No Filter (No Shame Series Book 1)

by Nora Phoenix

  An inhuman sound fell from his lips.

  No words. He had no words left, surrendered to the fire in his body that threatened to engulf him whole.

  Josh switched his attention to his other nut, sucking and licking until Indy was squirming on the couch. His balls were heavy, aching with the need to unload.

  “Oh, please…I need to…Josh, please!”

  It didn’t make sense, but maybe Josh had understood because he sucked his cock back in all the way. Gently cradling Indy’s balls, Josh went down on him in earnest.

  He’d never, ever felt anything like this. He’d always been the one to give blow jobs, but he’d never experienced one himself. Josh's head bobbed up and down as he sucked Indy’s cock. That slick, warm, sucking pressure was pure heaven.

  “Josh!” It was as much a warning as a shout of gratitude, and Josh never let up.

  Indy bucked off the couch, clenching his fists as he thrust into Josh's mouth in pure bliss. His balls set off with fervor, and he exploded into Josh's throat.

  “Fuuuuuuuck!” Indy let out, panting hard. “Thank you, thank you, thank you…That was…oh, my God, that was amazing.”

  Josh let Indy’s cock slide out, licking it completely clean before he sat up.

  “Damn, you taste good.” He licked his lips. “And you’re very welcome.”

  Aftershocks were still floating through Indy’s body, but he lifted a weak hand to cup Josh's cheek. “Different than Noah?” he blurted out.

  Josh grinned. “Yeah. His is saltier, yours is somehow richer. Fuck, you taste good.”

  His eyes were laughing, and yet tension creeped into Indy’s stomach. Would Josh expect him to return the favor? That was sort of how it worked, wasn’t it? It was damn selfish to not offer to do something in return, but the thought of having to blow him…Indy swallowed, slivers of fear taking over.

  “Do you want me to…” he pointed toward Josh's cock which was rock hard.

  “Hell, no. This was for you.” He sat up, leaned over Indy to give him a wet kiss. “When you’re ready, you can take me up on my offer to fuck me, but until then I’m more than happy to suck you, anytime. Right now I have something else I need to do, which means you have to move.”

  A nervous flutter moved in Noah’s stomach as Indy got up slowly from the couch, completely naked and not embarrassed about it, as far as Noah could tell. He’d come so far since the panic attack in the hospital that it was nothing short of amazing.

  Josh's eyes made contact with Noah’s. Josh grabbed his own cock, which was glistening with precum, and fisted himself a few times. He was damn hard—and so was Noah. The challenge was clear.

  “Get over here.”

  Fucking hell. You’re about to get fucked.

  “Excuse me?” he said, forcing his voice to be level.

  Josh pointed toward the pillows on the couch. “On your back.”

  Noah found himself getting off the chair and on the couch. His ass was propped up on the pillows, his stump resting comfortably against the soft back side of the couch. The fact that Josh wanted him to be as comfortable as possible made Noah want to surrender more than anything else.

  “Guys, should I…?” Indy asked hesitantly.

  Noah and Josh answered him at the same time, “Stay.”

  Indy lowered himself on the chair Noah had vacated.

  Josh walked over to the dresser, yanked open the top drawer where they usually had a bottle of lube. He found it, and strode back to Noah, dropped it on the couch.

  Their eyes met, and Josh pressed his lips together. Noah shivered. Shit was about to get real.

  Josh kneeled on the couch, casually lubed his cock with fluid, efficient moves. Noah watched him, his stomach fluttering.

  “Spread your legs.”

  Noah put his head back against the armrest of the couch. He turned his head to face Indy, who viewed them with heated eyes, a look of complete focus on his face.

  When Josh's slick finger touched his entrance, Noah shivered and faced his best friend. He wanted to ask Josh to be gentle, even though he didn’t need to. The vulnerability of his position made him weak inside. Fuck, it went against all his instincts, and he had to fight to let go of the control.

  Josh's finger gently pushed against Noah’s anal sphincter.

  “Bear down on me,” Josh said.

  God, he knew how this worked, had done it hundreds of times to Josh, so why was it so fucking hard to relax? He overrode his instinctive urge of clamming up, and instead pushed back. Josh's finger slipped in. It burned slightly, and it certainly felt strange to have something in his hole. What the fuck was he doing? Could he do this? Would his damaged body even be able to handle this intrusion?

  Josh swirled his finger around, and Noah breathed deeply to relax. It didn’t hurt. Not compared to, say, getting blown up, or recovering from an amputation. It was more of a discomfort, he told himself. After a bit it felt okay. Not good, but not too bad either.

  Josh inserted a second digit, gently pushing and stretching and expanding him. The burning sensation returned in full force.

  Are you really gonna do this? All it will take is one word. One ‘no’ and Josh will stop immediately. But it would also mean that Josh would never try again. He wanted this, for Josh. He had to do this, for them both.

  “You’re so tight, Noah,” Josh whispered, and Noah sensed his resolve crumbling.

  “Please, fuck me, Josh,” he said, pushing his ass back against Josh's fingers. They slipped in way deeper, and Noah involuntarily clenched at the intrusion. Damn, that stung. His breath caught, before he pushed out a shaky exhale.

  Josh pulled back his fingers.

  “Don’t stop.”

  “I need more lube,” Josh said. He grabbed the bottle, squirted some on his fingers. “I won’t hurt you, so we’ll take our time, okay?”

  The fingers returned, this time super-slick with lube. Noah tensed, then relaxed again. He could do this. Fuck, he wanted to do this. How bad could it be if Josh loved it so much? Josh kept stroking him, and the burning slowly subsided.

  “Keep going,” he urged Josh.

  Josh's fingers pulled out, then pushed in again. Noah clenched his teeth at the increased pressure. Josh must have added a third finger, because his hole was being stretched even wider. It smarted like a son of a bitch.

  Noah closed his eyes, so Josh wouldn’t see the tears that forced themselves out of his eyes. There was nothing he could do about his cock, however, which had been hard when they started but had grown soft as a result of the pain.

  “You good?” Josh asked, a tremble in his voice.

  “Yeah. I’m ready,” Noah said with way more confidence than he felt. But the burning had stopped, and he wanted to get it over with. Fuck, I survived being blown to bits, surely I can take a cock up my ass.

  The pressure disappeared as Josh pulled out his fingers. Noah kept his eyes closed, heard the lube being opened again and assumed Josh coated his cock once more. Then his breath froze in his lungs as Josh's cock brushed his entrance. Noah opened his eyes, let his head drop sideways. Indy’s soft eyes were trained on him, his cheeks flushed and his chest heaving with breaths. He’d pulled up his legs, but his cock was still visible—and it was rock hard. His tongue darted out to lick his lips. Did he have any idea how sexy that was?

  “Try to relax, Noah.” Josh's voice was tight with tension.

  Noah ripped his gaze away from Indy and focused on Josh, whose jaw was set. His eyes were completely focused on Noah. Noah breathed deeply, then forced his muscles to relax. Josh pushed in against the outer ring and Noah bore down on him, allowing him to slide in a tiny bit farther. Noah’s breath stopped, then resumed with effort.

  Josh started making little thrusts, gently moving in deeper and deeper. Noah closed his eyes, focusing on the sensation of Josh's cock in his ass, even if it was in only an inch or two. It ached a little, but it also gave a titillating, full sensation.

  “Are you okay?” Josh asked, st
opping.

  Noah opened his eyes to find Josh looking at him with concern. “I’m good. Don’t stop.”

  “I don’t want to hurt you. You’re so fucking tight.”

  “It’s okay. I want this. Keep going.”

  Josh gave another careful push, adding another inch of his cock inside. Noah closed his eyes again and clenched his fists as pain hit him all over again. How the fuck did Josh do this? How could he take Noah pounding him? And his cock was a hell of a lot thicker than Josh's, so it had to tear Josh apart. He breathed through the sting in his ass. What the hell had he agreed to?

  Josh pulled out, which caused a glorious sensation in Noah’s ass that spread in tingling waves all the way to his toes. Oh, that had felt incredible. Finally, they were getting to the good parts.

  “I can’t do this,” Josh said. Noah opened his eyes. “I’m hurting you, and I can’t do it.”

  Anger and compassion battled inside Noah. He wanted to slap Josh for being so timid, but at the same time kiss him silly for his obvious concern. What could he do to push Josh into committing fully? Tenderness right now would break him, trigger him into complete submission again.

  “Man up and fuck me, dammit. Come on, put your gorgeous cock in my ass and start pounding.” He looked Josh straight in the eyes. “Do I look like I will break? If you can take my thick cock, I can take yours.”

  Authoritative dirty talk: his secret weapon.

  Hesitantly, Josh slid in again, and Noah lifted his ass to give it a little extra push. Pain hit, but he forced himself to not show it. Had Josh's cock grown softer or was that his imagination?

  “I know how long your cock is, man, I’ve had it in my mouth. Well, half of it anyways. I know you’re not even halfway in, so come on.”

  Josh's hips pulled back and thrust forward. Another inch in. Noah tried to keep his breaths even. Josh slid out and in again, definitely rock hard now. Could they get this over with so it would get good? Josh pulling out felt fantastic, but the pushing in was a nightmare.

  “Dammit, Joshua, fuck me already!” he groaned. When Josh moved forward for another thrust, Noah lifted his butt off the pillows and moved against him in an opposite push. All of a sudden, Josh's cock sunk in all the way and his balls slapped Noah’s ass.

  Stars exploded before Noah’s eyes as his ass felt like it was tearing, and he cried out. “Fucking hell!”

  Even in his pain, he felt Josh move back and immediately grabbed his friend’s ass and locked his left knee around his leg, trapping him in place. “You’re not going anywhere,” he growled.

  “Noah, no…” Josh protested, but Noah grabbed his head not too softly and dragged his mouth down for a hard kiss. He plummeted his tongue into Josh's mouth, kissing him as he had never kissed him before. Anything to get his mind off the sensation that his ass had been ripped in two.

  The erotic sensation of their slick tongues dueling helped Noah relax, and the throb in his ass faded, to be replaced by an entirely new sensation. Josh's cock was filling him completely, and he was on the verge of pleasure. He experimentally moved his hips a little, and the ensuing slick friction made him tingle. His cock grew hard, filling him with sweet relief.

  He let go of Josh's mouth. “I’m good now.”

  Josh stared at him as if he was speaking another language. Noah moved his hips again to underscore his point. “You feel good. Now fuck me, and make me come.”

  It was like a switch flipped inside Josh's brain. Or body. Or both. He raised himself up and started moving his hips, sliding in and out of Noah in a delicious rhythm. The pain was truly gone and instead, there was a wonderful full feeling and a connection to Josh he had never experienced before. Josh rotated his hips slightly, and Noah gasped as a burst of pleasure flooded through his insides.

  “Fuck! What was that?”

  Josh smiled for the first time since he’d started fucking Noah. “That’s what’s gonna make you come.”

  He gyrated again, and Noah let out a groan. “Ohhh!”

  Josh increased the tempo, and Noah matched his strokes beat for beat, all thoughts of pain gone. Tingles danced on his skin, teasing him with tendrils of pleasure in his belly, his balls, and his dick. Hot damn, this was unlike anything he’d ever felt before.

  Then Josh changed his position slightly, and his next thrust hit that magic spot Noah only knew from fucking Josh. He lost the ability to form words and a shivery growl rolled from his lips. Instant ecstasy blazed in his ass.

  Josh pulled back farther, then slammed home all the way. Noah dropped his arms from Josh's back, no longer able to hold on. The air exploded from his lungs as Josh surged in again. Noah’s balls swelled, the pressure almost painful.

  “I’ll give you four more strokes,” Josh said, and Noah laughed at the payback. When Josh rammed into him, his laugh evolved into an embarrassingly long moan. The pleasure inside him surged, radiating everywhere until his skin itched with the need to come.

  “Two,” Josh said between clenched teeth, burying himself to the hilt again.

  “Harder,” Noah begged, never thinking he’d be in this position. God, he’d do anything to come, his nuts desperately clinching to unleash.

  “Three.”

  “Dammit, fuck me harder, Joshua.”

  Josh lost control. Instead of the fourth deep thrust, he erupted into a frantic fucking, pounding Noah so hard his whole body moved. Noah’s balls detonated with fury, and his cock blew up with an almost painful eruption, spewing all over Josh's torso. Josh didn’t even notice, but kept hammering until his entire body tensed, then spasmed as his hot cum filled Noah’s ass.

  “Ohhhh!” Josh grunted, throwing his head back in complete rapture. A massive shudder tore through his body, and he collapsed on top of Noah.

  Noah’s arms came around Josh, and he hugged him tight. Their panting breaths mingled, and Josh's heart hammered in his chest, reverberating in Noah’s ears.

  For the first time ever after a fuck, Josh was quiet. After a minute or so, Noah became concerned.

  “Are you okay?” he asked the question that was usually on Josh's lips. He kept stroking Josh's back, his head, his lean body slick with sweat.

  “I went total caveman on you,” Josh said, his voice barely audible.

  Noah smiled, remembering their conversation from two nights before. “Yeah, you did. And I’m not complaining.”

  “I hurt you.”

  “For a bit, but it got good after that.”

  Josh pulled out with a soft sigh that touched Noah deep. The head of Josh's cock plopped out with a delicious dirty sound. Noah’s body finally returned to somewhat resembling normal, which was ridiculous considering he had jizz dripping out of his ass.

  Indy.

  He’d completely forgotten about him. He turned his head and found Indy watching the two of them with tears streaming down his face.

  “How are you doing over there?” Noah asked, not weirded out at all that Indy had seen all that. If anything, it made him even more proud of what he had done.

  “The two of you … You’re amazing. Seriously, I’ve never seen anything like it.”

  Josh turned his head as well. “What, you mean the spectacularly clumsy sex we just had?”

  “What do you mean, clumsy?” Noah said with feigned indignation. “You fucked me good, lover boy.”

  Josh rose up on his arms to look at Noah. “I did, didn’t I? I mean, it took a while for me to get there, but I finished well.”

  “I’ll say. Your cum is still dripping out of my ass.”

  Josh broke out in giggles and Noah chuckled. Josh swiped a finger down his chest and held it before Noah’s face, all sticky and juicy. “You came all over me. Seriously, we’re a mess.”

  “I didn’t come,” Noah corrected him. “I erupted. Pretty sure I felt it in my pinkie toes.”

  “Same here. I must have blown my wad halfway up your intestines. Fuck, you are so tight, Noah.”

  “You’re telling me. I took your whole cock in my
ass, man. I’m telling you, I’ve gained a whole new level of respect for you after this. I don’t know how you swallow my cock in your ass so easily, as it’s way thicker.”

  Josh took Noah’s hand, laced his fingers through Noah’s and kissed it. “I love being fucked by you. Your cock is perfect for me. When you’re inside me all the way, I feel so full, it’s unbelievable. And that spot I found at the end? You hit that every single time because of the curve of your dick. It’s why I come when you fuck me without even touching myself. And by the way, you came first.”

  Noah smiled at the absurdity of the conversation. Who would have thought a year ago he’d be naked on a couch with his best friend, covered in cum and sweat, with jizz dripping out of his hole, talking about cocks and asses and getting fucked—and all that with another guy watching them. And yet it felt wonderfully normal and somehow comforted him. While bottoming wasn’t an experience he wanted to repeat any time soon—if only because his ass needed some recovery time from that pounding he took—he felt damn good for having shared this experience with Josh.

  He turned back to Indy, whose tears hadn’t stopped falling.

  “He’s still crying,” Josh remarked. “Should we do something?”

  “What, you want to invite him to join our naked and covered with cum cuddle party?”

  Indy laughed through his tears, but the tears kept coming.

  “Seriously, Noah, we need to do something,” Josh said.

  “If you’re proposing I pity-fuck him, you’re seriously overestimating my sexual prowess, because I’m pretty sure I won’t be able to get it up for at least ten hours,” Noah remarked dryly. Josh pinched his butt cheek, hard.

  “Ow! What was that for? It’s rather sensitive there, in case you forgot.”

  “Do something, Noah. He’s still crying.”

  “Bring him here, then. I couldn’t move if you paid me to. Make sure to ask if he wants to put boxers on or something.”

  “I can hear you, you know,” Indy hiccupped, wiping the tears from his face with a gesture that made Noah’s stomach flutter. What was it with this man that hit him so deep?