For The Sake Of His Child

by Lucy Gordon

  He pulled himself together. It had been a delightful interlude, like taking a much needed holiday. But now he must return to the real world, and it would be better not to see her again.

  Gina found her secretary deep in paperwork. Dulcie was middle-aged, had worked for the firm for over twenty years and took a robustly cynical view of her employers. But she had a soft spot for Gina.

  With her first words, she revealed the flaw in Gina’s secrecy arrangements.

  ‘Did I see you having lunch with Carson Page in Bob’s Café?’ she asked.

  ‘Oh, heavens! You didn’t tell anyone, did you?’

  ‘Not a soul. If Philip Hale thinks you’re trying to pinch his newest acquisition, there’ll be hell to pay.’

  ‘I know. Look, Dulcie, this is for your ears alone-’

  ‘Silent as the grave.’

  Gina briefly described what had happened, and Dulcie gave a snort of laughter that she hastily smothered.

  ‘You bashed Carson Page’s car and lived to tell the tale?’ she asked. ‘And he’s paying for all the repairs? What’s your secret?’

  ‘Nothing. He’s just a very nice, reasonable man.’

  ‘He isn’t,’ Dulcie said at once. ‘I’ve got a friend who works for the last firm of lawyers he employed and he’s the client from hell. He owns Page Engineering, and I suppose if he wasn’t aggressive he couldn’t have made it what it is today.’

  ‘Goodness!’ Gina exclaimed. ‘That Carson Page? I never dreamed-I mean, I’ve heard of him.’

  He’d created Page Engineering from nothing, fighting off competition ruthlessly, buying up smaller firms, and carving a large share of the market for himself. He was unstoppable. Whatever he touched turned to gold, or so the financial pages insisted.

  He was also a bad enemy, driving opponents into the ground. And she’d dented his Rolls.

  ‘You’ve got to hand it to him as a businessman,’ Dulcie conceded. ‘But talk about difficult and demanding!’ She eyed her young boss significantly. ‘But not with you, eh?’

  ‘Oh, stop it!’ Gina said, reddening slightly. ‘He was just-I don’t know-he was a grouch, but a nice grouch. At least, he was trying to be nice, but he was awkward about it, as though he was using muscles that were a bit stiff.’

  ‘That sounds about right. He’s not known for overwhelming people with charm. Obviously you made an impression. Play your cards right and you’ll be travelling in that Rolls yourself.’

  ‘Nonsense. I’ll never see him again. Anyway, I’ve got my lovely Dan.’

  ‘I could think of many descriptions for your Dan, but lovely isn’t one of them,’ Dulcie said tartly. ‘He’s dull, he’s limited, you’re only dating him because you’ve known him since the year dot, and he takes you for granted.’

  ‘Well, I take him for granted, too. It’s cosy.’

  Dulcie muttered, ‘Give me patience,’ and returned to her work, but only after Gina had made her promise yet again that not a word would pass her lips.

  It was true that she’d known Dan since childhood, and was comfortable with him, but what was wrong with that? she thought, a tad defensively. The long years of suffering a crippling disability had left her willing to count her blessings.

  She was meeting him that night in a tiny restaurant a couple of miles away. She booked a taxi, then, on impulse, called the garage and asked about her car.

  ‘You’re lucky,’ the head mechanic told her. ‘It’s not easy to find a new engine for that make, but for Mr Page we pulled out the stops.’

  ‘Excuse me-did you say a new engine?’ she asked faintly.

  ‘Only thing that will do it. New steering, too.’

  ‘But it’ll cost a fortune.’

  ‘Well, it’s going on his bill, so why worry?’

  ‘Oh, no, I don’t want this-’

  ‘Too late. It’s in pieces now.’

  Dazed, she put the phone down. She needed that new engine, but to owe a stranger so much!

  But, of course, Carson Page was a rich man who’d simply bought off trouble because it was quicker that way. She needn’t give him a second thought, any more than he would give her a second thought.

  CHAPTER TWO

  G INA went to change for the evening ahead, slipping off her smart business suit and donning a simple green dress. It was sleeveless but had a high neck against which rested a dainty pendant.

  She brushed out her hair and added a little more make-up. Then she was ready.

  She was a few minutes late at the restaurant, but there was no sign of Dan. She ordered herself a sherry, and sat waiting, hoping he wouldn’t be too long.

  ‘Do you mind if I join you?’

  She looked up to see Carson Page standing, regarding her gravely.

  ‘Are you waiting for someone?’ he asked.

  ‘Yes, Dan-my boyfriend. He’s a little late.’

  ‘Then I’ll only stay a moment.’ He sat down. ‘I just wanted to let you know that your car will be finished the day after next.’

  ‘I know. I called the garage. Mr Page-’

  ‘Carson.’

  ‘Carson, I had no idea you were going to replace the engine. There was no need for that.’

  ‘According to the garage, there was every need.’

  ‘You know what I mean. I want to pay you-not immediately, but in instalments-’

  ‘All right, pay me one day. Now, can we forget this?’

  She agreed, with a horrid suspicion that she was boring him. ‘How did you know I’d be here?’ she asked.

  ‘I was going to drop in at your office, but I arrived just as you were getting into a taxi. So I told my taxi to follow you.’

  He ordered himself a drink, and she watched him, trying to tie this man in with the ogre Dulcie had described. ‘Difficult and demanding’ she could understand. Even when he was being kind, his air of pride and self-will were unmistakable. A bad enemy. A man who expected things done his way, and at once. A disturbing man. An exciting man.

  She tried to brush that idea away, but it lurked on the fringe of her consciousness, taking little pot-shots at her more sedate thoughts.

  He was different from other men, as a lion was different from kittens. She wished Dan would hurry up and arrive. Something was happening here that was threatening her carefully constructed world, and if she hurried she might still be in time to avoid it.

  ‘What about your car?’ she asked, hoping that her voice wouldn’t shake and betray her inner confusion.

  ‘It’ll be ready by tomorrow.’ He looked at the clock on the wall. ‘Seven-twenty. What time was your date supposed to arrive?’

  ‘Any time about now,’ she prevaricated. Dan should have been there at seven. ‘He’s very busy.’

  ‘So am I, but if I make a date with a lady I’m punctual.’

  ‘Actually I’m early. I don’t expect him until seven-thirty,’ she said defiantly.

  ‘If you say so.’ His dark eyes warned her not to try to fool him.

  ‘What did you think of Philip Hale?’ she asked, valiantly searching for a new topic of conversation.

  ‘He’s everything you said. Brilliant-couldn’t have a better man-for a limited range. Also the biggest bore in creation. Never says anything once if he can say it ten times.’

  She choked into her sherry and put it down hastily, her shoulders shaking.

  ‘Don’t smother it,’ he advised her. ‘Laugh aloud. He isn’t here to know.’

  ‘I shouldn’t think anyone’s ever spoken about him that way before,’ she chuckled.

  ‘Nonsense. Everyone who’s ever met him must have said something like that as soon as they escaped.’

  He hoped she would go on laughing, because her laughter made the sun come out again. But she controlled herself, pressing her lips together, although her eyes still brimmed with fun. He would have to make do with that.

  ‘Anyway, bore or not, I’ve decided to take him on. I’m seeing him again tomorrow, heaven help me! He’s a good lawyer, within his
range. Do you have a speciality?’

  ‘Property and commercial law.’

  ‘So you might be doing some of my work?’

  There was a noise in the background. Gina leaned forward, frowning. ‘Could you repeat that?’

  ‘You might be doing some of my work.’ He saw her watching him intently. ‘What is it?’

  ‘I’m deaf,’ she said simply.

  ‘Nonsense!’ he said brusquely. ‘You can’t be.’

  Gina’s face broke into the happiest smile he’d ever seen.

  ‘Thank you. That’s the nicest thing anyone’s said to me since-since I went deaf.’

  He frowned. ‘But you seem to be hearing me quite normally. Are you saying you’ve been lip-reading all this time?’

  ‘Oh, no. I have a cochlear implant that helps me. I can hear most things, but if there’s background noise I sometimes miss a few words.’

  Before her eyes he changed. A heaviness seemed to settle over him. ‘I see,’ he said. ‘I never suspected-’

  ‘Why should you? Apart from the odd moment, I’m just like everyone else.’

  ‘Yes, of course. Forgive me. I was just thinking-’

  Gina watched him in dismay. She knew exactly what he was thinking. She was used to people who flinched at the word deaf, who couldn’t cope with even the thought.

  But not this man, surely? She’d been so sure that he was special that she’d admitted her problem without worrying. Now her heart sank at the thought that he might be no better than the others.

  The discovery hurt, but she couldn’t escape it. There was no mistaking the chill, withdrawn look that had come over his face. He no longer knew what to say to her.

  To her relief she saw Dan hurrying towards her, dodging between the tables. ‘Darling, I’m so sorry I’m late. Something came up…’

  Carson rose quickly. ‘I gather this is your date. I won’t keep you.’ He nodded politely at Dan and walked away.

  ‘Who was that?’ Dan asked, kissing her on the cheek.

  ‘Carson Page. I bashed his car.’

  ‘Good grief! The Carson Page? Darling, you shouldn’t have let him go so easily. He’s a big man.’

  ‘No, he isn’t,’ Gina said with a little sigh. ‘He’s just like all the rest.’

  The next afternoon, the receptionist called to say that there had been a delivery for Gina. Dulcie was deep in correspondence, so Gina went out herself. And that was how she saw Carson Page arriving, accompanied by a little boy of about eight. The child had a pale, intelligent face, and he looked nervous.

  Philip Hale arrived, full of an effusive greeting, which Carson returned politely, but with a cool restraint that would have warned a subtler man than Hale.

  It was strange, Gina thought, how the child showed no awareness of the conversation going on over his head. Almost as if…

  I’m imagining things, she thought, giving herself a little mental shake.

  True to his word, Carson gave no sign of recognising Gina, but followed Philip Hale, his hand on the boy’s shoulder.

  ‘I wonder what’s the matter with that child?’ Gina said to the young woman receptionist.

  ‘Poor little kiddie. Tossed from pillar to post. Parents not speaking, using him as a weapon. Apparently, Mr Page is trying to stop his ex having any access to Joey at all.’

  ‘That’s wicked!’ Gina exclaimed.

  Her view of Carson Page took another knock. Obviously his friendliness the day before had been an aberration, and there was something much more unpleasant beneath the surface.

  She returned to her office and got down to business. She worked for half an hour, then she leaned back in her chair, yawned and stretched. It was late afternoon and the sun was hot.

  ‘Oh, heavens!’

  She’d happened to glance out of her window, overlooking the main road, and something she saw there made her spring to her feet.

  ‘What’s that child doing there?’ she demanded, aghast.

  It was Joey Page. He was wandering in the busy road, apparently oblivious to the furious honks from the motorists around him. As she watched, a car missed him by an inch. The motorist bawled at him, but the little boy merely looked bewildered, as though nothing that was happening to him was real.

  ‘Oh, my God,’ she whispered. ‘He doesn’t know-he can’t-’

  The next moment, she’d dashed from her office, running across the reception area and out into the street, praying that she would be in time.

  There was more honking as she raced into the road and grabbed Joey. He tried to throw her off, but she held on and guided him firmly back to the pavement.

  ‘What were you thinking of?’ she demanded breathlessly. ‘You could have been run over.’

  ‘Yaaa-yaaa-yaaaah!’ he shrieked, glaring at her and wrenching himself free. But behind the childish fierceness Gina glimpsed bewilderment, as though her words were meaningless, and now she was certain about something that had only been a suspicion before. She knelt so that he could see her lips.

  ‘You’re deaf, aren’t you?’ she said slowly.

  ‘Aaaah!’ he yelled.

  His face was filled with sullen misery. She knew a flare of anger at the man who’d deprived this vulnerable child of his mother.

  ‘Don’t go into the road,’ she told him, speaking slowly and clearly. ‘It’s dangerous.’ She tried to put her hand on his shoulder.

  ‘Aaaa!’ he screamed, thrashing about so wildly that she was almost knocked off balance.

  ‘Joey!’ said a voice behind him. ‘Stop that!’

  Gina looked up to see Carson, frowning. She rose to face him.

  ‘It’s no use shouting at him,’ she said. ‘He can’t hear you.’

  ‘Yes,’ he said heavily. ‘I know he can’t.’

  He reached for the child’s arm. Instantly Joey swung around to face him and let out another yell. He sounded shocking, like a small demented animal, but Gina, standing close to him, could feel that he was trembling violently.

  She could have wept for the child. She knew that bewildered frustration that could only find release in rage. Carson’s appalled expression now brought back a host of painful memories, and instinctively she put her arms about Joey.

  ‘I’m his father. I’ll take him.’

  Gina gasped, trying to fight down the wild anger that surged up in her. She almost never lost her temper, but now it rushed away from her, leaving her shaking.

  ‘If you’re his father, what were you thinking of to let him wander away like that?’ she demanded. ‘Don’t you know that deaf children are vulnerable on the roads?’

  ‘I don’t need to be lectured about my own son,’ he snapped.

  ‘I think you do. A father worth his salt would protect this child properly.’

  The look he flung her was so full of rage that anyone else might have been intimidated, but Gina was too cross to care. What did this man matter beside the hurt child?

  ‘He’s got problems,’ she cried. ‘He can’t hear. That means he needs more love and care, not less. He needs his mother.’

  ‘That’s enough!’ Carson’s face was frozen. ‘You know nothing about it. Perhaps you would be good enough to bring him inside.’

  Gina grasped the child by the hand and led him back into the building. To her relief, there was nobody in Philip Hale’s office.

  ‘I’m grateful to you for rescuing him,’ Carson said, ‘and for the trouble you’ve taken-’

  ‘It’s no trouble,’ Gina told him firmly. ‘I’ll get him some-’ She stopped and put herself where Joey could see her. ‘Milk and chocolate biscuits,’ she said, speaking clearly. ‘Would you like that?’

  He nodded. His expression was still belligerent but, when she tried to leave the office, Joey took a firm hold of her hand. It was as though he’d discovered safety at last, and he wasn’t going to risk losing it. Gina called Dulcie on the internal line and asked her to bring the refreshments.

  ‘They’ll soon be here,’ she told Joey. But he fr
owned. He hadn’t understood.

  ‘They will soon be here,’ she said, slowly and with emphasis. This time he nodded, and Gina gave him her most reassuring smile. After what seemed like an age, he managed a half-smile in return, but it was gone at once.

  Just like his father, she thought.

  He had a round face with well-defined features that were just beginning to reflect Carson’s. There was character beyond his years in that face, and mobile eyebrows that suggested a touch of humour. Behind the barrier of deafness a strong personality was developing, Gina thought.

  Dulcie entered, and Joey’s eyes lit up at the sight of a plate of chocolate biscuits. But before he touched them he looked up at his father. Gina thought she saw apprehension in that glance, and her anger grew again.

  ‘He’s afraid of you,’ she accused.

  ‘He’s afraid of everything,’ Carson said wearily.

  ‘Of course he is. When you’re deaf, the world is a very scary place, but he should be able to rely on you to help him through it. You’re his father; you should stand between him and the things that threaten him.’

  ‘I don’t know how!’ he snapped. As soon as the words were out, his face closed against her, as though he’d been betrayed into an admission of weakness, and resented her for it.

  ‘He could have got killed out there but you haven’t put your arms around him. All you could think of was apologising to me. As though I matter, beside him.’

  She checked herself. Out of the corner of her eye she’d glimpsed Philip Hale approaching.

  ‘Why don’t I take Joey to my office, so that you can get on with your business?’ she said quickly.

  ‘Thank you.’

  She faced the child. ‘Come along. And we’ll take these.’ She took the tray with the milk and biscuits, and they went out together.

  Luckily Gina found her office empty, which would give her time to talk to Joey and ease his distress.

  ‘I’m Gina,’ she said at last, placing herself where he could see her. ‘What’s your name?’

  She already knew that he was called Joey, but she wanted him to tell her himself. That would start them communicating.