Hard to Resist (Sexy Nerd Boys, #3)

by K. M. Neuhold

  I grind against her palm with a desperate groan. I’ve tried to stay away from her. But, I think I’ve exhausted all of my willpower. I grasp the thin fabric of her bikini bottoms and yank them down her legs forcefully. I gaze down at her and actually have to let myself catch my breath at the site of her. I’d seen all of the parts of her naked, but this is only the second time she’s actually been completely bare underneath me. And, I can’t say I don’t like the sight of it. I’d like to take a picture of it to jerk off to for the rest of time.

  “Ravi, I need you,” She pleads, before reaching down to stroke my balls. Holy good christ almighty. Before I can talk myself out of it I sink into her tight, hot sex.

  “Hadley, oh, fuck,” I mutter as I thrust into the hilt, watching her face as I bury myself deeply.

  My hand travels up her smooth thigh, guiding it around my waist so that I can get deeper. She gasps and meets my thrusts. She grasps me firmly in her sleek sex, dragging animalistic sounds from deep in my chest. I pull out slowly and then thrust hard into her as she makes desperate sounds in her throat. Her hands rest on my chest, her fingers grazing my nipples, sending pleasure rippling straight to my balls. I grind my cock into her.

  So. Fucking. Tight.

  “Just like that Ravi, you fucking own me,” She gasps, tugging my bottom lip between her teeth. Her scent surrounds me and my balls tighten, my cock stiffening even more inside of her.

  My hands come to rest right on the scar in the middle of her chest and she tenses. She tries to push my hand away and I frown at her and still my thrusting.

  “You don’t want me to touch you?”

  Hadley whimpers and tilts her hips up, trying to get me to keep going. When I continue to stare at her she grunts in frustration.

  “Touch me...just not my scar,” she pants out.

  “I like touching your scar. It assures me that it’s really you and not just my imagination,” I explain, putting my hand back on her scar before pulling almost all of the way out and then thrusting into her forcefully.

  “Fine. Whatever. Don’t stop,” She gasps.

  I let out low chuckle. I press my lips tenderly to the rough scar between her tits to ground myself in the fact that it’s Hadley beneath me. Beautiful, perfect Hadley.

  Her leg starts to shake around my waist and her inner walls clench around me, she sinks her teeth into my shoulder as she comes apart. My body explodes with pleasure and my brain short circuits. Nothing exists except Hadley Parker, sex goddess.

  Once my breathing returns to normal I wedge onto the couch beside her and pull her against my chest.

  “Hadley, I...” I can’t even conjure the words to tell her how mind blowing that was. She suddenly tenses beside me.

  “Could you go get me a glass of water?” She asks quickly.

  I heave myself off of the couch and head towards the kitchen for the water. But, when I get back we’re going to have this out, I want to tell her that I can’t continue to resist her. I hear the click of the front door lock and I frown. I set the water down and head back to the living room. Hadley’s gone.

  Hadley

  I tiptoe at break neck speed down the steps and then knock quietly on Eve and Asher’s door. I bounce on my toes as I wait for an answer, silently willing them to hurry up so I don’t have to face Ravi. God, that was the most incredible sex of all time, seriously it should be in the Guinness book of World Records. And, I know that if I have to hear him say it was a mistake right now I will lose what’s left of my sanity. The door opens and Asher’s standing there in a pair of low slung jeans and no shirt. As much as I want to enjoy the view, and the fact that his nipples are pierced and that’s way sexier than I would’ve imagined, I glance behind me to make sure Ravi isn’t coming yet.

  “Can I come in?” I whisper desperately. Asher arches an eyebrow at me, taking in my disheveled dress and sex hair. With a grin and a shake of his head he steps aside to let me in.

  “Hadley?” Eve asks curiously, coming out of the living room in a tank top and a pair of boxer shorts.

  “I’m sorry, I’m totally cock blocking you guys right now,” I mutter apologetically, trying to back up rapidly. Asher grabs my arm gently and shakes his head.

  “You’re fine, I actually have work to do so maybe you can distract her for a little while for me,” Asher says, winking at Eve before turning to head to the kitchen table.

  I follow Eve to the kitchen and she puts on a pot of coffee.

  “So, are you going to tell me what’s wrong?” Eve prompts.

  What’s wrong? I just had earth shattering sex with my roommate/brother’s best friend. You know, the one guy who I can’t get over, and yet all he seems to want to do is treat me like a yo-yo.

  “Ravi,” Is all I manage to mutter pathetically.

  Eve gives me a knowing look.

  “We had sex,” I blurt.

  “Interesting,” Eve says, squinting her eyes and studying my expression.

  “Oh come on, it’s not like you didn’t know this was going to happen.”

  “The sex isn’t the interesting part, it’s your verbiage. I’m trying to figure out what it actually means.”

  “What the actual fuck are you saying?” I laugh.

  “Well, if you’d said that you and Ravi fucked or made love your underlying feelings would be easy to figure out. Sex is so neutral. I can’t get a read on the situation.”

  Eve is planning to be a sex therapist. I guess I should have expected a strange line of questioning on the matter.

  “I don’t know what the hell you want me to say,” I gripe with a frown.

  “Oh, was it not good?” She asks awkwardly.

  I let out a humorless laugh.

  “No, it was the best sex of all time. He was so...in control.”

  “And, you liked that?”

  “More than I thought I would. Last summer every time we had sex I initiated it. I always got the feeling that if Chase had found out Ravi would’ve pulled some shit like ‘Hadley seduced me, I tried to resist’. But, the way he touched me, it was like he was claiming me. He can’t deny what just happened.”

  A knock at the door makes my stomach knot.

  “Oh god, that’s probably Ravi. Tell him I’m not here?” I plead.

  Eve looks between me and the door with indecision.

  “I just can’t face him yet. I’m not ready for the rejection.”

  “Okay, fine,” Eve agrees.

  Asher shakes his head but doesn’t offer his opinion as I go to hide out in their extra bedroom, keeping the door cracked so I can hear the conversation.

  “Hi Ravi, what’s up?” Eve asks cheerfully once she opens the door.

  “Sorry to bug you, but I’m looking for L-...Hadley.” My heart jumps a little. He actually called me Hadley instead of L.P., out loud, not during sexcapades.

  “No, I haven’t seen her,” Eve lies.

  “Are you sure? I really need to talk to her.” Ravi’s tone is desperate and I almost cave.

  “Is there a message you want me to give her if I do see her?” Eve offers gently.

  “Can you just tell her that I said ‘it wasn’t a mistake’.”

  “Sure, I’ll tell her.”

  “Thanks. Have a good night,” He says in a defeated tone.

  As soon as he’s gone I emerge from the bedroom, feeling just as miserable and now confused as well.

  “Did you hear that? He said that it wasn’t a mistake.” Eve’s face lights up with optimism. I shake my head sadly.

  “I heard him. But, it doesn’t change anything. His words changed but the reality didn’t. He told me once that he wished he could make me his wife...if things were different. I can’t describe how much those words tore my heart out.” My hands are shaking as I do my best to hold back tears.

  “Ouch,” Eve mutters.

  “Okay, I know it’s probably none of my business, but I guarantee that he is suffering just as much as you are. That is a broken man,” Asher interjects. />
  Eve and I both stare at him in surprise. I wasn’t aware he had an opinion on the Ravi-Hadley saga.

  “He’s stuck, torn between loyalty to his best friend and trying to fight the fact that he’s fallen in love with the one girl he’s not allowed to have.”

  “You think he’s in love with me?” I ask.

  “Maybe you should ask him that yourself,” Asher suggests.

  I suppose he’s right. I can’t hide out here forever. I need to get this over with one way or another.

  “Alright,” I acquiesce.

  “Good luck.” Eve gives me an encouraging smile as I steel myself to possibly have my heart ripped out...again.

  Ravi

  I’m sitting on the couch, staring into space, trying to figure out my life when the door to our apartment creeks open. Hadley steps in with a reluctant expression.

  “You’re back,” I say stupidly.

  In my defense I’m not entirely sure what to say at this moment. She nods and stands awkwardly, trying to decide if she should sit next to me on the couch or somewhere else. I pat the cushion invitingly.

  “Yeah, it’s hard to pull a disappearing act when you live with a person” She jokes weakly. “I just needed to clear my head for a little bit.”

  “Should we be adults and talk about it for once?” I ask with a wry smile.

  In the past I’ve always disappeared after sex and then pretended like nothing ever happened the next time we would see each other. She nods and finally sits down on the couch, folding her legs and facing me.

  “I don’t regret that we’ve had sex, ever. We have incredible sex and trying to pretend like I don’t want it is becoming nearly impossible for me,” She says.

  “To be honest, I’ve never regretted the sex, and I’m sorry I ever made it seem like I did. I want to regret the sex, but as you just said, it’s fucking incredible. I regret the circumstances and I’m not sure if they can be changed. Chase will never be okay with this. He told me when we were fifteen that if I ever laid a finger on you then his friendship with me is over. He’s my best friend, I don’t want to lose him. And, my parents are really pushing the idea of me marrying an Indian woman. And, with my mom sick and all I don’t want to cause her any stress.”

  “What if we stopped trying to fight this and just keep it a secret?” She suggests tentatively, waiting for me to reject the idea.

  I open my mouth to argue, that’s only a short term solution, we aren’t going to eventually get secretly married and secretly have kids. She puts a hand up to stop me.

  “Just for now. One of two things will happen, either we decide that it doesn’t work between us and we end things, eventually become friends again, and no one ever has to know or be upset. Or, things work out and by the time we tell them they can’t possibly be angry that we’re madly in love and basically planning a wedding.”

  I try to think of an argument against her assessment. But, I think I’ve used up just about all of the resistance I possessed.

  “You’d want to be a secret couple?” I ask.

  “Not forever, but until we figure out if we work or not. And, until your mom is back to full health. Don’t you want to be together?” Her question is so vulnerable.

  My heart thuds with hope and longing. All I’ve ever wanted is to be with Hadley.

  “You have no idea how badly I want to be with you.” I want it badly enough to risk my best friend and my parents.

  “Then let’s give it a try.”

  I pull her into my lap and press my lips to hers, my heart screaming out that Hadley is mine. For now, at least.

  My cock immediately starts to stir again and suddenly a realization slams me in the gut.

  “Uh, Hadley...I think I got a little carried away earlier.”

  “If you’re worried that you hurt me or were too rough don’t be, I liked it...a lot,” She purrs.

  “No, although I’m glad to hear that because I think I’m fresh out of self-control. What I meant was, I didn’t...use anything.”

  “Oh, it’s okay I’m on the pill,” She assures me.

  I grunt in response and pull her lips back against mine fiercely.

  Mine.

  Chapter 14

  Hadley

  I wake up sprawled across Ravi’s toned chest and I can’t keep the smile off my face. I inhale deeply and Ravi’s unique manly scent makes me ache to be filled by him again. I can’t believe that he actually agreed to try a relationship with me...albeit a secret relationship. But, I’ll take it for now. I run my fingers along his defined abs and down to his dark happy trail. His morning wood is mere inches away. A wicked thought enters my mind.

  I slide one leg over his hips and straddle him. He moans sleepily but doesn’t wake up. I swirl my hips, grinding against his impressive erection. An aching need makes me nearly breathless. reaching between us I hold his hard cock in place and slowly impale myself onto him. My head falls back and I let out a long moan.

  Ravi’s eyes snap open and his hands fly up to grip my ass.

  “Fuck, Hadley,” He groans in a gravelly voice. “Am I dreaming right now?”

  “No,” I assure him with a smile, slowly grinding my hips, reveling in the fullness between my legs.

  “Mmm, I’m not convinced,” Ravi teases, running his hands up and down the backs of my thighs and my ass but holding still and allowing me to have my way with him. With a wicked smile I lean forward and bite his nipple.

  “Ouch.” He lets out a deep chuckle.

  One hand moves under my chin and tilts my face towards his. My heart stutters as I take in the emotions swirling in his deep brown eyes. I start to thrust harder, needing to feel him as deep inside me. His jaw clenches with self-restraint. I reach up and trace his jaw muscles with one finger and lean down to press my lips to his.

  “Please,” He grinds out.

  “Ye-” Before I can get the word all the way out Ravi grabs my thighs firmly and flips me over so he’s on top. Hitching one of my legs around his waist he thrusts deeply and my toes curl. Each long, hard stroke causes a small explosion inside of me. He brings one hand between us and rubs his thumb against my clit. I immediately lose control, every muscle in my body spasming with intense pleasure. Ravi’s thrusts become erratic and moments later I feel his release deep inside of me, prolonging my own pleasure with each pulse.

  Ravi collapses beside me, both of us breathing like we just ran a marathon.

  “Remind me why we didn’t start dating years ago?” I ask between breaths.

  “Because I am a stupid, stupid man.”

  I pat his chest and grin.

  “Admitting it is the first step to recovery.”

  “Yeah, what’s the second step?” He grins over at me, pulling me against his chest and kissing down my neck. I sigh contentedly.

  “Spending the whole day in bed, attending to my every whim.”

  “Sold.”

  Ravi

  “If you steal another fry off my plate I’m going to stab you with my fork,” Hadley threatens playfully.

  I reach over and snag another fry, pulling my hand back quickly to avoid her fork. After several hours of marathon sex we finally dragged ourselves out of bed to go out for lunch. I smile across at Hadley, playfully holding her fork up in defense of her fries.

  “You’re mean,” I accuse with a laugh. My heart warms as I we banter playfully. Part of me was worried that things would get weird between us now that we’re fucking shamelessly.

  “No, I’m just hungry.”

  I lean across the table and give her a brief kiss on the lips.

  “Why so hungry? Have you been burning calories in some interesting way?”

  “Ridiculous amounts of sex with my hunky boyfriend.”

  “Lucky guy,” I say with a wink, reaching again to swipe a fry off her plate. She slaps my hand away with a glare.

  “I’m still not sharing my fries.”

  “Mean,” I mutter again.

  Our waitress stops by ou
r table to check if we need anything else, we both get drink refills, content to sit together at the dinner for a while enjoying each other’s company.

  Suddenly the color drains for Hadley’s face as she looks at something behind me. I furrow my brow and turn to see what she’s looking at.

  A group of guys about our age walk in, and the eyes of the tallest of the group land on Hadley with recognition. Fucking great.

  Hadley sinks down in her seat and gives me a desperate, pleading look as the man makes his way towards our table.

  “Hadley Parker,” He says, stopping at our table and looking between us.

  Why is it that every man who’s seen Hadley naked on this campus calls her by her full name like she’s a celebrity? I grit my teeth and clench my fists.

  “Um, Jake...hi.” Hadley blushes and looks between Jake and myself.

  “Hi, I’m Ravi, Hadley’s boyfriend.” I introduce myself, giving him a firmer handshake than necessary.

  Jake’s eyes go wide when I say my name and I wonder what the hell that’s about.

  “Well, I’d better get back to my friends,” He says, giving Hadley one last smile before leaving.

  I look to Hadley and silently await an explanation.

  “I hooked up with him last year. He’s the one guy that I kind of tried to get serious with...after a long weekend together he basically kicked me out and I never heard from him again.”

  I grit my teeth again. The thought of Hadley with another man’s hands all over her makes me want to vomit. But, it still pisses me off to hear that a man treated her with disrespect and made her feel used and cheap.

  “I’m going to go to the bathroom before we go,” She says, getting up and heading to the bathroom.

  No sooner is she gone than Jake returns to our table.

  “Hey, listen I just wanted to tell you I really liked Hadley. She’s a great girl. I think you should know I didn’t call her again after we hooked up because she...uh.... said your name during sex.”

  My eyes go wide. Jake gives me a small smile and then returns to his own table. I can’t decide if I’m horrified to have to hear about Hadley having sex with someone else, or pleased that she was obviously thinking about me.