Want To Hate You ... Too Bad I Love You

by Melanie Marks

  “You,” I swallowed, feeling slightly dizzy, like maybe this moment wasn’t really real. Like maybe I had fainted from fright when I first started talking to The Griff and now I was hallucinating or daydreaming or something. “You—you want me to kiss you?”

  He set his jaw, but he was still smiling. “Yeah. Kiss me and I won’t kill your boyfriend.”

  A strange feeling washed over me—a tingling combination of excitement and horror. I backed away and leaned against the lockers behind me for support. I was all wobbly and sweaty and shaking as I tried to get my brain to actually work—to think. “Um…”

  Really? That was all I had to do? Kiss him and Aiden was off the hook? It didn’t seem possible. Or right. There had to be more to it than that. After all, I wasn’t exactly Miss Sexy; far from it. Boys didn’t even usually notice me. Not that I was ugly, I guess. Aiden said I was “beautiful.” But then, Aiden was my boyfriend. And sweet. The Griff wasn’t either of those.

  “I don’t understand.”

  Griffin shot me this adorable lopsided grin. It got my heart all confused and fluttery. “Yes you do.”

  Mmmmm.

  My pulse convulsed into a wild frenzy, my mind too. I bit my lip, trying to figure out the catch. There had to be one. Had to. Though Griffin was known as a troublemaker at our school, he was cute; adorable even. There was a certain “type” of girls that were always hanging on him—a type that was not at all like me. They were loud and forward and experienced with boys. I wasn’t like that. At all. And I wasn’t the type of girl that boys pined after. I was “nice” and “caring” and sure, maybe on a good hair-day, “pretty.” But that was about it. No way were boys lining up to kiss me. I doubted they even thought about me. So no, I didn’t get it. What was going on?

  It had to be something slimy.

  “That’s all I have to do?” I said skeptically. “Kiss you—nothing more?”

  Griffin raised his eyebrows, his lips curling into a grin. “You can do more if you want.”

  Jerk! Humiliated, I started to slink away.

  But Griffin grabbed my arm, gently pulling me back to him. “Geez, I was just messing with you, Grange.”

  Grange? He knew my last name?

  His eyes danced as he leaned in close, close enough his warm breath tickled my neck as he asked, “So, we have a deal?”

  I backed away from him, trying to think. It would get Aiden out of trouble and it was just one little kiss. But … it was with a delinquent.

  Then again, my best friend, Jazz, was always saying I needed to loosen up and walk on the wild side. Of course, Griffin Piper was way more wild than what Jazz had meant. Jazz had meant wear bright purple rather than pastels. She didn’t mean date the school’s bad boy.

  But …

  But nothing! Aiden would get his sweet little face smashed to bits by The Griff if I didn’t do this. I couldn’t let that happen.

  I took a deep breath, terrified. What would The Grief Master’s kiss be like? I was a little bit curious, but mostly scared. I’d only kissed two boys in my entire life. I wasn’t experienced by a long shot and I was still slightly nervous that I couldn’t trust The Griff—that it wasn’t really just a kiss he wanted, though it did seem he had only made the deal to make me squirm. I mean, he just seemed entertained—like it would be fun either way: to bash Aiden’s face in or make his girlfriend freak out.

  I nodded that we had a deal, then I gulped—big.

  Griffin noticed and grinned. “Don’t look so scared, Grange. I’m a good kisser.”

  That in no way calmed my nerves. It only made my face burn and my cheeks turn a million shades of red, but somehow I was pretty sure that’s what he wanted.

  His eyes twinkled as he watched me prepare for the kiss, eyeing me wipe my sweaty hands on my jeans and pump my fists a couple times, trying to psyche myself up. Finally, I puckered my lips and leaned in for the kiss.

  Griffin watched me with quirked eyebrows, looking amused. Finally, he gave a soft laugh. “Not here.”

  His eyes danced as I blinked up at him in confusion. What was he talking about? Not here? Where? Panic rushed through me. What exactly had I agreed to?

  Griffin gave another soft laugh. “In room 204. At three.” He leaned in close again, playing with a tendril of my hair. “You’ll survive. I promise.”

  ***

  When I got to room 204 Griffin was already there. He was sitting on a desk, bouncing a rubber ball.

  “About time,” he muttered, hopping off the desk.

  What? I glanced at the clock on the wall directly over his head. It was only 3:02. Two minutes late.

  Griffin eyed me as I gawked at the clock.

  Oh, got it. My face turned red. I could tell by his smirk he was only kidding.

  “Come here,” he said.

  His words and the way he said them, all husky and quiet, made me start to sweat, but also feel butterflies bat around in my stomach. I stood in the open doorway, unable to move.

  Griffin sighed with a slight grin and came over to me. Gently, gently he took my hand, pulling me out of the threshold and silently closed the door. Then he gently backed me up against the door he just closed, pinning me there, but in a half-playful, half-seductive way that had my knees weak and my heart fluttering.

  “Take it easy,” Griffin murmured softly, like I was a wild colt that needed soothing so I didn’t bolt away. His fingers lightly stroked my hair. “I’m not going to hurt you, Grange. I promise.”

  His hands—just touching me—was like electricity shooting through my body. My breath caught and I made this slight moaning sound. It was embarrassing and yet I couldn’t really focus on it or anything that was happening. All I could think about was his lips. They looked so soft and pink and shiny.

  I’d thought about them before actually, lots of times, dreamed of them. Every night for a while. Back in junior high I’d had this mad, monster crush on him. It was embarrassing and stupid and crazy since he didn’t even know I was alive. And, yeah, he was a thug.

  Still, it made this moment … surreal.

  My head was swimming. I had all these wild, scattered thoughts dashing around in my brain, but they all came back to this: I’m going to kiss The Griff, The Grief Master! It had my heart pumping frantic and my pulse zooming wild.

  Gripping the door behind me for support, I wondered if I was going to faint. It seemed like maybe I was. Or have a heart attack. Something dramatic and embarrassing like that.

  I squeezed my eyes shut wondering what it would be like kissing The Griff for real. Would he be like out on the hockey rink—rough and tough? Would he give me whiplash? Somehow, I didn’t think so. If his kiss was anything like his touch just now, or like in my junior high macking dreams, I was going to explode and die from delight.

  Full of curiosity I leaned in for the kiss.

  But there was nothing. No mouth crashing against mine, no I love you, Ally confessed in my ear. No nothing. I leaned in further and waited.

  And waited.

  Still … nothing.

  Finally, cautiously, I peeked my eyes open just a squint wondering what was up but afraid that my face was right next to his.

  It wasn’t.

  Griffin was just watching me, his seductive brown eyes glistening like he knew exactly what had been going on in my brain. He gave a husky little laugh and then (oh!) he drew his soft, pink lips against mine, just brushing them—lightly, tenderly.

  Though it felt oh-so-good—or maybe because it did—I tensed and jerked a bit. Just a tiny bit, but still, I jerked.

  “Relax.” Griffin’s sexy, pink lips hovered over mine, just barely—teasing me, making me yearn. Then his hot mouth pressed against mine for real.

  Only for a second though, because just then Mrs. Finkle barged into the room from the side-door, which connects to Mr. Johnson’s class. The large woman plopped down her armload of books on the nearest desk but we didn’t really notice. We didn’t notice anything except our tongues and heat and pa
ssion. Well anyway, that was all I noticed— until her loud, booming voice made me jump a mile in the air.

  “I’m going to give you two exactly one second to clear out of my classroom,” Mrs. Finkle huffed impatiently. “Then I’m handing out detention slips.”

  ***

  So, that was the first time I kissed “Griff the Grief-Master.” And I—at the time—wasn’t even sure it counted. I mean, it counted for me because it was amazing. I’d felt tingles all the way down to my toes. Seriously. Tingles. It had me in a dreamy, hormone-induced daze for hours.

  But I wasn’t sure if The Griff would count it as a real kiss since we’d only barely touched lips—well, tongue—when Mrs. Finkle barged in and interrupted. Dang her! … Or, uh, lucky me. Depended on how you looked at.

  Anyway, I wasn’t sure Griffin would count it as a real kiss.

  So, as my best friend, Jazz, and I waited to meet up with Aiden after his hockey practice I was incredibly anxious. Jazz and I sat huddled over our trig books in the school library pretending to be doing equations, but really worrying and discussing whether The Griff had punched in my boyfriend’s face or not.

  I hadn’t told Jazz about the kiss or what Griffin had said—that if I kissed him he wouldn’t kill Aiden. I’m not sure why I kept it from her. I basically tell her everything. But I didn’t tell her that. I guess I was kind of embarrassed about it … and felt slightly guilty. I guess. My feelings were all tangled and confused. Anyway, I just couldn’t bring it up.

  I gave a literal sigh of relief when Aiden finally came into the library—his adorable face still intact. I sighed again as he slid into the seat beside me and grinned, showing off his little cute dimples. Love!

  “I saw Griffin at practice,” Aiden said, leaning in close and talking confidential-like as we were in the library where you aren’t supposed to talk, and so that anyone that didn’t already know The Griff had a beef with Aiden didn’t find out now—add fuel to the drama flame.

  Another smile crept on Aiden’s adorable lips as he went on whispering to me animatedly, obviously still on a high from his escape from near death. “When Griffin showed up at practice—late—I was ready to have it out—totally ready to die—right there, at practice. And The Griff made a move toward me, like ‘I’m going to kill you, punk.’ But then he laughed and said, “Nah, just kidding. We’re square.”

  Aiden chuckled, like it was hilarious, but I knew it was just relief. He’d been scared, even more scared than he was letting on. Aiden had wanted to fit in with “the guys” on the hockey team. But he wasn’t like them. He was sweet. When he tried to be “tough” it just pissed everyone off. The guys on the team called him a “poser.” It hurt his feelings, and definitely if he got his face smashed in by The Griff that wouldn’t have helped.

  So, deep inside me things were gushy and excited. My heart was doing acrobats. Griffin had let Aiden off the hook—because of me. Because of my kiss. How cool! My kiss had saved my boyfriend’s pretty face. Awesome, awesome!

  I felt all warm and tingly and tried telling myself that it was just because I was glad Aiden was okay and intact and didn’t get pounded to the ground in front of his teammates. But I wasn’t really sure that was the only reason. I mean, I wanted it to be the only reason, but I was afraid it also had to do with The Griff—that he had let Aiden save-face (literally) because of me. I felt … touched.

  Jazz raised her eyebrows then furrowed them, obviously astounded by the unexpected turn of events. “We’re square? Griffin said that? We’re square?”

  She said it again, incredulously, like: No way.

  Aiden shrugged, still smiling. “That’s what he said.”

  Jazz didn’t look convinced. “Maybe he wants it to be a surprise attack.”

  Aiden shrugged again. “I don’t think so. He seemed in a good mood—like he just aced a test or something. He let me off the hook—we’re square.”

  “Griffin Piper doesn’t let people ‘off the hook,’” Jazz said knowingly, like she was all up on Griffin. “He’d beat you up on principle alone. You called him a Neanderthal.”

  Aiden didn’t miss a beat. “He is.”

  “Yeah, but see, that’s just it,” Jazz said. “He has a reputation to uphold.”

  I traced my lips, still feeling the warmth of Griffin’s hot mouth, or imagining I could. Obviously, Jazz was wrong. Griffin didn’t care about maintaining his bad-boy reputation as much as she thought. Apparently.

  Either that or … he wanted to kiss me pretty bad. The thought made my body kind of spastic and had all the hairs on my arms standing on end. Only that was nothing compared to my heart. It was beating all crazy. But it was dumb to get so worked up over the ridiculous thought. I knew that. It wasn’t like Griffin had a “thing” for me or anything. He didn’t. I knew that. I don’t think he even ever noticed me before.

  Well, I used to think that—that Griffin didn’t notice me. But he knew my last name was Grange, and that Aiden was my boyfriend, so obviously he knew more about me than I thought. But we never had any classes together—and he never talked to me before. Well, except once.

  It was a long time ago, though.

  Back in junior high I’d been carrying an armload of books as I had to change lockers since the girl that had the locker above mine liked to make-out with her boyfriends at her locker, which was, you know, in the same proximity as mine—like right on top of it. And I totally hated to interrupt them to get into my locker, especially because the girl was kind of scary. I mean, I was actually slightly afraid of her. So, instead of being late for every class, or hauling my books around with me everywhere, I decided to change lockers.

  Anyway, I was carrying an armload of books and some guys were joking around, wrestling with each other in the hallway and one of them, Jake Edwards, accidently bumped into me and knocked down the top couple of my stacked books.

  Jake laughed about it and called me a “school girl,” and in case you can’t tell, Jake was a jerk back then (and still is, by the way).

  But Griffin had been one of the guys messing around with Jake. He might have even been the one that pushed Jake into me. I’m not sure. But anyway, there were three of them—three big, bully-guys. So I was nervous and just wanted to get away from them. I even considered leaving the dropped books behind and just taking off. Seriously, that’s how bad I wanted to get away.

  But as I contemplated making a dash for it, Griffin quickly picked up the fallen books. Only then he didn’t hand them back. At first I was terrified he was going to start chucking them at me or at random people as Jake and his friends would probably do something like that, and Griffin had seemed like that kind of jerky guy too. But he didn’t chuck them or do anything mean.

  Instead he said, “Sorry, about that. Your arms are pretty full.” He started to take the rest of the stack from me. “I’ll carry your books for you, okay?”

  His friends razzed him for that, making kissing noises and saying, “Aww, Griffin’s all soft for School Girl.”

  But Griffin just quirked his eyebrows at them like they were idiots—which made me right then and there instantly get a monster crush on him—and secretly keep it for the whole next year, though Griffin never talked to me again and immediately started dating skanky girls—one right after the other.

  So, that was that.

  Until that day—

  When Griffin kissed me and didn’t bash in Aiden’s face.

  ***

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  HIS KISS is available now and only costs a dollar.

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  Other books in the HIS KISS series by Melanie Marks:

  High School Boys:

  This book (High School Boys) includes a standalone novel about best friends, Matt and Nicole, in high school and their fist kiss. Plus, as a bonus, the book includes the story, More Of His Kisses, which goes on with Griffin and Ally’s story right after they start dating.

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  Nicole and Matt have been best friends forever. Sure Nicole has always fantasized about being more than friends, but Matt goes through girlfriends like lightning. So, Nicole figures her heart is safer if they just stay buds. But then—gasp!—one night Matt kisses her. And it’s everything Nicole dreamed it would be—everything—hot, tender, perfect, everything … except now it seems their friendship is ruined. Nicole desperately wants things to go back to the way they were. But the kiss changed everything.

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  Besides the standalone novel about Matt and Nicole, the book also contains, as a bonus, book #2 to the His Kiss series—with Ally and Griffin and what happens with them right after they first start dating.

  High School Boys is available now

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  HER Kiss (Griffin)

  (This Novel is Griffin’s version of Melanie Mark’ book, HIS KISS)

  http://www.amazon.com/Her-Kiss-Griffin-Melanie-Marks-ebook/dp/B00KR0UHW4

  Back in middle school, she gave me a cookie. No other girl had given me a cookie before. Hickeys, phone numbers, semi-dirty messages—those were the kinds of things I was used to getting from girls. It intrigued me. The home-baked cookie thing.

  We’re not in middle school anymore … but she still gives me cookies. (“Anonymously” … she thinks.) I had to trick her into kissing me. But she wanted to do it, I could tell. Pretty much. She just didn’t “want” to want to do it. Maybe because she had a boyfriend … and I was known at our school as a “heartbreaker.” Or so I heard. But I had no plans to break that girl’s heart. I planned to give her mine.

  This is my story.

  Who am I? I’m hockey playing, Ally lovin’, high school bad boy (what???), Griffin Piper.

  (HER Kiss is available now.)

  Note: The book “GRIFFIN” is also available now, but read His Kiss, HER Kiss, and High School Boys first. (Well, you don’t have to, but it’s suggested.) (Note: Griffin #2 is available now as well. But read the other books first.)