A Hunger for the Forbidden

by Maisey Yates

  She got out of bed and started hunting for some clothes. There was nothing. Only a discarded red apron that she knew from last night didn’t cover a whole lot.

  “I’m busy, you can’t just call a meeting and expect me to drop everything and come to you like a lapdog. Maybe you’re used to your family treating you that way, but you don’t get that deference from me.”

  Alessia picked the apron up and put it on. It was better than nothing.

  Matteo stood from the bed, completely naked, pacing the room. She stood for a moment and just watched. The play of his muscles beneath sleek, olive skin was about the sexiest thing she’d ever seen.

  “Angelo?” The name came out like a curse. “What are you doing meeting with that bastard?” A pause. “It was a commentary on his character, not his birth. Fine. Noon. Salvatore’s.”

  He pushed the end-call button and tossed the phone down on the bed, continuing to prowl the room. “That was Alessandro.”

  “I got that.”

  “He wants me to come to a meeting at our grandfather’s. With Angelo, of all people.”

  “He is your cousin. He’s family, and so is Alessandro.”

  “I have enough family that I don’t like. Why would I add any more?”

  “You don’t even like your brothers?”

  “No.”

  “Why don’t you like your brothers?”

  “Because if I ever do seem to be in danger of being sucked into the Corretti mind-set it’s when we start playing stupid business games.”

  “But they’re your family.”

  “My family is a joke. We’re nothing but criminals and selfish assholes who would sell each other out for the right price. And we’ve all done it.”

  “So maybe someone needs to stop,” she said, her voice soft.

  “I don’t know if we can.”

  “Maybe you should be the first one?”

  “Alessia …”

  “Look, I know I’m not a business mind, and I know I don’t understand the dynamics of your family, but if you hate this part of it so much, then end it.”

  “I need to get dressed.”

  “I’ll go make breakfast,” she said. “I’m dressed for it.”

  “You might give my staff a shock.”

  “Oh—” her cheeks heated “—right, on second thought I might go back to my room.”

  “That’s fine. And after that, you can ask Giancarlo if he would have your things moved into the master suite.”

  “You want me to move in?”

  “Yes. You tramping back to your room in an apron is going to get inconvenient quickly, don’t you think?”

  Alessia felt her little glow of hope grow. “Yeah. Definitely it would be a little bit inconvenient. I would love to move into your room.”

  “Good.” He leaned in and dropped a kiss on her lips. “Now, I have to get ready.”

  When Salvatore had been alive, Matteo had avoided going to his grandparents’ home as often as he could. The old man was a manipulator and Matteo was rarely in the mood for his kind of mind games.

  Still, whenever his grandmother had needed him, he had been there. They all had. This had long been neutral ground for that very reason. For Teresa. Which made it a fitting setting for what they were doing today.

  Matteo walked over the threshold and was ushered back toward the study. He didn’t see his grandmother, or any of the staff. Only a hostile-looking Alessandro, and Angelo sitting in a chair, a drink in hand.

  “What was so important that you needed to speak to me?”

  “Sorry to interrupt the blissful honeymoon stage with your new bride. I assume she actually went through with your wedding,” Alessandro said.

  “She did,” he said.

  Angelo leaned back in one of the high-backed chairs, scanning the room. “So this is what old Corretti money buys. I think I prefer my homes.”

  “We all prefer not to be here,” Matteo said. “Which begs the question again, why are we?”

  “You married Alessia, I can only assume that means you’ve cut a deal with her father?”

  “Trade in and out of Sicily is secured for the Correttis and the docklands are ours. The revitalization project is set to move forward.”

  “Handy,” Angelo said, leaning forward, “because I secured a deal with Battaglia, as well.” Angelo explained the details of the housing development he was working on, eased by Battaglia’s connections.

  “And what does that have to do with us?”

  “Well,” Angelo continued, “it can have a lot to do with you. Assuming you want to take steps to unify the company.”

  “We need to unify,” Alessandro said, his tone uncompromising. “Otherwise, we’ll just spend the next forty years tearing everything apart. Like our fathers did.”

  Matteo laughed, a black, humorless sound. “You are my cousin, Alessandro, but I have no desire to die in a warehouse fire with you.”

  “That’s why this has to end,” Alessandro said. “I have a proposal to make. One that will see everyone in the family with an equal share of power. It will put us in the position to make the company, the family, strong again. Without stooping to criminal activity to accomplish it.”

  Alessandro outlined his plan. It would involve everyone, including their sisters, giving everyone equal share in the company and unifying both sides for the first time.

  “This will work as long as this jackass is willing to put some of the extra shares he’s acquired back into the pot,” Alessandro said, indicating Angelo.

  “I said I would,” Angelo responded, his acquiescence surprising. Equally surprising was the lack of venom and anger coming from the other man. Or maybe not. Matteo had to wonder if Angelo had met a woman. He knew just the kind of change a woman could effect on a man.

  “There you are,” Alessandro said. “Are you with us?”

  Matteo thought of the fire. Of the last time he’d seen his father. Of all that greed had cost. This was his chance to put an end to that. To start fresh. The past could never be erased, it would always be there. But the future could be new. For him. For Alessia. For their child.

  He had too many other things in his life, good things, to waste any effort holding on to hatred he didn’t even have the energy to feel.

  He extended his hand and Alessandro took it, shaking it firmly. Then Matteo extended his hand to Angelo and, for the first time, shook his hand. “I guess that means you’re one of us now,” he said to Angelo. “I don’t know if you should be happy about that or not.”

  “I’ll let you know,” Angelo said. “But so far, it doesn’t seem so bad.”

  “All right, where do I sign?”

  CHAPTER ELEVEN

  MATTEO WAS EXHAUSTED by the time he got around to driving back to his palazzo. Dealing with Alessandro, going to his grandfather’s house, had been draining in a way he had not anticipated. And yet, in some ways, there was a weight lifted. The promise of a future that held peace instead of violence. The first time his future had ever looked that way.

  And he had Alessia to go home to. That thought sent a kick of adrenaline through him, made him feel like there was warmth in his chest. Made him feel like he wasn’t so cold.

  He left the car parked in front of his house with the keys in the ignition. One of his staff would park it for him later. And if not, he didn’t mind it being there in the morning. But he couldn’t put off seeing Alessia, not for another moment. He needed to see her for some reason, needed affirmation of who he was. To see her face light up. To have someone look at him like they didn’t know who and what he was.

  Alessandro and Angelo didn’t know about his past, but they knew enough about the family to have an idea. Alessandro certainly hadn’t escaped a childhood with Carlo without gaining a few scars of his own.

  But Alessia looked at him like none of that mattered. Like she didn’t know or believe any of it.

  That isn’t fair. She should know.

  No, he didn’t want her to know. He wanted
to keep being her knight. To have one person look and see the man he might have been if it weren’t for Benito Corretti.

  He would change what it meant to be a Corretti for his child. He would never let them see the darkness. Never.

  A fierce protectiveness surged through him, for the first time a true understanding of what it meant for Alessia to be pregnant.

  A child. His child.

  He prowled through the halls of the palazzo and found Alessia in a sitting room, a book in her hands, her knees drawn up to her chest. She was wearing a simple sundress that had slid high up her thighs. He wanted nothing more than to push it up the rest of the way, but he also found he didn’t want to disturb her. He simply wanted to look.

  She raised her focus then, and her entire countenance changed, her face catching the sunlight filtering through the window. Her dark eyes glittered, her smile bright. Had anyone else ever looked at him like that?

  He didn’t think they had.

  “How did the meeting go?”

  “We called each other names. Insulted each other’s honor and then shook hands. So about as expected.”

  She laughed. “Good, I guess.”

  “Yes. We’ve come up with a way to divide Corretti Enterprises up evenly. A way for everyone to get their share. It’s in everyone’s best interests, really. Especially the generation that comes after us. Which I now have a vested interest in.”

  She smiled, the dimple on her left cheek deepening. “I suppose you do. And … I’m glad you do.”

  He moved to sit on the couch, at her feet, then he leaned in. “Can you feel the baby move yet?”

  She shook her head. “No. The doctor said it will feel like a flutter, though.”

  “May I?” he asked, stretching his hand out, just over the small, rounded swell of her stomach.

  “Of course.”

  He swallowed hard and placed his palm flat on her belly. It was the smallest little bump, but it was different than it had been. Evidence of the life that was growing inside her. A life they’d created.

  She was going to be the mother of his child. She deserved to know. To really understand him. Not to simply look at him and see an illusion. He’d given her a taste of it earlier, but his need for that look, that one she reserved just for him, that look he only got from her, had prevented him from being honest. Had made him hold back the most essential piece of just why he was not the man to be her husband.

  The depth to which he was capable of stooping.

  Because no matter how bright the future had become, the past was still filled with shadows. And until they were brought into the sunlight, their power would remain.

  “There is something else,” he said, taking his hand from her stomach, curling it into a fist. His skin burned.

  “About the meeting?”

  “No,” he said. “Not about the meeting.”

  “What about?”

  “About me. About why … about why it might not be the best idea for you to try to make a marriage with me. About the limit of what I can give.”

  “Matteo, I already told you how I feel about what happened with your father.”

  “By that you mean when he took me on errands?”

  “Well … yes.”

  “So, you don’t mean what happened the night of the warehouse fire that killed him and Carlo.”

  “No. No one knows what happened that night.”

  “That isn’t true,” he said, the words scraping his throat raw. “Someone knows.”

  “Who?” she asked, but he could tell she already knew.

  “I know.”

  “How?”

  “Because, cara mia. I was there.”

  “You were there?”

  He nodded slowly. Visions of fire filled his mind. Fire and brimstone, such an appropriate vision. “Yes. I was there to try to convince my father to turn over the holdings of Corretti to me entirely. I wanted to change things. To end the extortion and scams. All of it. But he wouldn’t hear it. You see, at the time, he was still running criminal schemes, using the hotels, which I was managing, to help launder money. To help get counterfeit bills into circulation, into the right hands. Or wrong hands as the case may have been. I didn’t want any part of it, but as long as my father was involved in the running of the corporation, that was never going to end. I wanted out.”

  “Oh,” Alessia said, the word a whisper, as if she knew what was coming next. He didn’t want her to guess at it, because he wanted, perversely, for her to believe it impossible. For her to cling to the white-knight image and turn away from the truth he was about to show her.

  “I don’t know how the fire started. But the warehouse was filled with counterfeiting plates, and their printing presses. That’s one way to make money, right? Print your own.”

  He looked down at his hands, his heart pounding hard, his stomach so tight he could hardly breathe. “The fire spread quickly. I don’t know where Carlo was when it broke out. But I was outside arguing with my father. And he turned and … and he looked at the blaze and he started to walk toward it.”

  Matteo closed his eyes, the impression of flames burning bright behind his eyelids. “I told him if he went back into that damned warehouse to rescue those plates, I would leave him to it. I told him to let it burn. To let us start over. I told him that if he went back, I would be happy to let him burn with it all, and then let him continue to burn in hell.”

  “Matteo … no.” She shook her head, those dark eyes glistening with tears. She looked horrified. Utterly. Completely. The light was gone. His light.

  “Yes,” he said, his voice rough. “Can you guess what he did?”

  “What?” The word was scarcely a whisper.

  “He laughed. And he said, ‘Just as I thought, you are my son.’ He told me that no matter how I dressed it up, no matter how I pretended I had morals, I was just as bloodthirsty as he was. Just as hungry for vengeance and to have what I thought should be mine, in the fashion I saw fit. And then he walked back into the warehouse.”

  “What did you do?”

  Matteo remembered the moment vividly. Remembered waiting for a minute, watching, letting his father’s words sink in. Recognizing the truth of them. And embracing them fully. He was his father’s son. And if he, or anyone else, stood a chance of ever breaking free, it had to end.

  The front end of the warehouse had collapsed and Matteo had stood back, looking on, his hand curled around his phone. He could have called emergency services. He could have tried to save Benito.

  But he hadn’t. Instead, he’d turned his back, the heat blistering behind him, a spark falling onto his neck, singeing his flesh. And then he’d walked away. And he hadn’t looked back, not once. And in that moment he was the full embodiment of everything his father had trained him to be.

  He’d found out about Carlo’s and Benito’s deaths over the phone the next day. And there had been no more denial, no more hiding. No more believing that somewhere deep down he was good. That he had a hope of redemption.

  He had let it burn in the warehouse.

  “I let him die,” he said. “I watched him go in, watched as the front end of the building collapsed. I could have called someone, and I didn’t. I made the choice to be the man he always wanted me to be. The man I always was. I turned and I walked away. I did just as I promised I would do. I let him burn, with all of his damned money. And I can’t regret the choice. He made his, I made mine. And everyone is free of him now. Of both of them.”

  Alessia was waxen, her skin pale, her lips tinged blue. “I don’t know what to say.”

  “Do you see, Alessia? This is what I was trying to tell you. What you need to understand.” He leaned forward, extending his hand to her, and she jerked back. Her withdrawal felt like a stab to the chest, but it was no less than he deserved. “I’m not the hero of the story. I am nothing less than the villain.”

  She understood now, he could see it, along with a dawning horror in her eyes that he wanted to turn away from. Sh
e was afraid. Afraid of him. He wasn’t her knight anymore.

  “I think maybe I should wait a few days to have my things moved into your room,” she said after a long moment of silence.

  He nodded. “That might be wise.” Pain assaulted him and he tried to ignore it, tried to grit his teeth and sit with a neutral expression.

  “I’ll talk to you later?”

  “Of course.” He sat back on the couch and watched her leave. Then he closed his eyes and tried to picture her smile again. Tried to recapture the way she’d looked at him just a few moments before. But instead of her light, all he could see was a haunted expression, one he had put there.

  Alessia was gasping for breath by the time she got to her bedroom. She closed the door behind her and put her hand on her chest, felt her heart hammering beneath her palm.

  Matteo had let Benito and Carlo die.

  She sucked in a shuddering breath and started pacing back and forth, fighting the tears that were threatening to spill down her cheeks.

  She replayed what he had said again in her mind. He hadn’t forced Benito or Carlo back into the burning building. Hadn’t caused them harm with his own hands.

  He had walked away. He had washed his hands and walked away, accepting in that moment whatever the consequences might be.

  Alessia walked over to her bed and sat on the edge of it. And she tried to reconcile the man downstairs with the man she’d always believed him to be.

  The man beneath the armor wasn’t perfect. He was wounded, damaged beyond reason. Hurting. And for the first time she really understood what that meant. Understood how shut down he was. How much it would take to reach him.

  And she wasn’t sure if she could do it. Wasn’t sure she had the strength to do it.

  It had been so much easier when he was simply the fantasy. When he was the man she’d made him be in her mind. When he was an ideal, a man sent to ride to her rescue.

  She’d put him in that position. From the moment she’d first seen him. Then after he had rescued her, she’d assigned him that place even more so.