Coast Road

by Barbara Delinsky

  She had splurged last night. She shouldn’t be going anywhere tonight.

  But last night had been for the girls and their mother. Book club was just for her. She loved the women, loved the books. Even if it added pressure to an already hectic work schedule, she wasn’t missing a meeting.

  Hope materialized at her shoulder. “I think it’s in your studio.”

  Closing her eyes, Rachel conjured up the studio, which lay at a far end of her rambling house. She had left it for the day, then returned for an unexpected little while. And before returning? Yes, she’d had the book in her hand. She had carried it there and set it down.

  “Thanks, sweetheart.” She cupped Hope’s chin. “Are you okay?”

  The child looked forlorn.

  “Guinevere will be fine,” Rachel said softly. “She ate, didn’t she?”

  Hope nodded.

  “See there? That’s a good sign.” She kissed Hope’s forehead. “I’d better get the book. I’m running late.”

  “Want me to get it?” Hope asked.

  But Rachel remembered what she had been drawing before the otters had recaptured her eye. She wanted to make sure that that drawing was put safely away.

  “Thanks, sweetheart, but I’ll do it.” When Hope looked reluctant to let her go, she begged, “Help Sam. Please,” and set off.

  The book was where she had left it, on a corner of the large worktable. Hope had arrived while she was at the easel. The drawing—a charcoal sketch—still lay on the desk by the window.

  Rachel lifted it now and carefully slipped it into a slim portfolio. As she did, her mind’s eye re-created the image her sliver of charcoal had made, that of a man sprawled in a tangle of sheets. Even handling the heavy paper, she felt his trim hips, the slope of his spine, and widening above it, dorsal muscle, triceps, deltoid. Had it not been for the hair, it might have been an innocent exercise in drawing the human form. The hair, though, was dark and just a little too long on the neck. The identity was unmistakable; this figure had a name. Better the girls shouldn’t see.

  Taking care to tuck that last portfolio behind the desk, she retrieved the book and hurried back through the house. She gave the girls quick kisses, promised to be home by eleven, and went out to her car.

  chapter one

  WHEN JACK McGILL’S phone rang at two in the morning, the sound cut sharply into the muted world of a soupy San Francisco night. He had been lying in bed since twelve, unable to sleep. His mind was too filled, too troubled. The sudden sound jolted already jittery nerves.

  In the time that it took him to grab for the phone, a dozen jarring thoughts came and went. “Yes?”

  “Is this Jack McGill?” asked a voice he didn’t know. It was female and strained.

  “Yes.”

  “I’m Katherine Evans, one of Rachel’s friends. There’s been an accident. She’s at the hospital in Monterey. I think you should come.”

  Jack sat up. “What kind of accident?”

  “Her car was hit and went off the road.”

  His stomach knotted. “What road? Were the girls with her?”

  “Highway One, and, no, she was alone.” Relief. The girls were safe, at least. “She was near Rocky Point, on her way to Carmel. A car rammed her from behind. The impact pushed her across the road and over the side.”

  His feet hit the floor. The knot in his stomach tightened.

  “She’s alive,” the friend went on. “Only a few broken bones, but she hasn’t woken up. The doctors are worried about her brain.”

  “Worried how?”

  “Bruising, swelling.”

  He pushed a hand through his hair. The disquieting thoughts about work that had kept him awake were gone, replaced by a whole different swarm. “The girls—”

  “—are still home. Rachel was on her way to book group. When nine o’clock came and she hadn’t shown up, I called the house. Samantha said she’d left at seven, so I called the state police. They told me there’d been an accident, and ID’d her car. They were still trying to get her out of it at that point and didn’t know how she was, so I called her neighbor, Duncan Bligh. He went down to sit with the girls. I called them a little while ago to say she’s okay, but I didn’t tell them about the head injury, and I didn’t know whether to tell Duncan to drive them up here to the hospital. That’s not my decision to make.”

  No. It was Jack’s. Divorce or no divorce, he was the girls’ father. Clamping the phone between shoulder and jaw, he reached for his jeans. “I’m on my way. I’ll call Samantha and Hope from the car.”

  “Rachel’s in Emergency now. Check in there.”

  “Right. Thanks.” He hung up realizing that he couldn’t remember her name, this friend of Rachel’s, but it was the least of his worries, the very least. “Unbelievable,” he muttered as he zipped his jeans and reached for a shirt. Things were bad at the office and bad in the field. He was living an architect’s nightmare, needed in both places come morning, and then there was Jill. Tonight was the charity dinner that she had been working on for so long. He had deliberately planned business trips around this date, knowing how much it meant to her. His tux was pressed and waiting. She was expecting him at five. Five—and he hadn’t slept a wink. And he was heading south to God only knew what, for God only knew how long.

  But Rachel was hurt. You’re not married to her anymore, his alter ego said, but he didn’t miss a beat stuffing his shirt into his jeans and his feet into loafers. You don’t owe her a thing, man. She was the one who walked out.

  But she was hurt, and he had been called, and depending on what he found in Monterey, there would be arrangements to make for the girls. They would have to be told how she was, for starters. They were too old to be sent to bed with empty reassurances, too young to face this possible nightmare alone. Rachel was their caretaker, companion, confidant. The three were thick as thieves.

  The doctors are worried about her brain, the friend had said. Well, of course, they would worry until things checked out.

  He tossed cold water on his face and brushed his teeth. Minutes later he entered his studio—and in a moment’s dismay wondered why he still called it that. It had become more a place of business than of art. What few drawings he had done were buried under proposals, spec sheets, contracts, and correspondence—the refuse of an insane number of construction projects in various stages. The place reeked of pressure.

  Using the slate gray of dawn that filtered through the skylights, he crammed his briefcase with his laptop and as many vital papers as would fit, and his portfolio with multiple versions of the Montana design. Tucking both under an arm, he strode down the darkened hall to the kitchen. He didn’t need a light. The place was streamlined and minimal. Grabbing his keys from the granite island and a blazer from the coat tree by the door, he set the alarm and went down to the garage below. Within minutes, he was backing out the BMW and speeding down Filbert. His headlights cut a pale gray swath in the smoky night, lighting little of Russian Hill. Other than the occasional street corner lump that could as easily be a homeless person sleeping as trash waiting for pickup, San Francisco was one big foggy cocoon.

  Pressing numbers by feel on his car phone, he called information. He was heading south on Van Ness by the time he got through to the hospital in Monterey. “This is Jack McGill. My wife, Rachel Keats, was brought in a little while ago. I’m on my way there. Can you give me an update?”

  “Hold on, please.” Several nerve-wracking minutes later, he connected with a nurse in the emergency room. “Mr. McGill? She’s in surgery. That’s about all we know at this point.”

  “Is she conscious?”

  “She wasn’t when they took her upstairs.”

  The doctors are worried about her brain. “What’s the surgery for?”

  “Would you hold on a minute?”

  “I’d rather not—” The sudden silence at the other end said he had no choice. He’d had no choice when Rachel had moved out six years ago, either. She had said she was going, had
packed up the girls and their belongings while he was away on business. He had come home to an echoing house, feeling as thwarted and helpless then as he felt now. Then, armored in anger, he had sold the house and moved to one that didn’t echo. But now, there was no such out. Her face came to him with every shift of the fog, an urban Rorschach in which her features were beautiful one minute, bruised the next. His nervous heart was beating up a storm.

  He pushed the car faster.

  “Mr. McGill?” came a male voice, choppy over the speaker but audible. “I’m Dr. Couley. I treated your wife when she arrived.”

  “What’s the surgery for?” he shouted, gripping the steering wheel.

  “To set her left leg. Compound fractures, both femur and tibia. They’ll be inserting pins—”

  “I was told there were head injuries,” he cut in. A person didn’t die from a broken leg. “Has she regained consciousness?”

  “No. There’s some cranial swelling. We don’t yet know what direction it’ll take.”

  “I want a specialist called.”

  “Our man is on his way. When will you be here?”

  “I’m just leaving San Francisco.”

  “Two hours, then?”

  “Less,” Jack said and, slowing but barely, sailed through a red light. “Here’s my cell number.” He rattled it off. “Call me if there’s any change, will you?” When the doctor agreed, Jack punched out another set of numbers. He wasn’t as quick to press send this time, though. He didn’t know what to say to the girls. They weren’t babies anymore. And teenagers today were a different breed from the ones he had known. Add the fact that he no longer lived with them, and that they were girls, and he was at a triple disadvantage.

  But this time he couldn’t pass the buck. There was no one else to take it.

  Katherine. That was the friend’s name. Katherine.

  Rachel had never mentioned her, but then, Rachel never mentioned anything that didn’t deal directly with the girls. The girls had spoken of her, though. He thought he remembered that.

  They definitely had mentioned Duncan Bligh, and more than once. He was the rancher who shared Rachel’s canyon. The sloping meadow where his herd grazed lay above her redwood forest. Both meadow and forest were part of the Santa Lucias, rising east of the Big Sur coast.

  Jack had a bad feeling about Duncan. He didn’t like the affectionate way the girls described his cabin, his beard, or his sheep. He didn’t like the way they grinned when he asked if Rachel was dating him. Oh sure, he knew they were trying to make him jealous. The problem was that he could see Rachel with a man like that. Mountain men had a kind of rugged appeal. Not that Jack was a slouch. He was tall. He was fit. He could hammer a nail with the best of the carpenters who built what he designed, but he didn’t chop down the trees from which the two-by-fours came, and he didn’t shear sheep or shoot deer.

  Did he want to talk to Duncan Bligh in the middle of the night? No. Nor, though, could he let his daughters think that the rancher was the only man around.

  He pressed send.

  The first ring was barely done when there came a fast and furious “Hello?”

  He lifted the phone. “Hi, Sam. It’s Dad. Are you guys okay?”

  “How’s Mom?”

  “She’s okay.” He kept his voice light. “I’m on my way to the hospital. I just talked with the doctor. They’ve taken her into surgery. It sounds like she smashed up her leg pretty good.”

  “Katherine said it was her ribs, too.”

  “It may be, but the leg is the thing that needs setting. Refresh my memory, Sam. Who is Katherine?”

  “Mom’s best friend,” Samantha said impatiently. “I gave her your number.”

  “You could have called me yourself.”

  She grew defensive. “I didn’t know if you were around, and if you weren’t, you’d have had to book a flight and wait at the airport, and then if you missed a connection, you’d have taken forever to get here. Besides, Katherine says Mom has good doctors, so what can you do?”

  “I can be there,” he said, but the words were no sooner out than he imagined her retort. So he added a fast “Let’s not argue, Samantha. This isn’t the time.”

  “Are you telling me the truth? Is Mom really okay?”

  “That’s the truth as I heard it. Is your sister sleeping?”

  “She was until the phone rang. We knew it had to be about Mom. My friends wouldn’t call in the middle of the night,” she said with such vehemence that Jack suspected they had done it more than once. “Dad, we want to go to the hospital, but Duncan won’t take us.”

  “Is he there now?”

  “He’s asleep on the chair. Asleep at a time like this. Can you believe it? Wait, I’ll put him on. Tell him to drive us up.” She shouted away from the phone, and even then it hurt Jack’s ears, “Duncan! Pick up the phone! It’s my father!”

  “Samantha!” Jack called to get her back.

  Her reply was muffled. “No, Mom is not dead, but that cat will be if you don’t let her go. You’re holding her too tight, Hope. You’ll hurt her.” She returned to Jack. “Here. Hope wants to talk.”

  “Daddy?” The voice was a fragile wisp.

  Jack’s heart shifted. “Hi, Hope. How’re you doin’, sweetie?”

  “Scared.”

  “I figured that, but your mom’s doing fine right now. I’m on my way to the hospital. I’ll know more when I get there.”

  “Come here,” begged the small voice.

  “I will,” he said, melting at the idea that at least one of his girls needed him. “But the hospital’s on the way, so I’ll stop there first. Then I’ll have more to report when I see you.”

  “Tell Mom—” She stopped.

  “What, sweetie?”

  Samantha came on. “She’s crying again. Here’s Duncan.”

  “Duncan Bligh here.” The voice was curt. “What’s the word?”

  Jack wanted Hope back. But it wasn’t his night. “The word is that I don’t know much. I’ll be at the hospital within the hour. Don’t drive them up.”

  “I wasn’t about to.”

  There was a muted protest in the background, then an aggrieved Samantha returned. “Daddy, it’s sick sitting around here while she’s there.”

  “It’s the middle of the night.”

  “Like we can sleep with her there? She’s our mother. What if she asks for us?”

  “She’s in surgery, Samantha. Even if you were at the hospital, you wouldn’t be able to see her. Look, if you want to do something, help your sister. She sounds upset.”

  “And I’m not?”

  Jack could hear the tight panic that was taking her voice a step beyond brash. But Samantha wasn’t Hope. Two years apart in age, they were light-years apart in personality. Samantha was fifteen going on thirty, a little know-it-all who didn’t take kindly to being treated like a child. Thirteen-year-old Hope was sensitive and silent. Samantha would ask the questions. Hope would see every nuance of the answers.

  “I’m sure you’re upset, too,” he said, “but you’re older than she is. Maybe if you help her, she’ll help you. Give each other strength, y’know?”

  “I keep thinking about Highway One, Dad. Some of those places, if you go over the side, you fall hundreds of feet straight down, right onto rocks. Was that what happened to Mom?”

  “I don’t know the details of the accident.”

  “She might have fallen into water, but that’d be nearly as bad. Like, what if she was stuck underwater in the car—”

  “Sam, she didn’t drown.”

  “You don’t know that. You don’t know whether the only thing that’s keeping her alive is a bunch of machines.”

  “Samantha.” She was nearly as creative as Rachel, without the maturity to channel it. “Your mother has a broken leg.”

  “But you don’t know what else,” she cried. “Call the troopers. They’ll tell you what happened.”

  “Maybe later. The doctor has my cell number. I
want to leave the line open in case he tries to call. And I want you to go to bed. It doesn’t do anyone any good if you start imagining what might have happened. Imagination’s always worse. So calm down. I’m in control of things here. And don’t sit up waiting for the phone to ring, because I’m not calling you again until after the sun comes up.”

  “I’m not going to school.”

  “We’ll discuss that later. Right now, the one thing you can do to help your mother most is to reassure your sister. And get some sleep. Both of you.”

  “Yeah, right,” she muttered.

  JACK CONCENTRATED on driving. The fog had stayed in the city, leaving the highway dark and straight. He pressed his middle in the hope that the warmth of his hand would ease the knot there, but his palm was cold and the knot stayed tight. Nerves did that to him every time. Lately, it seemed the knot was there more often than not.

  He willed the phone to ring with the news that Rachel had awoken from surgery and was just fine. But the phone remained still, the interior of the car silent save the drone of the engine. He tried to distract himself with thoughts of all he had been agonizing over in bed less than two hours before—contract disputes, building delays, personnel losses—but he couldn’t connect with those problems. They were distant, back in the city fog.

  He would have calls to make, come morning. There were meetings to reschedule.

  Or if Rachel woke up, he might be back in the office by noon.

  That was likely, the more he thought about it. Rachel was the strongest, healthiest woman he knew—strongest, healthiest, most independent and self-sufficient. She didn’t need him. Never had. Six years ago, she had reached a fork in the road of her life and gone off in a different direction from him. Her choice. Her life. Fine.

  So why was he heading south? Why was he postponing even one meeting to run to her bedside? She had left him. She had taken ten years of marriage and crumpled it up, like a sketch on yellow trace that was so far off the mark it was worthless.