the blood

  which rustles and sleeps.

  The suicide in me

  (the murderer).

  The dreamer, the unborn.

  But when I cut myself

  I have to say:

  This is my blood shed

  for no one in particular.

  If I get a nosebleed

 

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