Monsters in the Dark

by Winters, Pepper

  But it didn’t matter. I knew my answer. “Yes. I would.”

  Q kissed me fiercely, darting his tongue into my mouth, making me drink his need and passion. Whatever he was about to ask meant a lot to him. I could taste it.

  “You’re mine, Tess, but you’ve never been a true submissive. Somehow, you give me everything you can, all the while keeping everything out of reach. You drive me fucking insane, and that’s why I need to do this.”

  “You don’t need my permission.” My voice dropped to a husky whisper; my core clenched at the thought of him tying me up and fucking me. I needed to connect. I needed him inside me. “You already have it.”

  He opened his arms and I curled into his embrace. For a man who’d never hugged before, he held me often. He didn’t hold me with just love, though. He held me with possession, aggression, obsession.

  Q pulled away, his jaw tight. “This will hurt. But you’ve given me your word.”

  Fear replaced the love in my heart as Q gave me one last look before heading to the fireplace. With a click, the gas caught, and eager flames sprouted into being. Resting on the mantle were two long pokers.

  Q picked one up, returning to me with it in his outstretched hands. “Take it.”

  I cursed my trembling, but took the pole, turning it to see the emblem at the bottom. The instant I saw it, I remembered what I’d promised. That Q could scar my skin to put his mind at rest. That he could mark me so he’d always know I was his.

  I ran my fingers over the sigil. “Oh.”

  Q froze, bristling with black energy, restraining himself from desires I didn’t comprehend. After what happened in the gold and red room, he wore his edginess, his temper, like a cloak. I didn’t know how badly I’d damaged him, but even while he was being gentle and considerate, he lurked in the shadows, living in a place I didn’t know if I could find.

  The emblem was a capital Q with a sparrow swooping toward the ground as the tail of the letter.

  My eyes flashed to his, drowning in his gaze.

  His shoulders bunched as he brushed away hair from my neck, running his thumb along the scar left from the tracker.

  “I want to brand you. I need to have something of mine permanently on your skin.” He bent his head to press a kiss on the scar. “I need to know you’re mine.”

  “I am yours. You know that.”

  He shook his head, echoing unhappiness in his eyes. “You were going to leave me. I had to give you my life to make you stay. I need to see you’re mine every time I look at you. Every time someone else looks at you, I need them to know you’re taken. Call it barbaric and horrific and tell me I’m a selfish fuck-up, but, Tess, I need this. I can’t come back to you otherwise.”

  I didn’t wait another second. If he needed this simple thing, so be it. I wanted it, too.

  Pushing the poker into his hands, I said, “Do it. It would be the highest honour to wear your mark.”

  His jaw worked as if he held back a huge weight of emotion. His pale eyes glittered. “Je te remercie du fond de mon cœur.” Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

  Together we walked to the fireplace. My pulse pumped faster as he placed the brand in the flames.

  His fingers squeezed mine as he reached for another poker and passed it to me. I took it as tears sprang to my eyes.

  This one had a capital T with a birdcage hanging from it. A pure symbol that I’d captured him completely.

  I stared deep into his eyes. “Are you sure?”

  He shook his head gently, stealing the pole, placing it in the flames beside the other one. “You shouldn’t have to ask me that, esclave.”

  My throat closed, and we didn’t say a word as the metal went from matte black to glowing red.

  Q let me go to disappear into the bathroom. He came back with salve and medical patches for afterward.

  My skin flushed thinking how painful it would be, but I stopped the thought. After everything I’d endured, a burn wouldn’t scare me.

  Once everything was laid out, Q turned to me, pointing at the floor. “Kneel.”

  I did as he asked, kneeling before the man who owned my heart and soul. The master of me completely. With concentration etching his eyes and his lips pursed tight, Q lifted the hot poker, and with no hesitation, pressed it hard and fast against my neck.

  The searing, scorching heat made my eyesight black out for a second, and the sickening sound of my skin hissing almost made me retch. But then it was over, and Q tossed the poker back into the fire.

  Immediately, he grabbed the medical supplies and applied antiseptic cream then the bandage.

  I daren’t look in his eyes as he tended to me. I could taste his eagerness, his sublime joy at what he’d just done.

  I wanted to see. I wanted to look in a mirror and inspect what marked me permanently as his, but Q stood and gathered the other poker. Kneeling in front of me, he offered the handle. I stood slowly upright.

  Biting my lip, I shuddered with the thought of causing him yet more pain. Can I really do this? My own neck thundered with agony, cauterized and stinging.

  With strong, sure fingers, Q unbuttoned his white shirt. Once spread wide, giving glimpses of sparrows and barbwire, he traced his fingers over his heart.

  “This belongs to you, Tess. Brand me there so you’ll also know.”

  My stomach rolled at the thought of burning him, but I tensed my muscles and angled the glowing symbol above his heart.

  Q pushed his chest out, curling his fists on his thighs. “Fast and hard, esclave.”

  I nodded and lunged. The symbol melted through his skin in a second. The smell of acrid hair singeing filled the room. A second later I withdrew, relinquishing the terrible brand back into the fire.

  Q grunted as he stood and his shirt swung forward, sticking to the raw skin. I twirled around to collect the salve and bandages, before tending to Q. Pushing his shirt gently off his shoulders, I winced.

  He never took his eyes off me as I massaged the cooling balm onto his wound. The design was flawless, every bar of the cage etched deep into his flesh; the T a perfect feminine cursive.

  Tears fell unbidden as I covered up the mark, sticking the bandage into place.

  He’d given me himself. Forever.

  Q pulled me into his arms. “Already I can feel the darkness coming back to life. Knowing you’re mine. That you willingly gave me your pain once again.” He buried his nose in my hair, inhaling deep. “I thought I’d lost that urge. Lost that part of myself.”

  I didn’t need to ask what part Q had lost. I always knew he lived with demons in his soul.

  Q shifted, walking me backward to the bed. The mattress no longer rested on the floor—it had been designed as a miniature cage. Hanging from the ceiling with bars and chains. Swags of material cocooned the space like a perfect trap—a trap to keep us safe together.

  “I want you,” Q murmured, his fingers already working my blouse buttons. Everything jolted to life. I leaned into him, rubbing my nipples against his knuckles.

  He sucked in a breath, pushing aside the material to cup my bra-covered breast.

  My hands went to his bare chest, inching down to his belt. He waited while I undid the buckle, pulling the leather free. His chest rose and fell as I held the leather in my hands.

  His tension, awareness all sprang to high alert, and I saw the man I’d thought I’d killed when I whipped him to an inch of his life.

  Q, my master, wanted to use his belt. And I wanted him to.

  With a wistful plea in my eyes and love exploding in my heart, I presented the belt with outstretched hands.

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Quincy

  I long to see your creamy skin blush, welted and marked gives me a rush, I can’t contain him, you set me free…

  I didn’t know how long I stared at Tess.

  She stood there, holding my belt, giving it to me with such trust in her eyes that the last of the horrible confusion I’d been living with unravelled.
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  The old me. The me I knew and thought I’d lost forever, roared back into being. After weeks of living with such crippling disorientation, I thought I’d forever be doomed to live monsterless and alone.

  The dark urges inside had gone, taking with it everything I knew. It was as if the beast had left me to wallow in pitiful loneliness.

  I snatched the belt from her. Shuddering, I ran the leather through my fingers. The blackness swirled into being, bringing with it growls and bestial callings. I should’ve been glad they’d left me alone. But I found I missed it. I missed knowing who I was. I wasn’t meant to be normal. I wasn’t meant to be…human.

  Tess shifted, her breasts rising. I swallowed hard against thick desire.

  For three weeks, I’d avoided all thoughts of sex. I couldn’t stand the thought of being close to Tess when I no longer knew myself. I lost something fundamental when Tess stole my dignity, my control, my dominance.

  Tess damaged me, and I spent three weeks trying to fix myself.

  But not dealing with the monster’s urges allowed me to grow closer to Tess than I’d ever thought possible. I was able to comfort her without needing to squeeze too hard, or let her laugh without having to throw her to the ground and fuck her.

  With the absence of those needs, I grew to see myself in a different light. I saw that I could be sweet—amazing to contemplate—and I could do it without cutting off my balls.

  I gave Tess space to heal, and she changed from delicate patient to strong survivor. Day by day her passion and spirit came back, and each moment that she grew stronger, my beast inched out of its cave, returning to me, slightly fearful, slightly unwilling.

  My eyes fell to the bandage hiding the brand I gave her, and my gut twisted in pleasure. I’d finally figured out how to keep both the man and the monster happy, and it seemed to be working. Just knowing Tess had a clear signal that she belonged to me helped soothe the urges to cut and make her bleed. It took away the overwhelming need, letting me breathe easier, letting me be tamed.

  From here on out, I would make the sole purpose of my life to acquire new memories, happy memories, bury the past, and hoard every happiness Tess and I could find.

  Tess panted harder as I looped the belt in my hands, snapping the leather. I glanced at her, my cock thickening fast in my jeans. “Are you sure?”

  Once upon a time, I wouldn’t have given her the choice. I wouldn’t have cared what her answer would’ve been; I would’ve done it anyway. But now, her permission meant more to me than taking. Her submission fed the beast more than her fight.

  We broke each other, and the only way to stay whole was to entwine ourselves, gluing the jagged parts, stitching our souls into one.

  She nodded.

  That was all I needed. Grabbing the back of her neck, I jerked her close and kissed her. I kissed her with every fucking thing I felt. The thankfulness for letting me mark her, and the relief at finally feeling like myself again.

  She clawed at my chest, bringing me closer. I pressed harder, letting her feel how much I needed her.

  Moaning, she hitched her leg up, hooking it precariously on my hip. I grabbed her knee, hoisting her higher, encouraging her to wrap both legs around my hips.

  The moment she held me hostage between her legs, she rode me, pressing her delicious, tempting heat against my cock.

  I stopped kissing her to drop my head and bite her neck—the side I hadn’t branded.

  “Q. Please. I need you.”

  I had plans for this to be slow and intense, but the urge to connect grabbed me by surprise. I need to be inside her. Now.

  Unlatching her legs, I tossed her on the bed and yanked on her trouser button. It popped open, and she wiggled frantically as I tugged them down her legs. Tess shrugged out of her shirt, tossing it off the bed.

  I gawked at her.

  She wore simple virgin white underwear. Her body was undernourished compared to her curves from before, but her survivability knocked me to my fucking knees.

  Climbing onto the bed, the chains holding the mattress swung, sending us rocking and swaying. Tess looked up to the canopy, and I took her moment of distraction to bend down and latch my mouth over her pussy.

  Her hips bucked the moment my hot breath connected on her flesh. Crying out, she dove fingers through my hair, imprisoning me, pressing hard, demanding.

  Her command did two things to me. Before, being told what to do would’ve just pissed me off. Now, I wanted to obey her—to please her and do whatever she fucking asked. The beast still growled and grumbled, needing to make her apologise for bossing me around, but I was able to ignore it. For the first time in my life, I had balance.

  Sitting up, I ripped her knickers off and settled below again. Her taste filled my very fucking soul as I licked her long and slow.

  “Q. Goddammit, more. More!”

  I chuckled as Tess cursed and moaned. Relishing in bringing her pleasure, fucking her with my tongue, dragging out every inch of wetness and need.

  My cock ached with come. I hadn’t touched myself since the last time I’d been in Tess. I hadn’t had the urge.

  But now I did. Fuck, how I did.

  With one last sweeping lick, I sat up, ridding myself of my jeans and boxer-briefs in one swipe. I wanted to tie Tess up and use all sorts of toys on her. I wanted to make her come over and over again, but the urgency gripped my balls and all I could think about was diving deep inside her.

  “Get up,” I ordered, sitting on my knees, the belt still in my hand.

  Tess instantly obeyed and I growled with pleasure. The moment she was upright, I pointed at my cock. “Sit on it.”

  Her lips parted and she hesitated. My hand twitched with the belt; I let the beast take control just for a second. I struck her thigh with the leather, falling in love with her all over again when she flinched then shivered with pleasure.

  “Sit on me now, Tess. Or I’ll hit you until you do.”

  She bowed her head, sending curls over her face. “I want to taste you. Like you did for me.”

  The thought of her lips around my cock was too much. I still hadn’t forgiven her for making me come so violently before. Shaking my head, I hauled her upright, straddling her over my thighs.

  “Not today.”

  Her eyes snapped closed as I pushed her down. Her wet folds connected with my hot cock, sinking deeper, hugging me with all that delicious fucking darkness.

  I groaned as she slid lower. My cock swelled with the urge to jet into her already.

  The moment she’d fully impaled herself, I flicked my wrist and struck her lower back with the belt.

  She gasped as her inner muscles gripped me deep inside.

  “Shit, do that again,” I growled, smacking her with the leather.

  The same reaction—the instant the belt connected with her skin, she clenched hard around me, milking me with strong muscles.

  I thrust up once and Tess fucking detonated. Her hands wrapped deep in my hair as she pushed up and down, fucking me as she rippled, shuddered, unravelled.

  Her pleasure almost made me lose it. I gritted my teeth, fighting off the urge.

  The moment she stopped coming, I ripped the bandage off her neck. She winced but I muttered, “Just let me see while I make love to you. Let me know you’re mine.”

  She nodded, twitching in aftershocks around my cock.

  “I’m going to take you hard. I’ve missed you so fucking much.” I looked deep into her eyes. “You should’ve waited for me to come. Now I’ll have to make you release all over again.”

  Her lips parted; she trembled as I thrust upward.

  “Goddammit, you feel good.” My eyes latched onto her neck and I purred. I fucking purred in pleasure, seeing my mark seared into her skin.

  Tess’s fingers fumbled with the bandage over my heart and I loved the flash of possession in her eyes when she looked at the brand.

  “You’re mine,” she whispered. Her cunt clenched harder around me and I struggled f
or breath.

  “Les uns des autres.” Each other’s. Holding her hip in one hand, I struck her with the belt as I thrust upward. Not too hard, but not too soft either.

  “Pain and pleasure, Tess. Remember.”

  Her eyes fluttered shut as I invoked a rhythm: thrust, strike, thrust, strike. She moaned with every rock, grabbing my balls, building my orgasm until it radiated in every part of me.

  My heart raced and I loved the tingling aching sensation of needing to orgasm. When I couldn’t keep up the rhythm anymore, I threw the belt away, and gathered Tess closer. Her breasts squashed against my chest, irritating the fresh burn over my heart. The combination of pleasure and pain undid me.

  My speed increased until Tess bounced in my arms. My eyes locked on her neck. The red, angry ‘Q’ forever seared into her skin gave me the release I’d been looking for.

  This perfect woman was all fucking mine. And now everyone would know it.

  My orgasm detonated, bursting in thick waves, filling her with every stroke. My eyes rolled backward as I existed only to come deep inside her. “Fuck, esclave. Take it. Take all of it.”

  Tess cried out as I stroked her clit. Her second orgasm exploded into reality, the bands of muscles squeezed every last drop I had left, milking me until I flopped in her arms.

  My thighs quivered from thrusting up and I had pins and needles in my calves, but I didn’t give a rat’s ass as my cock was deep in the woman I adored and my come was smeared all over her.

  Tess leaned forward, kissing me ever so sweetly. “I love you, Quincy.”

  My back tensed. Normally, I hated my full name. It was my father’s. A name I wanted to forget forever, but in that moment, I loved it. I loved that Tess loved me. I loved that Tess accepted me.

  I loved her with everything I was.

  “Je t'aime,” I whispered, kissing her back.

  * * *

  Hours later, I woke to Tess whimpering in my arms. Her nightmares hadn’t diminished, and every night she woke me with her screams, stabbing a dagger into my heart. I wanted to enter her dreams and slay every last bastard torturing her.

  Kissing her forehead, I murmured, “Tu es en sécurité. Avec moi.” You’re safe. With me.