“You made it,” she whispered into my ear. “I’m so proud of you.”
I set her on her feet and looked into her big blue eyes. There was nothing but sheer happiness shining out of them and that made me feel even worse. There was no fear that she would be all alone here without me to keep Crystal off her back. She was truly happy for me and wasn’t thinking of herself at all.
“Thank you,” I whispered, my voice thick with emotion.
After all this time, the guys and I had finally gotten our break as a band, but I’d also finally found a girl I could see myself getting serious with. I knew being apart would kill us both but I also knew Jessie so well. There was no way in hell she would let me pass on this chance just to stay with her.
“Hey, what is it?” she asked me. “You just got the best news ever! Why do you look like your dog just died?”
I couldn’t let her see my doubt, so put away my nerves about our inevitable goodbye and decided to have a great night with my friends and my girl without bringing everyone down.
“I’m great, Jess. I’m just…I can’t believe this actually happened. You said it would.”
“Because I have always had faith in my boys. You all deserve this so much and I am so freaking excited for you!” she squealed happily.
Jude came over to us and scooped Jessie up into a big hug.
“We need to celebrate!” he said after releasing her.
“Let’s go out and do shit we will regret in the morning,” Beau suggested, smiling.
“You think you’re up to partying with us tonight, Jess, or are you planning on spending the whole night with your hand down Kris’ pants?” Jude asked.
Jessie rolled her eyes and ran her fingers through her long hair.
“Shut up. I definitely want to hang with you guys. Tonight will be the last time I see my boys for God knows how long,” she answered, her voice quivering on the last word. She shook her head and she grinned widely. “Okay, no time to get emotional. This is a celebration! Let me just get my shoes and change my shirt and I’ll be ready to go,” she said, barely giving us time to answer before she ran back into my room.
Before I could read into anything, Beau nudged my arm. “You all right, bro?”
Smiling, I said, “Yeah, I’m great.”
“You sure? This is huge, man, but I know it’s going to be hard to leave Jessie behind for a bit,” Ryder said.
“Especially for you, ya know, since you’ve been fucking her almost every day for the last few weeks,” Jude chuckled.
I furrowed my brows and warned, “Don’t talk about her like that.”
Jude raised his hands in surrender. “I’m just saying.”
“Well, don’t just say anything about her like that. We haven’t just been fucking. It’s…more than that. It’s Jess, my Jess. I just, ugh, I don’t know. This break is so big for us and we worked our asses off for it, but…”
“But nothing, Kris,” Beau said, putting his hands on my shoulders. “You’re right. We’ve killed ourselves every day for years to get our band noticed and it’s finally happened. Jessie has been our biggest supporter and is a close friend to all of us and there’s no way in the fucking world she’d ever let you turn this break down for her.”
I hung my head. “I know.”
“Look, pull your shit together before she comes back, okay? Just because we need to leave tomorrow, it’s not forever. We all love Jess and won’t let her stay here without us for long,” Ryder said.
“You’re right,” I nodded as he clapped me on the back. “It’s only three months, right?”
“That’s the spirit,” Ryder answered.
At that moment, Jessie came back out into the living room, pulling her long hair into a ponytail. She’d changed back into her black tank top and looked so sexy that it was taking all my strength not to just tell the guys I’d see them in the morning and celebrate with Jessie in my own way. But, I knew this night was important for all of us and the guys loved her almost as much as I did, so we needed to spend this last night with the whole band and the one girl that believed in us from the beginning.
“Are we ready?” she asked excitedly.
“Let’s do this shit!” Jude yelled, throwing his arms in the air. We all cheered and quickly left my apartment to party the night away.
Three hours later, we’d partied as hard as we could, considering that we were all still under twenty-one. Ryder got his flirt on with the girl working the liquor counter at the liquor store that was notorious for not checking ID’s and scored us two cases of beer, two bottles of vodka, and a case of some fruity shit for Jessie. She wasn’t a big drinker so we made sure she had something a little less hard to drink.
By this time in the evening, we were all pretty buzzed and feeling good. We were hanging out a local party spot on the river around a big bonfire and it was packed out with college kids looking to party. Jude had wasted no time in finding a girl to celebrate with. The last time I’d seen him he was leaning against a tree and the girl was on her knees in front of him.
Beau and Ryder had each found girls to occupy their time as well so I had Jessie all to myself. We were sitting on a log in front of the fire and she was drinking one of her fruity drinks while I was nursing my fourth beer. She looked so beautiful in the glow of the fire…it was making it so much harder for me knowing I’d have to leave her in the morning.
“So, when do you guys leave tomorrow?” she asked me.
“We’re heading out about six or so in order to make to Pennsylvania by sound check.”
“How long will it take to get there?”
“About five hours I think. That’s what Alan told Ryder anyway.”
“So, how are you getting there?”
“I guess Alan is letting Ryder take one of his old work vans. It’s big enough to load our equipment up in it and get us all there safely.”
Jessie smiled brightly at me and took another sip of her drink before putting down next to her.
“What is it?” I asked her, taking a long swig of my beer.
“I’m just so freaking happy for you. Just think, this time tomorrow you will be on a stage in front of thousands of people playing your asses off.”
“Yeah, it’s crazy,” I answered, smiling back at her. “So, are you going to miss me?”
She blinked her huge blue eyes at me and sighed.
“Of course I’ll miss you,” she replied, sounding sad. “Do you think I won’t?”
“Not at all, I was hoping you would. That way I know that you won’t let any other guys come sniffing around while I’m gone,” I joked, but when I looked at her she wasn’t smiling.
“Kris, when I told you I loved you three weeks ago I meant it. You’ve been the only guy I’ve loved for the last thirteen years and now that we’re finally together, there’s no man in the world that could ever steal me away from you.”
She had a stray hair that had escaped her ponytail and I tucked it behind her ear.
“I hope not. Three months is an awful long time to be away from the girl I love,” I said, and I froze. Did I just say...
“The girl you what?” she asked, a stunned expression on her face.
I swallowed hard and felt a warmth I’d never felt before spreading through my chest and out to my fingertips. I took a deep breath and smiled.
“The girl I love.” As tears began glistening in her eyes, I declared, “I love you, Jess.”
“You do? You didn’t just say it because you slipped up or because you’re leaving tomorrow?”
I snaked my fingers around the back of her neck and pulled her face close to mine.
“No, I didn’t. You know I don’t say things I don’t mean. It feels good to finally admit what I’ve been afraid to say out loud.”
Jessie smiled so brightly that the bonfire actually dimmed.
“I love you too, Kris. But you already knew that,” she laughed.
“I did, and I’m a lucky bastard,” I said. I couldn’t spend
one more second without feeling her petal soft lips on mine so I pulled her into a kiss that I was sure would make her melt.
She moaned into my mouth as I thrust my tongue inside hers, tasting her sweetness. As I kissed her and rolled my tongue the way she loved, I suddenly had a dire need to get her alone. Everyone had ridden together in my truck, so I couldn’t just leave them behind, and I wasn’t about to take her to the bed of my truck. She deserved something a little more romantic for our last night together in three months.
I had a few blankets in my truck and knowing the area as well as I did, I knew the perfect place we could be alone. I reluctantly broke the kiss and caressed her cheek with my thumb.
“You want to get out of here?”
She nodded.
“Yeah, but what about the guys?”
“Don’t worry, we won’t leave them behind. You trust me?”
“Of course I do.”
“Then come with me. There’s something I’d like to share with you,” I said, and stood up. I held my hand out to her and she took it. I pulled her up and we walked to my truck. I quickly got the blankets and as we were walking away, I heard Jude call out, “Don’t get her pregnant, bro!”
“Fuck you man!” I yelled back, flipping him off as I heard him laughing. Jessie clung to my arm as I led us down the river to a little abandoned shack by a waterfall. It wasn’t the best place to bring a girl, but it was secluded and I knew we’d be all alone.
When we reached the front door, I pushed it open and led her inside. I saw some old pillar candles lying around and I rummaged through my pockets until I found an old lighter I always carried…I didn’t smoke but I always felt like I should have a lighter with me.
“What is this place?” Jessie asked me, smiling as I spread out a blanket on the floor of the shack.
“Just an old abandoned shack. I don’t know if anyone ever lived here, but I used to sneak away and come here as a kid when I needed to get away from my dad.” After a few flicks of my lighter, I successfully lit the first candle.
It had gotten silent and when I looked up at Jessie, she was frowning.
“Why didn’t I ever know about it?”
I shrugged.
“I guess I just needed a place that was just for me, you know? One place I could go when I needed to be alone, or when I wanted to talk to my mom.”
I lit another candle just before she moved to me and wrapped her arms around my waist.
“I get it. You were always my safe place to go,” she said softly.
My heart clenched in my chest.
“So,” she began, “what kinds of things do you talk to your mom about?”
“Just stuff,” I answered, lighting the last candle.
“You can tell me, you know. I’m always here for you.”
I wrapped my arm around her and traced the curve of her spine.
“I know, baby. And you always have me,” I said, kissing her forehead.
“So, you really aren’t going to tell me?” she urged, and I laughed at her persistence.
“There’s nothing really to tell. I just talk to her about the normal things that a kid would say to the mother they never knew.”
“Like what?”
“I just tell her that I miss her, that I wish I’d been able to know her, and that my life would sucked ten times less if she were here.”
She ran a hand under my shirt and across my abs, which clenched at her touch.
“I wish you’d had her in her life too, Kris. Things would have definitely been easier for you.”
“What about you? You ever think about your dad?”
“I have no idea who he is, nor do I care. My mom told me that he knew she was pregnant with me and didn’t give a shit. Oh well, his loss,” she replied, shrugging her shoulders.
“That’s damn right. Anyone that chooses to miss out on knowing a beautiful, perfect girl like you is a fucking idiot.”
She blinked her gorgeous blue eyes at me and sighed.
“I’m hardly perfect, Kris, but…thank you. When you say it I almost believe it.”
“I can’t see how you don’t believe it,” I said, tracing her bottom lip with my thumb.
Placing her delicate hand on my scruffy cheek, she whispered, “I love you so much.”
“I love you too,” I answered before pulling her lips back to mine. She wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me back, whimpering as I gently nibbled on her bottom lip.
“Kris,” she panted, “are you sure no one will catch us in here?”
“I’m positive. No one but me ever comes here. Not that I know of anyway,” I answered, gently lifting the bottom of her shirt to bare her stomach.
“Good, because I want you so much and I don’t want any distractions. Not tonight,” she whispered. She stepped back from my embrace and slowly lifted her shirt over her head and tossed it next to the blanket.
She stood before me in nothing but her cut offs, a black bra, and her flip flops.
“Should I keep going or do you want to help me out?”
I grinned at her and closed the distance between us.
“I’ll always be glad to get help get you naked,” I answered, and she giggled. I leaned in and kissed her neck as my fingers found the button on her shorts. Slowly undoing them, I slid the zipper down and stood back to watch as they fell to the floor.
She was devastatingly gorgeous in the candlelight and I was instantaneously aroused. I stepped back to her and unclasped her bra and slid it off her shoulders. It fell to the floor of the shed and when my eyes roamed down to her bare chest, my cock twitched in my jeans.
I leaned my head down and gently sucked one of her perfect, pink nipples into my mouth. She softly whimpered in pleasure as I rolled it with my tongue, the soft bud hardening as I teased it. I moved to her other breast, giving it equal attention. My fingers slid down to the waist of her panties and she gasped as I slid my fingertips inside them, instantly finding her scorching heat already soaked with desire. I rubbed her tiny, swollen clit with my finger and she cried out, digging her fingers into my shoulders.
“Kris,” she moaned, “that feels so good.”
“You like when I touch you like this, don’t you?”
“Yes,” she breathed, her delicate fingers finding my belt buckle and quickly undoing the clasp. She slid the button out of the hole on my jeans and pulled down the zipper with a shaking hand. My hand never left her warmth as my pants fall down to my ankles and I shook them off after kicking off my shoes.
She began tugging at my shirt and I reluctantly removed my hand from her panties. I quickly pulled my shirt over my head and tossed it aside. She sighed seductively as she stared at my bare chest before her eyes roamed down and landed on my engorged cock that was tenting out from my boxers. She gasped and I could’ve sworn I heard her choke back a growl that was trying to escape her throat.
“You’re so beautiful,” she whispered, reaching out and rubbing my throbbing erection through my shorts. She moved both hands to the top of my boxers and started to push them down. I sucked in a gasp when she followed my shorts down and rested on her knees before me.
“Jess,” I panted, my hard cock bobbing in front of her. I combed my fingers through her hair and was about to join her on the floor but before I could, she wrapped her slender fingers around my shaft and took the tip of me into her hot, sexy mouth.
My knees almost gave out as she licked and sucked me like I was her favorite treat. I loved when Jessie would do this to me but I never let it go on long. She made me feel so fucking incredible that it only took about a minute before I was ready to blow.
She took me in as far as she could and the moment I hit the back of her throat and she made a slight gagging sound, I abruptly pulled away from her. I collapsed to the floor in front of her and pulled her body close to me.
“Why did you stop me?” she asked me, frustration in her eyes.
“Jessie that felt fucking incredible. No one makes me feel the way
you do baby.”
“Then why do you always pull away when I do that to you?”
“Honestly? It’s because it feels so God damned good that I am afraid that I will go early and not be able to get it back up for another fifteen minutes,” I chuckled, and she smiled.
“Well, we wouldn’t want that,” she replied, lying back on the blanket I’d spread out on the floor. She parted her legs in invitation and after I helped her slip off her panties, I nestled my hips between them. This was my favorite place to be.
I readied myself to push inside of her but before I did, I looked down at her and suddenly my throat felt thick with emotion. She was so gorgeous; her long hair was splayed out around her and her amazing blue eyes danced in the candlelight. It hit me again in that moment that this would be the last time I’d get to be with her like this in three months, maybe longer if the band did well.
I decided then to take my time to make this memorable for us both because the last thing I wanted was for her to decide that dating a traveling musician was too hard and that this relationship wasn’t worth the effort. I needed her to have a reason to stick with me and that’s exactly what I planned on doing.
Chapter 6
Jessie
I hadn’t realized I’d dozed off until I felt Kris kissing my neck and whispering that we needed to go. I moaned sleepily as I reluctantly opened my eyes. I didn’t want this moment to end.
Kris had made this night truly memorable for us. It was magical; there was no other word to describe it. In the last three weeks we’d had sex almost every day but tonight in this shed…for the first time, we’d made love. Kris had made my body feel amazing things before, but nothing I’d ever experienced with him had come close to this.
He took his time with me, worshipping every single part of my body until I was desperate with want. He was slow and gentle, never too hard or too fast (even though at one point I almost begged him to pick up his speed). He drove me crazy with desire and by the time we both found our release, I felt like I’d been branded from the inside out. I didn’t know if that was his intention, to make me remember this night so I’d never want it with anyone else, but that’s what happened. I had always been his and tonight solidified it.
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