Caine Black Knife

by Matthew Stover

“But I am Black Knife. Now kwatcharr. Black Knives never make submission. Not then. Not ever.”

  “Only because there weren’t any—”

  “Yeah.” Orbek leaned toward me, lowering his voice. “Yeah. You do that for us, little brother. After the Horror we scatter to cities. Submit to other clans. By the time the Khulan Horde loses at Ceraeno, Black Knives aren’t Black Knives anymore. Kopav Crookback ain’t Black Knife back then; his sire gives him to Dust Mirrors. Kopav’s sire and his bitches’ other get die without submission. So my clan is free. Of all the Boedecken ogrilloi, only Black Knives are free. And they will be always, unless I hang chains on them myself.”

  “What, you’re gonna die over a fucking legal technicality?”

  “No technifuckinganything. The Champion is the Fist of Khryl. Stand against her, and I stand against the god. So I fight her, and I die. But I die fighting. I die free. Honor on me. Honor on my clan. Next year in Ankhana, there is my oldest boy, Orbek Black Knife: Kaiggezget, to be Black Knife kwatcharr. Black Knives live free forever.”

  I shook my head. “Ever think it might be better for these pups of yours to grow up knowing you? Being with you?”

  “Better than being free? Who am I talking to here?”

  Somehow that’s always the question with me. I brought a hand to my eyes, trying again to massage the headache away. It didn’t work any better than it had before.

  “My father runs to the city,” he said. “This is his shame: that he runs from the Boedecken. Those days, my father’s younger than me when you and me meet in the Pit. My mother dies in Alientown. Killed by a drunk headpounder. My father fever-chokes in the Warrens. My brothers die in the Caverns War. None ever sees the Boedecken. Until me. All we ever know of Our Place—all we know of Black Knives—is what my father remembers, from cub-time. Before the Horror. Before you. When Black Knives rule Our Place. When other ogrilloi circle from our track. When their bitches use magick to scuff out their scent because they nose ours. When men run from just our name.”

  “People run from some of my names too, kid. It’s not something to be proud of.”

  “You say. Easy for you. You walk like a king. More than a king—kings hide when you come to town. When you talk, God listens.”

  “It’s not all it’s cracked up to be.”

  “Now God listens to me!” One ham-size fist struck his barrel chest. “Our god. Black Knife god. She hears my prayer: bring Black Knives back to Our Place. Bring back men’s fear.”

  I could feel a black knife of my own twisting in my guts. “You don’t know what you were asking for.”

  “I do. Our god is no Ma’elKoth, little brother. She makes her bargains up front. She tells me my life is Hers now, and She spends it how She chooses.”

  “She chooses my ass.” I jerked my chin toward the bitch in the corner. “They choose, Orbek. That’s what your father never told you. Black Knives were never kings. They were always slaves. Slaves to the bitches.” He just grinned at me. “I stand with God, little brother. You know nothing.”

  “I was there—”

  “And I am here.”

  “Terggol pettikaar homunn horrillterazz,” the bitch murmured. “Rummattagarr yas burratt net?”

  I looked at Orbek. He showed me more tusk. “She says she knows humans are born half-eligible, but she wonders where you lost your balls.”

  “Tell her—” I stopped and shook my head, disgusted. “Forget it. I got nothing to say to you, you fucking slag.”

  “Hey.” Orbek’s grin dissolved. He pushed himself to his feet. He practically filled the pit. “Watch your mouth with my wife.”

  I looked up into my brother’s cold yellow eyes. “She wants you dead, dick-head. I’m on your side.”

  “My side is the Black Knife side.”

  “I’m trying to save your life.”

  “Nobody asked you.”

  “All you have to do is tell that guy up there that you’ll submit.” I waved a hand at the gaslit face of the Knight Attendant peering down through the grille. “That’s him. Right up there. Just say it, and I’ll get you out of this.”

  Orbek wouldn’t even look up. “Don’t need your help. Don’t want your help.” He took a single step that brought him looming over me. “Nobody asks you to come here. I’m asking you to go.”

  I went perfectly still. For a long time I stared up at the red-streaked silhouette of this ogrillo I called brother. I remembered that if not for Orbek, I’d be dead now. I remembered meeting Orbek in the Ankhanan Donjon; I remembered our fight, and the birth of our friendship. I remembered how Orbek had single-handedly won the Donjon riot that had freed us all. I remembered thinking, back when we’d met in the Donjon’s reeking Pit, that Orbek was a lot like I’d been at that age. Now I could only wonder at how wrong I’d been. Had I ever been this young?

  No, of course not.

  Neither had Orbek.

  Slowly, I hoisted himself back to my feet. “Gonna tell me what’s really going on?”

  “I don’t know what you mean.”

  “Good story, Orbek. Real good. I almost bought it.” I waved at the Knight Attendant above. “Let’s have that ladder, huh?”

  I took Orbek’s massive wrist in an ogrillo handclasp and pulled myself close, my mouth a handspan from his ear. “Want to tell me the truth?” I murmured, barely above a whisper. “Dying won’t help your friends in the Smoke Hunt.”

  “Don’t touch me!” Orbek yanked out of my grip, and a huge hand slammed the middle of my chest so hard I bounced into the wall. “Never touch me. Never again.”

  My head rang. I leaned on the wall, breathing strength back into my legs. “Like that, is it?”

  There was sudden anger in his eyes, and revulsion, and naked loathing. Those ham-size fists twitched up by his face. “You think I want to get out of this, little fucker? You think I want to live?”

  “Orbek—”

  A fist rose, but it didn’t fall on me. It fell on him. On the side of his head. Next to the black-streaked track that led down from his eye.

  Ogrilloi cry tears of blood.

  “After what I do? Think I want to live? After being bitch to you?”

  He hit himself again.

  Oh, I thought, blank as cut stone. Oh, I get it. Oh, Christ.

  I could still look him in the eye, though. I’m tough enough for that. “You knew who I was. You knew what I did.”

  His chin lifted until he was looking at me between his tusks. “Knowing’s one thing. But being with her—being with someone who’s there, who lives through it . . .”

  He lost the words in a throat-deep snarl. I’ve heard that snarl before. Here in the Boedecken. I heard it from bucks tripping on tangles of their own intestines. I heard it from bitches cradling corpses of their cubs. “Orbek, listen—”

  Cables in his neck wrenched his head around. “You never understand my dishonor. You never understand my shame.”

  “Orbek—” My eyes burned. My chest felt like I was trying to breathe under a pile of Black Knife dead. “In the Shaft, you told me that now I share the dishonor I put on the Black Knives. That now what honor I win, I share that too.”

  His yellow stare was raw with pain and loathing. For me or for himself, I couldn’t tell. “I’m younger then. Younger and stupider. Stupid enough to think you know something about honor.”

  And in the end, I’m never quite as tough as I want to be. I found myself looking down at my hands. As usual. “Everybody does shit when they’re young and stupid, Orbek. You just have to fucking live with it.”

  “I don’t.”

  “It’s not that easy.”

  “Is for me. You should go home.”

  “Or what?”

  Lips peeled back around his tusks. “Something could happen to you.”

  “It usually does.”

  He flicked a glance at Kaiggez. “Ain’t you got a family now?”

  “Yeah. And you’re part of it.”

  The trusties pried up the grille, an
d the siege ladder slid down into the pit. I put a hand on a spoke-rung, and a much larger hand fell on my shoulder and turned me around with irresistable strength. “What you think you’re gonna do?”

  I answered with a smile that was as friendly and relaxed as I could manage. “Whatever I think I should.”

  “Not asking now. Telling. Stay out of this.”

  “You might want to take that hand off me, big dog.”

  “Listen, little fucker—”

  “Last time you jumped me I was crippled.” I showed some teeth to those fierce yellow eyes. “Think it’s gonna work out better for you today?”

  “You better—”

  “You better do what you’re fucking told.”

  He froze.

  “You hear me? When Angvasse Khlaylock comes around for her Challenge, you get down on your knees. You’ve been told. Do it.”

  “You tell me nothing. I am Black Knife kwatcharr—”

  “You’re not shit.”

  That powerful hand switched from my shoulder to my chest and pinned me to the wall. Orbek bent over me, tusks inches from my jaw. Behind him, Kaiggez sat up, her eyes catching witchfire highlights. Orbek’s breath smelled like roadkill. “Want to try me, little fucker?”

  “You got it backward.” I went completely boneless, letting him support my whole weight; if this went bad, I’d need both legs to kick. “I took your submission in the Donjon, shithead. You’re mine.”

  His hairless brows drew together in a rumple of meat.

  “Yeah,” I said. “That’s right.”

  I leaned around him so I could get a good look at the cold calculation growing in Kaiggez’s eyes. I blurred my voice low to keep this from Khryllian ears above. “You getting this, Lady Macbitch? Orbek’s nobody special. He’s sure as fuck not Black Knife kwatcharr.”

  I grinned right into his blankly wounded face. “I am.”

  His face went from wounded to dead. I hadn’t just hurt him this time. Something was dying inside him. Dying right in front of me. “You—you can’t just—”

  “I didn’t. You did. Now take your fucking hand off me before I kill you myself.”

  I’d worry about his goddamn feelings after I didn’t have to worry about his life.

  His hand only tightened, and I’d had enough of this shit. I popped the nerve cluster on the inside of his bicep; he grunted and his hand spasmed open. I stepped up close and gave him a couple seconds to decide if he had a move to make.

  He leaned down close enough that a twitch of his head would hook a tusk into my eye. “Don’t want you in my business, little fucker. Don’t want your teeth in my kill. Fucking human—”

  Just talk. I turned my back on him and started up the ladder.

  “Everything you do makes trouble,” he snarled after me. “Everything you touch fucks up. You come around and everybody dies.”

  “Should have thought of that before you adopted me,” I said, and slipped over the rim of the pit into the night and the rain.

  THE MEMORY OF DAY

  RETREAT FROM THE BOEDECKEN (partial)

  you are CAINE (featured Actor: Pfnl. Hari Michaelson)

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  The middle distance hums with echoes of roars and bellowing: somebody’s still fighting, a tier or two below, close enough that I can hear them over the rising wind. But it’s not them I have to find. As long as they’re fighting, they don’t need me.

  Hello? Goddammit. Hey! Over here!

  Come on, come on—

  Nothing.

  Standing in open moonlight waving at shadows on the parapet is only making me feel like an idiot. Tizarre must be busy with the others. Or she’s just not there. Or—

  Flame explodes in a brilliant surging tidal bore along the face of the vertical city. Above flat black stone, ragged billows of sunfire claw against the wind.

  Shit.

  That’s not the or I was hoping for.

  >>scanning fwd>>

  His Minor Shield is warm as flesh, a curve of softly shimmering almost-glass that gives a little under my hand. I’d lean on it while I get my breath but if he passes out it’ll dump me on my face, so I settle against the age-rounded stone of the narrow alleyway instead. But even leaning is too much: my eyelids go heavy and my knees go to cloth and fuck me stand up fuck my ass stand up—

  Balancing precariously on someone else’s legs, I try again. “Come on, goddammit,talk to me. Which way did they take her?”

  On the Shield’s far side, Rababàl’s still fumbling inside the bloody tangle of his cape. The arrow shaft sticking out from his shattered collarbone twitches in a different rhythm from the hitching pulse of the one through his lung.“

  Bastard . . . stay there, you . . . bastard,” he gasps. He tries to push himself up the wall of the little cul-de-sac, but his legs are worse than mine and he sags back down onto the sand drift in the corner.

  “Just stay there. . . . They’ll be back, be back any second now. Just—I just . . . fucker. You fucker.”

  He says it like it’s the worst word he knows.

  “Before—before I do it . . . all I want—I want is—I want to watch them kill you. I hope they . . . uh. Uh. I hope it hurts.”

  So he’s the kind who needs to blame somebody. Maybe he’s got reason.

  “Look, forget me, huh? Think about Tizarre. You want to leave her with them?”

  “I don’t . . . don’t care,” he wheezes. “Ahhh . . . hkk. There it is.” One of his hands comes out of his cape holding a buckeye. “My last . . . I’ve been saving . . .”

  “Listen, goddammit!” I give his Shield a solid whack with the toe of my boot, and the impact feeds back enough through his Flow-link to make him grunt. “You sack of yellow shit—sure, you get to go clean. What about Tizarre ?”

  “Fucker.” Bloody froth trails black from his mouth in the moonlight, and he finally meets my eye, and I have never seen such naked loathing on a human face. “This was mine, you fucker. It was mine. My shot. All these years . . . working—waiting . . . you fucker.”

  What the hell’s he talking about? “Come on, Rababàl—this is your last chance to not be a pissy bitch—”

  “It was mine!” His shriek sprays black froth into the sand between us. “My idea. My plan. Mine, you fucker! And then you . . . you . . . now it’s all about you . . .”

  His voice breaks down into harsh hollow gasps, and—

  Is he crying?

  “Who are you anyway? Huh? Who the fuck are you? You’re fucking nobody! What gives you the right to . . . the right . . .”

  The alley mouth behind me begins to whisper with the clicking of toeclaws on stone. Lots of them. Not too far away and getting closer.

  He’s sobbing openly now. The buckeye lies forgotten on his limp, nerveless palm. “What gives you the right . . . ?”

  “Right’s got nothing to do with it. Maybe you haven’t noticed.”

  His sobs hiccup to a sudden stop. He blinks once. And again.

  He says quietly, “East.”

  He leans to one side and gathers the last two canteens into the curve of his working arm. “Away from the central ramps.”

  “All right.” The clicking’s getting louder. “Rababàl—”

  “You should go.”

  “Yeah.”

  “Caine.”

  “Yeah?”

  “I don’t forgive you.”

  I look back. His stare is colder than the moon.

  “Do you hear me? You are not forgiven.”

  I give him a nod. “I hear you.”

  It seems to mean something to him.

  “Go.”

  I find handholds on the wall and search for the first foothold with the toe of my boot and find it and up I go. I make the top of the wall a second or two before the alley fills with Black Knives. They move cautiously toward the curve of force that seals the cul-de-sac. From beyond the curve, o
ne tiny motion: Rababàl’s fist closing around that buckeye—

  And I decide to get the hell out.

  Around the black-gapped wells of collapsed rooftops, the walls are thick enough to run on. Black Knives shout behind me and arrows hiss into the night, but they can’t pursue without climbing the wall or breaking the Shield, and I’m already fifty yards away when the night roars flame behind me.

  I don’t look back. At least I didn’t have to kill him myself.

  I keep running.

  East.

  >>scanning fwd>>

  The ground he’s carrying me over—what I can see of it past his huge gorilla ass—is still the city’s sand-dusted stone, bleached by moonlight. Must have been unconscious no more than a minute or two.

  He swings along at a leisurely walk. Sure. Why hurry?

  Twisting enough to get a look behind us scrapes the throw net across my face. The rough prickly hemp is wet with blood. Probably mine. Head wound, I bet. Which explains why I can’t remember how he caught me.

  No way to tell how bad I’m hurt. The strings of puke on the hemp are probably mine too. This fucker’s shoulder is broad as a saddle, but playing sack-of-potatoes over it isn’t doing my guts any favors.

  But it was worth taking the look; we seem to be Ass-End Charlie in this little parade.

  All right. All right because he’s no expert at the frisk. There’s one he missed.

  Pressure of the steel: hard against the curve of my spine between my shoulder blades—

  All right. I can do this.

  Slowly. Slowly. I rotate my wrists, turning my hands within the—ropes? strips of leather?—that bind them behind my kidneys.

  Slowly. If he tumbles I’m awake, I’m fucked.

  Uh: more fucked.

  Half-numb fingers grope for the point of the sheath . . .

  There. There. Yeah.

  All right.

  Better use my left. Might cut a tendon.

  I get a grip on the sheath and squeeze. The razor edge of the thrower slices through the sheath’s stitching almost without effort and goes through the leather of my tunic even easier. A line of ice bites into my fingers, but the tendons seem okay: I can pinch the sheath and work the exposed edge against the bindings on my wrists and it’s too much movement but he’s jogging along oblivious beneath me and I bounce on his shoulder limp as a corpse and now my hands are free.