The Hazed Series (New Edition)
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“I want to help you. If I make a list of techniques, would you give them a try?”
“I guess trying wouldn’t hurt,” I said.
I wanted to wish him luck, but it’d piss him off. I’ve tried things, other than drugs and randos I pick up at the bar. I’ve been obsessively reading a prison journaling site. I’m not sure why; I think it helps me feel closer to him. I feel the knife in my gut when a prisoner mentions mail time and visitation. It just reminds me that he’ll never get so much as a card from his family.
Everyone else seems to be moving on; it’s almost like they’ve forgotten, but sometimes I think I’m getting worse. I know I won’t ever be the same. Dr. Moore is hopeful, but no one will ever be able to help me; I’m a lost cause.
He ripped the paper from the notebook, handing it to me. I took it, nodding to him and began to read over it.
“One day, this will all be behind you,” he said.
My lips curved into a side grin, “Sorry for wasting another hour of your life, Doc,” I said, standing to leave his office.
“You never waste my time. You’ll know your worth; you’ll find someone that teaches you of your worth.”
I walked to the door, stopping before I left. “Find someone? Like a woman?” I asked, I couldn’t help but laugh.
He shrugged his shoulder, pushing his glasses up. “You laugh, but in a few years, you’ll see I’m right.”
“I know you’re right. I found five of ‘em this week,” I said, opening his door. His face twitched; I know he wants to laugh at me, but it wouldn’t be professional.
“I don’t recommend it to most people I see, but I think it would work for you.”
Chuckling, I walked out. My mom, of course, was waiting for me in the waiting room. At least she didn’t bring a sucker with her this time. I chuckled, I’d never find a girl, hanging out at shrinks’ office with my mom. I looked at the paper, only reading the first two requests. Go on a date. Let someone love you.
“How did it go, honey?” My mom asked.
“Apparently I need a girlfriend,” I said, shoving the paper in my front pocket. I opened the door to his office, letting my mom pass in front of me. I pulled my keys out, ready to get the hell away from here.
“That wouldn’t be such a bad thing. You’ve never brought a girl home. Do you date?” She asked, stopping in the parking lot. Her car was on the opposite side.
“You don’t want me to meet the girls I spend time with,” I said, laughing. She looked at me with disgust, shaking her head. I was always honest with her, and I got the feeling she wished I wasn’t.
Despite the feeling of disgust, she hugged me before walking to her car. I shook my head, clearing my mind. Go on an actual date? Let someone love me? Dr. Moore was losing his damn mind. I was unlovable as were the women in this town.
ACKNOWLEDGEMETNS
Writing this story has been the most emotional time of my life. Thank you Shealee for encouraging me to write this. And then again for making me write a second, when I was talking crazy. When I first thought of this story, I wasn’t giving them a happy ending. Thank you for making me.
Hope McKinney, thank you for reading every chapter I send to you and only bringing out the positivity in the story. Don’t underestimate what you do for me. I couldn’t finish my books if it wasn’t for you.
My precious mother, thank you for all you do. I know you think I’m crazy for sitting in front of a computer for hours a day, but you support me anyway. Avery, your patience and love always gets me through hard times. Thank you for letting me write, I know it isn’t always easy for you.
Brittany’s Bookies, you guys are amazing! You’re so encouraging and you always keep me pumped and ready to write. I can’t thank you group of ladies enough!
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Brittany Butler started writing at age 22. A year later, Forever Careless, her debut novel, was self-published and was an Amazon Best Seller. She released Forever Reckless, a novella, months after. She is working on other novels, but focusing on Hayze’s story, Ruined. Brittany's currently studying to be a paralegal. During her free time, she writes. Sometimes she goes to friends' houses to listen to their drama for good book material.
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Also by Brittany Butler:
The Forever Series:
Forever Carless
Forever Reckless
The Hazed Series:
Hazed
Unfazed