Faith of the Fallen tsot-6

by Terry Goodkind

  “Then, a few days ago, Verna sent a message when we were almost here, that the D’Harans are in quite a state because they suddenly lost their sense of direction to Richard. She said they are still protected from the dream walker by the bond to their Lord Rahl, but they suddenly lost their sense of where he is.”

  “Nicci cloaked his bond from us,” Cara said in a growl.

  “Well, we have to find him,” Ann said. “We have to get him away from Nicci. He’s our only chance. Whatever he’s thinking, it’s nonsense and we will have to set him straight, but first we must get him back. He has to lead our forces against the Imperial Order. He is the one named in prophecy.”

  “That’s why you’re here,” Kahlan whispered to herself. “You heard from Verna about his declining to lead the army or even to give orders. You journeyed here in hopes of forcing him to fight.”

  “He must,” Ann insisted.

  “He must not,” Kahlan said. “He has come to realize that if he leads us into battle, we will lose the cause of liberty for generations to come. He said he came to realize that people don’t yet understand freedom and won’t fight for it.”

  “He must simply prove himself to the people.” Ann’s scowl reddened. “He must prove himself their leader, which he has already begun to do, and they will follow him.”

  “Richard says that he has come to understand that it is not he who must prove himself to the people, but the people who must now prove themselves to him.”

  Ann blinked in astonishment. “Why, that’s nonsense.”

  “Is it?”

  “Of course it is. The boy was named in prophecy centuries ago. I’ve been waiting hundreds of years for him to be born in order for him to lead us in this struggle.”

  “Really. Then who are you to try to countermand Richard’s decision—if you are so set on following him? He has come to his decision. If he is the leader you want, then you must abide by his lead, and therefore his decision.”

  “But this is not what prophecy demands!”

  “Richard doesn’t believe in prophecy. He believes we make our own destiny. I’m coming to see the grounds of his assertion that the belief in prophecy artificially alters events. It is the misplaced faith in prophecy itself—in some mystical outcome—that harms people’s lives.”

  Ann’s eyes grew round with dismay, and then narrowed. “Richard is the one named in prophecy to lead us against the Imperial Order. This is a struggle for the very existence of magic in this world—don’t you understand that! Richard was born to fight this fight. We have to get him back!”

  “This is all your fault,” Kahlan whispered.

  “What?” Ann’s frown changed to a tolerant smile. “Kahlan, what are you talking about?” Her voice backslid to genial. “You know me, you know our struggle for the survival of freedom of magic. If Richard does not lead us, we have no chance.”

  Kahlan threw her arm out and seized a startled Sister Alessandra by the throat. The woman’s eyes went wide.

  “Don’t move,” Kahlan said through gritted teeth, “or I will unleash my Confessor’s power.”

  Ann held her hands up, imploring. “Kahlan, have you lost your mind? Let her be. Calm down.”

  With her other hand, Kahlan pointed down at the fire. “The journey book. Throw it in the fire.”

  “What? I’m not going to do any such thing!”

  “Now,” Kahlan said through her clenched teeth. “Or Sister Alessandra will be mine. When I finish with her, Cara will see to it you throw that journey book in the fire, if you have to do so with broken fingers.”

  Ann glanced at the Mord-Sith towering over her shoulder.

  “Kahlan, I know you’re upset, and I completely understand, but we’re on the same side in this. We love Richard, too. We, too, wish to stop the Imperial Order from taking the whole world. We—”

  “We? If it wasn’t for you and your Sisters, none of this would be happening. This is all your fault. Not Jagang’s fault, not the Imperial Order’s fault, but yours.”

  “Have you lost your—”

  “You alone bear responsibility for what is befalling the world. Just as Jagang has his ring through the lip of his slaves, you’ve had yours through the nose of yours—Richard! You alone bear responsibility for the lives already lost, and those yet to be lost in bloody slaughters that will sweep across the land. You, not Jagang, are the one who has brought it!”

  Despite the cold, beads of sweat dotted Ann’s brow. “What in the name of Creation are you talking about? Kahlan, you know me. I was at your wedding. I have always been on your side. I have only followed the prophecies to help people.”

  “You create the prophecies! Without your help they would not have come to pass! They only come about because you have fulfilled them! You pull the ring through Richard’s nose!”

  Ann presented a face of calm to the stone of Kahlan’s rage.

  “Kahlan, I can only imagine how you must feel, but now you are truly losing all sense of reason.”

  “Am I? Am I, Prelate? Why does Sister Nicci have my husband? Answer me. Why!”

  Ann’s expression drew tight in a darkening glower. “Because she is evil.”

  “No.” Kahlan’s grip tightened on Alessandra’s throat. “It’s because of you. Had you not sent Verna into the New World in the first place, ordering her to take Richard back across the barrier into the Old World—”

  “But the prophecies say the Order will rise up to take the world and extinguish magic if we fail to stop them! The prophecies say Richard is the only one to lead us! That Richard is the only one with a chance!”

  “And you brought that dead prophecy to life. All by yourself. All because of your faith in bloodless words rather than your own reasoned choices. You’re here today not to back the choices of your proclaimed leader, not to reason with him but to enforce prophecy upon him—to give that ring a tug. Had you not sent Verna to recover Richard, what would have happened, Prelate?”

  “Why, why, the Order—”

  “The Order? The Order would still be trapped back in the Old World, behind the barrier. Wouldn’t they! For three thousand years that wizard-created barrier has stood invincible against the pressure of the Order—or those like them—and their wish to swarm up here into the New World, bent on conquest.

  “Because you had Richard captured, against his will, and ordered him brought back to the Old World, all in slavish homage to dead words in dusty old books, he was forced to destroy the barrier, and thus the Order now can flood into the New World, into the Midlands, my Midlands, slaughtering my people, taking my husband, all because of you and your meddling!

  “Without you, none of this would be happening! No war, no mounds of butchered people in cities of the New World, no thousands of dead men, women, and children slaughtered at the hands of Imperial Order thugs—none of it!

  “Because of you and your precious prophecies, the veil was breached and a plague was unleashed on the world. It would never have happened without your actions to ‘save’ us all from prophecy. I don’t even dare to recall all the children I saw suffering and dying from the black death because of you. Children who looked up into my eyes and asked if they would be all right, and I had to say yes when I knew they would not survive the night.

  “No one will ever know the tally of the dead. No one is left to remember all the small places wiped out of existence by that plague. Without your meddling, those children would be alive, their mothers would be smiling to themselves as they watched them play, their fathers would be teaching them the ways of the world—a world denied them by you for the sake of your faith in prophecy!

  “You say this is a battle for the very existence of magic in this world—yet your work to fulfill prophecy may have already doomed magic. Without your intervention, the chimes would never have come to be loosed upon the world. Yes, Richard managed to banish them, but what irreversible harm was done? We may have our power back, bent during the time the chimes withdrew magic from this world, creature
s of magic, things dependent on magic for their very existence, surely died out. Magic requires balance to exist. The balance of magic in this world was disturbed. The irrevocable destruction of magic may have already begun. All because of your slavish service to prophecy.

  “If not for you, Prelate, Jagang, the Imperial Order’s army, and all your Sisters would be back there, behind the barrier, and we would be here, safe and at peace. You cast blame everywhere but where it belongs. If freedom, if magic, if the world itself is destroyed, it will all be by your hand, Prelate.”

  The low moan of the wind was the only sound and made the sudden silence all that much more agonizing. Ann stared with tear-filled eyes up at Kahlan.

  Snow sparkled in the rays of a cold dawn.

  “It isn’t like that, Kahlan. It only seems that way to you in your pain.”

  “It is that way,” Kahlan said with finality.

  Ann’s mouth worked, but this time no words came out.

  Kahlan thrust out her hand, palm up.

  “The journey book. If you think I would not destroy this woman’s life, then you don’t know the first thing about me. She’s one of your Sisters, helping to destroy the world in the name of good, or else she is still one of the Keeper’s Sisters, helping to destroy the world in the name of death. Either way, if you don’t give me the journey book, and right now, her life is forfeit.”

  “What do you think this will accomplish?” Ann whispered in despair.

  “It will be a start at halting your meddling in the lives of the people of the Midlands, and the rest of the New World—in my life, in Richard’s life. It’s the only beginning I can think to make, short of killing you both; you would not like to know how close I am to that alternative. Now, give me the journey book.”

  Ann stared down at Kahlan’s hand open before her. She blinked at her tears. Finally, she pulled off a woolen mitten and worked the little book out from behind her belt. She paused a moment, reverently gazing at it, but in the end laid it on Kahlan’s palm.

  “Dear Creator,” Ann whispered, “forgive this poor hurting child of yours for what she is about to do.”

  Kahlan tossed the book in the fire.

  With ashen faces, Ann and Sister Alessandra stood staring at the book in the hissing flames.

  Kahlan snatched up Richard’s sword. “Cara, let’s get going.”

  “The horses are ready. I was saddling them when these two showed up.”

  Kahlan dumped the hot water to the side while Cara started quickly collecting their belongings. They both stuffed items in the saddlebags.

  Other gear they slung over their shoulders and carried to the horses to be strapped back on the saddles.

  Without looking back at Ann or Alessandra, Kahlan swung up into her cold saddle. With a grim Cara at her side, she turned her mount and cantered off into the swirling snow.

  Chapter 28

  As soon as she saw Kahlan and Cara vanish like vengeful spirits into the whiteness, Ann fell to her knees and thrust her hands into the fire to snatch the burning journey book from its funeral pyre in the white-hot coals.

  “Prelate!” Alessandra cried. “You’ll burn yourself!”

  Flinching back from the ferocity of the pain, Ann ignored the gagging stench of burning flesh and thrust her hands again into the wavering heat of the fire. She saw, rather than felt, that she had the priceless journey book in her fingers.

  The entire rescue of the burning book took only a second, but, through the prism of pain, it seemed an eternity.

  Biting down on her lower lip against the suffering, Ann rolled to the side. Alessandra came running back with her hands full of snow. She threw it on Ann’s bloody blackened fingers and the journey book clenched in them.

  She let out a low wail of agony when the wet snow contacted the burns.

  Alessandra fell to Ann’s side, taking her hands by the wrists, gasping in tears of fright.

  “Prelate! Oh, Prelate, you shouldn’t have!”

  Ann was in a state of shock from the pain. Alessandra’s shrill voice seemed a distant drone.

  “Oh, Ann! Why didn’t you use magic, or even a stick!”

  Ann was surprised by the question. In her panic over the priceless journey book burning there in the fire, her mind was filled only with the single thought to get it out before it was too late. Her reckless action, she knew, was precipitated by her bitter anguish over Kahlan’s accusations.

  “Hold still,” Alessandra admonished through her own tears. “Hold still and let me see what I can do about healing you. It will be all right. Just hold still.”

  Ann sat on the snowy ground, dazed by the hurt, and by the words still hammering her from inside her head, as she let Alessandra work at healing her hands.

  The Sister could not heal her heart.

  “She was wrong,” Alessandra said, as if reading Ann’s thoughts. “She was wrong, Prelate.”

  “Was she?” Ann asked in a numb voice after the searing pain in her fingers finally began to ease, replaced by the achingly uncomfortable tingling of magic coursing into her flesh, doing its work. “Was she, Alessandra?”

  “Yes. She doesn’t know so much as she thinks. She’s a child—she couldn’t be a paltry three decades yet. People can’t learn to wipe their own noses in that much time.” Alessandra was prattling, Ann knew, prattling with her worry over the journey book, and with her worry over the anguish caused by Kahlan’s words. “She’s just a foolish child who doesn’t know the first thing about anything. There’s much more to it. Much more. It isn’t so simple as she thinks. Not so simple at all.”

  Ann wasn’t so sure anymore. Everything seemed dead to her. Five hundred years of work—had it all been a mad task, driven on by selfish desires and a fool’s faith? Wouldn’t she, in Kahlan’s place, have seen it the same way?

  Endless rows of corpses lay before her in the trial going on in her mind. What was there to say in her defense? She had a thousand answers for the Mother Confessor’s charges, but at that moment, they all seemed empty.

  How could Ann possibly excuse herself to the dead?

  “You’re the Prelate of the Sisters of the Light,” Alessandra rambled on during a pause in her work. “She should have been more considerate of who she was talking to. More respectful. She doesn’t know everything involved. There’s a great deal more to it. A great deal. After all, the Sisters of the Light don’t casually choose their Prelate.”

  Nor did Confessors casually choose their Mother Confessor.

  An hour passed, and then another, before Alessandra finally finished the difficult and tedious work of healing Ann’s burns. Burns were difficult injuries to heal. It was a tiring experience, being helpless and cold while magic sizzled through her, while Kahlan’s words sliced her very soul.

  Ann flexed the aching fingers when Alessandra had finished. A shadow of the burning pain lingered, as she knew it would for a good long time. But they were healed, and she had her hands back.

  When the matter was weighed, though, she feared she had lost a great deal more of herself than she had recovered.

  Exhausted and cold, Ann, to Alessandra’s worry, lay down beside the hissing remnants of the fire that had so hurt her. At that moment, she had no desire to ever rise again. Her years, nearly a thousand of them, seemed to have all caught up with her at once.

  She missed Nathan terribly right then. The prophet doubtless would have had something wise, or foolish, to say. Either would have comforted her.

  Nathan always had something to say. She missed his boastful voice, his kind, childlike, knowing eyes. She missed the touch of his hand.

  Weeping silently, Ann cried herself to sleep. Her dreams kept the sleep from being either restful, or deep. She awoke in late morning to the feel of Alessandra’s comforting hand on her shoulder. The Sister had added more wood to the fire, so it offered warmth.

  “Are you feeling better, Prelate?”

  Ann nodded her lie. Her first thought was for the journey book. She gazed at it
lying in the protection of Alessandra’s lap. Ann sat up and carefully lifted the blackened book from the sling of Alessandra’s dress.

  “Prelate, I’m so worried for you.”

  With a sour wave of her hand, Ann dismissed the concern.

  “While you slept, I’ve looked at the book.”

  Ann grunted. “Looks bad.”

  Alessandra nodded. “That’s what I thought. I don’t think it can be salvaged.”

  Ann used an easy, gentle flow of her Han to hold the pages—little more than ash—together as she carefully turned them.

  “It has endured three thousand years. Were it ordinary paper, it would be beyond help—ended—but this is a thing of magic, Alessandra, forged in the fires of magic, by wizards of power not seen in all those three thousand years . . . until Richard.”

  “What can we do? Do you know a way to restore it?”

  Ann shook her head as she inspected the curled, charred journey book.

  “I don’t know if it can be restored. I’m just saying that it’s a thing of magic. Where there is magic, there is hope.”

  Ann pulled a handkerchief from a pocket deep under the layers of her clothes. Laying the blackened book in the center of the handkerchief, she carefully folded the handkerchief up to hold it together. She wove a spell around it all to protect and preserve it for the time being.

  “I will have to try to find a way to restore it—if I can. If it can even be restored.”

  Alessandra dry-washed her hands. “Until then, our eyes with the army are lost.”

  Ann nodded. “We won’t know if the Imperial Order decides to finally leave their place in the south and move up into the Midlands. I can give no guidance to Verna.”

  “Prelate, what do you think will happen if the Order finally decides to attack—and Richard isn’t there with them? What will they do? Without the Lord Rahl to lead them . . .”

  Ann did her best to move the terrible weight of Kahlan’s words to the side as she considered the immediate situation.

  “Verna is the Prelate now—at least as far as the Sisters with the army are concerned. She will guide them wisely. And Zedd is with them, helping the Sisters prepare for battle, should it come. They could have no better counsel than to have a wizard of Zedd’s experience with them. As First Wizard, he has been through great wars before.