[Fallen Angels 01] - Covet

by J. R. Ward

  Rent was a thousand a month. No problem.

  Pulling into the driveway, he hit the garage door opener and waited as the panels moved upward.

  Odd. The house next door had lights on in it. One in the front hall, another in the living room, and a third upstairs. The place had always been dark before.

  Not his business, though—he had plenty of his own going on.

  Parking in his garage, he hit the button on the remote and waited until he was shut in so no one would see him get out. Which was a habit he’d picked up thanks to watching his woman. Inside the house, he went to the back hall bathroom and turned on the light. In the mirror, he realized that the mustache he’d put on his upper lip had gone off-kilter—not good, but at least no one had looked at him funny as he’d walked to his car. Maybe it had happened while he’d been at the river.

  He ripped off the stripe of fuzz, flushed it down the toilet, and thought about washing the blood off here, but figured the shower upstairs would be better. As for his clothes? His fleece had been protected by the jacket, which was now in the Hudson, but his jeans were stained.

  Damn it, the pants were an issue. There was a fireplace in the living room, but he’d never used it before, had no wood, and besides, if he lit something up, there was a chance the neighbors would smell the smoke and remember it.

  Better to lose them in the river after dark, just like he’d done with the tire iron.

  The hat. He’d had the hat on, too.

  He took the black cap out of his back pocket. There were just a few spots on it, but that was enough to put it in the land of disposal. You couldn’t get fibers clean enough in these days of the CSIers. Fire or permanent disappearance were the only options you had.

  Upstairs, he paused at the top of the stairwell. With both hands, he took off the wig and smoothed his hair so that it lay flat. He supposed it would be better to take a shower before he showed himself, but he couldn’t wait that long. Besides, he’d have to walk through the bedroom to get to the bathroom, so she’d see him anyway.

  He went to the doorway. “I’m home.”

  Across the way, she looked at him from the corner, as beautiful and demure and resplendent as ever, her eyes pools of compassion and warmth, her alabaster skin glowing in the dim light cast by the street lamp outside.

  He waited for a response and then reminded himself one wasn’t coming: The Mary Magdalene statue he’d stolen at dawn remained as quiet as it had been when he’d taken it from the church.

  He’d had to take her. Now that he knew what his woman did for a living, it was his representation of his love, the thing to tide him over until he finally and permanently got her where she belonged—which was with him.

  The statue also reminded him that he shouldn’t kill her just because she was a dirty, filthy slut. She was…a woman misled, strayed, off the right path. Something he himself was guilty of. But he’d done his time and he was back on track now….

  Well, with minor exceptions.

  As he knelt in front of the statue, he reached up to cup the face in his palm. He loved being able to touch his woman and it was a little disappointing not to have her stroke him back or worship him as she should.

  But that was why he needed the real thing.

  CHAPTER

  23

  Marie-Terese had been convinced Vin was going to kiss her on the mouth.

  And there was a part of her that wanted just that, but she’d been panicky, too: She might have technically been having sex at the club, but it had been three years since she’d actually been kissed. And the last time it had happened it had been forced on her as part of an act of violence.

  Instead of giving her what she both wanted and feared, though, Vin had just pressed his lips to her forehead and eased her up against his chest—and here she was, in the strong arms of a man whose heart was beating close to her ear, whose warmth was leaching into her own body, whose big hand was making slow circles around her back.

  Marie-Terese smoothed her palm up his pecs. Underneath the cashmere, his body was hard, suggesting that he exercised a lot.

  She wondered what he looked like without his clothes on.

  She wondered what his mouth would feel like on hers.

  She wondered how having him skin-to-skin would be.

  “I guess we should probably go,” he said, his voice rumbling through his chest.

  “Do we have to?”

  His breath caught and then resumed. “I think we’d better.”

  “Why?”

  Vin shrugged, the movement rubbing his sweater against her cheek. “Just think it’s for the best.”

  Oh, man…how about that for a polite brush-off. Good God, what if she’d read it all wrong?

  Abruptly, she shifted upward, pushing herself off of him. “Yes, I think you’re right—”

  In her haste, her palm slipped on the fine nap of his sweater and brushed over something that was hard below his waist. And not hard as in bone.

  “Damn, I’m sorry,” he said, moving his hips away. “Yeah, it’s definitely time to pull out of here…”

  She looked down. His erection was unmistakable, and what do you know, she had a roaring sexual response to it. She wanted him. Needed to have him inside of her. And all the rational reasons not to go there were suddenly nothing more than yada, yada, yada….

  Locking eyes with him, she whispered, “Kiss me.”

  Vin froze in the process of getting up. As his chest expanded, he stared at the floor and didn’t say a thing.

  “Oh,” she said. “I understand.”

  His body might have wanted her, but his mind was jamming at the thought of being with a whore.

  In a horrible rush, she saw the faces of the johns she had been with…or at least those she could recall. So many of them, more than she could count, and they crowded the space between her and this man who sat on his boyhood bed, looking as sexy as anything.

  She hadn’t wanted the others. Had taken pains to be as separate from them as she could, layers of latex and dissociation barriers she used to try to stay as untouched by the contact as she could.

  Vin, however…Vin she wanted close, and he couldn’t go there.

  This was the real damage she had done to herself, wasn’t it: she’d assumed that as long as she stayed disease-free and unharmed physically, the long-term effects were going to be limited to a store of memories she’d be desperate to forget. But this was cancer, not the flu. Because she could barely see Vin through the cast of hundreds, and he was as blinded by the anonymous, invisible crowd as she was.

  Swallowing hard, she thought…in this moment, she would have given up everything to have had a clean slate between her and Vin. Everything…except for her son.

  Marie-Terese shifted off the bed, but he caught her hand before she could shoot out of the room.

  “I can’t stop at just kissing you.” His hot eyes locked on her. “That’s the only reason I’m holding off. I’d like to tell you I’m a gentleman and could pull back or out with only a word from you, but I can’t trust myself. Not tonight.”

  Caught up in the distance between them, all she could hear was, Women like you don’t get to say no.

  In a hoarse voice, she said, “You already know I’m a slut. So I won’t stop you.”

  Vin’s expression went cold and he dropped his hold on her.

  After a moment, he rose to his feet and glared at her. “You don’t ever refer to yourself like that in front of me again. We clear? Never again. I don’t give a fuck who you were with or how many there were—you’re not a slut to me. You want to beat yourself up, do it on your time and don’t try to drag me into it.”

  On a survival instinct, she cringed back from him and shielded her head, expecting his hands to curl into fists and come flying at her.

  She’d been trained thoroughly in what men who were furious did to women.

  Except Vin just stared at her, the anger in his face draining out and leaving a pale panic behind. “He hit
you, didn’t he.”

  Marie-Terese couldn’t answer that. Because even a nod would have sent her into a spiral of tears. Tonight…as Vin himself had said, tonight was not the night for trusting herself: Whereas quitting the business had made her feel stronger, that had been temporary. Here and now, she was vulnerable as hell.

  “Jesus…Christ,” Vin murmured.

  Before she knew it, she was back in his arms, back in them and up close. As they stood together, something occurred to her about the choices she’d made…something that she didn’t want to look too closely at, so she pushed it away and locked it up tight.

  Lifting her head to look up at him, she said, “Be with me. Now.”

  Vin went stock-still…and then cupped her face with his gentle palms. “You sure?”

  “Yes.”

  After a long moment, he closed the distance between their mouths and kissed her sweet and slow. Oh…soft. He was so soft and careful, stroking, tilting his head to the side, stroking some more.

  It was better than she remembered, because it was better than she’d ever had.

  Running her palms up his arms, she felt as if the two of them were suspended in air, tethered by choice, not trapped by circumstance. Light as the contact between them was, gentle as his lips were, careful as her hands were, power sizzled between them.

  Vin pulled back a little. He was breathing hard, the muscles in his neck straining. And that wasn’t the only thing. As he looked at her, his body was even more ready for what was going to happen next.

  He cleared his throat. “Marie-Terese…”

  It was on the tip of her tongue to ask him to call her by her real name, but she stopped herself. “Yes?” she whispered in a voice as husky as his.

  “Lie down with me.”

  When she nodded, he gathered her into him and pulled her onto the bed so that they ended up with her top. As their bodies adjusted to glorious effect, his hands brushed her hair from her face and lingered on her shoulders.

  “I like the way you feel under me,” she said.

  He smiled. “And how do I feel?”

  “Hard.” She arched into him, rubbing herself on his arousal.

  As Vin reared back into the pillow and hissed, she put her mouth on the rigid cords that lined his neck, kissing her way up them until she got to his sharp jaw. Now she was the one fusing their mouths, and he was following her, tongues sweeping in and out, hands roaming, hips moving in the ancient surging motion of raw sex.

  It wasn’t long before she needed so much more. Her breasts were aching, the tips straining against her bra, and she took his hand and eased it under the shirt she had on. The contact of his palm on her ribs made her suck on his tongue and to urge him onward, she guided the contact over to her—

  “Vin…

  As he palmed her breast, he groaned and rubbed his thumb around her nipple. “You’re hell on my willpower. Total hell…”

  With a surge, he leaned up and nuzzled at her breast through her clothes. “I need you naked.”

  “Just what I was thinking.” Sitting back on his hips, she swept her fleece over her head and was attacked by a wave of modesty. Abruptly, she wanted her nakedness to be beautiful to him…she really did.

  As if he read her mind, he murmured, “Would you rather do this with the lights off?”

  Well, yeah. Except then she couldn’t see him. “I’m not perfect, Vin.”

  He shrugged. “Neither am I. But I will guarantee that whatever you choose to show me I’m going to like because it’s you.”

  Dropping her hands and holding his stare, she said, “Take my shirt off then. Please.”

  Sitting up so that they were face-to-face and she was in his lap, Vin unbuttoned the thing down to her navel, his mouth going to her throat and then her collarbone and finally to the front clasp of her bra. His eyes flipped to hers as he reached up and sprang the fastening.

  He didn’t let the two sides snap apart, but held them in place.

  Inch by inch his mouth kissed its way onto her breast. As he went, he slowly exposed her flesh until he got to her nipple and then he pulled the lace cup off entirely. His whole body shuddered with lust.

  “You’re so wrong,” he groaned. “Look at you…perfect.”

  He extended his tongue and licked her. And licked her again.

  Watching him was nearly as good as feeling him, and the two together, the sight and the sensation, fired her blood up until she was panting.

  Thank God they’d left the light on.

  Vin shifted their positions, putting her on the bottom and rising up above her, his broad shoulders blocking out the fixture on the ceiling as he kissed her mouth again. Beneath his strength, she felt small and fragile, but powerful too: He was breathing hard because he wanted her, because his desperation was as sharp and demanding as her own, because he needed this with the same clawing drive she did.

  They were in this together.

  And then she stopped thinking, because he dropped his mouth onto her breast and took deep pulls while he parted her shirt all the way and swept aside the other cup of her bra.

  As he continued what he was doing, she was dying to know the feel of his skin on hers, so she fisted the back of his sweater and started pulling it up. He finished the job, lifting himself to peel it from his chest.

  In the mirror across the way, she watched as his back was revealed, the light from the overhead hitting the spectacular spread of muscles that filled out his shoulders and wrapped around his torso. And the view of his pecs was just as good.

  He was a fantasy made real, his body nothing but ridges of strength that shifted under smooth flesh as he brought his lips down to her nipple again. With his bowed arms supporting the weight of his chest, he was a magnificent male animal ready to ditch fifty thousand years of evolution and mental development for the base mating that was to come.

  Talk about perfect…

  Marie-Terese rolled her hips and sank her fingers deep into his thick hair. Her body was fluid under his mouth and his touch, heat rolling through her and tightening the ache between her legs. When the erotic need got to be too much, she split her thighs and—

  They both moaned as his erection landed in just the right place.

  Vin arched against her, and her nails raked across the waistband of his slacks: Careful and gentle was all well and good, but the momentum had started to build and all of the worry of what to do was swept away.

  “Can I take off your jeans?” he asked. Or groaned was more like it.

  “Oh, please…”

  She braced herself on her heels as he slipped the top button free, unzipped and swept the denim down her legs. Her panties were black and he stopped and just stared at them on her body.

  “Good…lord,” he murmured.

  His hands actually shook as he reached out and ran his fingertips across her belly. She waited for him to kiss her again…or move over on top of her…or take her panties off….

  “Is there anything wrong?” she said hoarsely.

  “No…not at all…I just can’t get enough of looking at you.”

  Finally, he came up to her lips. Licking into her mouth, he settled on her with his full weight, his bare chest on hers, their legs intertwining. Together, they found a rhythm, an erotic arch and retreat that sexed her up until she was gasping and so was he.

  “Please…Vin…”

  As he kissed her, his hand eased down her hip and over her thigh, then brushed across the stretch of her panties. “I need to feel you—” he said.

  She took his forearm and pushed down, moving his fingers to her core, dragging them across her covered heat. As she shuddered and let her legs fall to the sides even more, he took his mouth to her breast and suckled at her…while he rubbed at what covered her.

  “More,” she said.

  Slipping under the delicate edge, he found her softness and cursed hard, his body snapping tight from head to foot, his teeth gritting, the cords in his neck tightening up starkly.

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bsp; “Oh…Christ…” he said. “Oh…damn.”

  Abruptly, he pulled back and looked down at himself.

  “What?” she asked breathlessly.

  “I think I just had an orgasm.”

  As he flushed, she started to smile and couldn’t stop. “You did?”

  He shook his head at her. “Right, okay, that’s not a good thing at a time like this. Five minutes from now? Perfect. At this moment? Not so hot.”

  “Well, it makes me feel sexy,” she said, smoothing her hand down his face.

  “You don’t need any help with that.”

  Marie-Terese let her touch slide slowly over his chest and his hard stomach, then down farther, over his belt and onto his…

  Vin threw his head back and moaned, his pecs flexing, his torso curving up. “Shit.”

  Moving her palm up and down on his erection, she tucked her face into his neck and bit down a little. “I don’t think it’s going to slow you up much.”

  His rib cage contracted, breath shooting out of his mouth. “I gotta get naked.”

  “I should hope so.”

  His hands were rough on his belt and his fly, and his slacks hit the floor at the speed of light. Black briefs cupped his sex—barely. His erection was a long ridge crammed over to one side, the head fighting to get free of the waistband that held it in.

  Before he could lie back, she reached out and tugged those briefs down his hard thighs, springing his arousal. He had orgasmed and the glossy, weeping tip of him made her even more ready for what was coming fast.

  Wrapping her hand around his shaft, she stroked his sex and looked up, watching as he planted one palm against the wall and let his head fall loose. He moved with her, and she glanced across at the mirror, watching what his back looked like as his hips swung forward and back, the clenching and releasing of his torso muscles and the way his spine undulated in a wave the most erotic thing she’d ever seen…

  Marie-Terese let go of him, took off her panties, and stretched out beside him. Ready.

  Vin righted his head and stared at her from under his brows, his silvery eyes lit up bright as a flash of steel in the midday sun.