Flowers From Berlin (25th Anniversary Edition)

by Noel Hynd

  Lerrick was two seats away from Hoover to the right and Wheeler was three empty spaces to the left, almost suggesting that Cochrane take a seat directly across from the Chief.

  "Come in! Sit down!" Hoover growled, drumming his fingers on the table, his round swollen face getting redder by the second. "Let's get on with it!"

  Cochrane noted that he was ten minutes early and the other three men were already there. Usually Hoover was the last to enter. The door was still open.

  Hoover glanced over his shoulder. "Where's Adam?" he asked. And suddenly an entire vista of disbelief overtook Cochrane.

  Adam Hay padded softly into the room and closed the door behind him. He looked at Cochrane, then approached a seat directly next to Hoover, with Lerrick on his other side. Cochrane had the notion of watching a small boy called into a meeting of adults, taking up a position between his parents.

  The chair squeaked as Adam Hay pulled it out and tucked himself into the table. Dick Wheeler made a comical sour face, and even Frank Lerrick turned his head away to mask a grin. Cochrane, confronted with the absurd, was not smiling. Seated, the small archivist was the same height as when he had been standing.

  Hoover was all business.

  "Listen to me with infinite care, Special Agent Cochrane. This is an unpleasant meeting, but you deserve your own say before any departmental action is taken."

  Meaning, it's already decided, Cochrane thought bitterly.

  "Mr. Hay," Hoover began, "has been a valuable member of this Bureau since 1931. I dare say, Special Agent Cochrane, our archives would not function without him. Yet, Mr. Hay has reported to Personnel"—Cochrane's eyes shifted to Lerrick, who seemed to be memorizing something invisible on the table— "that you've been engaged in bullying, abusive behavior toward him. What have you to say?"

  "Behavior of what sort?" Cochrane asked.

  Hoover stared at him, then, with evident displeasure, opened a file in front of him. He read a thorough account of Cochrane's efforts to pry Otto Mauer's name, town, and state from him. The account mentioned Arlington Park, the hours up in the archives, and visits from various unnamed other members of the Bureau, i.e., the Bluebirds.

  "What have you to say?" Hoover asked.

  "Substantially accurate," Cochrane answered.

  Hoover flipped the file shut. "Any explanation?"

  "Yes, indeed," said Cochrane, his anger rising. "I'm trying to catch a man who is intent on killing President Roosevelt. The info—"

  "Cochrane!" Hoover raged, hitting a fist on the desk and turning violet. "There are rules in this Bureau! Do you understand that? Rules have to be followed! This was explained to you once before!"

  "There is no way," Cochrane began defenselessly, "that I could humanly complete the job I've been assigned without talking to the one defector who—"

  "The German," agreed Hoover in a flash. "That's what makes your behavior all the less pardonable. You were distinctly forbidden to contact Mr. . . . Mr. . . ."

  "Mauer," Lerrick interjected, helping the Chief.

  "Mauer. But you attempted anyway. Did you find him?"

  "With Mr. Hay's help, yes. Yes, I did."

  "What was the nature of your discussions with Otto Mauer?" Hoover asked as Mr. Hay belched softly.

  Cochrane paused before answering. An entire kaleidoscope of distrust was before him now. He began to edit his own answers.

  "I wanted to know how he had reached America."

  "He reached safely. That was all you needed to know."

  Cochrane felt Lerrick's eyes and Wheeler's eyes boring in on him.

  "I needed to know about Abwehr structure."

  Wheeler summoned the nerve to interrupt. "Bill," he said sorrowfully, "your German isn't a reliable source. Don't you think we would have let you use him if we considered him reliable?"

  "He is reliable!" Cochrane shot back. "And why you don't want me to use him raises more questions than I can count."

  Wheeler's bushy eyebrows lowered severely. "Now, what in hell is that supposed to mean?" he asked.

  "It doesn't—"

  "And, uh, one other thing"—Frank Lerrick speaking suddenly—"these other 'Bluebirds' who helped you torment our friend here. Would you care to give us the names?"

  "No," Cochrane answered, "I wouldn't care to. Does Roosevelt know there's a man stalking him?"

  Silence all around. Cochrane turned squarely back toward Hoover. "You haven't even alerted the Secret Service, have you?"

  "Gentlemen," Hoover cut in sharply, "we're getting far afield. There are certain facts before us."

  Briefly, Hoover's tongue emerged from his mouth, moistened his pink lips, and then withdrew like the head of a turtle. "Special Agent Cochrane does not deny the abusive and bullying behavior imparted toward another employee of this Bureau. Similarly, Special Agent Cochrane admits to having disobeyed the orders of this particular office by contacting a proscribed source."

  Cochrane leaned back in his chair and waited for the hammer to fall. Lerrick and Wheeler fixed their gazes elsewhere. Cochrane looked Hoover in the eye, but his peripheral vision caught a gloating dwarf. Suddenly the preposterousness of it all weighed heavily.

  And meanwhile, Siegfried is out there, Cochrane cursed to himself. While we're discussing table manners, Siegfried is stalking Roosevelt.

  Hoover held Cochrane in a long stare, and finally Cochrane, as he returned the gaze, reached the end of his patience. "Should I stand for sentencing?" he asked.

  Hoover let the remark pass. "Agent Cochrane," he finally said, "your letter of resignation from this Bureau would be greatly appreciated. It should be dated the end of this month: effective November 30, 1939."

  Resentment, anger, perplexity: Cochrane clung to them all in ample amounts. But there was, of course, no court of appeal. Not here. And in a strange way, exhilaration finally swept over him. It was done. His job was finished here. Hoover had fired his final shot and Cochrane still lived and breathed and saw a future in front of him—peacefully in a bank somewhere in another city.

  "That's just splendid," Cochrane answered, surprising everyone in the room with the calmness of his reply. "Fact is, Mr. Hoover, sir, I've an excellent letter already written. All I need to do is change the date."

  "I'm placing Frank Lerrick in charge of this investigation," Hoover concluded softly. Then he turned to his dismissed employee: "Special Agent Cochrane," he said. "I am deeply disappointed in you."

  THIRTY- FOUR

  Laura was noticing the little things.

  Her husband had been home for two days and had again become the moody, uncommunicative Stephen that she did not like. He had hardly spoken to her. The least he could have done was tell her about his trip. To her, New York was an exciting, bustling exotic city. She wished he would at least excite her with stories of what he had seen, people he had met.

  But nothing. No talk. And heaven knew, he hadn't much been interested in touching her, either. What was she to think? She was a woman of twenty-five with the physical desires of a woman of twenty-five. Why couldn't they make love when he came home? Why wasn't he interested?

  Little things, she repeated. She sat in the living room of their home and stared out the window, through the rain, across the lawn to St. Paul's. Her husband had disappeared into the church two hours ago, citing the need to work on Sunday's sermon. Little things, like ignoring her as if she wasn't there.

  She caught herself thinking the unthinkable: maybe, long-range, this marriage wasn't destined to work. If Stephen was going to neglect her, well, she could see her reflection in the mirror. She was an attractive woman. She took care of her body and groomed herself well. If this man couldn't love her and appreciate her, maybe another man would.

  She dismissed the idea, but with effort.

  Then there were the big things. There were the tales told by Peter Whiteside, suggestions and accusations that grew upon Laura like a series of cancers. Combined with Stephen's behavior, Peter's insinuations nurtured suspicion with
in her. She sought to acquit him. But when she compared his time of return by train two days earlier from New York, she found that no New York train had stopped at Liberty Circle at that hour. There had only been the train that connected with Philadelphia, Baltimore, and Washington.

  “Wrong cities, wrong timetable, Stephen,” she thought.

  Wrong husband, wrong wife? She wondered.

  There were too many questions. Too much unexplained behavior. Laura rose from the window and went to the closet. She pulled on her raincoat. It had been raining hard that day, a cold wet downpour which did nothing to elevate her mood and much to trigger a residual dissatisfaction and homesickness. A wife could be expected to tolerate only so much. It was time to discuss things. Now.

  Laura took an umbrella from the rack in the foyer and she crossed the street to the church. Outside the red front door she shook out her umbrella and slipped out of her coat as she entered.

  The minister's chambers were in the rear, past the pews and the altar. When Laura looked for him there, he was gone. The light was off. His small desk looked untouched. She stared at it for several seconds trying to grasp the meaning.

  "Stephen?" she called out. "Stephen?"

  There was only the sound of empty rooms in return. It occurred to Laura that Stephen may have left the church through the rear exit, and, as variations of deceit swirled and unraveled before her, she contemplated why. She passed quietly to the doorway adjacent to his chambers. It was locked from the inside.

  Facts, Peter Whiteside: Stephen came into this building two hours ago. I have been staring at the front door from across the street. Either I have failed Basic Surveillance or he has not left. He is in this building.

  Where? What was he doing?

  There remained only the balcony, which was empty, and the front stairway to the belfry and steeple. When she looked at the latter, she found the doorway ajar. She ascended the narrow staircase that wound up to the spire.

  As she climbed she listened. She heard her own footsteps on the stairs and the creaks of the aged wood. She came to a first landing, where there was a small window. She stopped, listened, and looked out.

  She was higher than the nearest trees. She looked down at the rectory house where she lived and watched the rain sweep over it. She lifted her gaze and could see the road stretching into Liberty Circle. She could see part of the town.

  It was a fine view, probably even finer and more dramatic on a clear day or at the next level. Why, she wondered, had Stephen never called her attention to it?

  The staircase led to another landing just below the bells. She could smell the mustiness of the seldom-used stairs and could hear the rain driving against the wooden walls. It almost distracted her from the entire point of the search. Where was Steven?

  She took the final turn in the staircase and arrived in the bell-tower landing. It was a narrow, square chamber about eight by eight, ringed by panels and several storage closets. The door of one closet was slightly open and she stepped toward it. But as she made her first movement, she saw that several of the panels on the opposite wall had been hastily replaced. She stepped toward them instead.

  "Stephen?" she said aloud.

  Behind her a closet door exploded open. Laura screamed. She wasn't fast enough to turn to confront the figure that lunged toward her.

  It was a man, she was sure, and he hooked one arm around her with his hand covering her mouth. The other hand came up to her throat with a knife. She felt the side of the blade pressed hard—it was hurting her! —to the flesh by the jugular.

  He was rough. He forced her all the way forward to the small window in the tower. He pressed her face against the cold glass.

  There he held her and hurt her, until she recognized the hand, the wrists, and the feel of the strong body.

  Slowly his hand moved away. Slowly he relaxed the knife.

  "Stephen!"

  He allowed her to turn slowly to face him. His gray eyes were blazing with a furious cruelty that she had never seen in the man with whom she had shared part of her life.

  "You fool!" he said. "What are you doing here?"

  "I was looking for you!"

  "Why? Why do you have to prowl? Why can't you leave me alone?"

  Laura could feel the tears welling up in her eyes. And she was fully aware that he had not for an instant relaxed the grip on the knife.

  "You're my husband!" she cried. "I wanted to see you! I wanted to talk to you!"

  "You should have stayed home and waited for me!"

  She felt her courage rallying. "And wait for what?" she demanded. "Wait until you bloody well felt like coming home and talking to me? What are you doing up here?"

  "Nothing that you would understand."

  "No? And that?" She stared angrily at the knife, then back at her silent husband. And next there was a horrible moment as she looked into Stephen Fowler's eyes and no longer saw her husband. She saw something cold, mean, and evil that had always before been beneath the surface. But now, when she saw it, the look explained everything.

  She saw the man before her for what he was. As his eyes riveted upon her, there was only sheer, paralyzing terror, knowing that the hands that had been intimate hundreds of times with her had manufactured bombs and strangled a strange woman. She knew that Peter Whiteside had been right in everything he had last said about him. And she knew that she had moved close to her husband's secret. Something about this place. . .

  Then she realized. Bill Cochrane had told her. Radio transmissions. A spy. The steeple was the highest point for miles around. That's what had attracted the F.B.I. agent and that was its significance to her husband.

  It all came together to her in the space of three seconds, along with the fact that Stephen was intent on killing her. Now! She could tell from his eyes. She could tell by the way his fingers played nervously on the hilt of the knife.

  She could think of only one way to save her life.

  As his eyes remained locked with hers, she pressed her hand between his thighs. Gently, as she suppressed a shudder, she rubbed him.

  The savagery in his face softened with the surprise. Good, she thought, she had done the unexpected.

  "Don't you understand?" she asked with a conciliatory voice. "I don't know what you're doing, and I don't care. I just want my husband to make love to me. I've missed you. Can't you comprehend that?"

  She did her best to smile receptively. All the while she feared that he would stab her with one sudden upward thrust of the knife.

  "I love you, Stephen," she said. "I'd never do anything to betray you. Don't you know that?"

  The words were barely out of her mouth when she realized it was the first lie she had told him in more than two years of marriage.

  "Let's undress," she said. "Now. Right here. Please, Stephen?" She unbuttoned her blouse as she spoke.

  "I'm going to teach you who the master is," he said. "I'm going to punish you for following me."

  "Stephen?"

  He raised the knife, then threw it onto the floor. Point-first, it stuck. Then he looked at his wife, drew back his hand, and slapped her hard across the face, just as he had once struck Charlotte.

  Laura's face was on fire where he had hit her. She raised both her hands to where she had been struck and looked at her husband with wide horrified eyes. He grinned. He struck her again. She bolted to flee him, but he held her by the wrist.

  "You'll finish undressing," he told her, biting off the words. "You'll do exactly what I tell you, Laura. Nothing less! You belong to me, Laura. You said so yourself. Now, don't forget it!"

  She undressed as he watched her in silence. As her undergarments came off, Stephen seemed to be devouring her with his eyes, assessing her as a rapist might a naked schoolgirl. She was completely nude. She covered a small area on the floor with her clothing.

  When she turned and looked at Stephen again she realized that there had always been within him a need to brutalize a woman. He had never done it to her before, bu
t obviously he had been doing it somewhere else. She wondered what connection it had with the dead woman behind the church.

  Then as he pulled his own clothes off, he made her kneel. He held her by the hair and forced her to take him into her mouth. She had never done that to him before, much less been forced to. As an act of love, had he ever asked, she would have. Today, with a deceitful man whom she knew to be a spy and a killer, it filled her with revulsion.

  But then he made her lie back, and he was on top of her. She managed to keep her face away from his as he pushed inside her. He could not see her tears. He was rough and fast, like she imagined a man might he in a whorehouse. And when she felt him finish, she was relieved. Horrible as it was, at least it was over.

  He moved off her, breathing heavily. He lay near her and she sensed him to be more of a stranger than any man she had ever made love with. She was afraid to speak. She looked at the knife, which still stuck in the floor nearby. She realized that he could still kill her. She would have to see this terrifying hour through to the end.

  "I like you as a sexual animal," she lied, wondering all the time how she was managing to maintain her facade.

  "Get dressed and get out of here," he said. She realized that he had decided to keep her alive. She stood and reached for her clothing. Stephen grabbed her by the wrist. "And Laura," he snapped, holding her so tight that it hurt, "you never come up here again. I have things to do that a woman couldn't begin to understand. Do you hear me?"

  "Yes, Stephen," she said.

  "Now, go."

  She did.

  Laura returned to their bedroom in the rectory. She looked in the mirror at her ashen, tear-streaked face, felt something welling inside her, and threw up.

  She went downstairs. She found a bottle of Scotch, took a drink, and after several minutes it seemed to calm her. She would have to maintain the act until the right opportunity came along, she told herself. No, she could barely tolerate thinking about or looking at this man again, much less have him violate her. But she did know where she could find friends. She only needed the right moment.