Dragonfly

by Alyssa Thiessen

  DRAGONFLY

  Alyssa Thiessen

  Copyright 2015 Alyssa Thiessen

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Dedication

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Also By Alyssa Thiessen

  To My Children

  Chapter 1

  It wouldn’t be long now. Sitting atop the gray skyscraper with my feet dangling carelessly over the ledge, I was concealed by the dark of the early evening. They existed down there, sure, but up here, it was just me and my marks. People were fools, generally speaking. They believed in only what they could see in front of them, or what they were certain existed above or below. Who was I to complain? If they were a little more observant, maybe less arrogant, my life wouldn’t be nearly as successful. Fools were great for business.

  I exhaled, watching the thin white cloud of my breath appear and then dissipate. I wondered, somewhat morbidly I supposed, what it would feel like if I shifted too suddenly, lost my balance, and didn’t stop myself. What would it feel like to simply—fall? Would I try to catch myself, would I cry out—or would it be like this moment—so completely, perfectly peaceful? I held my breath. If I could have stopped time, I would have then. Just frozen the whole thing. Nights like this had held a strange comfort for me lately. At eighteen, the darkness was the closest thing I’d ever had to a romance. Its cover was almost a caress. Letting my lungs deflate in a rush, I blinked the thought away. The evening was passing and it would soon be time to make my move.

  I raised the binoculars to my eyes and peered through. I’d done it so often they almost felt like an extension of my fingertips. The man in the high-rise condo across from me was putting on his black suit coat, with that easy, familiar motion exhibited by every wealthy, faceless mark I’d chosen this month. His wife was generic. She’d be glued to him all evening.

  Of course, I’d be long gone before they walked back through that door, and their wall safe would be substantially emptier. They wouldn’t even notice its absent contents until next week Wednesday when, as I’d observed for the past three weeks, he would deposit into it a large amount of emergency cash, along with some personal items of which his wife would undoubtedly prefer to remain unaware. I was only interested in the cash.

  As I waited for them to leave, I watched the usual dance take place, swinging my feet to its silent rhythm. It was the game echoed in relationships just like theirs all over the city, all over the country, and, as I’d observed on many occasions, in a number of subtle and beautiful ways, all over the world. She stood in front of the mirror and straightened her bangs. She toyed with her lipstick, slowly and carefully applying the final coat of a deep red on her thin lips. And she still had to curl her lashes. He cleared his throat from the doorway, shuffling his feet, waiting with his hand on the knob. Although, in most ways, she lived for him, she seemed to exert what little control she had by making him late.

  Their limousine pulled up—I recognized it from two nights prior when they had attended an art gala for a client—and they would soon make their way down. Stretching my long legs straight in front of me and my arms over my head, I looked up into the clouded, starless sky and counted the hours until the sun came up and stole my freedom. For now, the height of my perch and the color of night made me invisible to the people below and around me. I didn’t need the light to see. It was one of the few perks of being me.

  When I was going through a stage last year, I spent an inordinate number of nights in darkened libraries. I read everything I could find about flying people. Books about beings with white, feathered, angel-like annexes—eagle men. I read one story about a girl with reptilian wings that were scaled and sharp and fire red. Some writers imagined the ability to fly came with extraordinary speed or unparalleled strength. Maybe if you were Superman, it did. If you were Joshua Miller, it only came with a set of four translucent wings, a love of the cold, night vision, and the inability to sleep comfortably on your back.

  Finally, the suite was empty. As the limo pulled away, I took the tight black balaclava out of my pocket and pulled it over my head. Unnecessary, since my face wasn’t the problem, but it was a habitual precaution I’d always taken. I figured it made me look more intimidating, with my dark eyes peering out of the black mask, than being seen with my fine features and nearly black hair. Other than the wings, there was really nothing memorable about me at all.

  Stepping to the ledge, I fought the urge to jump. Patient. Steady. I slowed my breath. Some people, those ridiculous beings terrified of high places and breathtaking beauty, would never experience the pleasure of the view from up here. I lived for it.

  The limo’s brake lights flashed once as the car slowed and disappeared around the corner. I watched the empty space, and then, looking forward, stepped off the edge.

  Instinctively, my wings caught the air on their downward stroke, the current lifting me level with the window, my body tilted forward at a 40-degree angle. I imagined any other type of wings would carry me through the sky like some sort of angel. Instead, my insect-like wings forced me to fly more like a bug than a heavenly being. It was fitting, I supposed, considering my line of work.

  I approached the balcony cautiously. The neighboring apartments were occupied, after all, and I’d made the unpleasant discovery in the past that the sight of my winged self would not be well received, despite my efforts to make them seem artificial. Every time I flew, I attached a series of straps and harnesses and I fastened a remote to my waist. I thought it looked pretty convincing, myself, and I imagined it would be enough to fool the public, should a photographer get a lucky shot, but, for the most part, people tended to ignore the straps and focus on the wings.

  Landing, I stepped forward and cupped my hands tight around my eyes, peering through the darkly tinted window. There would be no one inside, but I hadn’t survived this long by being careless. Other people my age were just finishing high school. I was an expert in break and enter.

  I opened the unlocked door and stepped inside. People were ridiculously confident that they were unreachable in their high-rise apartments and expensive condominiums. With my four wings tucked tightly behind me, I made my way through the spacious living room. An ornate crystal vase adorned the shelf, with four crystal angel figurines below. I had no doubt that they were genuine and I resisted the urge to pocket one. They’d be worth a fortune, but fencing them would be next to impossible for me. How did that expression go? Cash is King.

  In the kitchen, I ran my gloved fingers along the surface of the marble countertop. It was beautiful. Cold. Clean. A small island stood in the center, between the counter and the large stainless steel fridge. I opened the fridge, knowing what I would find there: expensive champagne, exotic fruit, various brands of bottled water. Luxuries. I grabbed a single purple grape and closed the fridge. Popping it into my mouth, I continued toward the safe. I had time, but not all night. Once there, I didn’t hesitate. I entered the combination I’d seen the man do twice before. After a quiet click, the lock released; I turned the handle.

  I slid the cash out and into my satchel. It wasn’t just easy; it was perfect. I closed the safe, spun the lock, and left the way I had come. When I was still learning, I spent more time getting to know my marks, trying to understand th
em, trying to imagine what it would feel like to have their families, to actually love something enough to make it worth losing. I didn’t waste my time wondering anymore. In fact, this time I didn’t even glance at the bedroom as I left. Soon, I was on the ledge and, then, in the air, pulling off my mask and tucking it into my belt.

  I let my wings carry me high over the buildings that decorated the city skyline. I took my time, savouring the wind whirling around my wings and flowing over me. Daylight would come soon enough and imprison me in my apartment. I was in no rush to get back. I made my way through the night sky, down past the towers and the offices and the houses, to the edge of Central Park. As I landed beside a small cluster of trees to wait for Marcus, I tucked my four wings in close to my body, the top two pulled downward to rest on the bottom two.

  Sometimes I threw on my flimsy, black trench coat after I landed. Not that it did a great job of hiding the wings—the tips extended to less than an inch from the ground—and anyone paying attention might notice them protruding from the bottom. I was pretty sure casual observers wouldn’t really be studying my feet though, and I was almost certain they wouldn’t attribute my misshapen back to hidden wings. I’d thought of getting something heavier, something that would pull the wings in tighter and hang lower, but putting weight on the wings when they were folded was painful. They were made for flight.

  Tonight, I didn’t bother with the coat. I wouldn’t be long, and Marcus was familiar with the sight of them. The shuffle of the man I trusted most—in this city, at least—rustled the grass just off the main walkway. He cleared his throat, signalling to me. I stepped out from the darkness, just past the tree line, leaving my wings enshrouded by the leaves.

  He grinned, his yellowed teeth barely visible by the park lamplight. “I brought you the food and stuff you asked for, Kid”, he whispered, almost too softly to be heard.

  “Thanks.” I took the bag from his hand.

  “No problem.” His pupils were dilated and his gaze darted around quickly, looking into the trees, then down the path, then back into the darkness. “You can count on me.”

  “I know,” I said, already shaking my head at him as he predictably held out my change to me. “You keep it. A gift.” He nodded vigorously, shoving the handful of bills into his pockets. Most of my contacts were happy with a fee-for-service arrangement, but Marcus didn’t want to feel like his silence came at a cost. He was under the impression that there was a great government conspiracy to the way I was, that this secret that he’d agreed to keep was thwarting The Man’s dark plans. He didn’t realize that keeping the secret had nothing to do with the government.

  “So, how’d it go?” he asked, his voice still in a low whisper, his eyes still a little too wide.

  “It was good,” I said. “Perfect.”

  “Did you get that project done?”

  “Yep.” I never gave details, and he never asked for them. I didn’t want to complicate things. In reality, I preferred that nobody know anything about me at all. Meeting my practical needs, however, required some trust. And I could count on people like Marcus—people who had already learned that the world is a dangerous place and that nobody can really be trusted at all, people who nobody would believe anyway, if they decided to sell me out.

  “How about you, Marcus? How are the kids?

  “Good, good. Jenny started preschool today. She looked beautiful, with her hair in red ribbons and her pink sundress on.”

  I nodded. “Bet she was excited.”

  “She was. And Kevin, he took his first steps today. It was amazing.” He laughed now, loudly, startling both of us, and then lowered his voice again and whispered, “I’ve never seen anything like it.”

  “Sounds like you have a really nice family.”

  “I do, I do.” I’d heard about Jenny’s first day at preschool and Kevin’s first steps at least a dozen times since I’d met Marcus. I could recite the stories by heart. The children never aged. I wasn’t sure if he’d constructed them out of a fantasy or if they were part of a distant memory. Whatever the truth, it didn’t matter. Already he’d begun the familiar story of his wife’s tears as she’d waved goodbye to the little yellow bus as it disappeared down the street. It would have made me sad, if I’d let it. I sometimes thought it would be harder to have had something like that and then to have lost it than not to have had it at all. I wasn’t really sure, though, that Marcus realized he’d lost anything. It was better, I imagined, if he didn’t.

  He handed me the bag, looking up in the sky now. Marcus, despite his loose grasp on reality, was always keenly aware of my need to be invisible when the sun came up. I watched him, his expression alight with a level of concentration that normally was nonexistent. His eyes flickered again to my face.

  “Better get goin’, Josh,” he whispered, more urgently than necessary. “You don’t wanna be caught out here in daylight.” I nodded and took a few steps back into the dark of the woods. “I’ll see you next week if you haven’t left yet. Wednesday, right?”

  “Yeah, Wednesday, if I’m still in the city. Same time, about.” Fresh fruit never lasted very long. A week was easy to plan for. Besides, I never knew how long I’d be around. “See you, Marcus.” I didn’t wait for a reply.

  Chapter 2

  Daylight found me alone in an abandoned apartment downtown. Marcus was reliable, but he wasn’t the type of person who could take my cash and turn it into a swanky hotel room. Some contacts could and did, but not Marcus. I didn’t mind it. Places like this suited me sometimes. Less likely to have housekeeping knocking at my door, anyway. And he’d managed to furnish my room with an old green couch that was comfortable enough and a small, legless table, built up with stacks of newspapers. If that wasn’t friendship, I didn’t know what was.

  I sunk into the couch to count my take. A good haul—there would be no worries for a long time. There hadn’t really been any worries for a while. I’d perfected my craft so I would only need two or three marks a month. I rolled the money up in the t-shirt, with the rest, and placed it in the low, loose tile above my head.

  Lying on my stomach with my wings pulled in behind me and my hands tucked under my chin, I stared at the daylight glinting through the open blinds. What were they all doing out there? I used to go out during the day, especially in the countryside, in remote areas. It was fine—perfectly safe when nobody was around. But now, the light seemed garish. Everything was uglier in the honest rays of the sun. I read, once, that the bright oranges and fiery reds and deep pinks of sunrise light up the sky, but all I ever saw in the sunrise was a world in which I had no interest in being a part. I closed my eyes against the light and, as it always did, sleep found me.

  The cold quiet of night descended subtly. Slowly I rose from my prone position and curled my toes under me, enjoying the textured grain against my skin. It was dusk. Time to go.

  I changed as quickly as possible, given the awkward nature of my wings. I’d often thought of modifying my shirts beyond the two long slits running the length of the back, but I nearly had the process down to a science by now. I positioned my wings downwards, forced each pair through the slits of the inside-out t-shirt, and then pulled the fitted black shirt up past the wings and against my body. I righted it as I pulled it over my head. Not that it mattered if it was inside out, I guessed, but if I was going to do something, I wanted to do it well.

  I replaced my black pants with identical ones. The air would be cold but, for whatever reason, my body ran at a higher temperature. I never minded the cold. I wrapped the artificial strap system around me and hoped that it looked convincing, at least passably so. I pulled my mask on, and climbed out of the screenless window and onto the fire escape.

  My first marks this evening weren’t far from my last, but I would have to move quickly. I landed on the rooftop across from their oversized apartment. Sitting, I watched them through the large, rectangular window in their living room. They were moving quickly, and in practiced fashion, through the room
s of their suite that spanned the entire floor. These people were as predictable as always, an endless parade of deadlines to meet and lists to accomplish, so intent on their next destination that they didn’t really stop to think about their present. They didn’t, for instance, look out their enormous window and see me perched up on the opposite roof, watching them through my binoculars. Of course, had they looked, they may have only noticed a slight shadow, insufficient to convince them they saw anything at all. But, the thing was, they never looked. I could always count on the blindness of the wealthy.

  The husband slid his tie tight in a smooth, practiced motion. The wife patted her hair, and her son, who seemed a little young to enjoy this type of thing, laced up his patent leather shoes and licked his thumb to wipe off a small scuff near the toe. The daughter, I noticed, had changed her hair color again. It was bright red now. I seemed to remember it being blonde two nights ago and a sort of a purple the week before that. I couldn’t tell how old she was—definitely mid or late teens—sixteen, maybe. Not much younger than myself, in physical years. Much younger, I could almost guarantee, in life experience. If we measured age by our choices, I would be far older than anyone in that place. I watched her slide on her pumps and wait by the door with her father and brother. Of course, her mother had one last stop to make in the bathroom. She’d forgotten, I could imagine her saying, to apply her final coat of lipstick or to straighten that little strand of hair escaping from her bun in the back. I didn’t know what excuse she’d made, but I wasn’t surprised to see them waiting. I shifted my attention to the bathroom door.

  They almost had me fooled, the first few times I watched them. But they were empty, like the others, trying to manufacture family by ritualizing one night of togetherness. Here it was, Thursday again, and they’d be leaving in the Bentley precisely at 6:15. They’d come back no closer to one another than when they left. Not that it mattered to me. Once they were gone, I hoped to be in and out in moments.